CHAPTER XIX

COMING TO A CRISIS

Richard was not happy in his new home; it did not fit him like the old.

He missed his mother's petting; he missed the society of his plain,

outspoken brothers; he missed his freedom from restraint, and he missed

the deference so universally paid to him in Olney, where he was the only

lion. In Camden there were many to divide the honors with him; and

though he was perhaps unconscious of it, he had been first so long that

to be one of many firsts was not altogether agreeable. With the new home

and new associates more like those to which she had been accustomed,

Ethelyn had resumed her training process, which was not now borne as

patiently as in the halcyon days of the honeymoon, when most things wore

the couleur de rose and were right because they came from the pretty

young bride. Richard chafed under the criticisms to which he was so

frequently subjected, and if he improved on them in the least it was not

perceptible to Ethlyn, who had just cause to blush for the careless

habits of her husband--habits which even Melinda observed, when in

August she spent a week with Ethelyn, and then formed one of a party

which went for a pleasure trip to St. Paul and Minnehaha. From this

excursion, which lasted for two weeks, Richard returned to Camden in

anything but an amiable frame of mind. Ethelyn had not pleased him at

all, notwithstanding that she had been unquestionably the reigning belle

of the party--the one whose hand was claimed in every dance, and whose

company was sought in every ride and picnic. Marcia Fenton and Ella

Backus faded into nothingness when she was near, and they laughingly

complained to Richard that his wife had stolen all their beaux away, and

they wished he would make her do better.

"I wish I could," was his reply, spoken not playfully, but moodily, just

as he felt at the time.

He was not an adept in concealing his feelings, which generally showed

themselves upon his face, or were betrayed in the tones of his voice,

and when he spoke as he did of his wife the two young girls glanced

curiously at each other, wondering if it where possible that the grave

Judge was jealous. If charged with jealousy Richard would have denied

it, though he did not care to have Ethelyn so much in Harry Clifford's

society. Richard knew nothing definite against Harry, except that he

would occasionally drink more than was wholly in accordance with a

steady and safe locomotion of his body; and once since they had been at

the Stafford House, where he also boarded, the young lawyer had been

invisible for three entire days. "Sick with a cold" was his excuse when

he appeared again at the table, with haggard face and bloodshot eyes;

but in the parlor, and halls, and private rooms, there where whispers of

soiled clothes and jammed hats, and the servants bribed to keep the

secret that young lawyer Clifford's boots were carried dangling up to

No. 94 at a very late hour of the night on which he professed to have

taken his cold. After this, pretty Marcia Fenton, who, before Ethelyn

came to town, had ridden oftenest after the black horses owned by Harry,

tossed her curls when he came near, and arched her eyebrows in a manner

rather distasteful to the young man; while Ella Backus turned her back

upon him, and in his hearing gave frequent lectures on intemperance and

its loathsomeness. Ethelyn, on the contrary, made no difference in her

demeanor toward him. She cared nothing for him either way, except that

his polite attentions and delicate deference to her tastes and opinions

were complimentary and flattering, and so she saw no reason why she

should shun him because he had fallen once. It might make him worse, and

she should stand by him as an act of philanthropy, she said to Richard

when he asked her what she saw to admire in that drunken Clifford.

Richard had no idea that Ethelyn cared in the least for Harry Clifford;

he knew she did not, though she sometimes singled him out as one whose

manners in society her husband would do well to imitate. Of the two

young men, Harry Clifford and Frank Van Buren, who had been suggested to

him as copies, Richard preferred the former, and wished he could feel as

easy with regard to Frank as he was with regard to Harry. He had never

forgotten that fragment of conversation overheard in Washington, and as

time went on it haunted him more and more. He had given up expecting any

confession from Ethelyn, though at first he was constantly expecting it,

and laying little snares by way of hints and reminders; but Ethelyn had

evidently changed her mind, and if there was a past which Richard ought

to have known, he would now probably remain in ignorance of it, unless

some chance revealed it. It would have been far better if Richard had

tried to banish all thoughts of Frank Van Buren from his mind and taken

Ethelyn as he found her; but Richard was a man, and so, manlike, he

hugged the skeleton which he in part had dragged into his home, and

petted it, and kept it constantly in sight, instead of thrusting it out

from the chamber of his heart, and barring the door against it. Frank's

name was never mentioned between them, but Richard fancied that always

after the receipt of Mrs. Dr. Van Buren's letters Ethelyn was a little

sad, and more disposed to find fault with him, and he sometimes wished

Mrs. Dr. Van Buren might never write to them again. There was one of her

letters awaiting Ethelyn after her return from Minnesota, and she read

it standing under the chandelier, with Richard lying upon the couch near

by, watching her curiously. There was something in the letter which

disturbed her evidently, for her face flushed, and her lips shut firmly

together, as they usually did when she was agitated. Richard already

read Aunt Barbara's letters, and heretofore he had been welcome to Mrs.

