XX

On the seventh of June David and Lucy went to the seashore, went by

the order of various professional gentlemen who had differed violently

during the course of David's illness, but who now suddenly agreed with

an almost startling unanimity. Which unanimity was the result of careful

coaching by Dick.

He saw in David's absence his only possible chance to go back to Norada

without worry to the sick man, and he felt, too, that a change, getting

away from the surcharged atmosphere of the old house, would be good for

both David and Lucy.

For days before they started Lucy went about in a frenzy of nervous

energy, writing out menus for Minnie for a month ahead, counting and

recounting David's collars and handkerchiefs, cleaning and pressing his

neckties. In the harness room in the stable Mike polished boots until

his arms ached, and at the last moment with trunks already bulging,

came three gift dressing-gowns for David, none of which he would leave

behind.

“I declare,” Lucy protested to Dick, “I don't know what's come over him.

Every present he's had since he was sick he's taking along. You'd think

he was going to be shut up on a desert island.”

But Dick thought he understood. In David's life his friends had had to

take the place of wife and children; he clung to them now, in his age

and weakness, and Dick knew that he had a sense of deserting them, of

abandoning them after many faithful years.

So David carried with him the calendars and slippers, dressing-gowns and

bed-socks which were at once the tangible evidence of their friendliness

and Lucy's despair.

Watching him, Dick was certain nothing further had come to threaten his

recovery. Dick carefully inspected the mail, but no suspicious letter

had arrived, and as the days went on David's peace seemed finally

re-established. He made no more references to Johns Hopkins, slept like

a child, and railed almost pettishly at his restricted diet.

“When we get away from Dick, Lucy,” he would say, “we'll have beef

again, and roast pork and sausage.”

Lucy would smile absently and shake her head.

“You'll stick to your diet, David,” she would say. “David, it's the

strangest thing about your winter underwear. I'm sure you had five

suits, and now there are only three.”

Or it was socks she missed, or night-clothing. And David, inwardly

chuckling, would wonder with her, knowing all the while that they had

clothed some needy body.

On the night before the departure David went out for his first short

walk alone, and brought Elizabeth back with him.

“I found a rose walking up the street, Lucy,” he bellowed up the stairs,

“and I brought it home for the dinner table.”

Lucy came down, flushed from her final effort over the trunks, but

gently hospitable.

“It's fish night, Elizabeth,” she said. “You know Minnie's a Catholic,

so we always have fish on Friday. I hope you eat it.” She put her hand

on Elizabeth's arm and gently patted it, and thus was Elizabeth taken

into the old brick house as one of its own.

Elizabeth was finding this period of her tacit engagement rather

puzzling. Her people puzzled her. Even Dick did, at times. And nobody

seemed anxious to make plans for the future, or even to discuss the

wedding. She was a little hurt about that, remembering the excitement

over Nina's.

But what chiefly bewildered her was the seeming necessity for secrecy.

Even Nina had not been told, nor Jim. She did not resent that, although

it bewildered her. Her own inclination was to shout it from the

house-tops. Her father had simply said: “I've told your mother, honey,

and we'd better let it go at that, for a while. There's no hurry. And I

don't want to lose you yet.”

But there were other things. Dick himself varied. He was always gentle

and very tender, but there were times when he seemed to hold himself

away from her, would seem aloof and remote, but all the time watching

her almost fiercely. But after that, as though he had tried an

experiment in separation and failed with it, he would catch her to him

savagely and hold her there. She tried, very meekly, to meet his mood;

was submissive to his passion and acquiescent to those intervals when

he withdrew himself and sat or stood near her, not touching her but

watching her intently.

She thought men in love were very queer and quite incomprehensible.

Because he varied in other ways, too. He was boyish and gay sometimes,

and again silent and almost brooding. She thought at those times that

perhaps he was tired, what with David's work and his own, and sometimes

she wondered if he were still worrying about that silly story. But once

or twice, after he had gone, she went upstairs and looked carefully into

her mirror. Perhaps she had not looked her best that day. Girl-like, she

set great value on looks in love. She wanted frightfully to be beautiful

to him. She wished she could look like Beverly Carlysle, for instance.

Two days before David and Lucy's departure he had brought her her

engagement ring, a square-cut diamond set in platinum. He kissed it

first and then her finger, and slipped it into place. It became a rite,

done as he did it, and she had a sense of something done that could

never be undone. When she looked up at him he was very pale.

“Forsaking all others, so long as we both shall live,” he said,

unsteadily.

“So long as we both shall live,” she repeated.

However she had to take it off later, for Mrs. Wheeler, it developed,

had very pronounced ideas of engagement rings. They were put on the day

the notices were sent to the newspapers, and not before. So Elizabeth

wore her ring around her neck on a white ribbon, inside her camisole,

until such time as her father would consent to announce that he was

about to lose her.

Thus Elizabeth found her engagement full of unexpected turns and twists,

and nothing precisely as she had expected. But she accepted things

as they came, being of the type around which the dramas of life are

enacted, while remaining totally undramatic herself. She lived her quiet

days, worried about Jim on occasion, hemmed table napkins for her linen

chest, and slept at night with her ring on her finger and a sense of

being wrapped in protecting love that was no longer limited to the white

Wheeler house, but now extended two blocks away and around the corner to

a shabby old brick building in a more or less shabby yard.

They were very gay in the old brick house that night before the

departure, very noisy over the fish and David's broiled lamb chop. Dick

demanded a bottle of Lucy's home-made wine, and even David got a little

of it. They toasted the seashore, and the departed nurse, and David

quoted Robert Burns at some length and in a horrible Scotch accent.

Then Dick had a trick by which one read the date on one of three pennies

while he was not looking, and he could tell without failing which one

it was. It was most mysterious. And after dinner Dick took her into his

laboratory, and while she squinted one eye and looked into the finder of

his microscope he kissed the white nape of her neck.

When they left the laboratory there were patients in the waiting-room,

but he held her in his arms in the office for a moment or two, very

quietly, and because the door was thin they made a sort of game of it,

and pretended she was a patient.

“How did you sleep last night?” he said, in a highly professional and

very distinct voice. Then he kissed her.

“Very badly, doctor,” she said, also very clearly, and whispered, “I lay

awake and thought about you, dear.”

“I'd better give you this sleeping powder.” Oh, frightfully

professional, but the powder turned out to be another kiss. It was a

wonderful game.

When she slipped out into the hall she had to stop and smooth her hair,

before she went to Lucy's tidy sitting-room.

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