The woman who had come into the room stood silently staring at him for
a moment, her lips slightly parted, her young breasts taut and pressing
tightly against the silken constriction of a dress that did full
justice to their voluptuous roundness. The dress was pale blue, with
a plunging neckline, and its semi-transparency seemed to accentuate
her beauty beyond the scope of Nature's design. Absolute nudity could
hardly have enhanced her loveliness at that moment, for she seemed more
than unclothed to the inner eye, wrapped in a splendor so revealing
that for an instant Loring could scarcely breathe.
Her femininity was so extreme as to seem unbelievable. She was all
woman, her very stillness a male-stirring miracle. It excited him
instantly and overwhelmingly, so that all of his thoughts became
centered on her, and he forgot that he was in love with another woman.
He forgot even that there were strict physical limits to any one man's
capacity to experience desire.
He felt himself to be not one man but ten thousand, each from a
different age, each bursting with an uncontrollable urge to clasp and
hold, and satisfy to satiety the most primal and compulsive of human
needs.
The wonder of her, and the strangeness, the voluptuous softness and
sweetness enticed him away from reality and then drew him back to the
throbbing, pulsating core of Nature's supreme reality, and held him
captive there, caught up in a web of time-obliterating instinct which
reason and all of Man's higher faculties had made the opposite of blind.
She seemed both a wanton and a wanton's opposite: a virginal and
tender creature, shy and withdrawn. Her very breathing seemed to
whisper: "I could be to you mistress and wife, dear companion and
seductive enchantress, mature woman and girl-child, first love of the
boy you once were and still are in dreams of youth which will never
fade. I could be your lady in ermine, a goddess of fertility rites,
a Paleolithic woman with great breasts swelling, and a Grecian Venus
rising slender-limbed from the foam."
Even as he heard the whisper deep in his mind, the whisper of a
voice that was hers, surely, though it seemed to float through his
consciousness like a feather blown about at random by the slow rise
and fall of her breathing--even as he heard the voice her physical
attributes seemed to change.
She became a woman of woodland enchantment, a slender nymph darting
in and out between the trees of an autumn-colored forest, her skin
berry-stained. She became a woman pirouetting on a stage, clad like a
Russian ballet dancer. She became a dancer in flowing robes, moving in
slow, sensual rhythm under the spell of a weaving baton. The baton rose
and fell, gleamed and swayed and the music became tumultuous, and then,
abruptly, the baton ceased to move and there was only silence and
darkness on the stage.
Then, all at once, he saw her again as she really was, standing with
slightly parted lips within reach of his arms, so unbelievably near
that he could have clasped her and drawn her to him by taking a single
step forward. The fantasies conjured up by the voice--were they
hallucinatory or merely mind-beguiling?--became shadowy and unreal, and
her actual physical presence was all that concerned him.
In daring dreams Loring had, like most men, imagined what it would be
like to make instant and completely uninhibited love to a woman without
preamble and with no need to rely on past acquaintanceship, however
brief, or to summon to his aid any of the social devices by which ardor
without limit, can be excused or palliated in the eyes of the world.
It was primitive, perhaps, but he had often imagined himself walking
between the huts of a South Sea Island village, seeing in a doorway
a brown native girl who set his pulses to pounding and wasting not a
second's time in gathering her into his arms and carrying her inside
the hut. The girl would have to be willing, of course, even eager. Even
in his most audacious dreams Loring was not a brute.
Making love that impetuously was certainly frowned upon by society,
even if a man wasn't a brute, and very difficult to achieve in reality,
because almost all women preferred the slower, more graceful and
romantic approach. The whispering of at least a few sweet nothings into
a woman's ear could work wonders and it helped to have known her for
at least ten or fifteen minutes.
In sober fact, Loring had never quite been able to reconcile himself
to an amatory pattern that was taken for granted in the Village. You
went to a party and met a girl you liked and slept with her the same
night. He liked to tell himself he couldn't be shocked and yet, almost
invariably, he was shocked. Some vestigial Puritan remnant deep in his
nature, perhaps. He was glad that it hadn't happened that way between
Janice and himself.
And yet, strangely enough, he experienced no such inhibiting emotional
reaction when he looked deep into the eyes of the woman standing
before him. He felt completely freed from all conventional restraints,
untouched by scruples of any kind. Her eyes both mocked and challenged
him, with an almost animal sensuality, as if even his few seconds of
hesitation were wholly inexcusable and were becoming intolerable in her
sight.