Van Buren's, a privilege of which he seldom availed himself, for he

found nothing interesting in her talk of parties, and operas and

fashions, and the last new color of dress goods, and style of

wearing the hair.

"It was too much twaddle for him," he had said in reply to Ethelyn's

questions as to whether he would like to see what Aunt Van Buren

had written.

Now, however, she did not offer to show him the letter, but crumpled it

nervously in her pocket, and going to her piano, began to play

dashingly, rapidly, as was her custom when excited. She did not know

that Richard was listening to her, much less watching her, as he lay in

the shadow, wondering what that letter contained, and wishing so much

that he knew. Ethelyn was tired that night, and after the first heat of

her excitement had been thrown off in a spirited schottische, she closed

her piano, and coming to the couch where Richard was lying, sat down by

his side, and after waiting a moment in silence, asked "of what he was

thinking."

There was something peculiar in the tone of her voice--something almost

beseeching, as if she either wanted sympathy, or encouragement for the

performance of some good act. But Richard did not so understand her. He

was, to tell the truth, a very little cross, as men, and women, too, are

apt to be when tired with sight-seeing and dissipation. He had been away

from his business three whole weeks, traveling with a party for not one

member of which, with the exception of his wife, Melinda, Marcia, and

Ella, did he care a straw.

Hotel life at St. Paul he regarded as a bore, second only to life at

Saratoga. The falls of Minnehaha "was a very pretty little stream," he

thought, but what people could see about it go into such ecstasies as

Ethelyn, and even Melinda did, he could not tell. Perhaps if Harry

Clifford had not formed a part of every scene where Ethelyn was the

prominent figure, he might have judged differently. But Harry had been

greatly in his way, and Richard did not like it any more than he liked

Ethelyn's flirting so much with him, and leaving him, her husband, to

look about for himself. He had shown, too, that he did not like it to

Marcia Fenton and Ella Backus who probably thought him a bear, as

perhaps he was. On the whole, Richard was very uncomfortable in his

mind, and Aunt Van Buren's letter did not tend in the least to improve

his temper; so when Ethelyn asked him of what he was thinking, and

accompanied her question with a stroke of her hand upon his hair, he

answered her, "Nothing much, except that I am tired and sleepy."

The touch upon his hair he had felt to his finger tips, for Ethelyn

seldom caressed him even as much as this; but he was in too moody a

frame of mind to respond as he would once have done. His manner was not

very encouraging, but, as if she had nerved herself to some painful

duty, Ethelyn persisted, and said to him next: "You have not seen Aunt

Van Buren's letter. Shall I read you what she says?"

Every nerve in Richard's body had been quivering with curiosity to see

that letter, but now, when the coveted privilege was within his reach,

he refused it; and, little dreaming of all he was throwing aside,

answered indifferently: "No, I don't know that I care to hear it. I

hardly think it will pay. Where are they now?"

"At Saratoga," Ethelyn replied; but her voice was not the same which had

addressed Richard first; there was a coldness, a constraint in it now,

as if her good resolution had been thrown back upon her and frozen up

the impulse prompting her to the right.

Richard had had his chance with Ethelyn and lost it. But he did not know

it, or guess how sorry and disappointed she was when at last she left

him and retired to her sleeping-room. There was a window open in the

parlor, and as the wind was rising with a sound of rain, Richard went to

close it ere following his wife. The window was near to the piano and as

he shut it something rattled at his feet. It was the crumpled letter,

which Ethelyn had accidentally drawn from her dress pocket with the

handkerchief she held in her hand when she sat down by Richard. He knew

it was that letter, and his first thought was to carry it to Ethelyn;

then, as he remembered her offer to read it to him, he said, "Surely

there can be no harm in reading it for myself. A man has a right to know

what is in a letter to his wife."

