CHAPTER IV. DOUBTS AND FEARS

Mary attempted no analysis of her emotions. It was all too sudden,

too stunning. She was content to feel and enjoy the first overwhelming

experience of life. Hour after hour she lay among the pillows of her

couch in the dim light of the street lamps and lazily watched the

passing Saturday evening crowds. The world was beautiful.

She undressed at last and went to bed, only to toss wide-eyed for hours.

A hundred times she reenacted the scene in the Library and recalled

her first impression of Jim's personality. What could such an utterly

unforeseen and extraordinary meeting mean except that it was her Fate?

Certainly he could not have planned it. Certainly she had not foreseen

such an event. It had never occurred to her in the wildest flights of

fancy that she could meet and speak to a man under such conditions,

to say nothing of the walk in the Park and the hours she spent in the

little summer house.

And the strangest part of it all was that she could see nothing wrong

in it from beginning to end. It had happened in the simplest and most

natural way imaginable. By the standards of conventional propriety her

act was the maddest folly; and yet she was still happy over it.

There was one disquieting trait about him that made her a little uneasy.

He used the catch-words of the street gamins of New York without any

consciousness of incongruity. She thought at first that he did this as

the Southern boy of culture and refinement unconsciously drops into the

tones and dialect of the negro, by daily association. His constant use

of the expressive and characteristic “Gee” was startling, to say the

least. And yet it came from his lips in such a boyish way she felt sure

that it was due to his embarrassment in the unusual position in which he

had found himself with her.

His helplessness with the dictionary was proof, of course, that he was

no scholar. And yet a boy might have a fair education in the schools of

today and be unfamiliar with this ponderous and dignified encyclopedia

of words. It was impossible to believe that he was illiterate. His

clothes, his carriage, even his manners made such an idea preposterous.

Besides, no inventor could be really illiterate. He may have been forced

to work and only attended night schools. But if he were a mechanic,

capable of making a successful improvement on one of the most delicate

and important parts of an automobile, he must have studied the

principles involved in his inventions.

His choice of a profession appealed to her imagination, too. It showed

independence and initiative. It opened boundless possibilities. He might

be an obscure and poorly educated boy today. In five years he could be

a millionaire and the head of some huge business whose interests circled

the world.

The tired brain wore itself out at last in eager speculations, and she

fell into a fitful stupor. The roar of the street-cars waked her at

daylight, and further sleep was out of the question. She rose, dressed

quickly and got her breakfast in a quiver of nervous excitement over the

adventure of the coming automobile.

As the hour of eight drew nearer, her doubts of the propriety of going

became more acute.

“What on earth has come over me in the past twenty-four hours?” she

asked of herself. “I've known this man but a day. I don't KNOW him

at all, and yet I'm going to put my life in his hands in that racing

machine. Have I gone crazy?”

She was not in the least afraid of him. His face and voice and

personality all seemed familiar. Her brain and common-sense told her

that such a trip with an utter stranger was dangerous and foolish beyond

words. In his automobile, unaccompanied by a human soul and unacquainted

with the roads over which they would travel, she would be absolutely in

his power.

She set her teeth firmly at last, her mind made up.

“It's too mad a risk. I was crazy to promise. I won't go!”

She had scarcely spoken her resolution when the soft call of the

auto-horn echoed below. She stood irresolute for a moment, and the call

was repeated in plaintive, appealing notes.

She tried to hold fast to her resolutions, but the impulse to open the

window and look out was resistless. She turned the old-fashioned brass

knob, swung her windows wide on their hinges and leaned out.

His keen eyes were watching. He lifted his cap and waved. She answered

with the flutter of her handkerchief--and all resolutions were off.

“Of course, I'll go,” she cried, with a laugh. “It's a glorious day--I

may never have such a chance again.”

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