CHAPTER XIX

Clementina went to bed a happier woman than she had been for many a day.

Distrusting the ministrations of the Chinese nurse, she had set up a

little bed for Sheila in her own room. The child lay there fast asleep,

the faithful Pinkie projecting from a folded arm in a staring and

uncomfortable attitude of vigilance. Clementina’s heart throbbed as she

bent over her. All that she had struggled for and had attained, mastery

of her art, fame and fortune, shrank to triviality in comparison with

this glorious gift of heaven. She remembered scornful words she had once

spoken to Tommy: “Woman has always her sex hanging round the neck of her

spirit.” She recognised the truth of the saying and thanked God for it.

She undressed very quietly and walked about the room in stocking-feet,

feeling a strange sacredness in the presence of the sleeping child.

She was happier, too, in that she had forgiven Quixtus; for the first

time since she had known him she felt a curiosity regarding him, a

desire for his friendship; scarcely formulated, arose a determination to

bring something vital into his life. As the notable housewife entering a

forlorn man’s neglected house longs to throw open windows, shake

carpets, sweep down cobwebs, abolish dingy curtains, and fill the place

with sunlight and chintz and other gaiety, so did Clementina long to

sweep and garnish Quixtus’s dusty heart. He had many human

possibilities. After all, there must be something sound in a man who had

treasured in his mind the memory of her picture. Sheila and herself,

between them, would transform him into a gaunt angel. She fell asleep

smiling at the thought.

Clementina did not suffer fools gladly. That was why, thinking Quixtus a

fool, she had not been able to abide him for so many years. And that was

why she could not abide the fat Chinese nurse, who showed herself to be

a mass of smiling incompetence. “The way she washes the child makes me

sick,” she declared. “If I see much more of her heathen idol’s grin,

I’ll go mad and bite her.” So the next day Clementina, with Quixtus as a

decorative adjunct, hunted up consular and other authorities and made

with them the necessary arrangements for shipping her off to Shanghai,

for which she secretly pined, by the next outward-bound steamer. When

they got to London she would provide the child with a proper Christian

nurse, who would bring her up in the fear of the Lord and in habits of

tidiness; and in the meanwhile she herself would assume the

responsibility of Sheila’s physical well-being.

“I’m not going to have a flighty young girl,” she remarked. “I could

tackle her, but you couldn’t.”

“Why should I attempt to tackle her?” asked Quixtus.

“You’ll be responsible for the child when she stays in Russell Square.”

“Russell Square?” he echoed.

“Yes. She will live partly with you and partly with me—three months

with each of us, alternately. Where did you expect the child to live?”

“Upon my soul,” said he, “I haven’t considered the matter.

Well—well——”

He walked about the vestibule, revolving this new and alarming

proposition. To have a little girl of five planted in his dismal,

decorous house—what in the world should he do with her? It would

revolutionise his habits. Clementina watched him out of a corner of her

eye.

“You didn’t suppose I was going to have all the worry, did you?”

“No, no,” he said hastily. “Of course not. I see I must share all

responsibilities with you. Only—won’t she find living with me rather

dull?”

“You can keep a lot of cats and dogs and rocking-horses, and give

children’s parties,” said Clementina.

Sheila, who had been apparently absorbed in the mysteries of the

Parisian toilet of a flaxen-haired doll which Clementina had bought for

her at an extravagant price, cheerfully lifted up her face.

“Auntie says that when I come to stay with you, I’m to be mistress of

the house.”

“Indeed?” said Quixtus.

“And I’m to be a real lady and sit at the end of the table and entertain

the guests.”

“I suppose that settles it?” he said, with a smile.

“Of course it does,” said Clementina, and she wondered whether his

masculine mind would ever be in a condition to grasp the extent of the

sacrifice she was making.

That day the remains of Will Hammersley were laid to rest in the little

Protestant cemetery. The consular chaplain read the service. Only the

two elders stood by the graveside, thinking the ordeal too harrowing for

the child. Clementina wept, for some of her wasted youth lay in the

coffin. But Quixtus stood with dry eyes and set features. Now he was

sane. Now he could view life calmly. He knew that his memory of the dead

would always be bitter. Reason could not sweeten it. It were better to

forget. Let the dead past bury its dead. The dead man’s child he would

take to his heart for her own helpless, sweet sake. Should she, in years

to come, turn round and repay him with treachery and ingratitude, it

would be but the way of all flesh. In the meanwhile he would be loyal to

his word.

