CHAPTER IV

Colin used his good offices with his father to such effect that he

succeeded in procuring for Salvatore a further substantial cheque, in

addition to that which he had carried off with the two bottles of wine

that afternoon. His uncle apparently thought better of his reckless

generosity in sending the letters of which Colin was desirous quite

unconditionally, but the receipt of the second cheque was sufficient,

and the morning’s post two days later brought them.

They were written in ill-spelled English, and contained precisely what

his uncle had told him. The first, dated March 1, gave the information

that she had been married that morning to Philip Lord Stanier; the

second, dated March 17, stated that a week ago she had given birth to

twins. They were quite brief, conveyed no other news, and had evidently

been preserved with care, for the purple ink in which they were written

was quite unfaded. But apart from the fact now definitely known to Colin

that his father had legalised his life with Rosina but ten days before

he himself and Raymond were born, they did not help in any way towards

the attainment of the double object which now was putting out firm,

fibrous roots in his mind as the ideal project, namely to prove by some

means yet utterly unconjecturable the illegitimacy of Raymond and

himself, and, by marrying Violet, who in that case would succeed to the

title and the estates, to become master of Stanier. Indeed these letters

were but a proof the more of what was no doubt sufficiently attested in

the register of the British Consulate, namely, that the marriage had

taken place previously to his own birth.

It seemed a hopeless business. Even if, by some rare and lucky

mischance, there was any irregularity in the record at the Consulate,

these letters, so long as they were in existence, constituted, if not a

proof, at any rate a strong presumption in favour of the marriage having

taken place on the first of the month, and it might be better to destroy

them out of hand so that such testimony as they afforded could not by

any possibility be produced. And yet he hesitated; somehow, in his

subconscious mind, perhaps, there was a stir and a ferment which bubbled

with a suggestion that had not yet reached his consciousness. Might not

something conceivably be done with them?... It was maddening that just

ten days out of all those uneventful hundreds of days which had elapsed

since, should suffice to wreck any project that he might make.

And then a bubble of that ferment broke into his conscious mind. There

was the letter, announcing the marriage which had taken place that day

dated March 1. There was the letter dated March 17 announcing the birth

of himself and Raymond a week previously. What if by the insertion of a

single numeral in front of the “1” of the first date, he converted it

into March 31st? As far as these two letters went, they would in that

case show precisely what he desired.

Psychologically, too, there would be a reasonable interpretation. In his

father, it would be argued, there had sprung up after the birth of his

sons, a tenderness and an affection for the mother of them, and he had

married her so that she, in the future, might bear him legitimate

offspring. Already she had borne two lusty and healthy sons; the union

was vigorous and fruitful.

Colin got up from the long chair in his bedroom where he had taken these

letters, and began softly pacing up and down the floor, lithe and alert,

and smiling. His father was coming down with him to bathe that morning,

but there was a quarter of an hour yet before he need join him

downstairs, and a great deal of thinking might be put into a quarter of

an hour if you could only concentrate.

He knew he was very far yet from the attainment of his ambition, for

that register at the Consulate, which somehow he must manage to see,

might contain insuperable obstacles to success. There might, for

instance, be other entries between March 1 of that year and March 31, so

that even if he could contrive to alter the first date into the second

it would throw those other entries, if such existed, out of their

chronological order; the marriage contracted on March 31 would precede

those that lay in between the two dates. In that case he might have to

tear out the page in which this entry occurred, and that might be quite

impossible of accomplishment.

It would not be wise, at any rate, to tamper with the date on this first

letter of his mother’s, till he knew how the ground lay at the

Consulate. But given that it proved possible to make some alteration in

the register or tear out a page, how conclusively would his case be

established, if, in support of that, there were produced those letters

of his mother?

Salvatore the troubadour.... Colin frowned and bit his lip at the

thought of Salvatore, who would be ready to swear that, when he parted

with those letters to Colin, the one that conveyed the news of his

sister’s marriage was dated March 1, not March 31. There were experts on

such subjects, too; prying, meticulous men who made a profession of

detecting little things like altered dates, and produced evidence about

a difference of hand or a difference in the analysis of two inks.

Yet if the register at the Consulate was found to endorse the evidence

of the letters? The same detective-minded folk would examine the record

at the Consulate, and might arrive at the damnable conclusion that it,

too, had been tampered with. And if the letters which bore signs of

being tampered with were in Colin’s possession, and he was known to have

visited the register at the Consulate, there would be an unwelcome

conclusion as to who had committed a forgery. Penal servitude was not

an agreeable substitute for Stanier.

