Andrew Halliday had not spent a pleasant summer, and the winter closed
in upon him with still less consolation. His love, his ambition, and all
his hopes were centred in Joyce, and his mind was greatly distracted
from those occupations which hitherto had filled his life. He no longer
took the satisfaction he once had done in perfecting the school at
Comely Green, in pushing on his show pupils, and straining every nerve
for the approbation of the inspectors, and to acquire the reputation of
the best school in the district. All his pleasure in the nice
schoolhouse, which he had once inspected with such bright hopes,
thinking what a home Joyce would make of it, what a place it would be,
superior to all other schoolhouses, under her hands, which embellished
everything--was gone. And even his Shakespeare class, and all the
intellectual enthusiasms in which he had been stimulated by her, and
which were the pride of his life and buoyed him up, with that sense of
culture and superiority which is one of the most ineffable and
delightful of human sensations, failed to support him now. For that
beatific condition requires calm, and Andrew was no longer calm. He kept
looking night and day for a summons into higher spheres. He dreamed of
headmasterships in the ‘South’ which would be opened to him; of noble
English schools where every boy was a little lord, and for which his own
intellectual gifts, apart from any vain paraphernalia of university
degrees, would, backed by Colonel Hayward’s influence, make him
eligible. It may seem strange that a man of any education should have
believed in anything so preposterous; but Halliday was very ignorant of
the world, though he was entirely unaware of that fact, and had no
experience out of his own narrow circle. Little as this is recognised,
it is nevertheless true that a clever man in his position is capable of
misunderstandings and mistakes which would be impossible to a dolt in a
higher sphere. He did not know that he had as little chance of becoming
a headmaster in a great school, by dint even of the greatest of natural
gifts, as of becoming Prime Minister--far less, indeed, for political
genius might force a way in the one direction, while the most exalted
intellectualism would do nothing in the other. Andrew, bewitched by hope
and aspiration, and the novel and intoxicating sense of having ‘friends’
in high places, whose greatest object in life must be his advancement,
believed and hoped everything which the wildest fancy could conceive.
This made his life much less satisfactory to him in the general, and
reduced the efficiency of the parish school of Comely Green, the success
of which was less to him than it had ever been, and its routine less
interesting. As for the house, and even the new furniture he had bought,
he looked at them with scorn, almost with disgust. What was the little
parlour, which was all that a set of prejudiced heritors allowed to the
schoolmaster, in comparison with the lovely old-fashioned mansions which
he had seen described in books, and which were full of every luxury
which a headmaster could desire? This hope, which at first was almost a
certainty, of better things, made life as it was very distasteful to
Andrew. For the first three months there was scarcely a day when he did
not expect to hear something. When he went out he thought it possible
that a letter, or better, a telegram, might be waiting for him when he
came back--and never stranger approached the school, that his heart did
not beat expectant of the messenger who should bring him news of his
promotion. When the inspector came for his annual examination, Andrew
thought that there was something particular about all that he said and
looked, and that this official was testing him and his success, to see
how he would do for the higher sphere which was opening to receive him.
The inspector happened to have letters to post as he passed through the
village, one with the mystic H.M.S. printed upon it, and the unfortunate
schoolmaster felt his heart beat, believing that it contained his
character, his certificate, the description of himself, which would
justify Government in translating him to a higher and a better sphere;
and in this suppressed excitement and expectation he passed his life.
However, when the summer had given place to autumn a curious thing
occurred to Andrew. Joyce’s letters, which had been short but very
regular, and exceedingly nicely written, and so expressed as to trouble
his mind with no doubts--for, indeed, Andrew was scarcely capable of
doubting the faith of a girl who had the privilege of being chosen for
his mate--suddenly stopped. They had come weekly--an arrangement with
which he was satisfied--and it was not until for the second time the
usual day came and brought him no letter that he began to think her
silence strange. When he heard from Janet, whom he visited regularly,
with great honesty and faithfulness to his promise--though, as a matter
of fact, he was not anxious to be seen to be on terms of intimacy with
such very lowly people--that Joyce had gone abroad with her father, this
seemed a not inadequate excuse for her. Andrew’s heart swelled with the
thought that to him, too, the possibility might soon come of going
abroad for his holidays--a dignity and splendour which in anticipation
raised him to a kind of ecstasy.
And for a time this satisfied him fully. But time went on, and Joyce, he
knew, returned, and yet no communication came. He could not think why
this should be, especially as Janet went on receiving letters, of which
she would read extracts with a scarcely suppressed sense of superiority
which was very galling to the schoolmaster. ‘Ou ay, Andrew; come ben and
tak’ a seat; there’s been a letter. She never lets an eight days pass
without one--she’s just as regular as the clock,’ Janet would say, not
unwilling to inflict that little humiliation; and then she would read to
him a little bit here and there. If it had not been for that still
lively hope, Andrew would have been seriously angry and anxious: and
even when another month had stolen away, he was, though greatly
surprised, yet still willing to believe that she was putting off in
order to give him a delightful surprise at last,--in order to be able to
tell him of some wonderful appointment which she was in the meantime
straining every energy to obtain. But there was no doubt that this
constant suspense did undermine his tranquillity. At the last, his
temper began to suffer; he began to grow jealous and irritable. When the
Captain came back to Bellendean and went to see Janet, and talked to her
for hours about her child--as the old woman reported with as much pride
as her dignity permitted--Andrew took heart again for the moment,
expecting nothing less than that a similar visit should be paid to him,
who certainly, he thought, was much more in the Captain’s way--far more
able to hold a conversation with him on topics either public or
individual than an old ploughman and his wife. But the Captain never
came; and there was no letter, no message, nothing but silence, and a
darkness in which not only the headmastership but Joyce--who, to do him
justice, was more to him than any promotion--seemed to be vanishing
away.