She was unsurpassably young and vibrant, a temptress with sultry eyes
and heaving bosom. Her lips were full, red and curving, her hair
silvery blonde, her skin fair and smooth, unmarred by the tiniest
blemish.
She gave a little cry when he seized her. At the touch of his hands on
her back and thighs a spasmed aliveness took possession of her and she
writhed in his clasp with an ardor that drove the blood in torrents
from his heart. Her lips were fire, her kisses a burning that dissolved
the barrier of flesh where their tongues met in molten sweetness.
Her body molded itself to his, pressing against the hard muscles of
his chest and thighs. His own passion equaled hers for an instant and
then surpassed it, and in the fierce, unrelenting masculinity of his
embrace she became suddenly passive, content to surrender completely
to his guidance. But in that very surrender there was a continuing
wild responsiveness, a fervor that matched his own, as if she had been
caught up in a wilderness of desire where bright bursts of lightning
forked down and the trees were sheathed in flame.
He had lifted her up and was carrying her toward the bed, the passion
seething within him making him oblivious of his surroundings and
blotting from his mind all thought of Janice, when his hand on the
throbbing warm flesh of her thigh, just above the knee, encountered a
startling coldness. An obstruction and a coldness--something solid and
very hard which sent a shock through his arm when he touched it.
For an instant his fingers tingled and he felt a sudden, very acute
stab of pain, as if he had touched an open electric circuit. It was
followed by a burning sensation, and a distinct mental shock, a feeling
of blank bewilderment verging on horror. Suddenly the room became very
real again, and he remembered that it was Janice's room, Janice's bed.
A sickening sense of guilt and self-reproach swept over him. But only
for the space of a dropped heartbeat. The obstruction beneath his
hand was too mysteriously strange for even guilt to obliterate as an
immediate, impossible-to-ignore threat to his sanity.
The object was metallic and unmistakably disk-like. Beneath his
exploring fingers its configuration dispelled all uncertainty as to its
shape and it had the smoothness, the coldness, and the general feel
of a metal object. It was about three inches in diameter and seemed to
be embedded in the flesh of her thigh. There were no wires or prongs
projecting from it. The shock had come from the disk itself, but there
was no further shock as his fingers rested upon it.
He found himself tugging at it, without quite knowing why he felt such
a compulsive need to find out all that he could about it except that it
filled him with alarm and foreboding.
The woman in his arms was still clinging to him, her arms tight about
his shoulders, her body moving with the slow, voluptuous amorousness
that kisses could distract but for an instant. She seemed unaware
that he had found the metal disk, so entranced was she by the soaring
breathlessness of a moment from which the mechanical was by necessity
barred and kept at bay by love's physical rapture in a temple of love's
own choosing. She was breathing heavily now, her eyes glazed, a deep
flush suffusing her face and throat.
But Loring's pulses were no longer pounding. Her kisses were feverish
and had to be returned, but he returned them now without enthusiasm, a
cold fear constricting the muscles of his heart. A dozen frightening
questions clamored in his mind for answers that did not satisfy him,
and did nothing to lessen his dread.
Was the disk a surgical device of some sort? If it was, what was its
purpose and function? A metal plate inserted in a man's skull could
protect his brain from damage, if natural suturing failed. But why
should a metal device be embedded in the flesh of a woman's thigh,
just above her right knee? What possible purpose could it serve?
Had some unusual and tragic accident left her partially paralyzed? Was
the metal disk a surgical device designed to restore the circulation
or correct the impaired muscular flexibility of an injured limb? An
electrical device? It seemed probable, since touching it had given him
a shock. But the rest of it was hard to accept. The shock had been more
than physical. Momentarily it had done something to his mind, chilling
him to the core, and making him remember something that he had once
read--that a man in the grip of stark fear can lose all sexual drive.
But why had his discovery of the disk so profoundly alarmed him? Why
had he experienced such sharply mounting apprehension? It was merely
an electrically charged metal appliance, small, flat and circular
and--yes, not unlike a hearing aid. Could it be a hearing aid? He would
have liked to believe so, but it seemed unlikely. No woman, however
vain, would wear a hearing aid on her right thigh.
