The doctor laughed again. “You'll have to learn German, then, I 'm
afraid. It is still in circulation in Germany, I believe, on its merits
as a serious book. I haven't a copy of the edition in English. THAT was
all exhausted by collectors who bought it for its supposed obscenity,
like Burton's 'Arabian Nights.' Come this way, and I will show you my
laboratory.”
They moved out of the room, and through a passage, Ledsmar talking as
he led the way. “I took up that subject, when I was at college, by a
curious chance. I kept a young monkey in my rooms, which had been born
in captivity. I brought home from a beer hall--it was in Germany--some
pretzels one night, and tossed one toward the monkey. He jumped toward
it, then screamed and ran back shuddering with fright. I couldn't
understand it at first. Then I saw that the curled pretzel, lying there
on the floor, was very like a little coiled-up snake. The monkey had
never seen a snake, but it was in his blood to be afraid of one.
That incident changed my whole life for me. Up to that evening, I had
intended to be a lawyer.”
Theron did not feel sure that he had understood the point of the
anecdote. He looked now, without much interest, at some dark little
tanks containing thick water, a row of small glass cases with adders and
other lesser reptiles inside, and a general collection of boxes, jars,
and similar receptacles connected with the doctor's pursuits. Further
on was a smaller chamber, with a big empty furnace, and shelves bearing
bottles and apparatus like a drugstore.
It was pleasanter in the conservatory--a low, spacious structure with
broad pathways between the plants, and an awning over the sunny side
of the roof. The plants were mostly orchids, he learned. He had read
of them, but never seen any before. No doubt they were curious; but he
discovered nothing to justify the great fuss made about them. The heat
grew oppressive inside, and he was glad to emerge into the garden. He
paused under the grateful shade of a vine-clad trellis, took off his
hat, and looked about him with a sigh of relief. Everything seemed
old-fashioned and natural and delightfully free from pretence in the
big, overgrown field of flowers and shrubs.
Theron recalled with some surprise Celia's indictment of the doctor as a
man with no poetry in his soul. “You must be extremely fond of flowers,”
he remarked.
Dr. Ledsmar shrugged his well shoulder. “They have their points,” he
said briefly. “These are all dioecious here. Over beyond are monoecious
species. My work is to test the probabilities for or against Darwin's
theory that hermaphroditism in plants is a late by-product of these
earlier forms.”
“And is his theory right?” asked Mr. Ware, with a polite show of
interest.
“We may know in the course of three or four hundred years,” replied
Ledsmar. He looked up into his guest's face with a quizzical half-smile.
“That is a very brief period for observation when such a complicated
question as sex is involved,” he added. “We have been studying the
female of our own species for some hundreds of thousands of years, and
we haven't arrived at the most elementary rules governing her actions.”
They had moved along to a bed of tall plants, the more forward of which
were beginning to show bloom. “Here another task will begin next month,”
the doctor observed. “These are salvias, pentstemons, and antirrhinums,
or snapdragons, planted very thick for the purpose. Humble-bees bore
holes through their base, to save the labor of climbing in and out of
the flowers, and we don't quite know yet why some hive-bees discover and
utilize these holes at once, while others never do. It may be merely the
old-fogy conservatism of the individual, or there may be a law in it.”
These seemed very paltry things for a man of such wisdom to bother
his head about. Theron looked, as he was bidden, at the rows of hives
shining in the hot sun on a bench along the wall, but offered no comment
beyond a casual, “My mother was always going to keep bees, but somehow
she never got around to it. They say it pays very well, though.”
“The discovery of the reason why no bee will touch the nectar of the
EPIPACTIS LATIFOLIA, though it is sweet to our taste, and wasps are
greedy for it, WOULD pay,” commented the doctor. “Not like a blue
rhododendron, in mere money, but in recognition. Lots of men have
achieved a half-column in the 'Encyclopedia Britannica' on a smaller
basis than that.”
They stood now at the end of the garden, before a small, dilapidated
summer-house. On the bench inside, facing him, Theron saw a strange
recumbent figure stretched at full length, apparently sound asleep, or
it might be dead. Looking closer, with a startled surprise, he made out
the shaven skull and outlandish garb of a Chinaman. He turned toward his
guide in the expectation of a scene.
The doctor had already taken out a note-book and pencil, and was drawing
his watch from his pocket. He stepped into the summer-house, and,
lifting the Oriental's limp arm, took account of his pulse. Then, with
head bowed low, side-wise, he listened for the heart-action. Finally, he
somewhat brusquely pushed back one of the Chinaman's eyelids, and made
a minute inspection of what the operation disclosed. Returning to the
light, he inscribed some notes in his book, put it back in his pocket,
and came out. In answer to Theron's marvelling stare, he pointed toward
a pipe of odd construction lying on the floor beneath the sleeper.
“This is one of my regular afternoon duties,” he explained, again with
the whimsical half-smile. “I am increasing his dose monthly by regular
stages, and the results promise to be rather remarkable. Heretofore,
observations have been made mostly on diseased or morbidly deteriorated
subjects. This fellow of mine is strong as an ox, perfectly nourished,
and watched over intelligently. He can assimilate opium enough to kill
you and me and every other vertebrate creature on the premises, without
turning a hair, and he hasn't got even fairly under way yet.”
