CHAPTER VIII

Mrs. Brutt Suggests

AT a side-table in the morning-room, with its green carpet, faded

green curtains, and air of general usefulness, Doris sat at work over

the library books. Murmured interjections of disgust, on behalf of her

dainty finger-tips, broke from her, as she handled covers which had

passed through the "grubbiest" village grasps. She touched them

gingerly.

Behind her, at the centre table, stood Mrs. Winton, cutting a roll

of coarse flannel into lengths. No gingerly touches here, or wasted

moments. Mrs. Winton was an expert with her scissors.

Neither had spoken for some time. Thus far, no more had been said

on the vexed question of Hamilton Stirling's letter; but Doris knew

that her refusal to show it was not forgiven. An atmospheric

disturbance prevailed. More than once she had said to herself,

"I'd rather have a good explosion, and have done with it!"

Yet somehow she had not named her encounter with Hamilton. In a

general way she would have mentioned it freely. But Mrs. Winton's

question had produced an uncomfortable consciousness; and she could

not now talk of him quite naturally. So she took refuge in not

speaking of him at all.

The silence came to an end.

"You did not tell me that you had seen Mr. Hamilton Stirling

yesterday."

Doris pasted with diligence.

"No, I didn't. Why should I? He's always in and out there."

"You gave me the impression that you had seen only Mr. Stirling and

Katherine."

"I never said so."

"One may convey a wrong impression without any actual untruth."

Mrs. Winton did not speak unkindly, but she was troubled; and she

found herself at a disadvantage, facing Doris's back. "It was not

quite like you."

Doris turned hastily.

"Mother—I can't help people's impressions. I simply said nothing,

because—"

Mrs. Winton waited in vain for the end of the sentence.

"He was not only there, but you and he bicycled back together. Mrs.

Stirling came in an hour ago to speak to me. She was motoring back

from a party with some friends; and they saw you and him in the road,

standing and talking, as if—"

"As if—what?" proudly. For this sentence, too, remained unfinished.

"She was much surprised that I had heard nothing. Why did you not

tell me?"

"Because I knew, if I did, I should be badgered half out of my

senses." Doris returned to her work, pasting with hands that shook

a little.

"You never used to speak to me in such a tone." Mrs. Winton was really

hurt. "I cannot think what has come over you lately. Mrs. Stirling

evidently thinks that you said or did something which Hamilton did not

like. She wanted to know from me what had passed, since she could not

get him to explain."

"I don't see that it is any business of hers."

"No business of his mother's!" Mrs. Winton moved two steps nearer,

and examined the sleeve of Doris's blouse. "You should get out this

grease-spot."

"It's not grease!" The girl quivered under Mrs. Winton's handsome

but ponderous hand.

"Certainly it is grease. You must see to it. But about Hamilton

Stirling—I want to give you a word of warning. If you go on as you are

doing now, you will end by driving him away. He is not a man to stand

rebuffs."

"Horrid man! Let him go, and welcome! I don't want him to come

bothering me."

"I don't think you mean what you are saying."

"Yes, I do. He puts me out of all patience."

Doris had swung round, after a night's rest, to a mood many degrees

less favourable to her admirer. "And I can't stand being worried about

him, mother. If I liked him ever so much—and I don't—at least I think

I don't—that would be enough to turn me against him. All I want is to

be let alone."

She flung a book down tempestuously, and vanished from the room,

leaving Mrs. Winton to uneasy reflections.

That the mother should be solicitous for her child's happiness was

only natural; and she honestly believed that marriage with Hamilton

would ensure that happiness. True, some people counted him a bore,

and others reckoned him something of a prig; but he was always

agreeable to Mrs. Winton herself. She had watched his attentions from

the first with approval; but had been often exercised over her

daughter's erratic changes of mood. One day Doris would be all smiles

and graciousness; another day she would hardly vouchsafe a glance in

his direction. One day she would welcome a letter from him with

barely-veiled delight; another day she would toss it aside with a

disdainful—"Old bones again! What a bother!"

To Mrs. Winton this meant real anxiety. How to set things right

she did not know; and it never occurred to her that the sensible plan

was to do nothing. She had yet to learn the wisdom, in such affairs,

of holding patiently aloof.

Doris, meanwhile, catching up a garden hat, made her way to Clover

Cottage. It was by no means the first time that she had fled for

comfort, after a passage-at-arms, to her new crony, Mrs. Brutt.

She did not mean to betray aught that had passed. She only wanted to

be soothed and made happy again. But once in the power of that astute

widow, she let slip a good deal more than she knew. Mrs. Brutt had a

gift for worming things out of people, without their consent.

It was nice to sit on a low chair, close to the elder lady, beyond the

region of home-worries; to feel kind and approving eyes bent on

herself; to have no fear of fault-finding; to be listened to with

affectionate attention; to be sympathised with compassionately.

"Poor dear child! Yes, I quite understand. You have been so busy,

have you not? And you are quite tired—quite jaded—with it all."

Doris disclaimed fatigue. Yet a wonder crept over her—was this sense

of discontent with her little world, this craving to get away and to

live a different life, really tiredness? She began to pity herself.

