CHAPTER XXXIV

Joyce had just come in from her morning walk. She was standing in the

middle of the room with her hat, which she had just taken off, in her

hand. And Mrs. Hayward had been making some remarks to her, such as

mothers often, and step-mothers in some cases, feel it their duty to

make. It was on the subject of the Sitwells, whom Mrs. Hayward regarded

in their poverty (notwithstanding that the parsonage-house had been

begun, and things were on the whole going well with them) with a certain

contempt.

‘I think, indeed, you prefer such people to those of your own class.’

This was what Mrs. Hayward was saying when Baker, still more

contemptuous of the inferior world than she, opened the door. ‘There is

a person,’ he said, ‘asking for Miss Hayward.’

‘A person--one of your district people, no doubt. They come at all

hours. There really must be a stop put to this, Joyce.’

‘Well, ma’am, it’s a male person, with a haccent,’ said Baker--‘not one

from these parts.’

‘Miss Hayward can’t see every idler who chooses to ask for her: inquire

his name,’ said the mistress of the house.

And no premonition crossed the mind of Joyce. She stood to receive the

interrupted lecture, with her head a little bent, and her hat in her

hand. She never made any stand for herself on such occasions, nor said a

word in self-defence--probably afraid to trust her voice, and too proud

to squabble. This made her, it need scarcely be said, very provoking to

her step-mother, and aggravated any original offence in the most

insufferable way. She stood quite silent now, waiting till she should be

dismissed. And to tell the truth, Joyce, in the multitude of her

thoughts, was very sick of everything about her, and of the friends for

whom she was incurring reproof, and of the petty fault-finding which

seemed to surround her steps wherever she went. Mrs. Hayward did not

resume her lecture. She sat down, slightly flushed and angry, expectant

to see what new visitor might betray Joyce’s inclination towards shabby

persons. ‘Mr. Andrew ‘Alliday,’ said Baker, reading from the card. And

then Joyce uttered that cry--her hat fell out of her hand upon the

floor. She started violently, gave a hurried glance round as if looking

for some way of escape, then turned a pale and terrified countenance

towards the door.

‘Joyce!’

The man was quite respectable; his frock-coat made him look like a

Dissenting minister, or perhaps a commercial traveller, or something of

that kind. This was Mrs. Hayward’s bewildered reflection. She sat and

looked on as if it had been a scene in a play.

‘Oh!’ Joyce said, clasping her hands. Then with a great effort she held

out one hesitatingly to the new-comer, and said, ‘Andrew!’ her voice

dying away in her throat.

He seized her hand in both his. Though he loved Joyce, and his heart

bounded at the sight of her, he was also anxious to impress the pampered

menial with a sense of the hideous mistake he had made. ‘My darling!’ he

cried.

Baker did hear, and grew purple with horror, and lingered about the door

after he had reluctantly closed it, to hear more if possible. But Joyce

retreated before the ardent advance of her lover. The light began to

fail in her eyes. She put up her hands faintly to keep him back. ‘Oh,

Andrew! what has brought you here?’ she cried.

‘Who is this--person?’ said Mrs. Hayward, rising from her chair.

Andrew turned round upon her with a smile. ‘It is a long time since we

have met,’ he said. ‘She is a little agitated. She was always very shy.

Another man who did not understand might think this was a cold

reception. But I know her better. You will be Mrs. Hayward, ma’am,

without doubt?’

‘Yes, I am Mrs. Hayward; but what have you to do with Joyce? and how do

you dare to call Miss Hayward by her Christian name?’ cried the lady of

the house.

Andrew smiled again--he was prepared even for this emergency. ‘My name,’

he said, smiling with a complacency which diffused itself all over him,

and shone even in the glister of his well-blacked boots, ‘should be

sufficient passport for me in this house. But perhaps you did not

properly catch my name, for English servants clip the consonants in a

surprising manner. Allow me----’ He had taken out the card-case, that

infallible mark of gentility, and here handed her a card with an ease

and grace to which he felt no objection could be made. Mrs. Hayward,

confounded, read out aloud, ‘Mr Andrew Halliday.’ Underneath, in very

small letters, was written, ‘_Schoolhouse, Comely Green_.’

‘You will at once perceive, ma’am,’ said Andrew, ‘that if I ask to be

left for a little alone with Joyce, I am asking no more than my right.’