The thing was unpleasant, and the young minister turned away. They
walked together up the path toward the house. His mind was full now of
the hostile things which Celia had said about the doctor. He had vaguely
sympathized with her then, upon no special knowledge of his own. Now he
felt that his sentiments were vehemently in accord with hers. The doctor
WAS a beast.
And yet--as they moved slowly along through the garden the thought took
sudden shape in his mind--it would be only justice for him to get also
the doctor's opinion of Celia. Even while they offended and repelled
him, he could not close his eyes to the fact that the doctor's
experiments and occupations were those of a patient and exact man of
science--a philosopher. And what he had said about women--there was
certainly a great deal of acumen and shrewd observation in that. If
he would only say what he really thought about Celia, and about her
relations with the priest! Yes, Theron recognized now there was nothing
else that he so much needed light upon as those puzzling ties between
Celia and Father Forbes.
He paused, with a simulated curiosity, about one of the flower-beds.
“Speaking of women and religion”--he began, in as casual a tone as he
could command--“I notice curiously enough in my own case, that as I
develop in what you may call the--the other direction, my wife, who
formerly was not especially devote, is being strongly attracted by the
most unthinking and hysterical side of--of our church system.”
The doctor looked at him, nodded, and stooped to nip some buds from a
stalk in the bed.
“And another case,” Theron went on--“of course it was all so new and
strange to me--but the position which Miss Madden seems to occupy about
the Catholic Church here--I suppose you had her in mind when you spoke.”
Ledsmar stood up. “My mind has better things to busy itself with than
mad asses of that description,” he replied. “She is not worth talking
about--a mere bundle of egotism, ignorance, and red-headed lewdness. If
she were even a type, she might be worth considering; but she is simply
an abnormal sport, with a little brain addled by notions that she is
like Hypatia, and a large impudence rendered intolerable by the fact
that she has money. Her father is a decent man. He ought to have her
whipped.”
Mr. Ware drew himself erect, as he listened to these outrageous words.
It would be unmanly, he felt, to allow such comments upon an absent
friend to pass unrebuked. Yet there was the courtesy due to a host to
be considered. His mind, fluttering between these two extremes,
alighted abruptly upon a compromise. He would speak so as to show his
disapproval, yet not so as to prevent his finding out what he wanted to
know. The desire to hear Ledsmar talk about Celia and the priest
seemed now to have possessed him for a long time, to have dictated his
unpremeditated visit out here, to have been growing in intensity all the
while he pretended to be interested in orchids and bees and the drugged
Chinaman. It tugged passionately at his self-control as he spoke.
“I cannot in the least assent to your characterization of the lady,” he
began with rhetorical dignity.
“Bless me!” interposed the doctor, with deceptive cheerfulness, “that is
not required of you at all. It is a strictly personal opinion, offered
merely as a contribution to the general sum of hypotheses.”
“But,” Theron went on, feeling his way, “of course, I gathered that
evening that you had prejudices in the matter; but these are rather
apart from the point I had in view. We were speaking, you will remember,
of the traditional attitude of women toward priests--wanting to curl
their hair and put flowers in it, you know, and that suggested to me
some individual illustrations, and it occurred to me to wonder just what
were the relations between Miss Madden and--and Father Forbes. She
said this morning, for instance--I happened to meet her, quite by
accident--that she was going to the church to practise a new piece, and
that she could have Father Forbes to herself all day. Now that would
be quite an impossible remark in our--that is, in any Protestant
circles--and purely as a matter of comparison, I was curious to ask you
just how much there was in it. I ask you, because going there so much
you have had exceptional opportunities for--”
A sharp exclamation from his companion interrupted the clergyman's
hesitating monologue. It began like a high-pitched, violent word, but
dwindled suddenly into a groan of pain. The doctor's face, too, which
had on the flash of Theron's turning seemed given over to unmixed anger,
took on an expression of bodily suffering instead.
“My shoulder has grown all at once excessively painful,” he said
hastily. “I'm afraid I must ask you to excuse me, Mr. Ware.”
Carrying the afflicted side with ostentatious caution, he led the way
without ado round the house to the front gate on the road. He had put
his left hand under his coat to press it against his aching shoulder,
and his right hung palpably helpless. This rendered it impossible for
him to shake hands with his guest in parting.
“You're sure there's nothing I can do,” said Theron, lingering on the
outer side of the gate. “I used to rub my father's shoulders and back;
I'd gladly--”
“Oh, not for worlds!” groaned the doctor. His anguish was so impressive
that Theron, as he walked down the road, quite missed the fact that
there had been no invitation to come again.
Dr. Ledsmar stood for a minute or two, his gaze meditatively following
the retreating figure. Then he went in, opening the front door with
his right hand, and carrying himself once more as if there were no such
thing as rheumatism in the world. He wandered on through the hall into
the laboratory, and stopped in front of the row of little tanks full of
water.
Some deliberation was involved in whatever his purpose might be, for he
looked from one tank to another with a pondering, dilatory gaze. At last
he plunged his hand into the opaque fluid and drew forth a long, slim,
yellowish-green lizard, with a coiling, sinuous tail and a pointed, evil
head. The reptile squirmed and doubled itself backward around his wrist,
darting out and in with dizzy swiftness its tiny forked tongue.