Thus reasoning, he sat down by the side light as far away from the

bedroom door as possible and commenced Mrs. Dr. Van Buren's letter. They

were stopping at the United States, and there was nothing particular at

first, except her usual remarks of the people and what they wore; but on

the third page Richard's eye caught Frank's name, and skipping all else,

leaped eagerly forward to what the writer was saying of her son. His

conduct evidently did not please his mother; neither did the conduct of

Nettie, who was too insipid for anything, the lady wrote, adding that

she was not half so bright and pretty as when she was first married, but

had the headache and kept her own room most of the time, and was looking

so faded and worn that Frank was really ashamed of her.

"You know how he likes brilliant, sparkling girls," she wrote, "and of

course he has no patience with Nettie's fancied ailments. I can't say

that I altogether sympathize with her myself; and, dear Ethie, I must

acknowledge that it has more than once occurred to me that I did very

wrong to meddle with Frank's first love affair. He would be far happier

now if it had been suffered to go on, for I suspect he has never

entirely gotten over it; but it is too late now for regrets. Nettie is

his wife, and he must make the best of it."

Then followed what seemed the secret of the Van Buren discomfort. The

bank in which most of Nettie's fortune was deposited had failed, leaving

her with only the scanty income of five hundred dollars a year, a sum

not sufficient to buy clothes, Mrs. Van Buren said. But Richard did not

notice this--his mind was only intent upon Frank's first love affair,

which ought to have gone on. He did not ask himself whether, in case it

had gone on, Ethelyn would have been there, so near to him that her soft

breathing came distinctly to his ear. He knew she would not; there had

been something between her and Frank Van Buren, he was convinced beyond

a doubt, and the fiercest pang he had ever known was that which came to

him when he sat with Mrs. Dr. Van Buren's letter in his hand, wondering

why Ethie had withheld the knowledge of it from him, and if she had

outlived the love which her aunt regretted as having come to naught.

Then, as the more generous part of his nature began to seek excuses for

her, he asked himself why she offered to read the letter if she had

really been concerned in Frank's first love affair, and hope whispered

that possibly she was not the heroine of that romance. There was comfort

in that thought: and Richard would have been comforted if jealousy had

not suggested how easy it was for her to skip the part relating to

Nettie and Frank, and thus leave him as much in the dark as ever. Yes,

that was undoubtedly her intention. While seeming to be so open and

honest, she would have deceived him all the more. This was what Richard

decided, and his heart grew very hard against the young wife, who looked

so innocent and pretty in her quiet sleep, when at last he sought his

pillow and lay down by her side.

He was very moody and silent for days after that, and even his clients

detected an irritability in his manner which they had never seen before.

"There was nothing ailed him," he said to Ethelyn, when she asked what

was the matter, and accused him of being positively cross. She was very

gay; Camden society suited her; and as the season advanced, and the

festivities grew more and more frequent, she was seldom at home more

than one or two evenings in the week, while the day was given either to

the arrangement of dress or taking of necessary rest, so that her

husband saw comparatively little of her, except for the moment when she

always came to him with hood and white cloak in hand to ask him how she

looked, before going to the carriage waiting at the door. Never in her

girlish days had she been so beautiful as she was now, but Richard

seldom told her so, though he felt the magic influence of her brilliant

beauty, and did not wonder that she was the reigning belle. He seldom

accompanied her himself. Parties, and receptions, and concerts, were

bores, he said; and at first he had raised objections to her going

without him. But after motherly Mrs. Harris, who boarded in the next

block, and was never happier than when chaperoning someone, offered to

see to her and take her under the same wing which had sheltered six

fine and now well-married daughters, Richard made no further objections.

