TESTING THE FRIAR’S NERVE

As soon as we had eaten breakfast next mornin’, the Friar sez: “You,

bein’ one o’ the earth animals, have never had much chance to see a

view. Yesterday your curiosity was itchin’ so ’at I doubt if you could

have told a mountain peak from a Mexican hat; but now that you have

temporarily suppressed your thirst for gossip, had a good sleep, and a

better breakfast, drag yourself out to the front porch and take a

bird’s-eye view of the world.”

Well, it was worth it, it certainly was worth it! What he called the

front porch, was the ledge after it had flipped itself around the

jutting; and when a feller stood on it, he felt plenty enough like a

bird to make it interestin’. The Big Horns ran across the top o’ the

picture about a hundred an’ forty miles to the north, and gettin’ all

blended in with the clouds. On the other two sides were different

members of the Shoshone family, most o’ which I knew by sight from any

angle; and down below was miles an’ miles of country spread out like a

map, but more highly colored.

“Friar,” I sez, “you’re a wealthy man.”

This tickled him a lot, ’cause he was as proud o’ that view as if he’d

painted it. “I am, Happy,” he said, “and I have yielded to a wealthy

man’s temptations. Any one who comes here will be welcome; but I own

up, I have kept this place a secret to have it all to myself.”

“A man like you needs some quiet place to consider in,” sez I.

“Get thee behind me, Satan, get thee behind me,” cried the Friar. “I

have been on far too friendly terms with that excuse for many a long

month. But I do enjoy this place; so I am going to let you help me lay

in my winter’s supply of wood, and then make you a joint member in

full standing.”

We packed wood along that spider thread of a path all morning; and

finally I got so it didn’t phaze me any more ’n it did him. He sang at

his work most of the time, and I joined in with him whenever I felt so

moved, though it did strike me ’at this was a funny way to keep a

place secret; and my idee is that he sang to ease his conscience by

showin’ it that he wasn’t sneakin’ about his treasure.

I remember him mighty plain as he walked before me on the ledge,

totin’ a big log on his shoulder, and singin’ the one ’at begins,

“Hark, my soul! It is the Lord!” This was one he fair used to raise

himself in, and it seemed as if we two were climbin’ right up on the

air, plumb into the sky. When he’d let himself out this way, he’d fill

me so full of a holy kind of devilment, that it would ’a’ given me joy

to have leaped off the cliff with him, and take chances on goin’ up or

down.

We had about filled his wood place, and were goin’ back after the last

load when just as he swung around a corner, I saw his hand go up as

though warnin’ me to stop; and I froze in my tracks. He hadn’t been

singin’ this trip, for a wonder; but the next moment I heard a sound

which purt nigh jarred me off. It was a low, deep growl which I

instantly recognized as belongin’ to Olaf the Swede. Olaf didn’t talk

with much brogue, though when he got excited he had his own fashion

for hitchin’ words together.

“Where is the girl?” he asked with quiet fierceness, and for a space I

was sorry my parents hadn’t been eagles. There wasn’t room to fight

out on that ledge, the Friar didn’t have a gun on, I couldn’t possibly

shoot around him; and Olaf was seven parts demon when he laid back his

ears and started to kick.

“Where she cannot be bothered,” sez the Friar, full as quiet but

without any fierceness. The’ was a little bush about eight feet up,

and I felt sure it would hide me, so I stuck my fingers in the side o’

the cliff and climbed up; but the’ was no way for me to get out to the

bush, and I had to drop back to the ledge and stand there with the

sweat tricklin’ down between my shoulders until I felt like yellin’.

“I intend to kill you,” said Olaf, as calm as though talkin’ about a

sick sheep.

“It would be a foolish waste of time,” replied the Friar, as if he was

advisin’ a ten-year-old boy not to fish when the Blue Bull was high

and muddy. “It wouldn’t do any good, and I shall not allow it.”

[Illustration: “I intend to kill you,” said Olaf, as calm as though

talkin’ about a sick sheep.

“It would be a foolish waste of time,” replied the Friar, as if he was

advisin’ a ten-year-old boy not to fish when the Blue Bull was high

and muddy. “It wouldn’t do any good, and I shall not allow it.”]

I got out my gun, and made ready to do whatever the angels suggested;

but for some time the’ was silence, and durin’ this time I was keyed

up so tight my muscles began to ache. I knew they were lookin’ into

each other’s eyes, and I’d have given a finger off each hand to see

how the Friar’s steady gray eyes handled those queer blue ones of

Olaf.

“Is she all right?” asked Olaf, and all the threat had left his voice,

and it had just a glint o’ pleadin’ in it. I wouldn’t have been one

bit more surprised to have seen a prairie-dog come flyin’ up the

gorge, blowin’ a cornet with his nose.