The doctor held the thing up to the light, and, scrutinizing it through
his spectacles, nodded his head in sedate approval. A grim smile curled
in his beard.
“Yes, you are the type,” he murmured to it, with evident enjoyment in
the conceit. “Your name isn't Johnny any more. It's the Rev. Theron
Ware.”
CHAPTER XXII
The annual camp-meeting of the combined Methodist districts of Octavius
and Thessaly was held this year in the second half of September, a
little later than usual. Of the nine days devoted to this curious
survival of primitive Wesleyanism, the fifth fell upon a Saturday. On
the noon of that day the Rev. Theron Ware escaped for some hours from
the burden of work and incessant observation which he shared with twenty
other preachers, and walked alone in the woods.
The scene upon which he turned his back was one worth looking at. A
spacious, irregularly defined clearing in the forest lay level as a
tennis-court, under the soft haze of autumn sunlight. In the centre was
a large, roughly constructed frame building, untouched by paint, but
stained and weather-beaten with time. Behind it were some lines of
horse-sheds, and still further on in that direction, where the trees
began, the eye caught fragmentary glimpses of low roofs and the fronts
of tiny cottages, withdrawn from full view among the saplings and
underbrush. At the other side of the clearing, fully fourscore tents
were pitched, some gray and mended, others dazzlingly white in their
newness. The more remote of these tents fell into an orderly arrangement
of semi-circular form, facing that part of the engirdling woods where
the trees were largest, and their canopy of overhanging foliage was
lifted highest from the ground. Inside this half-ring of tents were many
rounded rows of benches, which followed in narrowing lines the idea of
an amphitheatre cut in two. In the centre, just under the edge of the
roof of boughs, rose a wooden pagoda, in form not unlike an open-air
stand for musicians. In front of this, and leading from it on the level
of its floor, there projected a platform, railed round with aggressively
rustic woodwork. The nearest benches came close about this platform.
At the hour when Theron started away, there were few enough signs of
life about this encampment. The four or five hundred people who were in
constant residence were eating their dinners in the big boarding-house,
or the cottages or the tents. It was not the time of day for strangers.
Even when services were in progress by daylight, the regular attendants
did not make much of a show, huddled in a gray-black mass at the front
of the auditorium, by comparison with the great green and blue expanses
of nature about them.
The real spectacle was in the evening when, as the shadows gathered, big
clusters of kerosene torches, hung on the trees facing the audience were
lighted. The falling darkness magnified the glow of the lights, and
the size and importance of what they illumined. The preacher, bending
forward over the rails of the platform, and fastening his eyes upon the
abashed faces of those on the “anxious seat” beneath him, borrowed an
effect of druidical mystery from the wall of blackness about him, from
the flickering reflections on the branches far above, from the cool
night air which stirred across the clearing. The change was in the blood
of those who saw and heard him, too. The decorum and half-heartedness
of their devotions by day deepened under the glare of the torches into a
fervent enthusiasm, even before the services began. And if there was in
the rustic pulpit a man whose prayers or exhortations could stir their
pulses, they sang and groaned and bellowed out their praises with an
almost barbarous license, such as befitted the wilderness.
But in the evening not all were worshippers. For a dozen miles round
on the country-side, young farm-workers and their girls regarded the
camp-meeting as perhaps the chief event of the year--no more to be
missed than the country fair or the circus, and offering, from many
points of view, more opportunities for genuine enjoyment than either.
Their behavior when they came was pretty bad--not the less so because
all the rules established by the Presiding Elders for the regulation of
strangers took it for granted that they would act as viciously as
they knew how. These sight-seers sometimes ventured to occupy the back
benches where the light was dim. More often they stood outside, in the
circular space between the tents and the benches, and mingled cat-calls,
drovers' yelps, and all sorts of mocking cries and noises with the
“Amens” of the earnest congregation. Their rough horse-play on the
fringe of the sanctified gathering was grievous enough; everybody knew
that much worse things went on further out in the surrounding darkness.
Indeed, popular report gave to these external phases of the
camp-meeting an even more evil fame than attached to the later moonlight
husking-bees, or the least reputable of the midwinter dances at Dave
Randall's low halfway house.
Cynics said that the Methodists found consolation for this scandal in
the large income they derived from their unruly visitors' gate-money.
This was unfair. No doubt the money played its part, but there was
something else far more important. The pious dwellers in the camp,
intent upon reviving in their poor modern way the character and
environment of the heroic early days, felt the need of just this hostile
and scoffing mob about them to bring out the spirit they sought. Theirs
was pre-eminently a fighting religion, which languished in peaceful
fair weather, but flamed high in the storm. The throng of loafers and
light-minded worldlings of both sexes, with their jeering interruptions
and lewd levity of conduct, brought upon the scene a kind of visible
personal devil, with whom the chosen could do battle face to face. The
daylight services became more and more perfunctory, as the sojourn in
the woods ran its course, and interest concentrated itself upon the
night meetings, for the reason that THEN came the fierce wrestle with
a Beelzebub of flesh and blood. And it was not so one-sided a contest,
either!