After the service came to a close he stood for a few moments gazing into

the grave. Clementina edged close to him and pointed down to the coffin.

“He may have wronged you, but he trusted you,” she said in a low voice.

“That’s true,” said Quixtus. And as they drove back in silence, he

murmured once or twice to himself, half audibly:

“He wronged me, but he trusted me.”

That evening they started for Paris.

Undesirous of demonstrative welcome at half-past eight in the morning,

Clementina had not informed Tommy and Etta of the time of her arrival,

and Quixtus had not indulged in superfluous correspondence with Huckaby.

The odd trio now so closely related stood lonely at the exit of the

Lyons Station, while porters deposited their luggage in cabs. Each of

the elders felt a curious reluctance to part—even for a few hours, for

they had agreed to lunch together. Sheila shed a surprised tear. She had

adjusted her small mind to the entrance of her Uncle Ephraim into her

life. The sudden exit startled her. On his promising to see her very

soon, she put her arms prettily round his neck and kissed him. He drove

off feeling the flower-like pressure of the child’s lips to his, and it

was very sweet.

It helped him to take up the threads of Paris where he had left them, a

difficult task. Deep shame smote him. What could be henceforward his

relations with Huckaby whom, with crazy, malevolent intent, he had

promised to maintain in the path of clean living? With what self-respect

could he look into the eyes of Mrs. Fontaine, innocent and

irreproachable woman, whose friendship he had cultivated with such

dastardly design? She had placed herself so frankly, so unsuspectingly

in his hands. To him, now, it was as unimaginable to betray her trust as

to betray that of the child whose kiss lingered on his lips. If ever a

woman deserved compensation, full and plenteous, at the hands of man,

that was the woman. An insult unrealised is none the less an insult; and

he, Quixtus, had insulted a woman. If only to cleanse his own honour

from the stain, he must make compensation to this sweet lady. But how?

By faithful and loyal service.

When he solemnly reached this decision I think that more than one angel

wept and at the same time wanted to shake him.

And behind these two whom he would meet in Paris, loomed the forbidding

faces of Billiter and Vandermeer. He shivered as at contact with

something unclean. He had chosen these men as ministers of evil. He had

taken them into his crazy confidence. With their tongues in their

cheeks, these rogues had exploited him. He remembered loathsome

scenarios of evil dramas they had submitted. Thank Heaven for the

pedantic fastidiousness that had rejected them! Billiter, Vandermeer,

Huckaby—the only three of all men living who knew the miserable secret

of his recent life! In a rocky wilderness he could have raced with wild

gestures like the leper, shouting “Unclean! Unclean!” But Paris is not a

rocky wilderness, and the semi-extinct quadruped in the shafts of the

modern Paris fiacre conveys no idea of racing.

Yet while his soul cried this word of horror, the child’s kiss lingered

as a sign and a consecration.

The first thing to do was to set himself right with Huckaby.

Companionship with the man on the recent basis was impossible. He made

known his arrival, and an hour afterwards, having bathed and

breakfasted, he sat with Huckaby in the pleasant courtyard of the hotel.

Huckaby, neat and trim and clear-eyed, clad in well-fitting blue serge,

gave him the news of the party. Mrs. Fontaine had introduced him to some

charming French people whose hospitality he had ventured to accept. She

was well and full of plans for little festas for the remainder of their

stay in Paris. Lady Louisa had found a cavalier, an elderly French

marquis of deep gastronomic knowledge.

“Lady Louisa,” said he with a sigh of relief and a sly glance at

Quixtus, “is a charming lady, but not a highly intellectual companion.”

“Do you really crave highly intellectual companions, Huckaby?” asked

Quixtus.

Huckaby bit his lip.

“Do you remember our last conversation?” he said at last.

“I remember,” said Quixtus.

“I asked you for a chance. You promised. I was in earnest.”

“I wasn’t,” said Quixtus.

Huckaby started and gripped the arm of his chair. He was about to

protest when Quixtus checked him.

“I want you to know,” said he, “that great changes have taken place

since then. I left Paris in ill-health, I return sound. I should like

you to grasp the deep significance underlying those few words. I will

repeat them.”