‘Alone with Joyce! You want--what do you want? ME to take myself out of

your way! Oh, this is too much!’ Mrs. Hayward cried.

‘It is not too much, madam,’ said Andrew, increasing in dignity, ‘if you

consider the circumstances. It is surely no more than any man in my

position has a right to ask.’

‘Joyce, who is this man? Joyce, do you hear that he wants to turn me out

of my own drawing-room? For goodness’ sake----! Oh, I must call Colonel

Hayward.’

‘That will be just in every sense the best way. The Cornel knows me, and

he will at once understand,’ said Andrew, with the blandest

self-possession. He opened the door for Mrs. Hayward, which he knew was

the right thing to do; and it was sweet to him to feel that he was

acting as a gentleman should from every point of view.

‘Joyce!’ he cried--‘my Joyce! now we are really alone, though perhaps

only for a moment--one sweet look, my own dear!’

Joyce drew back from him, shrinking to the very wall. ‘Don’t,’ she said,

‘don’t!’ retreating from him. Then, with something of her old authority,

‘Sit down there; sit down and tell me, has anything happened? What has

brought you here?’

‘Oh, is that what is wrong?’ he said. ‘I’ve frightened you, my dear one.

No, no--no reason to be frightened. They are all well, and sent every

message. Joyce, can you ask why I came? Because I could do without you

no longer--because I was just longing for a look, for a kind word----’

‘Sit down,’ she said in peremptory tones, ‘sit down!’ She herself kept

standing, leaning upon the glass door which led out to the verandah, her

slender figure standing dark against the light. Her heart beat so, that

there was a thrill and tremble all over her, visible against that

background to which she clung. But it gave her a little relief when he

obeyed her, and deposited himself upon a chair.

‘I am very sorry to have alarmed you, my dear. I thought that when you

heard my name, your first thought would be for me. It was not too much

to expect, was it, after being engaged--for more than a year?’

‘Andrew,’ she said, with a shiver-- ‘Andrew.’

‘What, my dearest? I know you’re very shy--very, very diffident--far

more than you ought to be. If ever girl should have a little assurance,

a little confidence, surely it would be you with me.’

He could not but be superior still--trying to reassure her, to give her

a little boldness, smiling upon her in his most protecting, encouraging

way.

‘Andrew,’ she said again. And then Joyce’s courage failed her

altogether. She seized on any, the first expedient that occurred to her

to postpone all personal questions. ‘You are sure they are well,’ she

said tremulously. ‘Granny--and my grandfather--and all; and not missing

me--not too much--not breaking their hearts----’

‘Breaking their hearts! But why should they, poor old bodies?--the

feelings get blunted at that time of life. So long as they have their

porridge and their broth, and plenty of good cakes--and a cup of tea. It

is me you should ask that question. Do you know you have used me ill,

Joyce? You have written oftener to them than to me--though it is me,’

Halliday said, ‘with whom you have to spend your life--I am not saying

at Comely Green. No doubt you’ve got different notions in a house like

this. It’s always difficult to go back, and I would not wish it--I would

not ask it. But in some more refined, more cultivated place--in some

position like what we read of--like what able men are securing every

day----’ He rose as he spoke, inspired by this conviction, and

approached her once more with outstretched arms.

Mrs. Hayward could not find her husband upstairs or down. He went to his

library invariably after his walk, but he was not there to-day. He had

not gone to his room upstairs. He was not among his flower-seeds in the

closet, where he had at the present season a great deal to do, arranging

and naming these treasures. At last she met him coming in, in his

tranquil way, from the garden, a pot of flowers in his hands.

‘Look at these begonias, my dear. Now isn’t it worth while to take a

little trouble when one gets a result like this? I am carrying it in for

your own little table.’

‘It is a fine time to talk of begonias,’ she cried, pushing away the

plant which he held out to her. ‘Henry, for goodness’ sake hurry into

the drawing-room and put a stop to it at once! That man is there with

Joyce.’

‘That man!’ cried the Colonel, astounded. ‘What man? Bellendean?’

‘Oh, how can you talk! What objections could there be to---- Henry, wake

yourself up, for goodness’ sake! It is the man--the man you would never

tell me of--the schoolmaster--the Scotchman. Go, go! and put a stop to

it. I have been hunting for you high and low. Who can tell what they are

settling all by themselves? Henry, I tell you go and put a stop to it!’