No evening passed without its victories for the pulpit. Careless or
mischievous young people who were pushed into the foremost ranks of the
mockers, and stood grinning and grimacing under the lights, would of
a sudden feel a spell clamped upon them. They would hear a strange,
quavering note in the preacher's voice, catch the sense of a piercing,
soul-commanding gleam in his eye--not at all to be resisted. These
occult forces would take control of them, drag them forward as in a
dream to the benches under the pulpit, and abase them there like
worms in the dust. And then the preacher would descend, and the elders
advance, and the torch-fires would sway and dip before the wind of the
mighty roar that went up in triumph from the brethren.
These combats with Satan at close quarters, if they made the week-day
evenings exciting, reacted with an effect of crushing dulness upon the
Sunday services. The rule was to admit no strangers to the grounds
from Saturday night to Monday morning. Every year attempts were made to
rescind or modify this rule, and this season at least three-fourths of
the laymen in attendance had signed a petition in favor of opening
the gates. The two Presiding Elders, supported by a dozen of the older
preachers, resisted the change, and they had the backing of the more
bigoted section of the congregation from Octavius. The controversy
reached a point where Theron's Presiding Elder threatened to quit the
grounds, and the leaders of the open-Sunday movement spoke freely of the
ridiculous figure which its cranks and fanatics made poor Methodism cut
in the eyes of modern go-ahead American civilization. Then Theron Ware
saw his opportunity, and preached an impromptu sermon upon the sanctity
of the Sabbath, which ended all discussion. Sometimes its arguments
seemed to be on one side, sometimes on the other, but always they were
clothed with so serene a beauty of imagery, and moved in such a lofty
and rarefied atmosphere of spiritual exaltation, that it was impossible
to link them to so sordid a thing as this question of gate-money. When
he had finished, nobody wanted the gates opened. The two factions found
that the difference between them had melted out of existence. They sat
entranced by the charm of the sermon; then, glancing around at the empty
benches, glaringly numerous in the afternoon sunlight, they whispered
regrets that ten thousand people had not been there to hear that
marvellous discourse. Theron's conquest was of exceptional dimensions.
The majority, whose project he had defeated, were strangers who
appreciated and admired his effort most. The little minority of his own
flock, though less susceptible to the influence of graceful diction
and delicately balanced rhetoric, were proud of the distinction he had
reflected upon them, and delighted with him for having won their
fight. The Presiding Elders wrung his hand with a significant grip. The
extremists of his own charge beamed friendship upon him for the first
time. He was the veritable hero of the week.
The prestige of this achievement made it the easier for Theron to get
away by himself next day, and walk in the woods. A man of such power
had a right to solitude. Those who noted his departure from the camp
remembered with pleasure that he was to preach again on the morrow.
He was going to commune with God in the depths of the forest, that the
Message next day might be clearer and more luminous still.
Theron strolled for a little, with an air of aimlessness, until he was
well outside the more or less frequented neighborhood of the camp.
Then he looked at the sun and the lay of the land with that informing
scrutiny of which the farm-bred boy never loses the trick, turned, and
strode at a rattling pace down the hillside. He knew nothing personally
of this piece of woodland--a spur of the great Adirondack wilderness
thrust southward into the region of homesteads and dairies and
hop-fields--but he had prepared himself by a study of the map, and
he knew where he wanted to go. Very Soon he hit upon the path he had
counted upon finding, and at this he quickened his gait.
Three months of the new life had wrought changes in Theron. He bore
himself more erectly, for one thing; his shoulders were thrown back, and
seemed thicker. The alteration was even more obvious in his face. The
effect of lank, wistful, sallow juvenility had vanished. It was the
countenance of a mature, well-fed, and confident man, firmer and more
rounded in its outlines, and with a glow of health on its whole surface.
Under the chin were the suggestions of fulness which bespeak an easy
mind. His clothes were new; the frock-coat fitted him, and the thin,
dark-colored autumn overcoat, with its silk lining exposed at the
breast, gave a masculine bulk and shape to his figure. He wore a shining
tall hat, and, in haste though he was, took pains not to knock it
against low-hanging branches.
All had gone well--more than well--with him. The second Quarterly
Conference had passed without a ripple. Both the attendance and the
collections at his church were larger than ever before, and the tone of
the congregation toward him was altered distinctly for the better. As
for himself, he viewed with astonished delight the progress he had made
in his own estimation. He had taken Sister Soulsby's advice, and the
results were already wonderful. He had put aside, once and for all, the
thousand foolish trifles and childish perplexities which formerly had
racked his brain, and worried him out of sleep and strength. He borrowed
all sorts of books boldly now from the Octavius public library, and
could swim with a calm mastery and enjoyment upon the deep waters into
which Draper and Lecky and Laing and the rest had hurled him. He dallied
pleasurably, a little languorously, with a dozen aspects of the case
against revealed religion, ranging from the mild heterodoxy of Andover's
qualms to the rude Ingersoll's rollicking negation of God himself, as a
woman of coquetry might play with as many would-be lovers. They amused
him; they were all before him to choose; and he was free to postpone
indefinitely the act of selection. There was a sense of the luxurious in
this position which softened bodily as well as mental fibres. He ceased
to grow indignant at things below or outside his standards, and he
bought a small book which treated of the care of the hand and finger
nails.