Colin focused his clear brain, as if it had been a lens, on Salvatore.

He had been very decorative and melodramatic on the subject of his

sister’s honour, but there had been much of cheap strutting, of tinsel,

of footlights about that. And Salvatore, so Colin reasoned with a

melting and a smoothing out of his frown, was not all strutting and

swagger. There was a very real side to that impecunious uncle with his

undowered Vittoria. His concern for his sister’s honour was not surely

so dominant in him as his desire for coin. A suitable cheque would no

doubt induce him to recollect that the first of Rosina’s letters

announced the births of the twins, the second, that of March 31, her

marriage.

Salvatore, for love of Vittoria (to put it at that), would probably see

the sense of allowing his memory of the dates at the head of this letter

to be faulty. He would not be obliged to perjure himself in any way; all

he had got to do (given that a page had been torn out of the register at

the Consulate, or that the date of the marriage as recorded there was

March 31) was to swear that his sister’s letters had always been in his

possession until he had given them to his attractive nephew.... Yes,

Salvatore would surely not prove an insuperable obstacle; he would rate

the living, himself and Vittoria, higher than the dead.

For one moment, brief as that in which, according to the legend, the

ancestral Colin had considered whether he should close with that strange

offer made him in the sheep-fold, his descendant, his living

incarnation, hesitated when he thought of his father. His father had

always been devoted to him, and such affection as Colin was capable of

was his. But, after all, Philip would necessarily be dead when (and if)

the discovery was made that Rosina’s letter to her brother gave the date

of the marriage as March 31, and when, on search being made in the

register of the British Consulate, it was discovered that, owing to a

page being missing, there was no record of the marriage at all, or that

the date given there corresponded with that of Rosina’s letter.

Colin had no intention of producing this evidence in his father’s

lifetime; there might be counter-proofs which his father could produce.

If he could only make some dealing with the register and with the date

on the letter, he would let the whole matter sleep till his father was

dead. Then nothing could hurt him; you cannot hurt the dead. Even

if--Colin gave little thought to this--the spirit of the dead survived

in consciousness of the living, would not his father’s spirit gladly

make this posthumous sacrifice of his earthly honour and rejoice to see

Colin, his beloved, master of Stanier? So his hesitation was fleeting as

breath on a frosty morning, it appeared but mistily, and dispersed.

His father, out in the garden, was calling him, and with a cheerful

response he picked up his towels and went downstairs. For the present

there was but one necessary step to be taken; he had to get a day in

Naples before he left, and pay a visit to the British Consulate. It was

no use making any further plans beyond that, in his ignorance of what he

should find there. A visit to his uncle, and a night spent there, might

possibly serve as an excuse.

Philip had also heard from his brother-in-law this morning: the

communication was not so satisfactory to him, as Colin’s post had been.

“I’ve heard from Salvatore,” he said. “He’s a nauseating fellow, Colin.”

“Oh, no; only a comic, father,” said Colin gaily. “You take him too

heavily.”

“Read that,” said Philip.

The letter was certainly characteristic, and as Colin read his smile

broadened into a laugh. The writer spoke of the deep humiliation it was

for a Viagi to take gifts from any; it had not been so with them once,

for the family had been the dispensers of a royal bounty. Indeed, two

considerations only made it possible for him to do so, the first his

paternal devotion to his two sweet maids, Vittoria and Cecilia, the

second his fraternal devotion to his noble and generous relative. That

sentiment did honour to them both, and with happy tears of gratitude he

acknowledged the safe receipt of the cheque. He wrote with some

distraction, for his sweet maids kept interrupting him to know if he had

sent their most respectful love to their uncle, and had reminded their

dearest Colin that they looked for his advent with prodigious excitement

and pleasure. They demanded to know when that hour would dawn for them.

One bottle of the nectar of France would be preserved for that day to

drink the health of his friend, his relative, his noblest of

benefactors. He signed himself “Viagi,” as if the princely honours had

been restored.

“Oh, but priceless,” said Colin. “Haven’t you got a sense of humour,

father?”

“Not where Salvatore is concerned. As for your going over to dine and

sleep, I shan’t let you. Do you know we’ve only got a fortnight more

here, Colin?”

