Weeks went by and Melia settled down to a hard and lonely winter in
Love Lane. She missed Bill sadly now he was no longer there. Absence
had conferred all sorts of virtues upon him. She quite forgot that for
many years and up till very recently she could hardly bear the sight of
him about the place. Their relations as man and wife had entered upon a
new and very remarkable phase.
About once a fortnight or so life was made a bit lighter for her
by a penciled scrawl from somewhere in France. Bill's letters told
surprisingly little, yet he maintained a kind of grim cheeriness and
seemed more concerned for the life she might be leading than for
anything that was happening to himself. He was very grateful for the
small comforts she sent him from time to time, he was much interested
in the continued prosperity of the business, and he mentioned with
evident pleasure that her mother had sent him a pair of socks and a
comforter she had knitted herself, also a "nice letter."
From his mother-in-law, whom Bill had always suspected of being a
good sort at heart, "if the Old Un would give her a chance," he had
an account of Melia's visit to Strathfieldsaye. Her mother said what
pleasure it would give her father if she would go there every Sunday.
The statement was incredible on the face of it; Bill frankly didn't
know what to think, but there it was. No doubt the old girl meant
kindly. Perhaps it was her idea of bucking him up.
In his letters to Melia he made no comment on the life he was leading,
but in one he told her that they had moved up into the Line; in another
that "the Boche had got it in the neck"; in another that "he had got
the rheumatics so that he could hardly move," but that he meant to
carry on as long as possible, adding, "We are very short of men."
Somehow the letters of that dark winter made her more proud than ever
of this man of hers. There was a determined note of quiet cheerfulness
that she had never known in him before. Instead of the eternal
grumbling that had done so much to embitter her, there was a tone of
whimsical humor which at a time made her laugh, although as a general
rule few people found it harder than she did to laugh at anything. She
had little imagination, still less of the penetration of mind that goes
with it, but there was one phrase he used that was hard to forget.
In one letter he was tempted to complain that the Boche had taken to
raiding them in the middle of the night, but he added a postscript,
"It's no use growsing here."
Somehow that phrase stuck in her mind. When she rose before daylight
in the bitter mornings of midwinter to light the kitchen fire and
prepare a meal she would have to eat alone, she would remember those
words which he of all men had used, he who was a born growser if ever
there was one. "It's no use growsing here." She tried to take in their
meaning, but the task was not easy. He wrote so cheerfully that he
could hardly mean what he said. And it was his nearest approach to
complaint, he whose life in peace time had been one long complaint. Now
and again she read in the _Tribune_ of things that made her shiver.
Sometimes in the winter darkness she awoke with these things in her
mind. Bill's letters, however, gave no details. If he spoke of "a
scrap," he did so casually, without embroidery, yet she remembered that
once when he had cut his thumb, not very badly, he fainted at the sight
of blood.
Such letters were a puzzle; they told so little. She couldn't make them
out. Reading between the lines, he seemed to be enjoying life more
than he had ever done, he seemed to realize the humor of it more. It
was very strange that it should be so, especially on the part of one
who had always taken things so hard. In one letter he said that spring
was coming and that the look of the sky made him think of the crocuses
along Sharrow Lane, and then added as a brief postscript, "Stanning's
gone."
Some weeks later he wrote from the Base to say that "he had had a whiff
of gas, nothing to speak of," but that he was out of the Line for a
bit. And then after a cheerful letter or two in the meantime, he wrote
a month later to say that he had got leave for ten days and that he was
coming home.
It was the middle of June when he turned up in Love Lane late one
evening, without notice, laden like a beast of burden, looking very
brown and well but terribly worn and shabby. So much had he changed
in appearance that Melia felt it would have been easy to pass him in
the street without recognizing him. He was thin and gray, even his
features, and particularly his eyes, seemed to have altered. The tone
of his voice was different; he spoke in a different way; the words and
phrases he used were not those of the William Hollis she had always
known.
