But the man shook his head, saying:

"Lady Margaret won't think of that. She'll think only of you--that she

can mother you, perhaps save you grief--and of herself, that in her old

age she has a daughter. It would make a lonely old woman very happy,

Mademoiselle."

The girl bent her head away from him, and Ste. Marie saw, for the first

time since he had known her, tears in her eyes. After a long time she

said:

"I promise, then. But," she said, "it is very unlikely that it should

ever come about--for more than one reason. Very unlikely."

"Still, Mademoiselle," said he, "I am glad you have promised. This is an

uncertain world. One never can tell what will come with the to-morrows."

"I can," the girl said, with a little tired smile that Ste. Marie did

not understand. "I can tell. I can see all the to-morrows--a long, long

row of them. I know just what they're going to be like--to the very

end."

But the man rose to his feet and looked down upon her as she sat before

him. And he shook his head.

"You are mistaken," he said. "Pardon me, but you are mistaken. No one

can see to-morrow--or the end of anything. The end may surprise you very

much."

"I wish it would!" cried Mlle. O'Hara. "Oh, I wish it would!"

* * * * *

XXIV

THE JOINT IN THE ARMOR

Ste. Marie put down a book as O'Hara came into the room and rose to meet

his visitor.

"I'm compelled," said the Irishman, "to put you on your honor to-day if

you are to go out as usual. Michel has been sent on an errand, and I am

busy with letters. I shall have to put you on your honor not to make any

effort to escape. Is that agreed to? I shall trust you altogether. You

could manage to scramble over the wall somehow, I suppose, and get clean

away, but I think you won't try it if you give your word."

"I give my word gladly," said Ste. Marie. "And thanks very much. You've

been uncommonly kind to me here. I--regret more than I can say that

we--that we find ourselves on opposite sides, as it were. I wish we were

fighting for the same cause."

The Irishman looked at the younger man sharply for an instant, and he

made as if he would speak, but seemed to think better of it. In the end

he said:

"Yes, quite so. Quite so. Of course you understand that any

consideration I have used toward you has been by way of making amends

for--for an unfortunate occurrence."

Ste. Marie laughed.

"The poison," said he. "Yes, I know. And of course I know who was at the

bottom of that. By the way, I met Stewart in the garden the other day.

Did he tell you? He was rather nervous and tried to shoot me, but he had

left his revolver at the house--at least it wasn't in his pocket when he

reached for it."

O'Hara's hard face twitched suddenly, as if in anger, and he gave an

exclamation under his breath, so the younger man inferred that "old

Charlie" had not spoken of their encounter. And after that the Irishman

once more turned a sharp, frowning glance upon his prisoner as if he

were puzzled about something. But, as before, he stopped short of speech

and at last turned away.

"Just a moment!" said the younger man. He asked: "Is it fair to inquire

how long I may expect to be confined here? I don't want to presume upon

your good-nature too far, but if you could tell me I should be glad to

know."

The Irishman hesitated a moment and then said:--

"I don't know why I shouldn't answer that. It can't help you, so far as

I can see, to do anything that would hinder us. You'll stay until Arthur

Benham comes of age, which will be in about two months from now."

"Yes," said the other. "Thanks. I thought so. Until young Arthur comes

of age and receives his patrimony--or until old David Stewart dies. Of

course that might happen at any hour."

The Irishman said: "I don't quite see what--Ah, yes, to be sure! Yes, I

see. Well, I should count upon eight weeks if I were you. In eight weeks

the boy will be independent of them all, and we shall go to England for

the wedding."

"The wedding?" cried Ste. Marie. "What wedding?--Ah!"

"Arthur Benham and my daughter are to be married," said O'Hara, "so soon

as he reaches his majority. I thought you knew that."

In a very vague fashion he realized that he had expected it. And still

the definite words came to him with a shock which was like a physical

blow, and he turned his back with a man's natural instinct to hide his

feeling. Certainly that was the logical conclusion to be drawn from

known premises. That was to be the O'Haras' reward for their labor. To

Stewart the great fortune, to the O'Haras a good marriage for the girl

and an assured future. That was reward enough surely for a few weeks of

angling and decoying and luring and lying. That was what she had meant,

on the day before, by saying that she could see all the to-morrows. He

realized that he must have been expecting something like this, but the

thought turned him sick, nevertheless. He could not forget the girl as

he had come to know her during the past week. He could not face with any

calmness the thought of her as the adventuress who had lured poor Arthur

Benham on to destruction. It was an impossible thought. He could have

laughed at it in scornful anger, and yet--What else was she?