“I know; isn’t it awful?” said Colin with a sigh. “But about my going

over for a night. I wonder if I hadn’t better do that. It would be kind,

you know. He would like it.”

Philip passed his hand over the boy’s shoulders.

“Colin, are you growing wings?” he said.

“Yes, and they don’t go well with my cloven hoofs. In other words, I

should loathe spending the night there, and yet Uncle Salvatore would

like it. Then I don’t want to leave you.”

“Don’t then. Salvatore, thanks to you, has got double his usual

allowance. You’ve done enough for him.”

“Yes, but that didn’t cost me anything,” said Colin. “It only cost you.

I’ve still my debt to pay for the wonderful entertainment he gave me

here. Besides he is actually my uncle: I’m a Viagi. Princely line,

father!”

“Don’t marry one of the young princesses,” said his father.

Colin had one moment’s acute thought before he answered. It struck him

that his father could hardly have said that if in his very self he had

loved his mother. But what he had said just came from his very self....

He laughed.

“I’ll promise not to, however entrancing Vittoria is,” he said. “Ah, how

divine the sea looks this morning. I long to be in it.”

A sudden idea occurred to him.

“Do let us stop on another fortnight, father,” he said. “Can’t we?”

“I can’t,” said he. “I must get back by the end of the month. But--” he

paused a moment and Colin knew that he had caught his own idea, which

his suggestion was designed to prompt. “There’s no reason why you

shouldn’t have another fortnight here if you want,” he said.

Colin had fallen behind his father on the narrow path to the

bathing-place, and gave a huge grin of satisfaction at his own subtlety.

“Oh, I should love that!” he said, “though it won’t be half as much fun

as if you would stop too. And then I can go over to Naples with you when

you start homewards, and make my wings sprout by staying with Uncle

Salvatore.”

Nothing could have fallen out more conveniently, and Colin, as for the

next two hours he floated in the warm sea and basked on the hot pebbles,

had a very busy mind in his lazy, drifting body. His father’s absence

would certainly make his investigations easier. He could, for instance,

present Lord Yardley’s card at the Consulate with his own, and get leave

to inspect the register with a view to making a copy of it, in

accordance with his father’s wishes. Better yet, he could spend a few

days in Naples, make the acquaintance of the Consul in some casual

manner, and produce his request on the heels of an agreeable impression.

He would not, in any case, be limited to a single visit, or tied by the

necessity of acting at once. He would not have to fire his bribe, with

regard to the letters like a pistol in Salvatore’s face, he would be

careful and deliberate, not risking a false step owing to the need of

taking an immediate one. And all the time the suggestion of stopping on

here alone had not come from himself at all. His father had made it.

On the way up to the villa again after the morning’s bathe, they often

called at the post-office in the piazza for letters that had arrived by

the midday post. To-day these were handed under the grille to Colin,

and, sorting them out between his father and himself, he observed that

there were two for Lord Yardley in the handwritings of Raymond and

Violet. Possibly these were only the dutiful and trivial communications

of those at home, but possibly Violet’s week of postponement had been

shortened.

“Two from Stanier for you, father,” he said. “Violet and Raymond. The

rest for me.”

His father looked at the envelopes.

“Yes, Raymond’s spider scrawl is evident enough,” he said. “I never saw

such a handwriting except yours; his and yours I can never tell apart.

One wants leisure to decipher you and Raymond.”

Colin simmered with impatience to see his father put both of these

letters into his pocket, and simmered even more ebulliently when, having

put them on the table at lunch, his father appeared to forget completely

about them, and left them there when lunch was over. But Colin could

remind him of that, and presently the one from Violet lay open.

His father gave an exclamation of surprise, and then was absorbed in it.

It appeared to be short, for presently he had finished, and, still

without a word to Colin, opened the letter from Raymond. Here

exclamations of impatience at the ugly, illegible handwriting took the

place of surprise, and it was ten minutes more before he spoke to Colin.

He, meantime, had settled with himself, in case these letters contained

what he guessed for certain that they must contain, that since Violet’s

previous warning to him was private, he would let the news that his

father would presently tell him be a big emotional surprise to him. This

would entail dissimulation, but that was no difficulty. Colin knew

himself to be most convincing when his brain, not his sincerity,

dictated his behaviour.

“Have Violet and Raymond written to you to-day?” asked his father.

