The first day of the holidays had also been a delight to Mr. Andrew
Halliday’s virtuous soul. More systematic in all he did than Joyce’s
irregular impulses permitted her to be, he had taken advantage of the
leisure of the morning to enjoy to the utmost the quietness and freedom
of a man who has no rule but his own pleasure for the government of his
time. He got up a little later than usual, lingered over his breakfast,
exhausted the newspaper over which, on ordinary occasions, he could cast
only a hurried glance, and tasted the sweetness of that pause of
occupation as no habitually unoccupied man could ever do. Then he
sallied forth, not, as Joyce did, to dream and muse, but to enjoy the
conscious pleasure of a walk, during which, indeed, he turned over many
things in his mind which were not unallied to happy dreams. For Andrew
had come to a determination which filled him at once with sweet and
tender fancies, and with the careful calculations of a prudent man in
face of a great change in life. He had made up his mind to insist upon a
decision from Joyce, to have the time of their marriage settled. Of this
she had never permitted him to speak. Their engagement had been
altogether of a highly refined and visionary kind, a sort of bond of
intellectual sympathy which pleased and flattered the consciousness of
superiority in Halliday’s mind, but in other respects was sometimes a
little chilly, and so wanting in all warmer demonstration as to carry
with it a perpetual subdued disappointment and tremor of uncertainty.
Had not the schoolmaster possessed a great deal of self-approval and
conscious worth, he might have sometimes lost confidence altogether in
Joyce’s affection; but though he was often uncomfortable with a
sensation of having much kept from him which was his due, he had not as
yet come so far as to be able to imagine that Joyce was indifferent to
him. He could not have done her that wrong. She had met nobody, could
have met nobody, who was his equal, and how was it possible then that
she could be unfaithful? It seemed to Halliday a wrong to Joyce to
suppose her capable of such a lamentable want of judgment.
But he was heartily in love with her at the same time, as well as so
much with himself, and the _régime_ under which she held him was cold.
He had become impatient of it, and very anxious to bring it to an end:
and there was no reason, except her fantastic unreadiness, for delay. He
said to himself that he must put a stop to it,--that he must step
forward in all the decision of his manhood, and impress this
determination upon the weaker feminine nature which was made to yield to
his superior force and impulse. There was no reason in the world for
delay. He had attained all the promotion which was likely for a long
time to be his; and the position of schoolmistress in his parish was
likely to be soon vacant, which would afford to Joyce the possibility of
carrying on her professional work, and adding to their joint means, as
no doubt she would insist upon doing. This was not a thing which
Halliday himself would have insisted upon. He felt profoundly that to be
able to keep his wife at home, and retain her altogether like a garden
enclosed for his private enjoyment, was a supreme luxury, and one which
it was the privilege of the superior classes alone to prize at its
proper value. He had been a prudent young man all his life, and had laid
by a little money, and he felt with a proud and not ungenerous expansion
of his bosom that he was able to afford himself that luxury; but he
doubted greatly whether it would be possible to bring Joyce to perceive
that this was the more excellent way, and that it would be meet for her
to give up her work and devote herself entirely to her husband. He
comprehended something of her pride, her high independence, and even
indulgently allowed for the presence in her of a great deal of that
ambition which is more appropriate to a man than a woman; therefore he
was prepared to yield the question in respect to the work, and to find a
new element of satisfaction in the thought of placing her by his own
side in the little rostrum of the school as well as in the seclusion of
the home. The Board would be too glad to secure the services of Miss
Matheson, so well known for her admirable management at Bellendean, as
the mistress at Comely Green. And thus every exigency would be
satisfied.