“She has sprained her ankle; but aside from this has no physical ill,”

sez the Friar. “You men have caused her a lot of worry, and her soul

is sick; but her body is well.”

After another silence, Olaf said slowly: “Yes, yes; I can tell by the

light that you speak true. What do you intend to do with her?”

“I intend to cure her,” sez the Friar. “I intend to help and

strengthen her; and I want you to help her, too. Olaf, she has had a

lot of trouble, and her wild gaiety is only a veil to hide the wounds

in her heart. I want you to help her.”

“I know, I know she is honest,” said Olaf, and blamed if his voice

didn’t sound like a new boy talkin’ to the boss; “but she made me love

her. Yes, I do love her. I must marry her. Yes, this is so.”

“She cannot marry you, or any one else, now,” sez the Friar, kindly.

“This is why she has gone from one man to another—to disgust them all

and make them leave her alone.”

“That is a damn devil of a way,” cried Olaf in anger. “Why should she

go to dances, and out ridin’, and so on, if she wants men to leave her

alone?”

“She was foolish, she knows that now; but her father is not the right

sort of a man, and her home was not pleasant,” said the Friar.

“I told him I kill him, if she marry any one but me,” said Olaf. “I

know he is not honest; but he is afraid of me, and he will not bother

her now. I go to see him again purty soon, and tell him some more.

Won’t you tell me where she is?”

“I want to be your friend, Olaf,” said the Friar gently. “I tell you

honest that she cannot marry now. When I see her again, I shall tell

her of meetin’ you, and what you have said. I have no desire except to

do the best for all of you, and if you love her truly, all you will

want will be to do that which is best for her.”

The Friar paused, and I pulled my ear clear to the edge o’ the rock,

so as not to miss a word. “Olaf,” he went on in a low, sorrowful

voice, “the love of a man for a woman is a wonderful thing, a terrible

thing, a soul-testing thing. Don’t let your love become common for men

to talk over. In believing what men have told you of me you have

insulted her, by admitting that such a thing is possible. Go back to

your work, kill no man for what he says of her; but keep her pure in

your own heart, and this will be the best way to keep her pure before

the world. Silence the gossips by living above them; and if it becomes

necessary for you to take your own love by the throat, then do it, and

do it for love of her. I shall do all I can to make her worthy of

you.”

You should have heard the Friar’s voice when he was sayin’ this. I

stood on the little ledge, just breathin’ enough to keep my lungs

ventilated, and lookin’ out across the landscape—mountains on all

sides of me, and down below the broken ground and the benches, with

the green strips along the cricks lookin’ like lazy snakes in the hot

sunshine. I couldn’t see a livin’ creature, I felt like the last man

on earth; and that deep, musical voice seemed comin’ to me from

somewhere out beyond the limits of life. I didn’t have any more fear

now: the’ wasn’t anything in the shape of a human who could have done

violence to the Friar after hearin’ him say the words I’d just heard;

so I put up my gun, and listened again.

“Can’t ya tell me why she can’t marry me?” asked Olaf, and the’ was a

tremble in his voice, almost as though it flowed up from a sob.

“I think I can trust you to keep her secret,” sez the Friar. “She is

married already. The man was a beast and deserted her; but he is still

alive, and she cannot marry again.”

I heard Olaf make a queer, animal sound with his breath, and then he

said: “Yes, you speak true—I can tell by the light; but she loves

me—I can tell that also by the light. Will you tell me when she can

marry?”

“I will,” sez the Friar, and his voice was a pledge. “There’s my hand

on it.”

They brought their hands together with a smack I could hear, and then

Olaf turned on the narrow ledge, with the Friar holdin’ him on, an’

started off. The Friar went along with him, and I sneaked after,

keepin’ a turn between us. Olaf mounted his hoss and rode away without

lookin’ back, which, as a matter o’ fact, was his way o’ doin’ things;

and when he was out o’ sight, I joined the Friar.

The’ was still a look of sadness in the Friar’s face; but back of it,

and shinin’ through it, was a quiet satisfaction. He was full o’ the

scene he had just gone through; and presently he turned an’ said:

“That was a glorious victory he gained over himself, Happy. That man

has a good heart, and who knows but what he will yet be the means of

bringin’ me an’ Tyrrel Jones together.”

“What do you reckon he meant by the light tellin’ him that you were an

honest man?” I asked. This was the most curious part of the whole

thing to me.

“How can I tell,” he sez. “Life is so crowded with wonders that I have

quit wonderin’ about ’em; but I always feel a thrill when I see the

stubborn spirit of a strong man melt and run into the mold the Master

has prepared for it.”

