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The baby grew and thrived, as the habit is with healthy children well

taken care of. Mrs. Norman soon got back her strength, her figure, and

perhaps more than her former beauty--as the habit is with healthy women

well taken care of. Norman's career continued to prosper, likewise

according to the habit of all healthy things well taken care of. In a

world where nothing happens by chance, mischance, to be serious, must

have some grave fault as its hidden cause. We mortals, who love to live

at haphazard and to blame God or destiny or "bad luck" for our

calamities, hate to take this modern and scientific view of the world

and life. But, whether we like it or not, it is the truth--and, as we

can't get round it, why not accept it cheerfully and, so appear a little

less ignorant and ridiculous?

During their first year at the Hempstead place the results in luxury and

comfort had at no time accounted for the money it cost and the servants

it employed--that is to say, paid. But Norman was neither unreasonable

nor impatient. Also, in his years of experience with his sister's

housekeeping, and of observation of the other women, he had grown

exceedingly moderate in his estimate of the ability of women and in his

expectations from them. He had reached the conclusion that the women who

were sheltered and pampered by the men of the successful classes were

proficient only in those things that call for no skill or effort beyond

the wagging of the tongue. He saw that Dorothy was making honest

endeavor to learn her business, and he knew that learning takes

time--much time.

He believed that in the end she would do better than any other wife of

his acquaintance, at the business of wife and mother.

Before the baby was two years old, his belief was rewarded. Things began

to run better--began to run well, even. Dorothy--a serious person,

unhampered of a keen sense of humor, had taught herself the duties of

her new position in much the same slow plodding way in which she had

formerly made of herself a fair stenographer and a tolerable typewriter.

Mrs. Lowell had helped--and Ursula, too--and Norman not a little. But

Dorothy, her husband discovered, was one of those who thoroughly

assimilate what they take in--who make it over into part of themselves.

So, her manner of keeping house, of arranging the gardens, of bringing

up the baby, of dressing herself, was peculiarly her own. It was not by

any means the best imaginable way. It was even what many energetic,

systematic and highly competent persons would speak contemptuously of.

But it satisfied Norman--and that was all Dorothy had in mind.

If those who have had any considerable opportunity to observe married

life will forget what they have read in novels and will fix their minds

on what they have observed at first hand, they will recognize the Norman

marriage, with the husband and wife living together yet apart as not

peculiar but of a rather common type. Neither Fred nor Dorothy had any

especial reason on any given day to try to alter their relations; so the

law of inertia asserted itself and matters continued as they had begun.

It was, perhaps, a chance remark of Tetlow's that was the remote but

efficient cause of a change, as the single small stone slipping high up

on the mountain side results in a vast landslide into the valley miles

below. Tetlow said one day, in connection with some estate they were

settling:

"I've always pitied the only child. It must be miserably lonesome."

No sooner were the words out of his mouth than he colored violently;

for, he remembered that the Normans had but one child and he knew the

probable reason for it. Norman seemed not to have heard or seen. Tetlow

hoped he hadn't, but, knowing the man, feared otherwise. And he was

right.

In the press of other matters Norman forgot Tetlow's remark--remembered

it again a few days later when he was taking the baby out for an airing

in the motor--forgot it again--finally, when he took a several days'

rest at home, remembered it and kept it in mind. He began to think of

Dorothy once more in a definite, personal way, began to observe her as

his wife, instead of as mere part of his establishment. An intellectual

person she certainly was not. She had a quaint individual way of

speaking and of acting. She had the marvelous changeable beauty that had

once caused him to take the bit in his teeth and run wild. But he would

no more think of talking with her about the affairs that really

interested him than--well, than the other men of large career in his

acquaintance would think of talking those matters to their wives.

But--He was astonished to discover that he liked this slim, quiet,

unobtrusive little wife of his better than he liked anyone else in the

world, that he eagerly turned away from the clever and amusing

companionship he might have at his clubs to come down to the country and

be with her and the baby--not the baby alone, but her also. Why? He

could not find a satisfactory reason. He saw that she created at that

Hempstead place an atmosphere of rest, of tranquility. But this merely

thrust the mystery one step back. _How_ did she create this

atmosphere--and for a man of his varied and discriminating tastes? To

that question he could work out no answer. She had for him now a charm

as different from the infatuation of former days as calm sea is from

tempest-racked sea--utterly different, yet fully as potent. As he

observed her and wondered at these discoveries of his, the ghost of a

delight he had thought forever dead stirred in his heart, in his fancy.

Yes, it was a pleasure, a thrilling pleasure to watch her. There was

music in those quiet, graceful movements of hers, in that quiet, sweet

voice. Not the wild, blood-heating music of the former days, but a kind

far more melodious--tender, restful to nerves sorely tried by the

tensions of ambition. He made some sort of an attempt to define his

feeling for her, but could not. It seemed to fit into none of the usual

classifications.

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