The Colonel put down the pot upon the hall table. He was quite

bewildered. ‘The Scotchman?’ he said; ‘the--the--schoolmaster?--with

Joyce? I suppose, my dear, it must be one of her old friends?’

‘I suppose, my dear, it is the man you--never told me of,’ cried Mrs.

Hayward fiercely. ‘The man she was to marry. Go, I tell you, and put a

stop to it, Henry!’

‘I put a stop to it!’ he said. The Colonel grew red like a girl--he grew

pale--he wrung his hands. ‘Elizabeth, my dear, you know all about that

better than I ever could do; you understand--such things? How could

I--put a stop to it?’ In his trouble he paced up and down the hall, and

knocked against Baker, who was hanging about in the hope of hearing

something, and ordered him off in a stentorian voice. ‘What are you

doing here, sir? Be off, sir, this moment!’ cried the Colonel. Then he

added, apologetic yet angry, ‘These servants take a great deal upon

them. You should teach them their proper place.’

‘Henry,’ cried Mrs. Hayward, ‘it is not like you to save yourself behind

the servants. You must come with me, at least. I insist upon it. What

authority have I over her? If I must interfere, it can only be as

representing you. They may have settled everything by this time,’ she

cried, and seized her husband’s arm. It was not to support him, as he

very well knew, but to drag him to the sacrifice.

Andrew had risen: he had gone towards his love, holding out his arms.

His figure, not graceful in itself, with the long frock-coat coming down

a little too low, and putting him out of drawing, showed against the

light; while Joyce, trembling, pressed against the window, shrinking

from his advance, seemed to stand on the defensive, with a pale and

panic-stricken face. When the Colonel saw this scene, he no longer

needed any stimulant. He dropped his wife’s arm, and, stepping forward

quickly, put his hand upon the intruder’s shoulder. ‘Hey, sir! don’t you

see the young lady is afraid of you?’ he cried.

Andrew turned round at once with a quick recovery, and instantly

extended his hand. He required not a moment to recover himself, being

primed and ready for whatever might happen. ‘How do you do, Cornel?’ he

said; ‘I’m extremely glad to see you. I was telling Mrs. Hayward--as I

presume that lady is, though Joyce, being so shy, did not introduce

me--I was telling her that this happy meeting would be incomplete

without a sight of you.’

‘What do you want here, sir?’ cried the Colonel. ‘What have you to do

with my daughter?’ Then Colonel Hayward’s natural courtesy checked him

in spite of himself. ‘I--I beg your pardon,’ he said, after a moment.

‘Perhaps I’m making a mistake--perhaps it’s me you want, and not my

daughter. Joyce, no need to be frightened, my love, when your father’s

here.’

Andrew had not given way an inch. He had no want of courage. He

confronted the angry warrior without flinching. ‘What do I want here,

Cornel?’ he said. ‘I see you have forgotten me. I have just come to see

_her_. It is natural I should want to see the young lady I am engaged

to. You took her away in such a hurry, I had no time to make any

arrangement. But nobody will doubt my right to come and see her, I

suppose. Joyce, my dear one----’

‘Be silent, sir!’ the angry Colonel cried.

Andrew shrugged his shoulders. ‘Silent or not, it makes little

difference. Words between you and me, Cornel, will change nothing,’ he

said.

‘Joyce,’ cried the Colonel, with a gasp, ‘what does this fellow mean?

You are almost fainting with terror. Go away, and leave me to deal with

this man.’

‘She’ll not do that,’ said Andrew calmly.

‘She’ll not do that? She shall do what I wish, sir, I can tell you, and

nobody shall interfere with her actions in her father’s house.’

‘She’ll not do that, Cornel, for this good reason, that Joyce will never

give up her word pledged and her promise given. If you think so, it is

clear you know very little of Joyce, Colonel Hayward, though you are her

father,’ Halliday said.

He did not look at Joyce to intimidate her. He held up his commonplace

head; and though he was of unimposing stature, and his frock-coat was

too long, the schoolmaster looked every inch a man. His homely features

grew dignified, his attitude fine. The Colonel stared at him, silent,

not comprehending the transformation; while Joyce, roused too by this

subtle change in the air, stood upright apart from the window on which

she had been leaning, and turned to her father with a steadiness which

was given at once by the sudden stimulus and by the rising despair.

