90. “I OVERDID MYSELF.”

Judging from my own experience, a fair amount of knowledge at the

commencement of pregnancy would do a lot of good. One may have a good

mother who would be willing to give needed information, but to people

like myself your mother is the last person you would talk to about

yourself or your state. Although mother nursed me with my first child,

I never said one word to her about it coming, except the bare date I

expected. I felt I couldn’t, and outside people only tell you what

garments you need, and just the barest information. I have learned the

most useful things since my children have grown up. The youngest is

nine. The idea that you impress the child all through the time with

your own habits and ways, or that its health is to a great extent

hindered or helped by your own well-being, was quite unknown to me.

At the time I fell with my second child we were in very bad

circumstances, and feeding my first with a bottle, I stinted myself

all I could to give him plenty; and having moved from one house to

another two months before the second one was born, I overdid myself,

with the result that I was bad for a week before he was born; and

then, the birth being such a long time about, a clot of blood got down

into my ankle, and before I got far over the confinement I was laid up

with a bad leg, which the doctor said was due to the child being so

long coming into the world. I should say I had a midwife this time,

as I could not afford the doctor’s fee. Had the midwife called in the

doctor, as she should have done, I might have been saved a lot, for my

back has never been right since. Whenever I get very tired or not very

well, I always feel it in the place where he seemed fixed. So I feel

that if young mothers knew more of the need for care of themselves, and

what should be done for them at the time of childbirth, much suffering

could be saved.

_Wages 18s. to 32s.; three children, one miscarriage._

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