FIRST STEPS IN CRIME
I was getting tired of school and wanted to go to work. I had a good
Christian man for my Sunday-school teacher, Mr. M., a fairly rich man,
and I did think a good deal of him. I liked to go to Sunday-school and
was often the first in my class. The teacher would put up a prize for
the one that was there first. Sometimes it would be a baseball bat,
skates, book, or knife. I would let myself out then and would be first
and get the prize.
I asked Mr. M. to get me work in an office. After a few weeks he called
and told my mother he had got me a job in Jersey City, in the office of
a civil engineer, at $3 a week. I was a happy boy as I started in on my
first day's work. It was easy; all I had to do was to open up and dust
the office at 8 A. M., and close at 5 P. M. I used to run errands and
draw a little. But after a few weeks the newness of work wore off and I
wished I was back at school again, where I could play hookey and have
fun with the other fellows.
THE FIRST THEFTS
I had lots of time on my hands, and you know the saying, "Satan finds
some mischief still for idle hands to do." He certainly found plenty for
me. The boss was a great smoker and bought his cigars by the box. He
asked me if I smoked, and I said no, for I had not begun to smoke as
yet. Well, he left the box of cigars around, always open, so I thought I
would try one, and I took a couple out of the box. See how the Devil
works with a fellow. He seemed to say, "Now if you take them from the
top he will miss them," so he showed me how to take them from the
bottom. I took out the cigars that were on top, and when I got to the
bottom of the box I crossed a couple and took the cigars, and you could
not tell that any had been taken out. That was the beginning of my
stealing. The cigars were not missed, and I thought how easy it was, but
this beginning proved to be just a stepping-stone to what followed.
I did not smoke the cigars then, but waited until I got home. After
supper I went out and met Mike ----, and gave him one of them, and I
started in to smoke my first cigar. Mike could smoke and not get sick,
but there never was a sicker boy than I was. I thought I was going to
die then and there and I said, "No more cigars for me." I recovered,
however, and as usual forgot my good resolutions. That turned out to be
the beginning of my smoking habit, and I was a good judge of a cigar
when I was but fourteen years of age. I went on stealing them until the
boss tumbled that some one was taking them and locked them up for safe
keeping. I never smoked a cigarette in all my life. I know it takes
away a young fellow's brains and I really class cigarettes next to drink
and would warn boys never to smoke them.
I had been in the office now about three months. At the end of each
month I received a check for $12. It seemed a fortune to me and I hated
to give it in at the house. The third month I received the check as
usual, made out to bearer. Well, I went home and gave the check to
mother, and she said I was a good boy and gave me fifty cents to spend.
I watched my mother and saw her put the check in an unused pitcher in
the closet on the top shelf. It seemed as though some one was beside me
all the time telling me to take it and have a good time. It belonged to
me and no one else had a right to it, Satan seemed to say. And what a
good time I could have with it! They would never suspect me of taking
it, and I could have it cashed and no one would ever know.
So I got up in the middle of the night and started right there and then
to be a burglar. I went on tiptoe as softly as I could, and was right in
the middle of the kitchen floor when I stumbled over a little stool and
it made a noise. It was not much of a noise, but to me it seemed like
the shot out of a cannon. I thought it would wake up the whole house,
but nobody but mother woke, and she said, "Who's there?" I said nothing,
only stood still and waited for her to fall asleep again. As I stood
there a voice--and surely it was the voice of God--seemed to say, "Go
back to bed and leave the check alone. It is not yours: it belongs to
your mother. She is feeding and keeping you, and you are doing wrong." I
think if the Devil had not butted in I would have gone to bed, but he
said, "Now you are here no one sees you, and what a good time you can
have with that check!" That settled all good thoughts and I went up to
the closet, put my hand in the pitcher, took the check and went back to
bed. That was my first burglary.
Did I sleep? Well, I guess not! I rolled and tossed all the balance of
the night. I knew I had done wrong. But you see the Devil was there, and
I really think he owned me from the time I stole the cigars--"that
little beginning."
I got up the next morning, ate my breakfast and went to work. I still
had the check, and all I had to do was to go to the bank and get it
cashed. But I was afraid, and how I wished that the check was safe in
the old pitcher. I worried all that day, and I think if I had gotten a
chance that night after I got home, I would have put the check back. But
the old Devil was there saying, "You fool, keep it! It is not missed,
and even if it is no one will accuse you of stealing your own money." I
tell you, the Devil had me hand and foot, and there seemed to be no
getting away. Oh! if I could have had some person to tell me plainly
what to do at this time, it might have been the turning-point in my
life! Anyway, the check didn't get back to the pitcher. I had it and the
Devil had me.