He went over his little house carefully, room by room, when he came in
from his walk, and considered what it would be necessary to add, and
what to repair and refresh, for Joyce’s reception. His mind was a
thoroughly frugal and prudent one, tempted by no vain desires, spoiled
by no habits of extravagance. Amid all the fond visions which filled
him, as he realised the new necessities of a double life, he yet
calculated very closely what would be necessary, what they could do
without, how many things were strictly needful, and how and at what
price these additions could be procured. The calculations were full of
enchantment, but they were not reckoned up less carefully. He returned
to them after he had eaten his dinner, and they occupied the greater
part of the afternoon, with many an excursion into the realms of fancy
to sweeten them, although of themselves they were sweet. And it was with
the result of his calculations carefully jotted down upon a piece of
paper in his pocket-book, that he set out before tea-time for
Bellendean, to make known to Joyce his desires and determination, and to
sway her mind as the female mind ought to be swayed, half by sweet
persuasion, half by the magnetism of his superior force of impulse, to
adopt it as her own. The idea that she might insist, and decline to be
influenced, was one which he would not allow himself to take into
consideration, though it lay in the background in one of the chambers of
his mind with a sort of chill sense of unpleasant possibility, which, so
far as possible, he put out of sight.
It was a lovely afternoon, and the road from Comely Green to Bellendean
lay partly by the highroad within sight of the Firth, and partly through
the woods and park of Bellendean House. Everything was cheerful round
him, the birds singing, the water reflecting the sunshine in jewelled
lines of sparkle and light. Andrew could not think of any such black
thing as refusal, or even reluctance, amid all the sweet harmony and
consent to be happy, which was in the lovely summer day.
When he reached the cottage it gave him a little thrill of surprise to
find the door shut which usually stood so frankly open, admitting the
genial summer atmosphere and something of the sights and sounds outside.
It was strange to find the door closed on a summer evening; and an idea
that somebody must be ill, or that something must have happened, sprang
into instant life in Andrew’s mind. His knock was not even answered by
the invitation to come in, which would have been natural in other
circumstances. He heard a little movement inside, but no cheerful sound
of voices, and presently the door was opened by Janet, who, looking out
upon him with a jealous glance through a very small opening, breathed
forth an ‘Oh! it’s you, Andrew;’ and, letting the door swing fully open,
bade him come in. Within he was bewildered to see old Peter and Joyce
seated at the table, upon which the tea-things still stood. There they
were all three, nobody ill, no visible cause for this extraordinary
seclusion. Peter gave him a grim little nod without speaking, and Joyce
put forth--it almost seemed unwillingly--her hand, but without moving
otherwise. He took the chair from which Janet had risen, and gazed at
them bewildered. ‘What is the matter? Has anything happened?’ he said.
There was a pause. Peter drummed upon the table with his fingers, with
something almost derisive in the measured sound; and Joyce half turned
to him as if about to speak, but said nothing. It was Janet who answered
his question. There was a hot flush upon her cheeks--the flush of
excitement and emotion. She answered him shaking her head.
‘Ay, Andrew, there’s something happened. We’re no’ like oursel’s, as ye
can see. Ye wouldna have gotten in this nicht to this afflicted house if
ye had not been airt and pairt in it as weel as Peter and me.’
‘What is the matter?’ he repeated, with increased alarm.
‘Ye better tell him, Joyce. Puir lad, he has a richt to hear. He’s maybe
thought like me of sic a thing happening, without fear, as if it might
be a kind of diversion. The Lord help us short-sighted folk.’
‘What is it?’ he said; ‘you are driving me distracted. What has
happened?’
Upon this Peter gave a short, dry laugh, which it was alarming to hear.
‘He’ll never find out,’ said the old man, ‘if ye give him years to do
it. It’s against reason--it’s against sense--a man to step in and take
another man’s bairn away.’
Joyce was very pale. He observed this for the first time in the
confusion and the trouble of this incomprehensible scene. She sat with
her hands clasped, looking at no one--not even at himself, though she
had given him her hand. It was rare, indeed, that Joyce should be the
last to explain. Halliday drew his chair a little nearer, and put his
hand timidly upon hers, which made her start. She made a quick movement,
as if to draw it away, then visibly controlled herself and permitted
that mute interrogation and caress.
‘It is just what I aye kent would happen,’ said Janet, unconscious or
indifferent to her self-contradictions; ‘and many a time have I implored
my man no’ to build upon her, though I wasna so wise as to tak’ my ain
advice. And as for you, Andrew, though I took good care you should hear
a’ the circumstances, maybe I should have warned you mair clearly that
you should not lippen to her, and ware a’ your heart upon her, when at
ainy moment--at ainy moment--’ Here the old woman’s voice failed her,
and broke off in a momentary, much-resisted sob. Halliday’s astonishment
and anxiety grew at every word. His hand pressed Joyce’s hand with the
increasing fervour of an eager demand.