He was glad to be back in his home, if only for a few days, and the
sight of him with his heavy pack and his gas mask and his helmet laid
on the new linoleum in the little sitting room behind the shop gave her
a deeper pleasure than anything life had offered her so far. Strange
as he was, new almost to the point of being somebody else, the mere
sight of him thrilled her. She was thrilled to the verge of happiness.
It was something beyond any previous emotion. Long ago she had given
up believing that ever again he would appeal to her in the way of that
brief time which had been once and had passed so soon.
He took off his heavy boots and lit his pipe and seemed childishly
glad to be home again. But he didn't talk much. He sighed luxuriously
and smiled at her in his odd new way, yet he was interested in the
excellent supper she gave him presently and in the account she
furnished of the business which was still on an ascending curve of
prosperity. The old wound, still unhealed, would not allow her to
praise her father, but there was more than one instance to offer of
that tardy repentance; and it was hard to repress a note of pride when
she announced that he was now Mayor of Blackhampton and by all accounts
a good one.
She tried to get her husband to speak of France, but some instinct
soon made it clear to her that he wanted to forget it. He could not be
induced to speak of his experiences, made light of his "whiff of gas,"
but confessed it was hell all the time; he also said that the German
was not a clean fighter. As he sat opposite to her, eating his supper,
his reticence made it impossible for her to realize what he had been
through. He did not seem to realize it himself, except that in a subtle
way he was altogether changed.
He was eight days at home and they spent a lot of the time together.
They had a new kind of intimacy; the world of men and affairs had
altered for them both. Everything came to them at a fresh angle. They
were dwellers in another atmosphere. The most commonplace actions meant
much more; events once of comparatively large importance meant much
less. She half suggested that they should go up on Sunday afternoon
to Strathfieldsaye, but the idea evidently did not appeal to him and
she did not press it. Still she threw out the hint, because it was an
opportunity to let bygones be bygones and she was sure that he would
meet with a good reception. A sense of justice impelled her to be
grateful to her father, much as she disliked him; in his domineering
way he had tried to make amends; all the same she was not sorry that
Bill was determined to hold himself aloof. It was not exactly that he
bore a grudge against her father; at the point he had reached men did
not bear grudges, but he had some decided views on the matter and they
gained in power by not being expressed.
On the afternoon of Wednesday, which was early closing day in
Blackhampton, Bill insisted on taking Melia to the Art Gallery. It was
in the historic low-roofed building in New Square--which dated from
the Romans--known as the old Moot Hall. It was now the home of one
of the finest collections of pictures in the country. Among ancient
masterpieces and some modern ones were several characteristic examples
of his friend, Stanning, R.A., whom he had carried dying into a dugout
not four months ago.
Corporal Hollis had it from Sergeant Stanning's own lips that the
best picture he had ever painted was hung in the middle room, and
that it was not the Sharrow at Corfield Weir, which the Corporal
himself admired so much, but the smaller, less ambitious piece called,
"The Leaves of the Tree"--a picture of the woods up at Dibley in the
sunlight of October, stripped by the winds of autumn, with the bent
figure in the foreground of a very old man raking the dead leaves
together.
They had no difficulty in finding it. "As the leaves of the trees are
the lives of men." That legend on the gilt frame seemed to them both at
that moment strangely, terribly prophetic. Bill did not tell Melia as
they stood in front of the picture that he had risked his own life in
a vain attempt to save the man who had painted it, nor did he tell her
that the blood of the artist had dyed the sleeves of his tunic.
The large room was empty and they sat down solemnly on the settee in
front of this canvas, looking at it in silence, yet as they did so
holding the hand of each other like a pair of children. Once before had
they sat there, in the early days of their marriage, when he had talked
to her of those ambitions that were never to materialize. And now,
again, with the spirit of peace upon him and stirred by old memories,
he sighed to himself and spoke for a moment or two of what might have
been. One of these days he had hoped to do something. He had always
intended to do something but the time had slipped away.
They were still sitting there looking at the picture when two people
came into the room. One was a commonplace elderly woman, the other
a young man in khaki. Although they were totally unlike in the
superficialities of outward bearing it was easy to tell that they were
mother and son. His trained movements and upright carriage, his poise
and alertness, were not able to conceal an odd resemblance to the
wholly different person at his side.