This blank was made all the greater from the fact that Janet in the
meantime never failed to get her letter. Joyce wrote long tender letters
to her beloved granny, telling her everything--and nothing; a fact which
the keen-witted old woman had long ago discovered, but which naturally
she kept to herself, not even confiding to Peter--whose chief amusement
it was to hear these letters read over and over--the deficiency which
she felt. Joyce described all her travels with a fulness which was
delightful to the old people. ‘Ye can read me yon bit again about the
bells and the auld man in the kirk,’ Peter would say; or, ‘Yon about the
muckle hills and the glaciers--as daftlike a name as ever I heard; for
there’s no’ mony glaziers, I’m thinking, yonder away--na, nor plumbers
either.’ Janet fumbled for her spectacles, and got the letter out of a
work-box which had been a present from Joyce, and prepared to read with
every appearance of enthusiasm; but she said to herself, ‘She can tell
me about glaciers and snawy hills, but no’ a word about hersel’.’ It is
doubtful, however, whether Andrew would have perceived this want any
more than Peter. He would have been satisfied with letters about the
glaciers and all the wonders she was seeing; but to have that
information only at second-hand was hard upon him, and it was hard to be
left out. Even if this silence should be caused by her desire to give
him a delightful surprise--even if she were indeed waiting from week to
week always expecting to have that piece of news to tell him--even in
that case it was very hard to bear.
He came to the cottage one evening when the early winter had set in. The
days had grown short and the nights long. The house of Bellendean stood
out with a half-naked distinctness among the bare trees, and every path
was thick with fallen leaves. Through the village street the wind was
careering as though pursuing some one, and breathing with a long sough
that told of coming rain among the houses. A dreary night, with little
light and little comfort in it--not a night to come out for pleasure.
Andrew Halliday had brought a lantern to light him on various parts of
his long walk, and he went in with a gloomy countenance like the night.
The scene was a very homely one: the occupants of the cottage were poor,
with none of the interest that attaches to beauty or youth, and yet
there was much that was touching in the little interior. The supper was
over, the things were all put away; it was nearly time for bed, for they
rose early, and were tired with the work of the day. The Bible was on
the table for the ‘worship’ which was their last waking act. But in the
meantime Peter sat in his old arm-chair beside the fire smoking his last
pipe, his rugged countenance lit up by its proud smile, and a little
moisture in his eyes. The laugh with which he sometimes interrupted the
reading had the far-off sound of a sob in it. Janet sat on the other
side of the fire holding up the page she was reading to the light. It
was Joyce’s last letter. No book in the world had so much charm for
them. It provided their literature for the week, and Peter had nearly
got the current letter by heart before the next came. Out at his work
among the dark wintry furrows, he would sometimes burst forth into an
explosion of that tremulous laughter, repeating over one of the ‘bits’
in Joyce’s letter, saying to himself, ‘It’s just extraordinar’! Whaur
did she get a’ thae remarks, that never would have come into my head,
and me her grandfaither?’ Of this admiration and emotion and tender love
the air of the little room was full.
‘Is that you, Andrew? Dear, man, I hope naething’s the matter--you have
an awfu’ troubled countenance,’ Janet said.
‘There is nothing particular the matter,’ said Andrew grimly, ‘but I’m
tired of waiting for what never comes, and I’m thinking of going up to
London. I thought it best to let you know, in case you might have any
message. Though, as you’re always in correspondence----’
‘Ou ay, we’re always in correspondence,’ said Janet.
‘Just read ower that bit again, Janet, my woman,’ said her husband.
‘It’s real diverting,--just like having a book to read that’s a’ your
ain. Whaur she gets it a’ is mair than I can tell.’
‘No, thank you--I’ve no time,’ said Andrew, ‘and most likely it would
not divert me; for, to tell the truth, I’m very serious, and things have
come to that pass that I must just come to a settlement one way or
other. So if you have any parcel or any message----’
‘But you’re no’ going to throw up the school, or do anything rash? Do
nothing rash, Andrew--that would be the warst of a’.’
‘I hope I’m not an unknown person,’ said the schoolmaster; ‘if I throw
up one I’ll get another, for there’s plenty that knows my value. But I
have no intention to be rash. There’s three days’ vacation for the
preachings, and I am going then.’
‘For the preachings! Dear, lad, would you be away at the preachings?’
Janet cried.