‘Father,’ she said, ‘it is quite true. I--did not expect him--and it

gave me a shock. I thought perhaps--he might be bringing ill news. It is

true,’ she said, after a pause; ‘I am engaged--to Andrew Halliday. He

has a right to come--for me----’ Her voice stopped again. She stood

quite still for a moment, then flinging herself suddenly on the

Colonel’s shoulder, ‘Oh, _father_! FATHER!’ she cried.

‘What do you think of this, sir?’ cried the Colonel, clasping her fast

with one arm, holding out the other with an oratorical wave.

‘I think just what she has said herself, that she is excited and

overdone. I am very sorry I did not write and tell her I was coming. It

would have saved her all this. But her nerves were not in this agitated

state in the old days. I would like to know what you have been doing to

my betrothed among you in England,’ the schoolmaster said, ‘to make her

like this.’

Colonel Hayward was too angry, too much bewildered and agitated, to

reply. He took Joyce to the sofa, and made her sit down. ‘My dear

child,’ he said, ‘you must not let yourself be intimidated--you mustn’t

give way. You may be sure you are quite safe. Nobody shall bully you or

put forth a false claim upon you here.’

Mrs. Hayward had not said a word all this time, her husband having

unexpectedly risen to the height of the occasion. Elizabeth knew how to

hold her tongue. But she intervened now with calm authority. ‘We’ve no

right to say it is a false claim,’ she said, ‘till we know more about

it; but you can see for yourself, Mr.--Mr. Halliday, that she is not in

a state now to have it proved. Come back later; nothing can be done now.

Come back in the evening, and my husband will see you finally.’

‘Finally!’ said Andrew. ‘You will see me finally, ma’am, when I take

away my wife--but not till then. After that, you may be sure I will have

little temptation to show myself in this house.’

The schoolmaster was roused. All that was best in him--his real love,

his true independence, his sense of manhood, all came to his aid. He

knew his rights and his power, and that no father could crush a lover so

determined. But though he said these words with genuine and indignant

feeling, the utterance of them brought another side of the question back

to his mind. If it came to that--yes; he was man enough to carry his

love away, herself alone, as he had wooed her for herself alone. But

nobody but he knew how many glorious visions, how many hopes, would be

cut off if he shook the dust from off his feet and resolved to cross

that threshold no more. He would not give up Joyce, but he as good as

gave up the headmastership--that dream of glory. He saw it melt away in

the air, the baseless fabric of a vision. He felt himself come down,

with a giddy sense of descent and failure, and become once more Andrew

Halliday, schoolmaster, Comely Green. He had even perhaps a little

neglected Comely Green for the sake of that too sweet, too tempting

illusion. And now he must resign all thought of it, all hope. The

renunciation thrilled through all his nerves, as he stood there facing

the prejudiced and foolish people who did not perceive what it was they

were throwing away. But even this did not shake his faith in himself and

his confidence in his rights. He cast a glance which was full of

compassion yet disapproval at the group on the sofa. ‘I can see,’ he

said, ‘that Joyce is too much agitated to be responsible, and that the

Cornel is excited and unable to see the rights of the situation.

Therefore, ma’am, I will take your advice. It is not the reception I had

a right to expect; but, nevertheless, I have full faith in Joyce when

she comes to herself. I will withdraw till this evening. No ceremony, I

beg,’ cried Andrew hurriedly. ‘I will find my way out--there’s no need

for any one to open the door.’ Even in the midst of questions so much

more serious, he remembered that it would be bitter indeed to show his

discomfiture to the pampered menial who had admitted him. That at least

he would not endure.

Mrs. Hayward followed him out of the room, sparing him this indignity.

Perhaps the sight of Joyce leaning upon her father, absorbing his every

thought, was as little agreeable to her as to Andrew. If Joyce was in

trouble, it was at least her own making, whereas the innocent people

whom she dragged into it had done nothing to deserve it. Mrs. Hayward

regarded Andrew with angry contempt, but she was not without a certain

fellow-feeling for him as a sufferer from the same cause. His air of

terrible respectability, his coat, his hat, his gloves, everything about

him, were so many additions to the sins of Joyce. And yet she felt

herself more or less, as against Joyce, on Andrew’s side. She stood

behind him while he opened the door, grimly watching all his

imperfections. The back-door, she said to herself, the servants’ hall,

would have been his right place. And yet, if the man spoke the truth, he

was quite a fit and proper match for Joyce!

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