Next day I disguised myself somewhat. I made my face dirty and put on a
cap. I had been wearing a hat before, so I thought the teller at the
bank would not know me. I had been there often with checks for my boss.
Well, the teller just looked at the check, gave me a glance, and passed
out the $12. It did not take me long to get out of the bank. I knew I
had done wrong, and I felt it, and would have given anything if I could
have undone it; but it was too late, and my old companion, the Devil,
said, "What a nice time you can have, and wasn't it easy!"
When I went home the first question was, "Did you see your check?" My
dear mother asked me that, never thinking that her boy had taken it.
Oh! if I had had the courage to tell her then and there, how much misery
and trouble it would have saved me in after life! But I was a moral
coward, and I said, "No, mother; where did you put it?" I had her
guessing whether she really put it in the pitcher or not.
There was a regular hunt for that check, and I hunted as much as any
one, but it could not be found. Mother did not know much about banks in
those days, but some one told her about a week after that she ought to
go to the bank and stop payment on the check. That sounded good to
mother, and she said, "Dave, you and I will go to the bank and stop
payment on that check." I was in it for fair this time. The only chance
I had was in the teller not recognizing me.
We went to the bank, and mother told the teller about the
lost--stolen--check, and for him to see that it wasn't paid. He said,
"All right, madam, I'll not pay it if it is not already paid." He looked
over the books and brought back the lost check. I had stood in the
background all this time. Then my mother asked him whom he paid it to.
He said it was hard for him to recall just then, "But I think I paid it
to a boy," he said. "Yes, it was a boy, for I recollect that he had as
dirty a face and hands as ever I saw." Mother pulled me up in front of
him and told him to look at me and see if I was the boy. He looked at me
for a minute or so--it seemed to me like an hour--then said, "No, that
is not the boy that cashed the check, nothing like him. I am sure I
should know that boy." In after years, when I was lined up in front of
detectives for identification for some crime, identified or not, I
always thought of a dirty face being a good disguise.
On the way home from the bank mother asked me all sorts of questions
about boys I knew; if they had dirty faces and so on, but I did not
know any such boys, so the check business died out. She little thought
that her own boy was the thief, and she blamed my cousin, who was
boarding with us at the time.
My grandfather was still with us, and he had quite a sum of money saved.
He wanted some money, and he and I went to the bank and he drew out
fifty dollars in gold. There was a premium on gold at that time, and he
received two twenty-dollar gold-pieces and one ten. Well, that night he
lost one of the twenty-dollar gold-pieces and never found it. There was
a hot time the next morning, for he was sure he had it when he went to
bed. My father was blamed for that, so you see the innocent suffer for
the guilty.
I had quite a time with the money while it lasted, went out to the old
Bowery Theatre, and had a good time in general. I little thought then
that in after years I would be sitting on the old Bowery steps, down
and out, without a cent in my pocket and without a friend in the world.
LOSING A POSITION
I was a boy of fourteen at this time, working in a civil engineer's
office for three dollars per week, but I knew, young as I was, that as a
profession engineering was not for me. I knew that to take it up I
needed a good education, and that I did not have. I didn't like the
trade, anyway, and didn't care whether I worked or not. That is the
reason I lost my job.
One afternoon my employer sent me up Newark Avenue for a suit of clothes
that had been made to order. He told me to get them and bring them back
as soon as I could. I must say right here that my employer was a good
man, and he took quite a liking to me. Many a time he told me he would
make a great engineer out of me. I often look back and ask myself the
question, "Did I miss my vocation?" And then there comes a voice, which
I recognize as God's, saying, "You had to go through all this in order
to help others with the same temptations and the same sins," and I say,
"Amen."
After getting the clothes I went back to the building where I
worked--No. 9 Exchange Place, Jersey City--and found the door locked. I
waited around for a while, for I thought my employer wanted his clothes
or he would not have sent me for them. Finally I got tired of waiting,
and after trying the door once more and finding it still locked, I said
to myself, "I'll just put these clothes in the furniture store next door
and I'll get them to-morrow morning." I left them and told the man I
would call for them in the morning, and started for home.
I was in bed dreaming of Indians and other things, when mother wakened
me, shouting, "Where's the man's clothes?" I couldn't make out at first
what all the racket was about. Then I heard men's voices talking in the
yard, and recognized Mr. M., my Sunday-school teacher, and my employer,
the man that was going to make a great engineer out of me. I went out on
the porch and told him what I had done with the clothes, and he nearly
collapsed. He was very angry, and drove off, saying, "You come to the
office and get what's due you in the morning." I went the next morning,
got my money, and bade him good-by. That was the last of my becoming one
of the great engineers of the day.
I was glad, and I went back to school determined to study real hard, and
I did remain in school for a year. Then the old craze for work came on
me again. Father had died in the meantime, and mother was left to do the
best she could, and I got a job with the determination to be a help to
her.