‘Joyce! Joyce! what do they mean? Have you nothing to say?’
Joyce turned upon him, with a sudden flush taking the place of her
paleness. ‘Granny would make you think that I was not worthy to be
trusted,’ she said; ‘that to ware your heart upon me, as she says, was
to be cheated and betrayed.’
‘No, no,--_I_ never could believe that!’ he cried, not unwilling to
prove the superiority of his own trust to that of the old people, who,
Halliday felt, it would not be a bad thing to be clear of, or as nearly
clear of as circumstances might permit.
Joyce scarcely paused to hear his response, but, having found her voice,
went on hurriedly. ‘People have come that say--that say---- They are
just strangers--we never saw them before. They say that I--I--belong to
them. Oh, I am not going to pretend,’ cried Joyce, ‘that I have not
thought of that happening, many a day! It was like a poem all to myself.
It went round and round in my head. It was a kind of dream. But I never
thought--I never, never thought what would become of me if it came true.
And how do I know that it is true? Grandfather, you and granny are my
father and my mother. I never knew any other. You have brought me up and
cared for me, and I am your child to the end of my life. I will never,
never----’
‘Hold your peace!’ cried Janet. She put up her hard hand against Joyce’s
soft young mouth. The little old woman grew majestic in her sense of
justice and right. ‘Hold your peace!’ she cried. ‘Make no vows, lest you
should be tempted to break them and sin against the Lord. Ye’ll do what
it’s your duty to do. You’ll no’ tell me this and that--that you’ll take
the law in your ain hands. Haud your tongue, Peter Matheson! You’re an
auld fool, putting nonsense into the bairn’s head. What!’ cried Janet,
‘a bairn of MINE to say that she’ll act as she likes and please hersel’,
and take her choice what she’ll do! and a’ the time her duty straight
forenenst her, and nae mainner o’ doubt what it is. Dinna speak such
stuff to me.’
In the pause of this conflict Andrew Halliday’s voice came in,
astonished, yet composed, with curiosity in it and strong
expectation--sentiments entirely different from those which swayed the
others, and which silenced them and aroused their attention from the
very force of contrast. ‘People who say--that you belong to them? Your
own people--your own friends--Joyce! Tell me who they are,--tell me----
You take away my breath. To think that they should have found her after
all!’
They all paused in the impassioned strain of their thoughts to look at
him. This new note struck in the midst of them was startling and
incomprehensible, yet checked the excitement and vehemence of their own
feelings. ‘Ah, Andro,’ said old Peter, ‘ye’re a wise man. Ye would like
to hear a’ about it, and wha they are, and if the new freends--the new
freends’--the old man coughed over the words to get his voice--‘if
they’re maybe grander folk and mair to your credit’--he broke off into
his usual laugh, but a laugh harsh and broken. ‘Ye’re a wise lad, Andro,
my man--ye’re a wise lad.’
‘It is very natural, I think,’ said Andrew, reddening, ‘that I should
wish to know. We have spoken many a time of Joyce’s--friends. I wish to
know about them, and what they are, naturally, as any one in my position
would do.’
‘Joyce’s freends!--I thocht I kent weel what that meant,’ said Janet.
‘Eh! to hear him speak of Joyce’s freends. I thocht I kent weel what
that meant,’ she repeated, with a smile of bitterness. Halliday had
taken her seat at the table, and she went and seated herself by the wall
at as great a distance from the group as the limits of space would
permit. The old woman’s eyes were keen with grief and bitter pain, and
that sense of being superseded which is so hard to bear. She thought
that Joyce had put her chair a little closer to that of the
schoolmaster, detaching herself from Peter, and that the young people
already formed a little party by themselves. This was the form her
jealous consciousness of Joyce’s superiority had always taken, even when
everything went well. She burst forth again in indignant prophetic
strains, taking a little comfort in this thought.
