CHAPTER XXV

Fosdick had called Cornelia Woodyard the "Vampire,"--why, none of her

admirers could say. She did not look the part this afternoon, standing

before the fire in her library, negligently holding a cup of tea in one

hand, while she nibbled gourmandizingly at a frosted cake. She had come in

from an expedition with Cairy, and had not removed her hat and gloves,

merely letting her furs slip off to the floor. While she had her tea, Cairy

was looking through the diamond panes of a bank of windows at a strip of

small park, which was dripping in the fog of a dubious December day. Conny,

having finished her tea, examined lazily some notes, pushed them back into

their envelopes with a disgusted curl of her long lips, and glancing over

her shoulder at Cairy drawled in an exhausted voice:--

"Poke the fire, please, Tommy!"

Cairy did as he was told, then lighted a cigarette and stood expectantly.

Conny seemed lost in a maze of dreary thoughts, and the man looked about

the room for amusement. It was a pleasant little room, with sufficient

color of flowers and personal disorderliness of letters and books and

papers to soften the severity of the Empire furniture. Evidently the

architect who had done over this small down-town house had been

supplemented by the strong hand of its mistress. Outside and inside he had

done his best to create something French out of the old-fashioned New York

block house, but Cornelia Woodyard had Americanized his creation enough to

make it intimate, livable.

"Can't you say something, Tommy?" Conny murmured in her childish treble.

"I have said a good deal first and last, haven't I?"

"Don't be cross, Tommy! I am down on my job to-day."

"Suppose you quit it! Shall we go to the Bahamas? Or Paris? Or Rio?"

"Do you think that you could manage the excursion, Tommy?" Although she

smiled good-naturedly, the remark seemed to cut. The young man slumped into

a chair and leaned his head on his hands.

"Besides, where would Percy come in?"

Cairy asked half humorously, "And where, may I ask, do I come in?"

"Oh, Tommy, don't look like that!" Conny complained. "You _do_ come in, you

know!"

Cairy brought his chair and placed himself near the fire; then leaned

forward, looking intently into the woman's eyes.

"I think sometimes the women must be right about you, you know."

"What do they say?"

... "That you are a calculating machine,--one of those things they have in

banks to do arithmetic stunts!"

"No, you don't, ... silly! Tell me what Gossom said about the place."

"He didn't say much about that; he talked about G. Lafayette Gossom and

_The People's Magazine_ chiefly.... The mess of pottage is three hundred a

month. I am to be understudy to the great fount of ideas. When he has an

inspiration he will push a bell, and I am to run and catch it as it flows

red hot from his lips and put it into shape,--if I can."

Cairy nursed his injured leg with a disgusted air.

"Don't sniff, Tommy,--there are lots of men who would like to be in your

shoes."

"I know.... Oh, I am not ungrateful for my daily bread. I kiss the hand

that found it,--the hand of power!"

"Silly! Don't be literary with me. Perhaps I put the idea into old Noddy

Gossom's head when he was here the other night. You'll have to humor him,

listen to his pomposity. But he has made a success of that _People's

Magazine_. It is an influence, and it pays!"

"Four hundred thousand a year, chiefly automobile and corset ads, I should

say."

"Nearly half a million a year!" Conny cried with the air of 'See what I

have done for you!'

"Yes!" the Southerner remarked with scornful emphasis ... "I shall harness

myself once more to the car of triumphant prosperity, and stretch forth my

hungry hands to catch the grains that dribble in the rear. Compromise!

Compromise! All is Compromise!"

"Now you are literary again," Conny pronounced severely. "Your play wasn't

a success,--there was no compromise about that! The managers don't want

your new play. Gossom does want your little articles. You have to live, and

you take the best you can get,--pretty good, too."

"Madam Materialist!"

Conny made a little face, and continued in the same lecturing tone.

"Had you rather go back to that cross-roads in the Virginia

mountains--something Court-house--or go to London and write slop home to

the papers, as Ted Stevens does?"

"You know why I don't go back to the something Courthouse and live on

corn-bread and bacon!" Cairy sat down once more very near the blond woman

and leaned forward slowly. Conny's mouth relaxed, and her eyes softened.

"You are dear," she said with a little laugh; "but you are silly about

things." As the young man leaned still farther forward, his hand touching

her arm, Conny's large brown eyes opened speculatively on him....