He began to realize that his action in turning his back upon the other

man in the middle of a conversation must look very odd, and he faced

round again trying to drive from his expression the pain and distress

which he knew must be there, plain to see. But he need not have troubled

himself, for the other man was standing before the next window and

looking out into the morning sunlight, and his hard, bony face had so

altered that Ste. Marie stared at him with open amazement. He thought

O'Hara must be ill.

"I want to see her married!" cried the Irishman, suddenly, and it was a

new voice, a voice Ste. Marie did not know. It shook a little with an

emotion that sat uncouthly upon this grim, stern man.

"I want to see her married and safe!" he said. "I want her to be rid of

this damnable, roving, cheap existence. I want her to be rid of me and

my rotten friends and my rotten life."

He chafed his hands together before him, and his tired eyes fixed

themselves upon something that he seemed to see out of the window and

glared at it fiercely.

"I should like," said he, "to die on the day after her wedding, and so

be out of her way forever. I don't want her to have any shadows cast

over her from the past. I don't want her to open closet doors and find

skeletons there. I want her to be free--free to live the sort of life

she was born to and has a right to."

He turned sharply upon the younger man.

"You've seen her!" he cried. "You've talked to her; you know her! Think

of that girl dragged about Europe with me ever since she was a little

child! Think of the people she's had to know, the things she's had to

see! Do you wonder that I want to have her free of it all, married and

safe and comfortable and in peace? Do you? I tell you it has driven me

as nearly mad as a man can be. But I couldn't go mad, because I had to

take care of her. I couldn't even die, because she'd have been left

alone without any one to look out for her. She wouldn't leave me. I

could have settled her somewhere in some quiet place where she'd have

been quit at least of shady, rotten people, but she wouldn't have it.

She's stuck to me always, through good times and bad. She's kept my

heart up when I'd have been ready to cut my throat if I'd been alone.

She's been the--bravest and faithfulest--Well, I--And look at her! Look

at her now! Think of what she's had to see and know--the people she's

had to live with--and look at her! Has any of it stuck to her? Has it

cheapened her in any littlest way? No, by God! She has come through it

all like a--like a Sister of Charity through a city slum--like an angel

through the dark."

The Irishman broke off speaking, for his voice was beyond control, but

after a moment he went on again, more calmly:

"This boy, this young Benham, is a fool, but he's not a mean fool.

She'll make a man of him. And, married to him, she'll have the comforts

that she ought to have and the care and--freedom. She'll have a chance

to live the life that she has a right to, among the sort of people she

has a right to know. I'm not afraid for her. She'll do her part and

more. She'll hold up her head among duchesses, that girl. I'm not afraid

for her."

He said this last sentence over several times, standing before the

window and staring out at the sun upon the tree-tops.

"I'm not afraid for her.... I'm not afraid for her."

He seemed to have forgotten that the younger man was in the room, for he

did not look toward him again or pay him any attention for a long while.

He only gazed out of the window into the fresh morning sunlight, and his

face worked and quivered and his lean hands chafed restlessly together

before him. But at last he seemed to realize where he was, for he turned

with a sudden start and stared at Ste. Marie, frowning as if the younger

man were some one he had never seen before. He said:

"Ah, yes, yes. You were wanting to go out into the garden. Yes, quite

so. I--I was thinking of something else. I seem to be absent-minded of

late. Don't let me keep you here."

He seemed a little embarrassed and ill at ease, and Ste. Marie said:

"Oh, thanks. There's no hurry. However, I'll go, I think. It's after

eleven. I understand that I'm on my honor not to climb over the wall or

burrow under it or batter it down. That's understood. I--"

He felt that he ought to say something in acknowledgment of O'Hara's

long speech about his daughter, but he could think of nothing to say,

and, besides, the Irishman seemed not to expect any comment upon his

strange outburst. So, in the end, Ste. Marie nodded and went out of the

room without further ceremony.