AT WORK AGAIN
I got a position as office boy at 40 Broadway, then one of New York's
largest buildings. The man I worked for was a commission merchant, a
Hebrew, and one of the finest men I ever met in my life. He took me into
his private office and we had a long talk, a sort of fatherly talk, as
he had sons and daughters of his own. I loved that man. I had been
brought up among the Dutch and Irish, and had never associated with the
Jews, and I supposed from what I had heard that they were put on earth
for us to get the best of, fire stones at, and treat as meanly as we
could. That was my idea of a Jew--my boy idea. Yet here was a man, a
Jew, one of the whitest men I ever met, who by his life changed
completely my opinion of the Jews, and I put them down from that day as
being pretty good people.
My mother did some work for his wife, and when he heard that I wanted to
go to work he told her to send me over to his place of business, and
that is how I got my second position in this big world.
I went to work with the determination to make a man of myself, and
mother said:
"Now, Dave, be a good boy, and one of these days you will be a big
merchant and I shall be proud of you." That was what I might have been
if I had had the grace of God to make my life true. I am acquainted with
some men to-day that started about the same time I did. They were boys
that looked ahead, studied and went up step by step, and are to-day some
of the best-known bankers in America.
They say "Hell is paved with good intentions," and I believe it is. We
start out in life with the best intentions, but before we know it we are
up against some temptation, and unless we have God with us we are sure
to fall, and when we fall, why, it's the hardest thing in the world to
get back where we tumbled from. I only wish I had taken the Saviour as
my helper years ago. Oh! what a change He did make in my life after I
did accept Him, seventeen years ago!
I started in to work at four dollars a week, and, as I said, I intended
to be a great merchant. I meant well, if that was any consolation. My
duties were to go to the postoffice and bring the mail, copy the
letters, and run errands, and I was happy.
I was out one day on an errand, when whom should I meet but my old
friend Mike ----, my chum of the pig incident. He said, "Hello, Dave,
where are you working?" He had a job in a factory in Maiden Lane, at the
same wages I was getting. I hadn't seen much of Mike lately, and to tell
the truth I didn't care so much about meeting him. I am not
superstitious by any means, but I really thought he was my Jonah. We
talked a while, and we promised to meet and go home together. Like a
foolish boy, I met him that night and many a time after.
TOUCH NOT, TASTE NOT
Mike was just learning to play pool, and one evening we had to go in and
play a game. That night I had the first glass of beer I ever took in a
saloon. Mike was getting to be quite a tippler, and he said, "Let's have
a drink." I said I didn't want any, and I didn't. But he said--I really
think the Devil was using Mike to make me drink--"Oh, be a man! One
glass won't hurt you; it will do you good." And he talked to me about
mother's apron-strings, and finally I took my first drink outside of
what I drank when grandfather used to send me for beer.
Do you know, as I stood there before the bar, with that beer in my hand,
I heard a voice just as plain as I ever heard anything, saying, "Don't
take that stuff; it's no good, and will bring you to shame and misery.
It will spoil your future, and you will never become the great merchant
you started out to be. Put it down and don't drink it." That was
twenty-five years ago, and many a time I have heard that voice since.
How I wish now that I had listened to that voice and never taken that
first drink! It is not the second or the one hundred and second drink
that makes a man a drunkard, but the first.
I started to put the glass down, and with that Mike began to laugh, and
his laugh brought the other fellows around. Of course Mike told them I
was a milk-and-water boy. I could not stand it to be laughed at, so I
put the glass of beer to my lips, swallowed it, and never made a face
about it. Then the fellows said, "You're all right! You are initiated
now and you're a man!"
I didn't feel very much like a man. I felt as though I was some fellow
without a single spark of manhood in my whole make-up. I thought of
mother; what would she say if she knew I had broken my promise to her? I
had promised her when father died never to take a drink in all my life.
I knelt at her dear side, with her hands upon my head, and she prayed
that God would bless her boy and keep him from drink. I had honestly
intended to keep that promise, but you see how the Devil popped in and
once more made me do what I knew was wrong--drink that first cursed
glass of beer.
I went home, walking all the way, and trying to get the smell out of my
mouth. I could not face my dear mother, so I went to my room without
supper. I thought that all she had to do was to look in my face and she
would know that I had broken my promise, and I was ashamed. She came up
later and asked me what was the matter, and I said I had a headache. If
I had had the courage to tell her then, things might have been
different! She brought me a cup of tea and bade me good-night.
The next night the Devil steered me into the same saloon. I drank again
and again, till finally I could drink as much as any man, and it would
take a good deal to knock me out.