“I’ll own it was about the weirdest thing I ever saw,” sez I; “but I’m

willin’ to bet that whatever else Olaf’s spirit has molded itself

into, it’s not a doormat with ‘welcome’ wrote on it; as the first

feller ’at fools with that girl is likely to find out.”

“Never doubt the power of the Lord, Happy,” sez he. “The hand that

piled up these hills can easy shape even so stubborn a thing as the

human will.”

“Yes,” I agreed; “but it generally takes just about the same length of

time to do it, and a man don’t usually last that long.”

“Time!” sez he; “what do you know about time? It may have taken ages

to form these hills; and then again, it may have been done in the

twinklin’ of an eye. From the way the streaks tilt up, I’m inclined to

think it was done sudden.”

I looked at the lines along the faces o’ the hills, and I was inclined

to believe it, too; so I dropped that subject, and we sat down close

together and looked off down the trail where Olaf had vanished.

We sat in silence a long time, me thinkin’ o’ what sort of a light

Olaf had seen to make him know ’at the Friar was honest; and of the

way the Friar’s voice had gone through me when he had talked of love.

This was a new idee to me, and one o’ the biggest I had ever tried to

grapple with. Before this, my notion o’ love was, for a man to get the

girl any way he could; and it took me some time to see the grandness

of a man takin’ his own love by the throat for love of a woman. I knew

’at the Friar had done this himself; but it never was clear to me

until I heard the heartache moanin’ through his voice as he laid out

this law for Olaf, and Olaf bowed his stiff neck and accepted it.

I’m purty sure that if I’d ’a’ known that day, that a few years later

I would have to take my own love by the throat for the sake of little

Barbie, I wouldn’t ’a’ had the nerve to go on playin’ the game—but

this is life. We pick up a stone here, and another there, and build

them into our wall until the flood comes; and then if the wall isn’t

high enough to turn back the flood, all the sting and bitterness comes

from knowin’ that we haven’t made use of all the stones which came

rollin’ down to our feet.

That night we had an uncommon fine fire in the cave. I used to enjoy

these evenin’ fires with the Friar, as much as a dog likes to have his

ears pulled by the hand he loves best. He would tell me tales of all

the ages ’at man has lived on the face of the whole earth, and I’d sit

and smoke my pipe, and make up what I’d ’a’ done, myself, if I’d been

one o’ these big fellers. These chummy little fire-talks used to

broaden me out and make me feel related to the whole human race, and

it was then ’at I came to know the Friar best—though the’ ain’t no

way to put this into a story.

Along about nine o’clock the Friar began to lecture me again’ the use

o’ violence, pointin’ out that war nor gunfightin’ nor any other sort

o’ violence had ever done any good; and endin’ up with the way he had

handled Olaf as illustratin’ how much better effects spiritual methods

had.

“Humph,” sez I, “so you’re tryin’ to put that over as an ordinary

case, are ya? Did you ever before see such eyes in a man’s head as

what Olaf has?”

“Now that you mention it,” sez he, “I did notice they were peculiar.”

“I ruhly believe you’re right,” sez I, sarcastic. “When he said he saw

light he wasn’t speakin’ in parables. He can see things ’at you nor I

can’t see—though I doubt if he understands ’em himself.”

“Still, violence would have spoiled everything,” persisted the Friar,

who was as human as a raw bronco when you tried to make him back up.

“Now, don’t forget anything,” sez I. “It wasn’t my face ’at lit up

when I said ’at he did his killin’ with bare hands; nor it wasn’t me

who gloated over this as furnishin’ an excuse to use my bare hands in

defendin’ myself.”

“Oh, Happy, Happy,” sez he, with one o’ the bursts ’at made ya willin’

to go through fire and water for him. “I’m the entire human race:

there isn’t a single sin or weakness which hasn’t betrayed me at one

time or another, and yet the wicked pride of me persists in stickin’

up its head an’ crowin’ every time I take my eyes off it.”

“Well, I like your pride full as well as any other part o’ ya,” sez I;

“and before you wrangle it into its corral again, I want to say ’at no

other man in the world could ’a’ told Olaf what you told him this

mornin’, and lived to talk it over around this fire to-night—unless,

he had used the best and the quickest brand o’ violence the’ is, in

the meantime.”

“Now, that you have succeeded in flatterin’ both of us, we’ll go to

sleep,” sez the Friar, and the’ was a deep twinkle in his eyes which

allus rejoiced me to call up.

Next night soon after dark, we started out with Kit Murray. She rode

like a man and could tick out her fifty or sixty a day right along,

without worryin’ her pony. As soon as she was safe located in

Billings, I turned back to the Dot, while the Friar rounded up some

stray sheep he had near the border, and as far as I can recall we

didn’t meet again all that summer.

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