Colin yawned. He generally took a siesta after the long morning in the

sea and sun, and it was already past his usual hour. There was a

pleasant fiction that he retired to write letters.

“No,” he said, getting up. “Well, I’m off, father. Lots of letters....”

“Wait a moment. Violet and Raymond send me news which pleases me very

much. They’re engaged to be married.”

Colin stared, then laughed.

“I’d forgotten it was the first of April,” he said. “I thought we were

in June.”

“We are,” said his father. “But it’s no joke, Colin. I’m quite serious.”

Colin looked fixedly at his father for a moment.

“Ah!” he said, and getting up walked to the window. He stood there with

his back to the room twirling the blind-string, and seeming to

assimilate the news. Then, as if making a strong effort with himself, he

turned himself again, all sunshine.

“By Jove, Raymond will be happy!” he said. “How--how perfectly splendid!

He’s head over ears in love with her, has been for the last six months.

Lucky dog! He’s got everything now!”

He could play on his father like some skilled musician, making the chord

he wanted to sound with never a mistake. Those words “he’s got

everything now,” conveyed exactly the impression he intended, namely,

that Violet was, to him, an important part in Raymond’s possessions.

That was the right chord.

It sounded.

“But it was a great surprise to you, Colin,” he said.

“Yes, father,” said Colin.

“The surprise, then, was that Violet has accepted him,” said Lord

Yardley gently. He felt himself to be probing Colin’s mind ever so

tenderly, while Colin looked at him wide-eyed like a child who trusts

his surgeon.

“Yes, father,” he said again. “It surprised me very much.”

This was magnificent; he knew just what was passing in his father’s

mind; unstinted admiration of himself for having so warm-heartedly

welcomed the news of Raymond’s good fortune, and unstinted sympathy

because his father had guessed a reason why Violet’s engagement was a

shock to him. This was immensely to the good, for when, as he felt no

doubt would happen, Violet threw over Raymond for himself, Lord Yardley

would certainly remember with what magnanimous generosity he had

congratulated Raymond on his success. Whether anything came of his

project about the register or not, he was determined to marry Violet,

for so the thirst of his hatred of his brother would be assuaged. But

how long and how sweet would the drink be, if in the cup was mingled the

other also.

His father came across the room to where he still stood by the window,

and laid loving hands on his shoulders.

“Colin, old boy,” he said. “Are you fond of Violet--like that?”

Colin nodded without speech.

“I had no idea of it,” said Lord Yardley. “I often watched you and her

together, and I thought you were only as brother and sister. Upon my

word, Raymond seems to have got everything.”

Colin’s smile was inimitable. It seemed to fight its way to his

beautiful mouth.

“I’ve got you, father,” he said, out of sheer exuberance of wickedness.

The subject was renewed that night when they sat under the

vine-wreathed pergola where they had dined. The sun, bowling down the

steep cliff away westward, had just plunged into the sea, and darkness

came swiftly over the sky, without that long-drawn period of fading

English twilight in which day is slowly transformed into night. Here

night leaped from its lair in the East and with a gulp absorbed the

flames of sunset and swiftly the stars sprang from the hiding-places

where all day they had lain concealed, and burning large and low made a

diffused and penetrating greyness of illumination that dripped like

glowing rain from the whole heavens.

Dim and veiled though that luminance was, compared to the faintest of

the lights of day, it gave a curious macabre distinctness to everything,

and Colin’s face, in a pool of star-shine that filtered between the

trailing garlands of the vines, wore to his father some strange,

wraith-like aspect. So often had he sat here in such light as this with

Rosina opposite him, and all that he loved in Rosina seemed now to have

been reincarnated, spectre-like, in the boy he cared more for than he

cared for all the rest of the world. All that he had missed in the woman

who had satisfied and so soon sated his physical senses, flowered in

Colin with his quick intelligence, his sunny affection.... And his

father, for all his longing, could do nothing to help him in this

darkness which had overshadowed the dawn of love for him.

Instead of Colin, Raymond had got all, that son of his whom he had never

liked even, and had always, in some naturally-unnatural manner, been

jealous of, in that he would inherit all that his own fingers would one

day relax their hold on. Had it been Colin who would grasp the sceptre

of the Staniers, Philip would, as he had said, close his eyes for his

last sleep in unenvious content. And now Raymond had got the desire of

his heart as well, which, too, was the desire of Colin’s heart.