He did so. Huckaby looked hard at his patron, who stood the scrutiny

with a grave smile.

“I think I understand,” he replied slowly. “Then Billiter and

Vandermeer?”

“Billiter and Vandermeer I put out of my life for ever; but I shall see

they are kept from want.”

“They can’t be kept from wanting more than you give them,” said Huckaby,

whose brain worked swiftly and foresaw blackmail. “You must impose

conditions.”

“I never thought of that,” said Quixtus.

“Set a thief to catch a thief,” said the other bitterly; “I’m telling

you for your own good.”

“If they attempt to write to me or see me, their allowances will cease.”

He covered his eyes with his hand, as though to shut out their hateful

faces. There was a short silence. Huckaby’s lips grew dry. He moistened

them with his tongue.

“And what about me?” he asked at last.

Quixtus drew away his hand with a despairing gesture, but made no reply.

“I suppose you’re right in classing me with the others,” said Huckaby.

“Heaven knows I oughtn’t to judge them. I was in with them all the

time”—Quixtus winced—“but I can’t go back to them.”

“My treating you just the same as them won’t necessitate your going back

to them.”

Huckaby bent forward, quivering, in his chair. “As there’s a God in

Heaven, Quixtus, I wouldn’t accept a penny from you on those terms.”

“And why not?”

“Because I don’t want your money. I want to be put in a position to earn

some honourably for myself. I want your help as a man, your sympathy as

a human being. I want you to help me to live a clean, straight life. I

kept the promise, the important promise I made you, ever since we

started. You can’t say I haven’t. And since you left I’ve not touched a

drop of alcohol—and, if you promise to help me, I swear to God I never

will as long as I live. What can I do, man,” he cried, throwing out his

arms, “to prove to you that I’m in deadly earnest?”

Quixtus lay back in his chair reflecting, his finger-tips joined

together. Presently a smile, half humorous, half kindly, lit up his

features—a smile such as Huckaby had not seen since before the days of

the hostless dinner of disaster, and it was manifest to Huckaby that

some at least of the Quixtus of old had come back to earth.

“In the last day or two,” said Quixtus, “I have formed a staunch

friendship with one who was a crabbed and inveterate enemy. It is Miss

Clementina Wing, the painter, whom you saw, in somewhat painful

circumstances, the other day at the tea-room. I will give you an

opportunity—I hope many—of meeting her again. I don’t want to hurt

your feelings, my dear Huckaby—but so many strange things have happened

of late, that I, for the present, mistrust my own judgment. I hope you

understand.”

“Not quite. You don’t mean to tell——”

Quixtus flushed and drew himself up.

“After twenty years, do you know me so little as that?”

“I beg your pardon,” said the other humbly.

Again Quixtus smiled, at a reminiscent phrase of Clementina’s.

“At any rate, my dear fellow,” said he, “even if she doesn’t approve of

you, she will do you a thundering lot of good.”

At the smile Huckaby took heart of grace; but at the same time the

memory of Clementina, storming over the tea-table, for all the world

like a French revolutionary general, filled his soul with wholesome

dismay. Well, there was no help for it; he must take his chance; so he

filled a philosophic pipe.

A little later Quixtus met the spotless flower of womanhood whom he had

so grievously insulted. She greeted him with both hands outstretched.

Without him Paris had been a desert. Why had he not sent her the

smallest, tiniest line of news? Ah! she understood. It had been a

sojourn of pain. Never mind. Paris, she hoped, would prove to be an

anodyne. Only if she would administer it in the right doses; said

Quixtus gallantly. Dressed with exquisite demureness, she found favour

in his sight. He realised with a throb of thanksgiving that henceforward

he could meet her on equal terms—as an honourable gentleman—no

grotesque devilry haunting the back of his mind and clouding the

serenity of their intercourse.

“Tell me what you have been doing with yourself,” she said, drawing him

to a seat. The little air of intimacy and ownership so delicately

assumed, captivated the remorseful man. He had not realised the charm

that awaited him in Paris.

He touched lightly on Marseilles happenings, spoke of his guardianship,

of Sheila, of her clinging, feminine ways, drew a smiling picture of his

terror when Clementina had first left him alone with the child.