He had been astonished almost beyond words at that sudden and

unlooked-for breakdown of the other man's impregnable reserve, and dimly

he realized that it must have come out of some very extraordinary

nervous strain, but he himself had been in no state to give the

Irishman's words the attention and thought that he would have given them

at another time. His mind, his whole field of mental vision, had been

full of one great fact--_the girl was to be married to young Arthur

Benham_. The thing loomed gigantic before him, and in some strange way

terrifying. He could neither see nor think beyond it. O'Hara's burst of

confidence had reached his ears very faintly, as if from a great

distance--poignant but only half-comprehended words to be reflected upon

later in their own time.

He stumbled down the ill-lighted stair with fixed, wide, unseeing eyes,

and he said one sentence over and over aloud, as the Irishman standing

beside the window had said another.

"She is going to be married. She is going to be married."

It would seem that he must have forgotten his previous half-suspicion of

the fact. It would seem to have remained, as at the first hearing, a

great and appalling shock, thunderous out of a blue sky.

Below, in the open, his feet led him mechanically straight down under

the trees, through the tangle of shrubbery beyond, and so to the wall

under the cedar. Arrived there, he awoke all at once to his task, and

with a sort of frowning anger shook off the dream which enveloped him.

His eyes sharpened and grew keen and eager. He said:

"The last arrow! God send it reached home!" and so went in under the

lilac shrubs.

He was there longer than usual; unhampered now, he may have made a

larger search, but when at last he emerged Ste. Marie's hands were over

his face and his feet dragged slowly like an old man's feet.

Without knowing that he had stirred he found himself some distance away,

standing still beside a chestnut-tree. A great wave of depression and

fear and hopelessness swept him, and he shivered under it. He had an

instant's wild panic, and mad, desperate thoughts surged upon him. He

saw utter failure confronting him. He saw himself as helpless as a

little child, his feeble efforts already spent for naught, and, like a

little child, he was afraid. He would have rushed at that grim

encircling wall and fought his way up and over it, but even as the

impulse raced to his feet the momentary madness left him and he turned

away. He could not do a dishonorable thing even for all he held dearest.

He walked on in the direction which lay before him, but he took no heed

of where he went, and Mlle. Coira O'Hara spoke to him twice before he

heard or saw her.

* * * * *

XXV

MEDEA GOES OVER TO THE ENEMY

They were near the east end of the rond point, in a space where

fir-trees stood and the ground underfoot was covered with dry needles.

"I was just on my way to--our bench beyond the fountain," said she.

And Ste. Marie nodded, looking upon her sombrely. It seemed to him that

he looked with new eyes, and after a little time, when he did not speak,

but only gazed in that strange manner, the girl said:

"What is it? Something has happened. Please tell me what it is."

Something like the pale foreshadow of fear came over her beautiful face

and shrouded her golden voice as if it had been a veil.

"Your father," said Ste. Marie, heavily, "has just been telling me--that

you are to marry young Arthur Benham. He has been telling me."

She drew a quick breath, looking at him, but after a moment she said:

"Yes, it is true. You knew it before, though, didn't you? Do you mean

that you didn't know it before? I don't quite understand. You must have

known that. What, in Heaven's name, _did_ you think?" she cried, as if

with a sort of anger at his dulness.

The man rubbed one hand wearily across his eyes.

"I--don't quite know," said he. "Yes, I suppose I had thought of it. I

don't know. It came to me with such a--shock! Yes. Oh, I don't know. I

expect I didn't think at all. I--just didn't think."

Abruptly his eyes sharpened upon her, and he moved a step forward.

"Tell me the truth!" he said. "Do you love this boy?"

The girl's cheeks burned with a swift crimson and she set her lips

together. She was on the verge of extreme anger just then, but after a

little the flush died down again and the dark fire went out of her eyes.

She made an odd gesture with her two hands. It seemed to express fatigue

as much as anything--a great weariness.

"I like him," she said. "I like him--enough, I suppose. He is good--and

kind--and gentle. He will be good to me. And I shall try very, very

hard, to make him happy."

Quite suddenly and without warning the fire of her anger burned up

again. She flamed defiance in the man's face.

"How dare you question me?" she cried. "What right have you to ask me

questions about such a thing? You--what you are!"

Ste. Marie bent his head.