All day, since the arrival of those letters, Colin had been very quiet,

yet without any bitterness; grave and sweet, but only a shadow, a ghost

of himself for gaiety. Now his face, pale in the starlight, was

ghostlike also, and his father divined in it an uncomplaining suffering,

infinitely pathetic.

“Colin, I wish I could do anything for you,” he said, with unusual

emotion. “You are such a dear fellow, and you bear it all with such

wonderful patience. Wouldn’t it do you good now to curse Raymond a

little?”

Colin felt that he must not overdo the angelic rôle.

“Oh, I’ve been doing so,” he said, “but I think I shall stop. It’s no

use. It wouldn’t hurt Raymond, even if he knew about it, and it doesn’t

help me. And it’s certainly time I stopped sulking. Have I been very

sulky all evening, father? Apologies.”

“You’ve been a brick. But about stopping out here alone. Are you sure

you won’t mope and be miserable? Perhaps I might manage to stay out with

you an extra week.”

That would not do at all. Colin hastened to put that out of the

question.

“Oh, but you must do nothing of the kind,” he said quickly. “I know

you’ve got to get back. I shan’t mope at all. And I think one gets used

to things quicker alone. There’s only just one thing I wonder about.

Have we both been quite blind about Violet? Has she been in love with

Raymond without our knowing it? I, at any rate, had no idea of it. She’s

in love with him now, I suppose. Did her letter give you that

impression?”

Philip hesitated. Violet’s letter, short and unemotional, had not given

him any such impression. But so triumphantly successful had been Colin’s

assumption of the unembittered, though disappointed, lover, that he

paused, positively afraid that Colin would regret that Violet’s heart

was not so blissfully engaged as his brother’s. Before he answered Colin

spoke again:

“Ah, I see,” he said. “She’s in love with him, and you are afraid it

will hurt me to know it. Ripping of you.... After all, she’s lucky, too,

isn’t she? She’s got the fellow she loves, and she’ll be mistress of

Stanier. I think she adores Stanier almost as much as you and I,

father.”

Colin felt he could not better this as a conclusion. He rose and

stretched himself.

“There!” he said. “That expresses what I feel in my mind. It has been

cramped all day, and now I’ve stretched it, and am not going to have

cramp any more. What shall we do? Stroll down to the piazza, or sit here

and play piquet? I vote for the piazza. Diversion, you know.”

Colin pleaded sleepiness on their return from the piazza as an excuse

for early retirement, but the sleepiness was not of the sort that led to

sleep, and he lay long awake, blissfully content and wondering at

himself with an intense and conscious interest. Never before had it so

forcibly struck him that deception was a thing that was dear to him

through some inherent attraction of its own, irrespective of what

material advantages it might bring him; it was lovely in itself,

irrespective of the fruit it bore. Never yet, too, had it struck him at

all that he disliked love, and this was a discovery worth thinking over.

Often, especially during these last weeks, he had known that his

father’s love for him bored him, as considered as an abstract quality,

though he welcomed it as a means to an end. That end invariably had been

not only the material advantages it brought him, but the gratification

of his own hatred of Raymond. For, so he unerringly observed, his own

endearing of himself to his father served to displace Raymond more and

more, and to-day’s manœuvres were a brilliant counter-attack to the

improved position Raymond had made for himself in those last weeks at

Stanier. But, apart from these ends, he had no use for any love that was

given him, nor any desire to give in return. To hate and to get, he

found, when he looked into himself, was the mainspring which moved

thought, word, and action.

Outside, the evening breeze had quite died down, but the silent

tranquillity of the summer night was broken by the sound of a footfall

on the garden terrace below the window, which he knew must be that of

his father strolling up and down there. For a moment that rather vexed

him; it seemed to disturb his own isolation, for he wanted to be

entirely encompassed in himself. It was inconsiderate of his father to

go quarter-decking out there, intruding into his own consciousness;

besides, Colin had told him that he was sleepy, and he should have kept

quiet.

But then the explanation of his ramble up and down occurred to Colin.

There could be no doubt that his father was troubled for him, and was

made restless by thinking of him and his disappointment. That made Colin

smile, not for pleasure in his father’s love, but for pleasure in his

trouble. He was worrying himself over Colin’s aching heart, and the boy

had a smile for that pleasing thought; it had an incense for him.