Alice had accepted with deference his explanation that shapely hands
played so important a part in pulpit oratory. For that matter, she now
accepted whatever he said or did with admirable docility. It was months
since he could remember her venturing upon a critical attitude toward
him.
She had not wished to leave home, for the seaside or any other resort,
during the summer, but had worked outside in her garden more than usual.
This was inexpensive, and it seemed to do her as much good as a holiday
could have done. Her new devotional zeal was now quite an odd thing; it
had not slackened at all from the revival pitch. At the outset she had
tried several times to talk with her husband upon this subject. He
had discouraged conversation about her soul and its welfare, at first
obliquely, then, under compulsion, with some directness. His thoughts
were absorbed, he said, by the contemplation of vast, abstract schemes
of creation and the government of the universe, and it only diverted and
embarrassed his mind to try to fasten it upon the details of personal
salvation. Thereafter the topic was not broached between them.
She bestowed a good deal of attention, too, upon her piano. The knack of
a girlish nimbleness of touch had returned to her after a few weeks, and
she made music which Theron supposed was very good--for her. It pleased
him, at all events, when he sat and listened to it; but he had a far
greater pleasure, as he listened, in dwelling upon the memories of the
yellow and blue room which the sounds always brought up. Although three
months had passed, Thurston's had never asked for the first payment
on the piano, or even sent in a bill. This impressed him as being
peculiarly graceful behavior on his part, and he recognized its delicacy
by not going near Thurston's at all.
An hour's sharp walk, occasionally broken by short cuts across open
pastures, but for the most part on forest paths, brought Theron to the
brow of a small knoll, free from underbrush, and covered sparsely with
beech-trees. The ground was soft with moss and the powdered remains of
last year's foliage; the leaves above him were showing the first yellow
stains of autumn. A sweet smell of ripening nuts was thick upon the
air, and busy rustlings and chirpings through the stillness told how the
chipmunks and squirrels were attending to their harvest.
Theron had no ears for these noises of the woodland. He had halted, and
was searching through the little vistas offered between the stout gray
trunks of the beeches for some sign of a more sophisticated sort. Yes!
there were certainly voices to be heard, down in the hollow. And
now, beyond all possibility of mistake, there came up to him the low,
rhythmic throb of music. It was the merest faint murmur of music, made
up almost wholly of groaning bass notes, but it was enough. He moved
down the slope, swiftly at first, then with increasing caution. The
sounds grew louder as he advanced, until he could hear the harmony of
the other strings in its place beside the uproar of the big fiddles, and
distinguish from both the measured noise of many feet moving as one.
He reached a place from which, himself unobserved, he could overlook
much of what he had come to see.
The bottom of the glade below him lay out in the full sunshine, as flat
and as velvety in its fresh greenness as a garden lawn. Its open expanse
was big enough to accommodate several distinct crowds, and here the
crowds were--one massed about an enclosure in which young men were
playing at football, another gathered further off in a horse-shoe curve
at the end of a baseball diamond, and a third thronging at a point where
the shade of overhanging woods began, focussed upon a centre of interest
which Theron could not make out. Closer at hand, where a shallow stream
rippled along over its black-slate bed, some little boys, with legs
bared to the thighs, were paddling about, under the charge of two men
clad in long black gowns. There were others of these frocked monitors
scattered here and there upon the scene--pallid, close-shaven, monkish
figures, who none the less wore modern hats, and superintended with
knowledge the games of the period. Theron remembered that these were the
Christian Brothers, the semi-monastic teachers of the Catholic school.
And this was the picnic of the Catholics of Octavius. He gazed in
mingled amazement and exhilaration upon the spectacle. There seemed
to be literally thousands of people on the open fields before him, and
apparently there were still other thousands in the fringes of the woods
round about. The noises which arose from this multitude--the shouts of
the lads in the water, the playful squeals of the girls in the swings,
the fused uproar of the more distant crowds, and above all the diligent,
ordered strains of the dance-music proceeding from some invisible
distance in the greenwood--charmed his ears with their suggestion of
universal merriment. He drew a long breath--half pleasure, half wistful
regret--as he remembered that other gathering in the forest which he had
left behind.
At any rate, it should be well behind him today, whatever the morrow
might bring! Evidently he was on the wrong side of the circle for the
headquarters of the festivities. He turned and walked to the right
through the beeches, making a detour, under cover, of the crowds at
play. At last he rounded the long oval of the clearing, and found
himself at the very edge of that largest throng of all, which had been
too far away for comprehension at the beginning. There was no mystery
now. A rough, narrow shed, fully fifty feet in length, imposed itself
in an arbitrary line across the face of this crowd, dividing it into two
compact halves. Inside this shed, protected all round by a waist-high
barrier of boards, on top of which ran a flat, table-like covering, were
twenty men in their shirt-sleeves, toiling ceaselessly to keep abreast
of the crowd's thirst for beer. The actions of these bartenders greatly
impressed Theron. They moved like so many machines, using one
hand, apparently, to take money and give change, and with the other
incessantly sweeping off rows of empty glasses, and tossing forward in
their place fresh, foaming glasses five at a time. Hundreds of arms and
hands were continually stretched out, on both sides of the shed, toward
this streaming bar, and through the babel of eager cries rose without
pause the racket of mallets tapping new kegs.