Her hands were moving back and forth across his back, and she was
moaning a little and pressing her lips against his throat. He knew that
he could not maintain the pretense of desire much longer, that she
would begin to suspect he was responding like an automaton, with the
desperate clumsiness of a man whom heated kisses and the most fervent
of body movements could no longer arouse.
He felt detached, remote in some vital part of himself, with a cold
objectivity growing in his mind which he could neither explain
nor understand. There was a pain in his heart also, an agony of
indecision. He was backed up against the bed now, his arms still tight
about her, but love's culmination would now be a mockery and something
deep in his nature rebelled at carrying pretense that far.
It was incredible, it stunned him, because he was susceptible beyond
the average--so overwhelmingly so that there were times when the mere
touch of a beautiful woman's hand on his arm could set him to trembling.
And now he was clasping a woman who was almost savage in her direct
approach to passion, a woman utterly without inhibitions, primitive
as few women would have dared to be. But a woman of flesh and blood
notwithstanding, with an eagerness to love and be loved that was as
human as his own demanding need of her had been.
_That was as human_.... The thought was insidious at first, a small,
gnawing doubt in an obscure recess of his mind, emerging fearfully
crawling out into the light like some tiny rodent with razor-sharp
teeth.
Hadn't her great beauty seemed from the first almost unendurably
tormenting, as if no woman had a right to be quite so beautiful and to
drive a man to such a wild, uncontrollable frenzy of desire? Hadn't
he felt for an instant that she could have very easily destroyed him,
simply by withholding her favors and refusing to let him touch her? And
the fierceness of his desire, his feeling that all of his ancestors
lived in him and desired her with a deep, racial urgency, a Dawn
Man's primitiveness--hadn't that been a little different from the
strong virile desire which a perfectly normal, civilized man of ardent
temperament would feel even in the presence of an extraordinarily
beautiful woman?
He was completely human, all too human, and it was useless to pretend
that he hadn't found the going a little rugged at times since he'd set
himself the difficult task of staying loyal to just one woman. It had
been tough, but he had proved to himself that he could do it. Not once,
but a dozen times. And yet, when he had taken this strange woman into
his arms something dark and terrible had stirred in his blood, and
blotted out every loyalty.
Why? What did it mean? The metal disk on her thigh, her great beauty,
the strangeness of her. The strangeness.... There was something in the
Song of Songs about that. "The magic and wonder of a strange woman."
According to Biblical legend there were two women in Eden. There
was Eve, who was Adam's lawful wife. And there was Lilith, the
enchantress, the dark sorceress, a creature of fire and dust who was
not human and who gave birth to demons. But Lilith was beautiful beyond
imagination--more maddeningly desirable than a human woman could ever
be.
She was clothed in garments of flesh, but she was not flesh. She was
the eternally seductive female that Man cannot do without, lest his
manhood wither on the vine. He must pursue and clasp her, in wild
dreams of madness and desire, or his Earthbound lovemaking will be
futile and absurd and living women will turn from him to seek a more
accomplished lover elsewhere.
The sorceress came bearing gifts--the greatest of all gifts, a wealthy
fruitage that was hers alone to share. "Love me at your peril," she
whispered, "but love me well, or you will be less than a man and you
will live to regret it. Why should you fear the kind of love I bring
you? All life is uncertain; all men dwell in the shadow of the grave.
But there is one supreme fulfillment, one joy that, once experienced,
can never be taken from you. I am Lilith, all woman, all soft yielding
flesh, and I have come to you alone, in a secret place, and in the
joining of our bodies there is rapture unspeakable."
They were not the words of the woman in his arms. That Loring knew.
But still they found an echo in his thoughts, as though the woman he
was clasping could see deep into his mind and knew that from myths and
dreams and legends Man had built an imperishable inner world that no
reality, however harsh, could wholly shatter and destroy.
And what if modern science could illuminate and transform that world
without altering its strangeness and its dangerous beauty, making it
in every respect real? What if modern science, with the technical
knowledge of intellectual giants and the lightning at its fingertips
could create a Lilith? A woman of more than human beauty but still
in every way a woman. A woman not fashioned of fire and dust but of
living, breathing flesh, laboratory-created, perfect, flawless, in
every aspect of her being.
Only a fool would think it impossible. Had not modern science achieved
as great a miracle when it had released the wild stallions at the
Atom's core? Why not ... why not? Modern science or--a technology alien
to Earth?