"No right, Mademoiselle," said he, in a low voice. "I have no right to

ask you anything--not even forgiveness. I think I am a little mad

to-day. It--this news came to me suddenly. Yes, I think I am a little

mad."

The girl stared at him and he looked back with sombre eyes. Once more he

was stabbed with intolerable pain to think what she was. Yet in an

inexplicable fashion it pleased him that she should carry out her

trickery to the end with a high head. It was a little less base, done

proudly. He could not have borne it otherwise.

"Who are you," the girl cried, in a bitter resentment, "that you should

understand? What do you know of the sort of life I have led--we have led

together, my father and I? Oh, I don't mean that I'm ashamed of it! We

have nothing to feel shame for, but you simply do not know what such a

life is."

Though he writhed with pain, the man nodded over her. He was so glad

that she could carry it through proudly, with a high hand, an erect

head.

She spread out her arms before him, a splendid and tragic figure.

"What chance have I ever had?" she demanded. "No, I am not blaming him.

I am not blaming my father. I chose to follow him. I chose it. But what

chance have I had? Think of the people I have lived among. Would you

have me marry one of them--one of those men? I'd rather die. And yet I

cannot go on--forever. I am twenty now. What if my father--You yourself

said yesterday--Oh, I am afraid! I tell you I have lain awake at night a

hundred times and shivered with cold, terrible fear of what would become

of me if--if anything should happen--to my father. And so," she said,

"when I met Arthur Benham last winter, and he--began to--he said--when

he begged me to marry him.... Ah, can't you see? It meant

safety--safety--safety! And I liked him. I like him now--very, very

much. He is a sweet boy. I--shall be happy with him--in a peaceful

fashion. And my father--Oh, I'll be honest with you," said she. "It was

my father who decided me. He was--he is--so pathetically pleased with

it. He so wants me to be safe. It's all he lives for now. I--couldn't

fight against them both, Arthur and my father, so I gave in. And then

when Arthur had to be hidden we came here with him--to wait."

She became aware that the man was staring at her with something strange

and terrible in his gaze, and she broke off in wonder. The air of that

warm summer morning turned all at once keen and sharp about

them--charged with moment.

"Mademoiselle!" cried Ste. Marie. "Mademoiselle, are you telling me the

truth?"

For some obscure reason she was not angry. Again she spread out her

hands in that gesture of weariness. She said, "Oh, why should I lie to

you?" And the man began to tremble exceedingly. He stretched out an

unsteady hand.

"You--knew Arthur Benham last winter?" he said. "Long before his--before

he left his home? Before that?"

"He asked me to marry him last winter," said the girl. "For a long, long

time I--wouldn't. But he never let me alone. He followed me everywhere.

And my father--"

Ste. Marie clapped his two hands over his face, and a groan came to her

through the straining fingers. He cried, in an agony: "Mademoiselle!

Mademoiselle!"

He fell upon his knees at her feet, his head bent in what seemed to be

an intolerable anguish, his hands over his hidden face. The girl heard

hard-wrung, stumbling, incoherent words wrenched each with an effort out

of extreme pain.

"Fool! Fool!" the man cried, groaning. "Oh, fool that I have been! Worm,

animal! Oh, fool not to see--not to know! Madman, imbecile, thing

without a name!"

She stood white-faced, smitten with great fear over this abasement. Not

the least and faintest glimmer reached her of what it meant. She

stretched down a hand of protest, and it touched the man's head. As if

the touch were a stroke of magic, he sprang upright before her.

"Now at last, Mademoiselle," said he, "we two must speak plainly

together. Now at last I think I see clear, but I must know beyond doubt

or question. Oh, Mademoiselle, now I think I know you for what you are,

and it seems to me that nothing in this world is of consequence beside

that. I have been blind, blind, blind!... Tell me one thing. Why did

Arthur Benham leave his home two months ago?"

"He had to leave it," she said, wondering. She did not understand yet,

but she was aware that her heart was beating in loud and fast throbs,

and she knew that some great mystery was to be made plain before her.

Her face was very white. "He had to leave it," she said again. "_You_

know as well as I. Why do you ask me that? He quarrelled with his

grandfather. They had often quarrelled before--over money--always over

money. His grandfather is a miser, almost a madman. He tried to make

Arthur sign a paper releasing his inheritance--the fortune he is to

inherit from his father--and when Arthur wouldn't he drove him away.