Theron had never seen any considerable number of his fellow-citizens
engaged in drinking lager beer before. His surprise at the facility of
those behind the bar began to yield, upon observation, to a profound
amazement at the thirst of those before it. The same people seemed to
be always in front, emptying the glasses faster than the busy men inside
could replenish them, and clamoring tirelessly for more. Newcomers had
to force their way to the bar by violent efforts, and once there they
stayed until pushed bodily aside. There were actually women to be seen
here and there in the throng, elbowing and shoving like the rest for a
place at the front. Some of the more gallant young men fought their
way outward, from time to time, carrying for safety above their heads
glasses of beer which they gave to young and pretty girls standing on
the fringe of the crowd, among the trees.
Everywhere a remarkable good-humor prevailed. Once a sharp fight broke
out, just at the end of the bar nearest Theron, and one young man was
knocked down. A rush of the onlookers confused everything before the
minister's eyes for a minute, and then he saw the aggrieved combatant up
on his legs again, consenting under the kindly pressure of the crowd to
shake hands with his antagonist, and join him in more beer. The incident
caught his fancy. There was something very pleasingly human, he thought,
in this primitive readiness to resort to fisticuffs, and this frank and
genial reconciliation.
Perhaps there was something contagious in this wholesale display of
thirst, for the Rev. Mr. Ware became conscious of a notion that he
should like to try a glass of beer. He recalled having heard that
lager was really a most harmless beverage. Of course it was out of the
question that he should show himself at the bar. Perhaps some one would
bring him out a glass, as if he were a pretty girl. He looked about for
a possible messenger. Turning, he found himself face to face with two
smiling people, into whose eyes he stared for an instant in dumfounded
blankness. Then his countenance flashed with joy, and he held out both
hands in greeting. It was Father Forbes and Celia.
“We stole down upon you unawares,” said the priest, in his cheeriest
manner. He wore a brown straw hat, and loose clothes hardly at all
clerical in form, and had Miss Madden's arm drawn lightly within his
own. “We could barely believe our eyes--that it could be you whom we
saw, here among the sinners!”
“I am in love with your sinners,” responded Theron, as he shook hands
with Celia, and trusted himself to look fully into her eyes. “I've had
five days of the saints, over in another part of the woods, and they've
bored the head off me.”
CHAPTER XXIII
At the command of Father Forbes, a lad who was loitering near them went
down through the throng to the bar, and returned with three glasses of
beer. It pleased the Rev. Mr. Ware that the priest should have taken
it for granted that he would do as the others did. He knocked his glass
against theirs in compliance with a custom strange to him, but which
they seemed to understand very well. The beer itself was not so
agreeable to the taste as he had expected, but it was cold and
refreshing.
When the boy had returned with the glasses, the three stood for a moment
in silence, meditatively watching the curious scene spread below them.
Beyond the bar, Theron could catch now through the trees regularly
recurring glimpses of four or five swings in motion. These were nearest
him, and clearest to the vision as well, at the instant when they
reached their highest forward point. The seats were filled with girls,
some of them quite grown young women, and their curving upward sweep
through the air was disclosing at its climax a remarkable profusion of
white skirts and black stockings. The sight struck him as indecorous in
the extreme, and he turned his eyes away. They met Celia's; and there
was something latent in their brown depths which prompted him, after a
brief dalliance of interchanging glances, to look again at the swings.
“That old maid Curran is really too ridiculous, with those white
stockings of hers,” remarked Celia; “some friend ought to tell her to
dye them.”
“Or pad them,” suggested Father Forbes, with a gay little chuckle. “I
daresay the question of swings and ladies' stockings hardly arises with
you, over at the camp-meeting, Mr. Ware?”
Theron laughed aloud at the conceit. “I should say not!” he replied.
“I'm just dying to see a camp-meeting!” said Celia. “You hear such racy
accounts of what goes on at them.”
“Don't go, I beg of you!” urged Theron, with doleful emphasis. “Don't
let's even talk about them. I should like to feel this afternoon as if
there was no such thing within a thousand miles of me as a camp-meeting.
Do you know, all this interests me enormously. It is a revelation to me
to see these thousands of good, decent, ordinary people, just frankly
enjoying themselves like human beings. I suppose that in this whole huge
crowd there isn't a single person who will mention the subject of his
soul to any other person all day long.”
“I should think the assumption was a safe one,” said the priest,
smilingly, “unless,” he added on afterthought, “it be by way of a genial
profanity. There used to be some old Clare men who said 'Hell to my
soul!' when they missed at quoits, but I haven't heard it for a long
time. I daresay they're all dead.”
“I shall never forget that death-bed--where I saw you first,” remarked
Theron, musingly. “I date from that experience a whole new life. I have
been greatly struck lately, in reading our 'Northern Christian Advocate'
to see in the obituary notices of prominent Methodists how over and over
again it is recorded that they got religion in their youth through being
frightened by some illness of their own, or some epidemic about them.