Both were possible. There could be intelligent life on Mars, on Venus.
What was it H.G. Wells had said? Great cool minds watching us, plotting
our destruction....
The woman in Loring's arms spoke then, for the first time. She was
no longer clinging to him, no longer moving her limbs in amorous
abandonment and tugging at his hands in an effort to draw them to the
warm cavern between her taut young breasts.
"Yes," she said.
Loring's temples began to pound. He stared at her wordlessly, looking
deep into her eyes, unable to believe what he saw there. A calmness, a
quiet depth of understanding--even a measure of pity. "Those were not
all your thoughts," she said. "Some of them were mine."
"Who are you?" Loring breathed.
"Lilith," she said. "As you have thought of what such a woman could be
to you if you believed in her as a scientific reality. Lilith, in that
sense. Your dark enchantress--if my hair were not silvery blonde and
my eyes were not blue. Laboratory created. Yes, that's true. And the
disk gives me life and warmth and fire. I am a telepath. I can read
your thoughts. But you were not supposed to know that. And you were
not supposed to discover the disk. You stirred me beyond reason and I
became careless. Your too eager hands...."
She sighed and the pity in her eyes seemed to deepen, widening her
pupils in an unfathomable way.
"The harm is done now. There is nothing I can do. If I hadn't told you
you would have tugged at the disk and I would have gone limp in your
arms. Then your curiosity would have become insatiable. Fear alone
would have made it insatiable. I know exactly what you would have done."
"What--would I have done?"
"You would have ceased to be a lover. You would have become ruthlessly
scientific and clinical. You would have stretched me out on the bed
and removed all of my clothes. You would have examined me from head
to foot, not sparing even the pores of my skin. Without a magnifying
glass you would be handicapped, not quite as well equipped as one of
those thorough little men whose task it is to peer at beetles under
glass or butterflies pinned to a board, or a human body stretched out
naked and helpless on a mortuary slab. But you would have seen enough
to disillusion you. No woman can be peered at quite that relentlessly.
Even a body like mine is not perfect. There are a few flaws."
Loring drew in his breath sharply. She had drawn away from him and was
sitting on the edge of the bed, a faint, enigmatic smile on her lips.
Then the smile vanished and her eyes clouded over.
"I am sorry. It is all very serious--and I am deeply troubled. I did
not intend to speak with bitterness or levity. But sometimes levity
helps when you are inwardly greatly disturbed."
"Good God, if I really believed--" Loring's mouth had gone dry and he
had difficulty in getting the words out. "You don't actually expect me
to believe--"
"How much proof do you need? If I hadn't the ability to anticipate some
of your thoughts would you know as much as you do about me? Telepathy
at that level of complexity would only be possible between a human and
a not entirely human mind. Surely you must realize that. The faculty is
more highly developed in me than it is in you, but it is strong enough
in you to be stimulated artificially when our minds are in contact."
"Then you must have wanted me to know."
"Up to a point. Your erotic ardor might have been less intense if you
had thought me completely human. There would have been less mystery to
stir you and make you my slave."
"Your _slave_! You must be quite mad."
"Oh, no, I'm not. You may think the shoe was on the other foot, but it
wasn't, not for a moment. You have a term for it. Love slave. Don't
misunderstand me. That is not a reflection on your masculinity, on the
relationship that exists between a man and a woman in biological sense.
No truly feminine woman wants to dominate a man in a love relationship,
and no really masculine man would stand for it. But I am not talking
about the purely physical relationship. In an ultimate sense it is the
woman who enslaves the man, by her beauty. If that beauty is great
enough he becomes her slave night and day. He thinks of nothing else,
desires nothing else."
It was a subject that Loring had always felt so strongly about that for
an instant he forgot his fear, his growing bewilderment and even the
threat implicit in her reference to him as a slave.
"Slave is too harsh a term for that kind of entanglement," he said.
"The world calls such a man a romantic fool or a fool for love. But
I've never had any objection to being that kind of a fool. What else
in life is one-tenth as important? There's nothing else that you can
be completely sure of; that no one can take away from you once you've
experienced it. Even the memory is better than a Long Island estate or
seven Cadillacs and almost anything else I can think of that I wouldn't
pass up if it were offered me. A poet once put it better than I could:
'Who gets more than the lovers, in the dust, in the cool tombs?'"