Arthur went to his uncle--Captain Stewart--and Captain Stewart helped

him to hide. He didn't dare go back because they're all against him, all

his family. They'd make him give in."

Ste. Marie gave a loud exclamation of amazement. The thing was

incredible--childish. It was beyond the maddest possibilities. But even

as he said the words to himself a face came before him--Captain

Stewart's smiling and benignant face--and he understood everything. As

clearly as if he had been present, he saw the angry, bewildered boy,

fresh from David Stewart's berating, mystified over some commonplace

legal matter requiring a signature. He saw him appeal for sympathy and

counsel to "old Charlie," and he heard "old Charlie's" reply. It was

easy enough to understand now. It must have been easy enough to bring

about. What absurdities could not such a man as Captain Stewart instil

into the already prejudiced mind of that foolish lad?

His thoughts turned from Arthur Benham to the girl before him, and that

part of the mystery was clear also. She would believe whatever she was

told in the absence of any reason to doubt. What did she know of old

David Stewart or of the Benham family? It seemed to Ste. Marie all at

once incredible that he could ever have believed ill of her--ever have

doubted her honesty. It seemed to him so incredible that he could have

laughed aloud in bitterness and self-disdain. But as he looked at the

girl's white face and her shadowy, wondering eyes, all laughter, all

bitterness, all cruel misunderstandings were swallowed up in the golden

light of his joy at knowing her, in the end, for what she was.

"Coira! Coira!" he cried, and neither of the two knew that he called her

for the first time by her name. "Oh, child," said he, "how they have

lied to you and tricked you! I might have known, I might have seen it,

but I was a blind fool. I thought--intolerable things. I might have

known. They have lied to you most damnably, Coira."

She stared at him in a breathless silence without movement of any sort.

Only her face seemed to have turned a little whiter and her great eyes

darker, so that they looked almost black and enormous in that still

face.

He told her, briefly, the truth: how young Arthur had had frequent

quarrels with his grandfather over his waste of money, how after one of

them, not at all unlike the others, he had disappeared, and how Captain

Stewart, in desperate need, had set afoot his plot to get the lad's

greater inheritance for himself. He described for her old David Stewart

and the man's bitter grief, and he told her about the will, about how he

had begun to suspect Captain Stewart, and of how he had traced the lost

boy to La Lierre. He told her all that he knew of the whole matter, and

he knew almost all there was to know, and he did not spare himself even

his misconception of the part she had played, though he softened that as

best he could.

Midway of his story Mlle. O'Hara bent her head and covered her face with

her hands. She did not cry out or protest or speak at all. She made no

more than that one movement, and after it she stood quite still, but the

sight of her, bowed and shamed, stripped of pride, as it had been of

garments, was more than the man could bear.

He cried her name, "Coira!" And when she did not look up, he called once

more upon her. He said: "Coira, I cannot bear to see you stand so. Look

at me. Ah, child, look at me! Can you realize," he cried--"can you even

begin to think what a great joy it is to me to know at last that you

have had no part in all this? Can't you see what it means to me? I can

think of nothing else. Coira, look up!"

She raised her white face, and there were no tears upon it, but a still

anguish too great to be told. It would seem never to have occurred to

her to doubt the truth of his words. She said: "It is I who might have

known. Knowing what you have told me now, it seems impossible that I

could have believed. And Captain Stewart--I always hated him--loathed

him--distrusted him. And yet," she cried, wringing her hands, "how could

I know? How could I know?"

The girl's face writhed suddenly with her grief, and she stared up at

Ste. Marie with terror in her eyes. She whispered: "My father! Oh, Ste.

Marie, my father! It is not possible. I will not believe--he cannot have

done this, knowing. My father, Ste. Marie!"

The man turned his eyes away, and she gave a sobbing cry.

"Has he," she said, slowly, "done even this for me? Has he given--his

honor, also--when everything else was--gone? Has he given me his honor,

too? Oh," she said, "why could I not have died when I was a little

child? Why could I not have done that? To think that I should have lived

to--bring my father to this! I wish I had died. Ste. Marie," she said,

pleading with him. "Ste. Marie, do you think--my father--knew?"

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