The cholera year of 1832 seems to have made Methodists hand over
fist. Even to this day our most successful revivalists, those who work
conversions wholesale wherever they go, do it more by frightful pictures
of hell-fire surrounding the sinner's death-bed than anything else.
You could hear the same thing at our camp-meeting tonight, if you were
there.”
“There isn't so much difference as you think,” said Father Forbes,
dispassionately. “Your people keep examining their souls, just as
children keep pulling up the bulbs they have planted to see are there
any roots yet. Our people are more satisfied to leave their souls alone,
once they have been planted, so to speak, by baptism. But fear of hell
governs them both, pretty much alike. As I remember saying to you once
before, there is really nothing new under the sun. Even the saying isn't
new. Though there seem to have been the most tremendous changes in
races and civilizations and religions, stretching over many thousands
of years, yet nothing is in fact altered very much. Where religions are
concerned, the human race are still very like savages in a dangerous
wood in the dark, telling one another ghost stories around a camp-fire.
They have always been like that.”
“What nonsense!” cried Celia. “I have no patience with such gloomy
rubbish. The Greeks had a religion full of beauty and happiness and
light-heartedness, and they weren't frightened of death at all. They
made the image of death a beautiful boy, with a torch turned down. Their
greatest philosophers openly preached and practised the doctrine of
suicide when one was tired of life. Our own early Church was full of
these broad and beautiful Greek ideas. You know that yourself! And it
was only when your miserable Jeromes and Augustines and Cyrils brought
in the abominable meannesses and cruelties of the Jewish Old Testament,
and stamped out the sane and lovely Greek elements in the Church,
that Christians became the poor, whining, cowardly egotists they are,
troubling about their little tin-pot souls, and scaring themselves in
their churches by skulls and crossbones.”
“My dear Celia,” interposed the priest, patting her shoulder gently, “we
will have no Greek debate today. Mr. Ware has been permitted to taboo
camp-meetings, and I claim the privilege to cry off on Greeks. Look at
those fellows down there, trampling over one another to get more beer.
What have they to do with Athens, or Athens with them? I take it, Mr.
Ware,” he went on, with a grave face but a twinkling eye, “that what we
are observing here in front of us is symbolical of a great ethical
and theological revolution, which in time will modify and control the
destiny of the entire American people. You see those young Irishmen
there, struggling like pigs at a trough to get their fill of German
beer. That signifies a conquest of Teuton over Kelt more important and
far-reaching in its results than the landing of Hengist and Horsa.
The Kelt has come to grief heretofore--or at least been forced to play
second fiddle to other races--because he lacked the right sort of a
drink. He has in his blood an excess of impulsive, imaginative, even
fantastic qualities. It is much easier for him to make a fool of
himself, to begin with, than it is for people of slower wits and more
sluggish temperaments. When you add whiskey to that, or that essence of
melancholia which in Ireland they call 'porther,' you get the Kelt at
his very weakest and worst. These young men down there are changing all
that. They have discovered lager. Already many of them can outdrink
the Germans at their own beverage. The lager-drinking Irishman in a few
generations will be a new type of humanity--the Kelt at his best. He
will dominate America. He will be THE American. And his church--with
the Italian element thrown clean out of it, and its Pope living, say, in
Baltimore or Georgetown--will be the Church of America.”
“Let us have some more lager at once,” put in Celia. “This revolution
can't be hurried forward too rapidly.”
Theron could not feel sure how much of the priest's discourse was in
jest, how much in earnest. “It seems to me,” he said, “that as things
are going, it doesn't look much as if the America of the future will
trouble itself about any kind of a church. The march of science must
very soon produce a universal scepticism. It is in the nature of human
progress. What all intelligent men recognize today, the masses must
surely come to see in time.”
Father Forbes laughed outright this time. “My dear Mr. Ware,” he said,
as they touched glasses again, and sipped the fresh beer that had been
brought them, “of all our fictions there is none so utterly baseless
and empty as this idea that humanity progresses. The savage's natural
impression is that the world he sees about him was made for him, and
that the rest of the universe is subordinated to him and his world, and
that all the spirits and demons and gods occupy themselves exclusively
with him and his affairs. That idea was the basis of every pagan
religion, and it is the basis of the Christian religion, simply because
it is the foundation of human nature. That foundation is just as firm
and unshaken today as it was in the Stone Age. It will always
remain, and upon it will always be built some kind of a religious
superstructure. 'Intelligent men,' as you call them, really have very
little influence, even when they all pull one way. The people as a whole
soon get tired of them. They give too much trouble. The most powerful
forces in human nature are self-protection and inertia. The middle-aged
man has found out that the chief wisdom in life is to bend to the
pressures about him, to shut up and do as others do. Even when he thinks
he has rid his own mind of superstitions, he sees that he will best
enjoy a peaceful life by leaving other peoples' superstitions alone.
That is always the ultimate view of the crowd.”
“But I don't see,” observed Theron, “granting that all this is true, how
you think the Catholic Church will come out on top. I could understand
it of Unitarianism, or Universalism, or the Episcopal Church, where
nobody seems to have to believe particularly in anything except the
beauty of its burial service, but I should think the very rigidity of
the Catholic creed would make it impossible. There everything is hard
and fast; nothing is elastic; there is no room for compromise.”