"I wasn't thinking about tombs," she said. "But it could be very
serious for you."
"Why? Because I wouldn't object too strenuously to being what you
foolishly call a love slave?"
"Yes. Because, you see, that's why you were chosen. Because you feel
that way. And that's why Janice Reece was chosen."
Loring started, his lips tightening, his face becoming pale beneath
his summer tan. "Chosen? What do you mean? Are you talking about what
happened here this morning, when Janice woke up? The man in her room?"
"You shouldn't have to ask that. Why do you suppose you found me here?
I'm surprised you didn't have more curiosity right at the start. You
couldn't think of anything, see anything, but the cut of my dress and
the way it clung to me, and I'll be very blunt--the bed on the other
side of the room."
She looked at him steadily, almost angrily, but he had the feeling
she wasn't angry because of what he had done. She was angry in a more
impersonal way, as if she were cursing fate for bringing about a
tragedy which should never have taken place.
"They wanted you to make violent love to me and you did," she said. "At
least, you started to. And your lovemaking was very wonderful. It would
have stirred a woman of ice. If my response was all that they could
have desired, it wasn't a pretense. I want you to know that. When you
took me into your arms I could have--well, never mind. It's over now,
and you're in very great danger. I wish there was something I could do."
"There is," Loring said, trying to keep his voice steady, but not quite
succeeding. "You can stop talking in insane riddles. You say you're
not entirely human. But I can't accept that. I've the kind of mind
that just can't adjust to a thing like that. Speculating about it and
telling yourself that it's not impossible, not beyond the scope of
what modern science could accomplish, isn't quite the same thing as
out-and-out acceptance. You look too human, act too human, you're warm
and alive. You're right here with me, and I took you in my arms and
kissed your eyes and lips and hair. I can't believe--"
"You must believe," she said, "because it is true. I am completely
human in a physical way, with warm human blood in my veins, and a heart
that beats steadily; and I can be stirred to passion like any young
girl by the caresses of a lover. Even my mind is human, although there
may be certain differences. If you could see my brain it would not
startle you. No medical student would be puzzled or disturbed by it. It
is no larger or in any way different from the brain of a quite ordinary
woman."
She paused and moistened her lips, still looking at him steadily. "I
have warm blood in my veins and I can be as yielding and generous as
any man could desire. But I'm unlike any other woman. I was never born."
He started to speak, but she silenced him with a gesture. "Don't look
so startled. Have I not prepared your mind for such a revelation? Does
it not follow the pattern of your thoughts a moment ago, when our
thoughts merged? I was never born. I was laboratory-created. But I was
not created by _human_ science. Human science has soared miraculously
and a tiny, furry creature with bulging eyes has descended from the
trees and become a big-brained biped who has exploded the energies at
the core of matter, explored the universe through a great, stationary
eye for millions of light years and may yet succeed in disrupting a
sun, and hurling a blinding incandescence through space as a symbol of
what Man alone can accomplish."
She nodded, her eyes beginning to shine. "Yes, human science can
accomplish miracles, but it has not yet succeeded in reproducing the
human form in all of its complexity--brain, heart, arteries, bone
structure, the pulse of life itself--within a transparent incubator
bright with nutrient fluids, weaving filaments of flame, stabbing
needles of nuclear energy...."
She stopped, her breath quickening, and lowered her eyes. "I have told
you too much," she went on with a slight tremor in her voice, as if she
were forcing herself to remain calm, but knew that she was treading on
dangerous ground. "There are some things I can't tell you. They would
destroy me instantly if I told you more than a small part of what I
know. I am in danger because you discovered the disk which controls my
breathing, my pulse rate, and my ability to move about at will. But you
are in much greater danger. You are in danger because you were able to
resist me. They may feel that their plans are in jeopardy."
"Their plans--"
"Let me talk. Let me say what has to be said now, before I think about
it too much and fear make a coward of me. If you who are a fool for
love--I am only repeating what you told me and what they believe about
you--if _even you_ could resist me, more hard-headed, practical men who
think of love only as a diversion, and often hate themselves when they
succumb to it, men who sit in high places and rule the Earth with a
humorless kind of harshness, may not succumb at all."
She had raised her eyes and was looking at him steadily again, with an
unexpected warmth and sympathy in her gaze. "It is not a mistake to
think of love as the most important thing in life. I agree with you.
