47. “I THINK A LOT.”

Oh, for the time when the Maternity Scheme becomes law, and the Divorce

Reform. No one will welcome it more than I, for the sake of those who

have not got true companionship in life. I am afraid I cannot tell you

much about myself during pregnancy, as I have only had one child and no

miscarriage. Perhaps my husband and myself have taken a different view

from most people. You see, we both belong to a large family of brothers

and sisters, and both had a drunken father, who did not care for their

wife and offspring as much as the beast of the field.

My mother, whom I loved with all my heart, brought fifteen little lives

into the world; twelve are still living. I remember many a time she

has gone without food before and after confinement, and without fire

in winter. I have gone round the house many a time to try and find a

few rags to sell for food. I have seen my father strike my mother just

before confinement, and known her be up again at four days’ end to look

after us. You see, my mother had no education, and had been brought up

to obey her husband. But, poor dear, she left the cares of this world

some years ago now, at the age of fifty-nine. My father has always been

in business for himself, and used to have plenty of money, but spent

it on himself, and is still living at the age of seventy-four. When I

got married to the man I loved, and who loves me, he said I should

never suffer as our dear mothers had done, and that we would only have

what little lives we could make happy, and give a chance in life. My

son will be eighteen years of age in June, and is still at Technical

College, for which he won a scholarship. I get no grant-in-aid, and my

husband is only a working man, so I go out to work for two hours every

morning to help to keep him, as he is a good lad.

Please excuse my ramble, as I only wish I was better educated. I think

a lot, but cannot express it, as I had to leave school at the age of

ten years, to go into farm service. I have found the Guild a great help.

_Wages 26s.; one child._

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