He did not wish to be thought a domestic tyrant; he did not wish to seem

jealous, and so he would wrap Ethie's cloak around her, and taking her

himself to Mrs. Harris' carriage, would give that lady sundry charges

concerning her, bidding her see that she did not dance till wholly

wearied out, and asking her to bring her home earlier than the previous

night. Then, returning to his solitary rooms, he would sit nursing the

demon which might so easily have been thrust aside. Ethie was not

insensible to his kindness in allowing her to follow the bent of her own

inclinations, even when it was so contrary to his own, and for his sake

she did many things she might not otherwise have done. She snubbed Harry

Clifford and the whole set of dandies like him, so that, though they

danced, and talked, and laughed with her, they never crossed a certain

line of propriety which she had drawn between them. She was very

circumspect; she tried at first in various ways to atone to Richard for

her long absence from him, telling him whatever she thought would

interest him, and sometimes, when she found him waiting for her, and

looking so tired and sleepy, playfully chiding him for sitting up for

her, and telling him that though it was kind in him to do so, she

preferred that he should not. This was early in the season; but after

the day when Mrs. Markham, senior, came over from Olney to spend the

day, and "blow Richard's wife up," as she expressed it, everything was

changed, and Ethelyn stayed out as late as she liked without any

concessions to Richard. Mrs. Markham, senior, had heard strange stories

of Ethelyn's proceedings--"going to parties night after night, with her

dress shamefully low, and going to plays and concerts bareheaded, with

flowers and streamers in her hair, besides wearing a mask, and

pretending she was Queen Hortense."

"A pretty critter to be," Mrs. Markham had said to the kind neighbor who

had returned from Camden and was giving her the particulars in full of

Ethelyn's misdoings. "Yes, a pretty critter to be! If I was goin' to

turn myself into somebody else I'd take a decent woman. I wonder at

Richard's lettin' her; but, law! he is so blind and she so headstrong!"

And the good woman groaned over this proof of depravity as she

questioned her visitor further with regard to Ethie's departures

from duty.

"And he don't go with her much, you say," she continued, feeling more

aggrieved than ever when she heard that on the occasion of Ethie's

personating Hortense, Richard had also appeared as a knight of the

sixteenth century, and borne his part so well that Ethelyn herself did

not recognize him until the mask was removed.

Mrs. Markham could not suffer such high-handed wickedness to go

unrebuked, and taking as a peace offering, in case matters assumed a

serious aspect, a pot of gooseberry jam and a ball of head cheese, she

started for Camden the very next day.

Ethelyn did not expect her, but she received her kindly, and knowing how

she hated a public table, had dinner served in her own room, and then,

without showing the least impatience, waited a full hour for Richard to

come in from the court-house, where an important suit was pending. Mrs.

Markham was to return to Olney that night, and as there was no time to

lose, she brought the conversation round to the "stories" she had heard,

and little by little laid on the lash till Ethelyn's temper was roused,

and she asked her mother-in-law to say out what she had to say at once,

and not skirt round it so long. Then came the whole list of misdemeanors

which Mrs. Markham thought "perfectly ridiculous," asking her son how he

"could put up with such work."

Richard wisely forbore taking either side; nor was it necessary that he

should speak for Ethie. She was fully competent to fight her own battle,

and she fought it with a will, telling her mother-in-law that she should

attend as many parties as she pleased and wear as many masks. She did

not give up her liberty of action when she married. She was young yet,

and should enjoy herself if she chose, and in her own way.

This was all the satisfaction Mrs. Markham could get, and supremely

pitying "her poor boy," whom she mentally decided was "henpecked," she

took the cars back to Olney, saying to Richard, who accompanied her to

the train, "I am sorry for you from the bottom of my heart. It would be

better if you had stayed with me."

Richard liked his mother's good opinion, but as he walked back to the

hotel he could not help feeling that a mother's interference between man

and wife was never very discreet, and he wished the good woman had

stayed at home. If he had said so to Ethelyn, when on his return to his

rooms he found her weeping passionately, there might have come a better

understanding between them, and she probably would have stayed with him

that evening instead of attending the whist party given by Mrs. Miller.

But he had fully determined to keep silent, and when Ethelyn asked if

she was often to be subjected to such insults, he did not reply. He went

with her, however, to Mrs. Miller's, and knowing nothing of cards,

almost fell asleep while waiting for her, and playing backgammon with

another fellow-sufferer, who had married a young wife and was there

on duty.

Mrs. Markham, senior, did not go to Camden again, and when Christmas

came, and with it an invitation for Richard and his wife to dine at the

farmhouse on the turkey Andy had fattened for the occasion, Ethelyn

peremptorily declined; and as Richard would not go without her, Mrs.

Jones and Melinda had their seats at table, and Mrs. Markham wished for

the hundredth time that Richard's preference had fallen on the latter

young lady instead of "that headstrong piece who would be his ruin."

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