William and Melia were concealed by the high-backed, wide-armed settee
on which they sat; and as these two people came up the room and took up
a position behind it, they did not seem to realize that they could be
overheard.
"I want you, mother," said the young man in an eager voice, "to look
at what to my mind is the picture of this collection. Stand here and
you'll get it just right."
The Corporal and his lady on the high-backed settee offered a silent
prayer that the young man had as much wisdom and taste as the owner
of such a clear, confident voice ought to have. "As the leaves of the
tree are the lives of men." The Corporal breathed more freely; the
young man's voice had not belied him. "Homer's words." He reeled off
pat a large-sounding foreign language. "I want you to catch the ghost
of the sun glancing through these wind-torn branches. You'll get the
light if you stand just here. Wonderful composition ... wonderful
vision ... wonderful harmony ... wonderful everything. The big artists
feel with their eyes." It was charming to hear the voice in its
enthusiasm. "They look behind the curtain of appearances as you might
say. The life of man is but the shadow of a shadow ... you remember
that bit of Lucretius I read you last night? Look at the figure in
the foreground gathering the leaves. Modern critics say symbolism
is not art, but it depends on how it's done, doesn't it? The eyes of
the mind ... imagination ... and that's the only key we have to the
Riddle of the Sphinx." He ran on and on, laughing like a child. "Look
at his color. And how spacious!--imagination there!--the harmony, the
drawing! A marvelous draughtsman. If he'd lived he'd have been a second
Torrington, although you hear people say that Torrington couldn't
draw." He laughed like a schoolboy and then his voice fell. "I like to
think that Jim Stanning was one of us, that he was born among us, and
it's good to think that our old one-horse Art Committee has had the
luck to buy his magnum opus without knowing it. They paid twice as much
for Corfield Weir in the other room, which is not in the same class.
However ... posterity...."
Prattling on and on the young man came round the corner of the settee,
followed by the old lady.
And then his flow of words failed suddenly as he caught a glimpse of
William and Melia, whose presence he had been far from suspecting. His
little start of guilt betrayed a feeling that he had made rather an ass
of himself, for he said half shamefacedly, "Come on, my dear, let's go
and look at the Weir. We'll come back here later." The Corporal and his
lady could only catch a glimpse of him as he led his mother abruptly
into the next room; but Melia saw he was an officer with two pips on
his sleeve and that his tunic was adorned with a tiny strip of white
and purple ribbon with a star on it. In answer to her questions the
Corporal was able to inform her that the young man was a Captain in the
B.B. and that his decorations was the M.C. with Bar.
"And he looks so young!" said Melia.
"A very good soldier," said the Corporal with a professional air.
"Who is he, Bill? I seem to remember his mother."
"It's young Nixey, the architect."
Of course! But his uniform had altered him. He looked so handsome. And
that was Emma Nixey--Emma Price that was. How proud she must be to have
a boy like that!
"He's a good soldier." The deep voice of the Corporal broke in upon
Melia's thoughts. "A good soldier--that young feller."
"Bill, you remember Emma Price that used to live at the bottom of
Piper's Hill?" There was a note of envy in the tone of Melia.
"I remember old Price, the cobbler."
"Emma was his eldest girl--no, not the eldest. Polly who married Ford,
the ironmonger, was the eldest. Emma was the second. Married Harry
Nixey, whose mother kept the all-sorts shop in Curwood Street. A
drunken fellow, but very clever at his trade. Bolted with another woman
when this lad Harold was twelve months old. Emma never saw nor heard of
him again. Went to Australia, people said at the time. But I'll say
this for Emma, she was always a good plucked one."
There was a moment of silence and then the Corporal demanded weightily,
"Has she any others?"
"He's the only one. But brought up very respectable ... she's managed
to give him a rare good education. How she did it nobody knows.
Tremendous worker, was Emma. But that boy does her credit, I must say."
"He does that." The Corporal stared hard at the picture in front of
him. "Nothing like education." He sighed softly. "If only I'd had a bit
of education I sometimes think I might have done something myself."