It is. There is a greatness in living that only love can make complete
and glorious. Even though I am not completely human I know that without
desire, without the need to give and receive love, my brain and heart
would shrivel. But not all women feel that way. And not all men. There
are some men who so despise love that they think of it as shameful, the
physical act of love as a degradation."
"I know," Loring said. "And they are tragically crippled men."
"You are not crippled," she said. "That is why you were chosen. They
had to make a test first, a carefully controlled exploratory--"
She hesitated, an evanescent smile hovering for the barest instant
on her lips and then vanishing, leaving her eyes even more deeply
troubled.--"The technical term for it, in human laboratory experiments
is, I believe, 'test run.' They had to make a test run with just one
man and one woman before my great beauty could be transformed into a
weapon for the conquest of Earth."
Loring stared at her wordlessly, stunned, unbelieving. He would have
liked to trust his reason completely, to dismiss what she had said as
the meaningless ranting of a madwoman. But somehow he couldn't quite
ignore the look of desperate appeal in her eyes, her aspect of absolute
sanity. He had turned deathly pale.
"You must believe me," she went on quickly. "I am risking destruction
by telling you this. They have a plan for world conquest which is
audacious beyond anything the human mind could have conceived,
audacious and terrible, with every detail coldly thought out, weighed,
decided upon. I will become not one woman, but many. I am the first,
but there will be others. A thousand women with my lips and hair and
eyes, and my white and beautiful limbs that almost brought you to your
knees in adoration. A thousand women like me will be laboratory-created.
"A thousand women and a thousand men. Your Janice saw the man when she
awoke this morning. There are men who only have to look once at a woman
and she begins to tremble. Her breathing quickens and she knows only
the insensate joy of immediate and complete surrender."
Her lips were trembling slightly and she cast an apprehensive glance
toward the door, then went on quickly. "Your Janice is a very
strong-willed young woman. When she saw the stranger in her room she
was startled and frightened at first. That was only to be expected. She
had just awakened and it was only natural for her to experience nothing
but fear for a moment. Then she lost her fear but she was not instantly
and overwhelmingly drawn to him. She should have been, but she wasn't.
She was very strongly attracted to him, but she did not lose control."
Loring moistened his lips. "She told me," he said. "She told me exactly
how she felt. But what happened when he left the apartment made me
jealous beyond reason."
"That was a hypnotic illusion, deliberately introduced into her mind.
I will tell you a strange thing. When her breath did not quicken with
passion, anger overcame him. He did not step forward and embrace her
simply because he could not. _We must not make the first advance._
Deep in our minds they have implanted a command: If you do not succeed
instantly, do nothing. Your presence alone must stir the chosen ones to
an ardor they are powerless to resist. We cannot judge the strength of
that ardor otherwise.
"Do you understand? She did not respond with instant, overwhelming
ardor and he could do nothing. He stood there as if paralyzed, staring
at her. He is as human as I am in that respect. In that moment of
repudiation--and it was a repudiation even though his physical nearness
stirred her--he experienced great bitterness and anger. But he had to
pretend that he was not angered. So he advanced to the bed, kissed her
lightly on the forehead and left the apartment.
"Then I think _they_ lost their heads for a moment. It is what I
have been told. They introduced into her mind an erotic fantasy, so
powerful, so compelling, that she was powerless to resist. They know
that to the human mind an erotic trance, dreamlike and unreal, can be
more compulsively irresistible than any waking moment of rapture and
abandonment, enforced by fervent kisses and caressing hands. In dreams
of desire, the human mind is completely set free. All inhibitions
are dissolved. But such dreams cannot last. They do not permanently
enslave, because the dreamer is bound by no physical chains."
"But--"
"Listen carefully. You must listen. That erotic fantasy accomplished
nothing, proved nothing. They realized that almost at once. They were
defeated and discouraged. Your Janice had disappointed them and she had
been one of the chosen two--a fool for love. Now you have disappointed
them. Your ardor cooled too quickly. You remembered how completely, how
desperately you loved her and you ceased to desire me. Do not tell me
otherwise. I know better. Your discovery of the disk may have helped to
cool your ardor, but she was the real reason. She is all beauty and all
grace in your sight. She is the mistress of your heart and will always
remain so."