I was still working for the merchant on Broadway, and my prospects were
of the brightest. They all liked me and gave me a raise in salary, so I
was now getting five dollars a week. But, you see, I was spending money
on pool and drink, and five dollars didn't go so very far, so I began to
steal. I had charge of the stamps--the firm used a great many---and I
had the mailing of all the letters. I would take out fifty cents from
the money and balance the account by letters mailed. I began in a small
way, and the Devil in me said, "How easy! You're all right." So I went
on until I was stealing on an average of $1.50 per day. I still kept on
drinking and playing cards. I had by this time blossomed out as quite a
poker player and could do as many tricks as the best of them. I used to
stay out quite late, and would tell mother that I was kept at the
office, and little did she think that her only son was a gambler!
The Bible says, "Be sure your sin will find you out," and it proved true
in my case. One night I was out gambling, and had had quite some luck.
The fellows got to drinking, and in fact I got drunk, and when I started
for home I could hardly walk. I fell down several times, when who should
come along but mother and sister, and when they saw me staggering along
they were astonished. I heard my mother say, "Oh! my God, my boy, my
only son, oh! what happened to you?" Mother knew without asking what the
matter was. She had often seen father reeling home under the influence
of drink. But here was something she could not understand. Here was her
only son beastly drunk, and she cried bitter tears. She took hold of one
arm and my sister the other, and we finally reached home. I was getting
pretty well sobered up by this time, and knew I was in for a lecture.
My mother hadn't whipped me of late, but I dreaded her talk, and then I
wished I had never met Mike ----.
Mother didn't say anything until we got home. She put me to bed, brushed
my clothes, and told me to go to sleep. About two o'clock I woke up.
There was mother kneeling by my bedside, praying God to save her boy and
keep him from following in his father's footsteps. I lay there and
listened and said amen to everything she asked God to do. Finally I
could stand it no longer; I jumped out of bed and knelt beside my mother
and asked God to forgive me. I threw my arms around mother's neck and
asked her to forgive her boy, which she did. I determined right then and
there to do better and never to drink any more.
I really meant to start all over again, but I didn't take Jesus with
me--in fact, I think the Devil owned me for fair. I was pretty good for
about a month, kept away from Mike and the other fellows, and mother
was delighted. But this did not continue long; I met Mike again, and
fell into the same groove, and was even worse than before.
Barnum was running his circus in New York then, and Mike and I decided
to see the show and took a day off to go. I had not got leave of absence
from work, so on our way home we planned what we could tell our bosses
when we went to work the next morning.
When my employer came in that morning I told him I was sick the day
before and not able to get out of bed. He just stood there and looked at
me, and said, "What a liar you are! You were seen at the circus
yesterday! Now, why didn't you tell me the truth, and I would have
overlooked it? I can't have any one in my employ that I can't trust." So
I had to look for another job. I was sorry, but it was my own fault.
There I was, without a job and without a recommendation. What was I
going to do? Surely "the way of the transgressor is hard."
I tell the men in the Mission night after night that I would rather deal
with a thief than a liar, because you can protect yourself against a
thief, but a liar--what can't a liar do? If I had only told the truth to
my employer that day, why, as mother said afterwards, he would have
given me a lecture, and it would have been all over.
DEEPER IN THE MIRE
Now what was I to tell my mother? You see, if you tell one lie you are
bound to tell others, and after you have lied once, how easy it is! My
side partner, the Devil, was there by my side to help me, and he said,
"Don't tell your mother." So I said nothing, and took my carfare and
lunch money every day, went out as if I were going to work, and hoped
that something would turn up. That's the way with the sinners; they are
always hoping and never doing. So it was with me, always hoping, and
the Devil always saying, "Don't worry; it will be all right."
I used to dread going home at night and meeting my mother, and when she
would say, "How have you got on to-day?" I was always ready with another
lie, telling her I was doing finely, that the boss said he was going to
give me a raise soon. He had--he had raised me right out of the place!
I was getting deeper and deeper into difficulty and could not see my way
out. Oh! if I had only told my mother the truth, how different my life
might have been! Saturday night was coming, and I did not have any money
to bring home, and I did not know what to do. I thought of everything,
but could not see my way out, when the thought came to me, "Steal!" My
sister was saving up some money to buy a suit, and I knew where she kept
it and determined to get it. That night I entered her room and took all
the money she had saved. No one saw me but God, but the Devil was there
with me, and said, "Isn't it easy? Don't be a coward! God doesn't care."
I knew right down in my heart that He did care, and in after years when
I was wandering all over the States I found out how much He really
cared, and I said, "Praise His name!"
[Illustration: A BACK YARD ON THE BOWERY.]
[Illustration: ONE OF RANNEY'S FORMER HAUNTS.]