The other night he had kissed her for the first time, that is, really

kissed her in unequivocal fashion, and she had been debating since whether

she should mention the matter to Percy. The right moment for such a

confidence had not yet come. She must tell him some day. She prided herself

that her relation with her husband had always been honest and frank, and

this seemed the kind of thing he ought to know about, if she were going to

keep that relation what it had been. She had had tender

intimacies--"emotional friendships," her phrase was--before this affair

with Cairy. They had always been perfectly open: she had lunched and dined

them, so to speak, in public as well as at the domestic table. Percy had

rather liked her special friends, had been nice to them always.

But looking into the Southerner's eyes, she felt that there was something

different in this case; it had troubled her from the time he kissed her, it

troubled her now--what she could read in his eyes. He would not be content

with that "emotional friendship" she had given the others. Perhaps, and

this was the strangest thrill in her consciousness, she might not be

content to have him satisfied so easily.... Little Wrexton Grant had sent

her flowers and written notes--and kissed her strong fingers, once. Bertie

Sollowell had dedicated one of his books to her (the author's copy was

somewhere in Percy's study), and hinted that his life missed the guiding

hand that she could have afforded him. He had since found a guiding hand

that seemed satisfactory. Dear old Royal Salters had squired her, bought

her silver in Europe, and Jevons had painted her portrait the year he

opened his studio in New York, and kissed a very beautiful white

shoulder,--purely by way of compliment to the shoulder. All these marks of

gallantry had been duly reported to Percy, and laughed at together by

husband and wife in that morning hour when Conny had her coffee in bed.

Nevertheless, they had touched her vanity, as evidences that she was still

attractive as a woman. No woman--few women at any rate--of thirty-one

resents the fact that some man other than her husband can feel tenderly

towards her. And "these friends"--the special ones--had all been respecters

of the law; not one would have thought of coveting his neighbor's wife, any

more than of looting his safe.

But with Tom Cairy it was different. Not merely because he was Southern and

hence presumably ardent in temperament, nor because of his reputation for

being "successful" with women; not wholly because he appealed to her on

account of his physical disability,--that unfortunate slip by the negro

nurse. But because there was in this man the strain of feminine

understanding, of vibrating sentiment--the lyric chord of

temperament--which made him lover first and last! That is why he had

stirred most women he had known well,--women in whom the emotional life had

been dormant, or unappeased, or petrified.

"You are such a dear!" Conny murmured, looking at him with her full soft

eyes, realizing in her own way that in this fragile body there was the soul

of the lover,--born to love, to burn in some fashion before some altar,

always.

The special aroma that Cairy brought to his love-making was this sense that

for the time it was all there was in life, that it shut out past and

future. The special woman enveloped by his sentiment did not hear the steps

of other women echoing through outer rooms. She was, for the moment, first

and last. He was able to create this emotional delusion genuinely; for into

each new love he poured himself, like a fiery liquor, that swept the heart

clean.

"Dearest," he had murmured that night to Conny, "you are wonderful,--woman

and man,--the soul of a woman, the mind of a man! To love you is to love

life."

And Conny, in whose ears the style of lover's sighs was immaterial, was

stirred with an unaccountable feeling. When Cairy put his hand on hers, and

his lips quivered beneath his mustache, her face inevitably softened and

her eyes widened like a child's eyes. For Conny, even Conny, with her

robust intelligence and strong will to grasp that out of life which seemed

good to her, wanted to love--in a way she had never loved before. Like many

women she had passed thirty with a husband of her choice, two children, and

an establishment entirely of her making before she became aware that she

had missed something on the way,--a something that other women had. She had

seen Severine Wilson go white when a certain man entered the room--then

light brilliantly with joy when his eyes sought her.... That must be worth

having, too! ...

Her relations with her husband were perfect,--she had said so for years and

every one said the same thing about the Woodyards. They were very intimate

friends, close comrades. She knew that Percy respected and admired her more

than any woman in the world, and paid her the last flattery of conceding to

her will, respecting her intelligence. But there was something that he had

not done, could not do, and that was a something that Cairy seemed able to

do,--give her a sensation partly physical, wholly emotional, like the

effect of stimulant, touching every nerve. Conny, with her sure grasp of

herself, however, had no mind to submit blindly to this intoxication; she

would examine it, like other matters,--was testing it now in her capacious

intelligence, as the man bent his eyes upon her, so close to her lips.

Had she only been the "other sort," the conventional ordinary sort, she

would have either gulped her sensation blindly,--"let herself go,"--or

trembled with horror and run away as from some evil thing. Being as she

was, modern, intellectual, proudly questioning all maxims, she kept this

new phenomenon in her hand, saying, "What does it mean for _me_?" The note

of the Intellectuals!

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