* * * * *

He began to wonder, idly at first, but with growing concentration,

whether he hated his father. He did not wish him ill, but ... but

supposing this business of the register was satisfactorily accomplished,

and supposing he succeeded, as he felt no doubt he would, in causing

Violet to throw over Raymond and marry himself, he did not see that

there would be much gained by his father’s continued existence. He would

be in the way then, he would stand between him and his mastership,

through Violet, of Stanier. That, both from his passion for the place,

and from the joyous triumph of ejecting Raymond, was the true object of

his life: possession and hatred, to get and to hate. His father, when

these preliminary feats had been carried through, would be an obstacle

to his getting, and he supposed that he would hate him then.

Lying cool and naked under his sheet, Colin suddenly felt himself flush

with the exuberance of desire and vitality. Hate seemed as infinite as

love; you could not plumb the depths of the former any more than you

could scale the heights of the other, while acquisition, the clutching

and the holding, stretched as far as renunciation; he who lived for

himself would not be satisfied until he had grasped all, any more than

he who lived for others would not be satisfied until he had given all,

retaining nothing out of self-love.

With Violet as his wife, legal owner of Stanier, and Raymond outcast and

disinherited, it seemed to Colin that he would have all he wanted, and

yet in this flush of desire that combed through him now, as the tide

combs through the weeds of the sea, he realised that desire was infinite

and could never be satisfied when once it had become the master passion.

No one who is not content will ever be content, and none so burned with

unsatisfied longing as he. If he could not love he could hate, and if he

could not give he could get.

The steps on the terrace below had long ceased, though, absorbed in this

fever of himself, he had not noticed their cessation. His activity of

thought communicated itself to his body, and it was impossible in this

galvanic restlessness to lie quiet in bed. Movement was necessary, and,

wrapping his sheet round him, he went to his open window and leaned out.

The night was starlit and utterly tranquil; no whisper of movement

sounded from the stone-pine that stood in the garden and challenged by

its stirring the most imperceptible of breezes. Yet to his sense the

quiet tingled with some internal and tremendous vibration; a force was

abroad which held it gripped and charged to the uttermost, and it was

this force, whatever it was, that thrilled and possessed him. The warm,

tingling current of it bathed and intoxicated him; it raced through his

veins, bracing his muscles and tightening up the nerves and vigour of

him, and, stretching out his arms, he let the sheet drop from him so as

to drink it in through every thirsting pore of his body. Like the

foaming water in a loch, it rose and rose in him, until the limit of his

capacity was reached, and his level was that of the river that poured it

into him. And at that, so it seemed, when now he had opened himself out

to the utmost to receive it, the pressure which had made him restless

was relieved, and, unutterably tired and content, he went back to bed,

and instantly sank into the profound gulfs of healthy and dreamless

slumber.

His father had usually finished breakfast when Colin appeared, but next

morning it was the boy who was in advance.

“Hurrah, I’ve beaten you for once, father,” he said when Lord Yardley

appeared. “The tea’s half cold; shall I get you some more?”

“No, this will do. Slept well, Colin?”

“Like a top, like a pig, like a hog, like a dog.”

“Good.”

Lord Yardley busied himself with breakfast for a while.

“Curious things dreams are,” he said. “I dreamed about things I hadn’t

thought of for years. You were so vividly mixed up in them, too, that I

nearly came into your room to see if you were all right.”

“I was,” said Colin. “I was wonderfully all right. What was the dream?”

“Oh, one of those preposterous hashes. I began dreaming about Queen

Elizabeth and old Colin. She was paying him a visit at Stanier and asked

to see the parchment on which he signed the bond of the legend. He

shewed it her, but the blood in which he had signed his own name was so

faded that she told him he must sign it again if he wanted it to be

valid. I was present and saw it all, but I had the feeling that I was

invisible. Then came the nightmare part. He pricked his arm to get the

ink, and dipped a pen in it. And then, looking closely at him, I saw

that it wasn’t old Colin at all, but you, and that it wasn’t Queen

Elizabeth but Violet. I told you not to sign, and you didn’t seem

conscious of me, and then I shouted at you, in some nightmare of fear,

and awoke, hearing some strangled scream of my own, I suppose.”

Colin had been regarding his father as he spoke with wide, eager eyes.

But at the conclusion he laughed and lit a cigarette.

“Well, if you had come in, you certainly wouldn’t have found me signing

anything,” he said. “But I cut myself shaving this morning. I call that

a prophetic dream. And I must write to Vi and Raymond this morning, so

that will be the signing.”

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