Mrs. Fontaine laughed sympathetically at the tale, and then, with a

touch of tenderness in her voice that perhaps was not deliberate, said:

“In spite of the worries, you have benefited by the change. You have

come back a different man.”

“In what way?”

“I can’t define it.”

“Try.”

A quick glance met earnest questioning in his eyes. She looked down and

daintily plucked at the sunshade across her lap.

“I should say you had come back more human.”

Quixtus’s eyelids flickered. Clementina had used the same word. Was

there then an obvious transformation from Quixtus _furens_ to Quixtus

sane?

He remembered the child’s kiss. “Perhaps it’s my new responsibilities,”

he said with a smile.

“I should so much like to see her. I wonder if I ever shall,” said Mrs.

Fontaine.

“She is coming here to lunch with Miss Wing,” replied Quixtus, eager now

that his good friends should know and appreciate each other. “Won’t Lady

Louisa and yourself join us?”

“Delighted,” said Mrs. Fontaine. “Miss Clementina Wing is quite a

character. I should like to see more of her.”

Quixtus, his mind full of sweet atonement, did not detect any trace of

acidity in her words.

On the stroke of one, the time appointed for luncheon, Clementina and

Sheila appeared at the end of the long lounge, Tommy and Etta straggling

in their wake. Quixtus rose from the table where his three friends were

seated, and advanced to meet them. Sheila ran forward and he took her in

his arms and kissed her.

“You didn’t ask these children to lunch, but I brought ’em.”

“They’re very welcome,” said Quixtus, smiling.

Tommy, his fair face aflame with joy, wrung his hand. “I told you I

would look you up in the Hôtel Continental. By Jove! I am glad to see

you. I’ve been an awful ass, you know. Of course I thought——”

“Hush! Hush!” said Quixtus. “My dear Miss Concannon, I am delighted to

see you.”

“She goes by the name of Etta,” said Tommy, proudly.

Clementina jerked her thumb towards them:

“Engaged. Young idiots!”

“My dear Miss Etta,” said Quixtus, taking the hand of the furiously

blushing girl—“My friend, Tommy, is an uncommonly lucky fellow.” He

nodded at Sheila, who hung on to his finger-tips. “Have you made friends

with this young lady?”

“She’s a darling!” cried Etta.

“Clementina,” said Tommy, “you’re a wretch. You shouldn’t have given us

away.”

“You gave yourselves away, you silly geese. People have been grinning at

you all the time you were walking here.” Then her glance fell upon the

expectant trio a little way off. “Oh Lord!” she said, “those people

again!”

“They’re my very good friends,” said Quixtus, “and I want you to meet

them again in normal circumstances. I want you to like them.”

He looked at her in mild appeal. Clementina’s lips twisted into a wry

smile.

“All right,” she said. “Don’t worry. I’ll be civil.”

So it came to pass that the two women again faced each other; Mrs.

Fontaine all daintiness and fragrance in her simple but exquisitely cut

fawn costume, the chaste contours of her face set off by an equally

simple ten-guinea black hat with an ostrich feather; Clementina, rugged,

powerful, untidy in her ill-fitting mustardy brown stuff skirt and

jacket, and heavy, businesslike shoes; and again between the two pairs

of eyes was the flicker of rapiers. And as soon as they were disengaged

and Clementina turned to Lady Louisa, she felt the other’s swift glance

travel from the soles of her feet to the rickety old rose in her hat.

There are moments when sex gives a woman eyes in the back of her head.

She turned round quickly and surprised the most elusive ghost of a smile

imaginable. For the first time in her life Clementina felt herself at a

disadvantage. She winced; then mentally, so as to speak, snapped her

fingers. What had she to do with the woman, or the woman with her?

All the presentations having been made, Quixtus led the way to the

restaurant of the hotel.

“Clementina,” said he, “may I ask you to concede the place of honour for

this occasion to my unexpected but most charming and most welcome

guest?”

He indicated Etta still blushing into whose ear Tommy whispered that his

uncle always spoke like a penny book with the covers off.

“My dear man,” said Clementina, “stick me anywhere, so long as it’s next

the baby and I can see that nobody feeds her on anchovies and lobster

salad.”

She understood perfectly. The second seat of honour was Mrs. Fontaine’s.

She confounded Mrs. Fontaine. But what was Mrs. Fontaine to her or she

to Mrs. Fontaine?