‘But dinna you think you’ll get her,’ she cried, ‘no more than Peter or
me!--dinna you believe that they’ll think you good enough for her,
Andrew Halliday. If it’s ended for us, it’s mair than ended for you. Do
you think a grand sodger-officer, that was the Captain’s commander, and
high, high up, nigh to the Queen herself,--do you think a man like that
will give his dauchter--and such a dauchter, fit for the Queen’s Court
if ever lady was--to a bit poor little parish schoolmaister like you?’
The comfort which Janet took from this prognostication was bitter, but
it was great. A curious pride in the grandeur of the officer who was
‘the Captain’s’ commander made her bosom swell. At least there was
satisfaction in that and in the sudden downfall, the unmitigated and
prompt destruction of all hopes that might be entertained by that
whippersnapper, who dared to demand explanations on the subject of
Joyce’s ‘friends’--friends in Scotch peasant parlance meaning what
‘parents’ means in French, the family and nearest relatives. Janet had
rightly divined that Halliday received the news not with sympathetic
pain or alarm, but with suppressed delight, looking forward to the
acquisition to himself, through his promised wife, of ‘friends’ who
would at once elevate him to the rank of gentleman, after which he
longed with a consciousness of having no internal right to it, which old
Janet’s keen instincts had always comprehended--far, far different from
Joyce, who wanted no elevation,--who was a lady born.
‘Granny,’ said Joyce, with a trembling voice, ‘you think very little,
very, very little--I see it now for the first time--of me.’
‘Me think little of ye! that’s a bonnie story; but weel, weel I ken what
will happen. We will pairt with sore hearts, but a firm meaning to be
just the same to ane anither. I’ve seen a heap of things in my
lifetime,’ said Janet, with mournful pride. ‘Sae has my man; but they
havena time to think--they’re no’ aye turning things ower and ower like
a woman at the fireside. I’ve seen mony changes and pairtings, and how
it was aye said it should make no difference. Eh! I’ve seen that in the
maist natural way. It’s no’ that you’ll mean ony unfaithfulness, my
bonnie woman. Na, na. I ken ye to the bottom o’ your heart, and there’s
nae unfaithfulness in you--no’ even to him,’ said Janet, indicating
Halliday half contemptuously by a pointing finger, ‘much less to your
grandfaither and me. I’m whiles in an ill key, and I’ve been sae, I
dinna deny it, since ever I heard this awfu’ news: but now I am coming
to mysel’. Ye’ll do your duty, Joyce. Ye’ll accept what canna be
refused, and ye’ll gang away from us with a sair heart, and it will be
a’ settled that you’re to come back, maybe twice a year, maybe ance a
year, to Peter and me, and be our ain bairn again. They’re no’ ill
folk,’ she went on, the tears dropping upon her apron, on which she was
folding hem after hem--‘they’re good folk; they’re kind, awfu’
kind--they’ll never wish ye to be ungrateful,--that’s what they’ll say.
They’ll no’ oppose it, they’ll settle it a’--maybe a week, maybe a
month, maybe mair; they’ll be real weel-meaning, real kind. And Peter
and me, we’ll live a’ the year thinking o’ that time; and ye’ll come
back, my bonnie dear--oh, ye’ll come back! with your heart licht to
think of the pleasure of the auld folk. But, eh Joyce! ye’ll no’ be in
the house a moment till ye’ll see the difference; ye’ll no’ have graspit
my hand or looked me in the face till ye see the difference. Ye’ll see
the glaur on your grandfaither’s shoon when he comes in, and the sweat
on his brow. No’ with ony unkind meaning. Oh, far frae that--far frae
that! Do I no’ ken your heart? But ye’ll be used to other things--it’ll
a’ have turned strange to ye then--and ye’ll see where we’re wanting.
Oh, ye’ll see it! It will just be mair plain to ye than all the rest.
The wee bit place, the common things, the neebors a’ keen to ken, but
chief of us, Peter and me our ainsels, twa common puir folk.’
‘Granny!’ cried Joyce, flinging herself upon her, unable to bear this
gradual working up.
Peter came in with a chorus with his big broken laugh-- ‘Ay, ay, just
that, just that! an auld broken-down ploughman and his puir auld body of
a wife. It’s just that, it’s just that!’