A sardonic smile appeared for an instant on her lips. "I should be
angry, as he was angry. But I am not. I do not know why, but there is
something about you."
She sighed and looked away quickly. "Perhaps some impulse, some pattern
of behavior they implanted in me went wrong. Perhaps I myself distorted
it. I feel for you a strange liking--"
Suddenly she laughed, a little wildly and was instantly sober again.
"We must not talk about such things. The danger is too great. Even now
they may be--"
"Tell me," Loring said, and his voice sounded strange to his own ears.
"Who are _they_? I must know."
She started to speak and then, all at once, her body stiffened and a
look of horror came into her eyes. She clutched at her right thigh
and half rose from the bed, her lips livid, and her mouth twisting
strangely, as if she had been gripped by a spasm of sudden, almost
unendurable pain.
She staggered and almost fell and then in that instant she seemed to
age. Her face took on a waxy pallor and hollows appeared in her cheeks,
so that the bones of her face became faintly visible. Her skin sagged a
little, losing much of its firmness and even the fresh look of youth.
Her great beauty remained. Nothing could efface it, for the very
structure of her face was beautiful, its every lineament a miracle of
loveliness. That beauty was marred now, but only by stark fear and the
deceptive aging which great shock imparts at times to even the very
young.
That she had had a very great shock, Loring knew the moment she began
to scream.
She staggered and almost fell and then she was swaying back against the
wooden bedstead, clutching it with both hands in an effort to steady
and support herself. The next instant she was on the bed, doubled over,
her body straining forward, her breath coming in choking gasps.
One leg was crumpled under her, the other thrust out straight, and
on the smooth, unblemished flesh of her thigh Loring saw a circle of
flame take shape and grow to the size of a half-dollar. As the circle
grew its brightness increased, until it blazed with light and fire,
enveloping both limbs in a blinding radiance.
Loring had to look away quickly, and when he looked back the woman was
no longer moving. She was sprawled out on the black satin bedspread,
her head thrown back, her hair a tumbled mass that lay in shining
strands across her white breasts and unmoving shoulders.
She had torn open the front of her dress and there was a bleeding gash
on the smooth flesh of her throat in an effort to relieve her torment.
Loring went to the bed and stood over her, feeling a tightness in his
chest. His breathing was ragged, and his heart had begun a furious
pounding.
He thought for an instant that she was dead. Then he saw that a faint
flush suffused her cheeks and that her eyes were not expressionless.
Her eyes were wide open and she was staring up at him. There was
awareness in them, but it was not the awareness of recognition. It was
as if she knew that a man was standing by the bed looking down at her,
but did not know who that man was or why he had drawn near to her.
He reached out and put his hand on her bare shoulder. Her skin was
warm, almost hot to his touch. She stirred slightly and a questioning
look came into her eyes. Shaken as he was, that almost imperceptible
moving of her body in response to his touch made him feel almost as
he would have felt if he had deliberately caressed her and she had
shivered with pleasure and shown him unmistakably that she was not
displeased.
Nothing had been further from his mind, but now he found himself
wondering what would happen if he touched her again, and this time more
boldly.
He reached down and gently cupped one of her breasts, taking care to
let his fingers encircle its smooth roundness without suggesting that
he was engaged in anything more than a medical examination. He told
himself that he felt that way about it--a purely clinical test.
Something terrible had happened to her. He had to find out just how
terrible as quickly as possible. Any kind of response would tell him
whether her reason had been shattered completely and could not be
restored, or whether she was merely in a state of shock and could be
aroused by guiding her firmly along pathways of passion, taking care
to think of himself only as a concerned and solicitous physician.
That and nothing more. But he was not prepared for the violence of
her response and the sudden, almost convulsive tightening of her arms
about him. He had not expected her to come so instantly alive again,
with lips so demanding that he found himself struggling to breathe,
smothered by the insatiable frenzy of her kisses. Her mouth melted into
his, her tongue became a darting shape of fire, fluttering, pulsating
within the cavern of his mouth. She was a moth with fiery wings
fluttering, a wild temptress.
Her hands moved up and down and across his back, and her mouth unlocked
itself and fastened on his ear, nibbling first at the lobe and then
whispering softly into the chambered recess words of love sweet beyond
endurance, dripping with the honey of forbidden ecstasies, unimagined
delights.