"What with classes—meetings—district—shoe-club—library—parish

accounts—errands—"

Truth compelled a protest. Some of these belonged to winter only;

some not to her at all.

"So uncomplaining! Such a brave spirit! Not much leisure for your

own concerns, poor dear child!"

"Well—of course—" admitted the girl.

"Yes, of course—I know. And I can so sympathise with you in your love

of reading. I adore books."

"Mother seems to think it a waste of time to read much in the

morning."

"Ah—true—yes—non-intellectual!" murmured the other, not inaudibly.

"Poor dear child. But, really you know, it is most necessary that you

should have some recreation—apart from the time for study, which—

with your mind—is so needful!"

"I go to lots of tennis-parties and afternoon teas," Doris laughed.

"No end of them. You mustn't think I don't have plenty of fun."

Honesty again compelled this.

Mrs. Brutt surveyed her visitor with a meaning gaze.

"Tennis-parties! Yes. And afternoon teas! Yes. That sort of thing.

Just the country round. Yes. My dear, I wonder if you half guess

what a bewitching creature you are. Positively, neither more nor less

than bewitching. Not at your best to-day, perhaps,—you have been

worried, and that tells. But if you could see yourself—sometimes!"

Doris blushed with pleasure.

"Yours is a sylph of a figure. And there is the sweetest little dimple

when you smile. Yes—just there—" with a touch. "Your play of feature

is simply charming. And your eyes are a true hazel—a blending of green

and yellow and brown and grey. Now I have made you laugh. I like to

see you laugh. It suits you to get excited. You should let yourself go

oftener—give the reins, you know, and not wait to think what anybody

may say."

"But when I do, I'm always sorry afterwards. I'm sure to say the wrong

thing."

Mrs. Brutt ignored this.

"I only wish I had you in London," she said pensively. "Or—better

still—abroad. Meeting all sorts and kinds of people, and making no end

of new friends. It would do you such good. And you would be a success,

Doris."

"Should I?"—wistfully.

"No doubt of it—with your figure,—your eyes—your complexion. Such a

pretty creamy-white, and such a delicate rose-carnation. And you hold

yourself well—you have such a natural air and pose. And you talk well,

too. Oh, you would take everybody by storm. I know!"

She launched into a detailed description of life in foreign towns;

of going from hotel to hotel, finding always delightful people,

meeting with the élite of society. Incidentally she gave her hearer

to understand that her own past career had been one long series

of social triumphs, and that her present retired existence formed

a dismal contrast. She piled her colours massively; and Doris's "daily

round" could hardly fail to wear a dingy hue, seen alongside.

"You should get your father to let you travel for a few months. Not,

of course, alone, but with some older friend. Somebody who could take

you about, and introduce you to the right people. Everything depends

upon that."

"I should love to go with you," Doris said warmly. "But—no chance

of such a thing!"

"My dear, I should love nothing better. Well—we shall see. Sometimes

impossible things become possible. Who knows? Are you going to

luncheon at Lynnthorpe on Friday? You had better drive there with me,

unless you prefer your bike."

Doris thought she would prefer to drive. She was disinclined for

another tête-à-tête with Hamilton quite so soon. She went home, elated

at having been made much of, and having become in her own eyes

something of a martyr.

Mrs. Brutt suffered from no twinges of conscience. On the contrary,

she felt pleased with the progress made. Lynnbrooke was dull; and she

was bent upon going abroad in August. She liked the notion of a young

and pretty girl by way of companion; one whom she could show off, and

who would have no voice in arrangements. An older person might be

troublesome.

In a certain allegorical tale, published long ago, a pilgrim, named

"Good-Intent," came across a company of men, groaning under the weight

of heavy chains. They had not discovered their miserable condition,

till some officious passer-by had taken the trouble to point it out;

whereupon, cheerfulness gave place to melancholy. That the chains

existed only in their fancy, as a result of "suggestion," did not

lessen their actual unhappiness.

Mrs. Brutt was doing the work of that officious passer-by. She was

pointing out to Doris fetters in her life, which till then had not

seemed to be fetters.

Of course the girl had trials; who has not? Of course she had to do

things which she did not enjoy doing; who, again, has not? But though

the fetters might not be a matter of pure imagination, their weight

could be very much exaggerated.

Mrs. Brutt gave to vague dissatisfaction a definite voice. She

magnified small frictions into serious troubles. Doris was

warm-hearted, impressionable, easily swayed; and the elder lady knew

how to manipulate such materials.

Not that she meant to do harm. Few people do. All she wanted was

to bring about her own ends; to amuse herself, to make time pass

pleasantly. She was kind-hearted, and by fits and starts she would go

out of her way to help others. But in the main hers was a self-seeking

nature.

Theoretically she knew little about the force of suggestion; but

practically she was an adept in the use of that weapon. This is always

possible. A duck may be an excellent swimmer, with no understanding

of the theory of swimming.

Probably few of us grasp the tremendous potency of "suggestion,"

as exercised by one mind over another. Half the temptations that meet

us may be simply the whispered "suggestions" of evil spirits. Half the

helpful and comforting thoughts which arise in our minds may be the

murmured "suggestions" of angels.

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