‘Preachings or no preachings, I’m going to London,’ he said, with
impatience. ‘I’ll hear what she has to say; but I’m not a man to be just
kept hanging on. She’ll have to take me or to want me.’ He was much
impressed with the tremendous character of the choice that Joyce would
have to make. It sobered his tone. ‘I hope nobody will think that I
would be hard upon her: but she must satisfy me that all’s well, or
else----’ He did not finish the sentence; but the sternness of the
determination which he would not utter was visible in his eyes.
‘I wouldna speak to her in a tone like that, if I was you. Ye may lead
Joyce with love and kindness many a mile, but ye’ll no’ drive her an
inch--no’ an inch. Though she’s our ain, she has her faults, like every
ither mortal creature. If ye wag your finger at her in the way of a
threat----’
‘He’ll no’ do that,’ said Peter, in a tone of quiet decision, looking
the schoolmaster all over. Andrew was a much younger man, but the arm of
the gigantic old labourer could still have laid him low. Andrew,
however, was irritable and sore, and he looked up with by no means a
conciliatory demeanour.
‘I’ll do what’s becoming,’ he said. ‘I’ll not be dictated to. A man has
a right to know what a woman means that has accepted him for her
husband. Either she’ll fulfil her contract or--we’ll have to come to
other terms.’
‘Oh!’ cried Janet, unable to refrain from that little triumph. ‘Did I
no’ tell ye that? Ye were fain to make friends with yon grand gentleman,
and leave Peter and me on the ither side, but I telt ye ye would be the
first to feel it--and so it’s turned out.’
‘That remains to be seen,’ said Andrew, buttoning his overcoat. ‘It’s a
very dark night, and without a light I could scarcely have kept the
road--though I should know it well enough,’ he added, with a little
bitterness. ‘I was not called upon to take all this trouble to come over
and see you. But I would not go without letting you know. I was not
asking your opinion. The thing is, if you have any message or parcel--I
could take a parcel.’
‘I’m sure I canna tell what I could send her, unless it was some fresh
eggs, or a bunch of the monthly roses off the wa’. She’ll have
everything that heart can desire--and the eggs would be a trouble to ye.
And nae doot she has far better flowers than a wheen late roses off a
cottage wa’.’
Peter had got up while Janet was speaking, and opened his large knife.
‘Len’ me your lantern, Andrew,’ he said, and went out with heavy slow
steps to the little garden, or ‘yaird’ as they called it. He came in, a
minute after, with a branch from the old China rose, which half covered
that side of the house. The old man, with his heavy figure and rugged
countenance, the lantern in one hand and the cluster of pale roses in
the other, might have made a symbolical picture. He set down the lantern
and began to trim off the thorns from the long bough with its nodding
flowers. There could not have been a more wintry posy. The leaves were
curled up and brown with frost; the hips, only half coloured, pale as
the flowers, hung in clusters, glistening with cold November dews; and
the faint roses gave a sort of plaintive cheer and melancholy
prettiness, like the faces of children subdued into unnatural quiet.
‘Ye’ll take her this from her auld folk,’ Peter said.
‘Eh, but it’ll be hard to carry a lang brainch like that: tak’ just the
flowers, Andrew; ye can pit them in your hat.’
‘I’ll take it as it is,’ said Andrew. He was not below the level of that
tender feeling; and though there was a great deal of angry
disappointment, there was love also in his heart. He took the branch of
roses and unripe hips, and frost-bitten leaves, and disappeared into the
darkness with it, with a curt ‘good-night.’ The old couple stood by the
fire, listening to his steps as he went quickly out of hearing; then
shut the door for the night, and opened the Book, and said their prayers
for Joyce,--‘her that Thou gavest us, and that Thou hast taken from us,
we darena doubt for her good; and oh, that a’ the blessings o’ the
covenant may rest upon her bonnie heid!’ It was the petition of every
night, and Janet gave the response of nature (though responses, it need
not be said, were profoundly contrary to all her principles) in a
whispered repetition of the words, and a faint little sob.
Andrew walked the three miles with his lantern in one hand and his long
branch of roses in the other, a strange apparition to have met upon the
road in the darkness of the November night. And next evening he set out,
after having completed all his school work, by the night train, with a
great determination in his heart, and yet many softened and wistful
thoughts. He was going to ‘put it to the touch, to gain or lose it
all,’--repeating to himself over and over Montrose’s noble verse. He was
going to decide his fate: if there was no hope of that headmastership;
if, perhaps, competition and vile interest and patronage--always vile
when they are opposed to one’s self--had rendered all efforts
impossible: to bid them strive no more, since he was content to wait for
the reward of a conscious merit which did not, after all, want any
foreign aid to gain eventually all that was meet; and in the meantime to
secure his love, to insist upon it that no circumstances should separate
him from Joyce. He went over and over in his imagination the interview
he would have with her, fancying how she would excuse herself that she
had waited for good news, and answering, with a little burst of natural
eloquence, ‘Do you think I would not rather have a kind word from your
hand than all the news in the world? Do you think a grand appointment
would make up to me for losing sight of _you_?’ A hundred speeches like
this floated through his mind, and were said over by his lips in the
little preliminary journey to Edinburgh in the chill afternoon. The
thought of going to London was in itself a great excitement too.