They took their places at the round table laid for eight. On Quixtus’s

right, Etta; on his left, Mrs. Fontaine; then Sheila, somewhat awed at

the grown-up luncheon party and squeezing Pinkie very tight so as to

give her courage; then Clementina with Huckaby as left-hand neighbour;

then Lady Louisa, and Tommy next to Etta.

Clementina kept her word and behaved with great civility. Tommy politely

addressed Lady Louisa to the immense relief of Huckaby, who thus

temporarily freed from his Martha, plunged into eager conversation with

Clementina about her picture in the Salon, which had attracted

considerable attention. He did not tell her that, in order to refresh

his memory of the masterpiece, he had revisited the Grand Palais that

morning. He praised the technique. There was in it that hint of

Velasquez which so many portrait-painters tried for and so few got. This

pleased Clementina. Velasquez was the god of her art. One bright space

in her dreary youth was her life with Velasquez in Madrid.

“I too once tried to know something about him,” said Huckaby. “I wrote a

monograph—a wretched compilation only—in a series of Lives of Great

Painters for a firm of publishers.”

Hack work or not, the authorship of a Life of Velasquez was enough to

prejudice her in Huckaby’s favour. She learned, too, that he was a

sometime Fellow of Corpus Christi College, Cambridge, and a university

contemporary of Quixtus. Huckaby, finding her not the rough-tongued

virago from whom Quixtus had always shrunk, and of whom, at their one

meeting in the tea-room, he, himself, had not received the suavest

impression, but a frank, intelligent woman, gradually forgot his anxiety

to please and talked naturally as became a man of his scholarship. The

result was that Clementina thought him a pleasant and sensible fellow,

an opinion which she expressed later in the day to Quixtus.

With regard to Mrs. Fontaine, her promise of ladylike behaviour was

harder to keep. All through the meal her dislike grew stronger. That

Quixtus should bend towards Etta, in his courtly fashion, and pay her

little gallant attentions, was but natural; indeed it was charming

courtesy towards Tommy’s betrothed; but that he should do the same to

Mrs. Fontaine and add to it a subtle shade of intimacy, was

exasperating. In the lady’s attitude, too, towards Quixtus, Clementina

perceived an air of proprietorship, a triumphant consciousness of her

powers of fascination. When Quixtus addressed a remark across the table

to Clementina, Mrs. Fontaine adroitly drew his attention to herself. Her

manner gave Clementina to understand that, although a frump of a

portrait painter might be an important person in a studio, yet in the

big world outside, the attractive woman had victorious pre-eminence. Now

Clementina was a woman, and one whose nature had lately gone through

unusual convulsions. She found it difficult to be polite to Mrs.

Fontaine. Only once was there a tiny eruption of the volcano.

Sheila’s seat at the table being too low for her small body, Clementina

demanded a cushion from the maître d’hôtel. When, after some delay, a

waiter brought it, she was engaged in talk with Huckaby. She turned in

time to see Mrs. Fontaine about to lift Sheila from her seat. With a

sudden, rough movement she all but snatched the child out of the other’s

arms, and herself saw to Sheila’s sedentary comfort.

She didn’t care what Quixtus or any one else thought of her. She was not

going to have this alien woman touch her child. The hussy flirtation

with Quixtus she could not prevent. But no woman born of woman should

come between her and the beloved child of her adoption.

The incident passed almost unnoticed. The meal ended pleasantly. With

the exception of the two women in their mutual attitude, everybody was

surprisedly delighted with everybody else. Etta thought Quixtus the very

dearest thing, next to Admiral Concannon, that had ever a bald spot on

the top of his head. Clementina, in a fit of graciousness, gave Huckaby

the precious freedom of her studio. He could come and look at her

pictures whenever he liked. Sheila, made much of, went away duly

impressed with her new friends. Quixtus rubbed his hands at the success

of his party. The apparently irreconcilable were reconciled,

difficulties were vanishing rapidly, his path stretched out before him

in rosy smoothness.

But Tommy’s quick eyes had noticed the snatching of Sheila.

“Etta,” said he, “I’ve known Clementina intimately all these years, and

I find I know nothing at all about her.”

“What do you mean?” asked the girl.

“For the first time in my life,” said he, “I’ve just discovered that the

dear old thing is as jealous as a cat.”

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