"No," he whispered, but found himself surrendering to her guidance and
then, suddenly, he was guiding her, anticipating her every desire,
responding to every writhing of her body, every straining of her lips
with a passion now as great as her own and now surpassing it, for
he was not a man who needed to be instructed in the refinements and
subtleties of love.
What sobered him he never knew. But something did. One moment he was in
a golden paradise with no memory of how he had come to be there and no
desire to depart and the next he saw a woman with glazed eyes arising
from his side, and movements so blind and purposeless that they chilled
him and made his blood run cold. He saw her arise from the bed and
step swayingly to the floor and move away from him across the room, her
shoulders held rigid, her arms pressed stiffly to her side.
He called out to her and she turned and stared at him for a moment,
the veins in her white throat pulsing, her moist red lips slightly
parted. Her cheeks were still flushed and her bosom rose and fell with
her breathing, rose and fell with a slow trembling and she seemed
aroused still and if he had pleaded with her he was sure she would have
come running back to him. But he did not plead, because there was no
recognition in her eyes.
Her eyes were cold, empty, drained now of all expression. But it
was not only her eyes that chilled him. It was the jerkiness of her
movements, the stiffness, the rigidity. He had never seen a woman move
in that way before.
The woman who stood facing him was not dead and yet she was moving. Not
as a living man or woman would move, but as an automaton would move if
it were clothed in garments of flesh, and knew more about life than an
automaton should know and had perhaps even held converse with the dead.
She did not wait for him to call out to her again, but turned and
continued on until she stood before the door. She remained for an
instant motionless, staring at the white panels on both sides of the
door and then raised her head and stared up at the ceiling, as if the
room was totally unfamiliar to her and she was puzzled and disturbed to
find herself imprisoned within it.
Then slowly, jerkily, her hand went out and fastened on the knob of the
door and it turned in her clasp. She opened the door and went out into
the hall and closed it very firmly behind her.
The instant the door closed Loring started to get up from the bed. He
quickly discovered that he could scarcely move at all. His limbs seemed
weighted and when he tried to raise his arms agonizing stabs of pain
darted through them.
He sank back against the pillows, feeling alarmingly light-headed, his
vision beginning to swim. The room seemed to waver and recede, the
floor to tilt, the furniture take on grotesque and unfamiliar contours.
The chairs elongated, the mirror above the mantel misted and seemed to
melt, the pictures on the wall changed color. Blues became yellows,
yellows blues, the purples deepened, the reds and greens faded out.
Landscapes changed their pattern, hills dissolved, rivers widened or
broke up into dozens of small streams that snaked in all directions
over a gray and desolate plain.
The walls seemed to converge and increase in height and then to sweep
away from him like the sides of a towering wave receding from a
crippled ship, caught in a gigantic storm-wind and whirled helplessly
about.
He saw the door opening as in a glass darkly, the knob a glowing ember
amidst a weaving wilderness where nothing else glowed except the faint
outlines of dissolving shadow-shapes.
There was someone in the room with him now, but he could not see the
intruder clearly, only the looming massiveness of his shoulders and his
flickering shadow on the walls.
He could hear the slow, heavy shuffling of the shadow-caster's feet,
however, and his labored breathing, and a more distant sound as of
glass shattering as the intruder drew near to him.
He struggled to rise but could not and fell back with a groan, his
shoulders jerking as he tried desperately to move his arms and propel
himself backwards against the wall at the head of the bed.
The intruder's bulk seemed to grow larger, to hover so ominously above
him that if he had been some monster of hideous legend with drooling
fangs and fire-ensheathed limbs he could hardly have inspired more
terror or seemed more on the verge of leaping toward him, sinking cruel
talons in his flesh and tearing him limb from limb.
Then, quite suddenly, his vision cleared and he saw that the intruder
was just such a monster!
With a convulsive contraction of his entire body Loring managed somehow
to retreat further, to hurl himself backwards against the wall. But he
might as well have remained where he was. The intruder's arm went out
and up, and something white and glowing flowed from the shadowy end of
his arm and hovered above Loring like an air-suspended shroud.
He had no way of knowing that it was not a shroud but a net, quivering
as it unfolded--a floating web that remained hovering above him for an
instant and then slowly descended, enmeshing and imprisoning his limbs.
"You must come with us," a cold voice said. "We must study you further.
We are not content with what has happened here."