“The Church is always compromising,” explained the priest, “only it does
it so slowly that no one man lives long enough to quite catch it at the
trick. No; the great secret of the Catholic Church is that it doesn't
debate with sceptics. No matter what points you make against it, it
is never betrayed into answering back. It simply says these things are
sacred mysteries, which you are quite free to accept and be saved, or
reject and be damned. There is something intelligible and fine about
an attitude like that. When people have grown tired of their absurd and
fruitless wrangling over texts and creeds which, humanly speaking, are
all barbaric nonsense, they will come back to repose pleasantly under
the Catholic roof, in that restful house where things are taken for
granted. There the manners are charming, the service excellent, the
decoration and upholstery most acceptable to the eye, and the music”--he
made a little mock bow here to Celia--“the music at least is divine.
There you have nothing to do but be agreeable, and avoid scandal, and
observe the convenances. You are no more expected to express doubts
about the Immaculate Conception than you are to ask the lady whom you
take down to dinner how old she is. Now that is, as I have said,
an intelligent and rational church for people to have. As the Irish
civilize themselves--you observe them diligently engaged in the process
down below there--and the social roughness of their church becomes
softened and ameliorated, Americans will inevitably be attracted toward
it. In the end, it will embrace them all, and be modified by them, and
in turn influence their development, till you will have a new nation and
a new national church, each representative of the other.”
“And all this is to be done by lager beer!” Theron ventured to comment,
jokingly. He was conscious of a novel perspiration around the bridge of
his nose, which was obviously another effect of the drink.
The priest passed the pleasantry by. “No,” he said seriously; “what you
must see is that there must always be a church. If one did not exist, it
would be necessary to invent it. It is needed, first and foremost, as a
police force. It is needed, secondly, so to speak, as a fire insurance.
It provides the most even temperature and pure atmosphere for the growth
of young children. It furnishes the best obtainable social machinery for
marrying off one's daughters, getting to know the right people, patching
up quarrels, and so on. The priesthood earn their salaries as the agents
for these valuable social arrangements. Their theology is thrown in as
a sort of intellectual diversion, like the ritual of a benevolent
organization. There are some who get excited about this part of it, just
as one hears of Free-Masons who believe that the sun rises and sets to
exemplify their ceremonies. Others take their duties more quietly, and,
understanding just what it all amounts to, make the best of it, like you
and me.”
Theron assented to the philosophy and the compliment by a grave bow.
“Yes, that is the idea--to make the best of it,” he said, and fastened
his regard boldly this time upon the swings.
“We were both ordained by our bishops,” continued the priest, “at an
age when those worthy old gentlemen would not have trusted our combined
wisdom to buy a horse for them.”
“And I was married,” broke in Theron, with an eagerness almost vehement,
“when I had only just been ordained! At the worst, YOU had only the
Church fastened upon your back, before you were old enough to know
what you wanted. It is easy enough to make the best of THAT, but it is
different with me.”
A marked silence followed this outburst. The Rev. Mr. Ware had never
spoken of his marriage to either of these friends before; and something
in their manner seemed to suggest that they did not find the subject
inviting, now that it had been broached. He himself was filled with a
desire to say more about it. He had never clearly realized before what
a genuine grievance it was. The moisture at the top of his nose merged
itself into tears in the corners of his eyes, as the cruel enormity of
the sacrifice he had made in his youth rose before him. His whole life
had been fettered and darkened by it. He turned his gaze from the swings
toward Celia, to claim the sympathy he knew she would feel for him.
But Celia was otherwise engaged. A young man had come up to her--a tall
and extremely thin young man, soberly dressed, and with a long, gaunt,
hollow-eyed face, the skin of which seemed at once florid and pale. He
had sandy hair and the rough hands of a workman; but he was speaking to
Miss Madden in the confidential tones of an equal.
“I can do nothing at all with him,” this newcomer said to her. “He'll
not be said by me. Perhaps he'd listen to you!”
“It's likely I'll go down there!” said Celia. “He may do what he likes
for all me! Take my advice, Michael, and just go your way, and leave
him to himself. There was a time when I would have taken out my eyes
for him, but it was love wasted and thrown away. After the warnings he's
had, if he WILL bring trouble on himself, let's make it no affair of
ours.”
Theron had found himself exchanging glances of inquiry with this young
man. “Mr. Ware,” said Celia, here, “let me introduce you to my brother
Michael--my full brother.”
Mr. Ware remembered him now, and began, in response to the other's
formal bow, to say something about their having met in the dark, inside
the church. But Celia held up her hand. “I'm afraid, Mr. Ware,” she said
hurriedly, “that you are in for a glimpse of the family skeleton. I will
apologize for the infliction in advance.”
Wonderingly, Theron followed her look, and saw another young man who
had come up the path from the crowd below, and was close upon them. The
minister recognized in him a figure which had seemed to be the centre of
almost every group about the bar that he had studied in detail. He was
a small, dapper, elegantly attired youth, with dark hair, and the
handsome, regularly carved face of an actor. He advanced with a smiling
countenance and unsteady step--his silk hat thrust back upon his head,
his frock-coat and vest unbuttoned, and his neckwear disarranged--and
saluted the company with amiability.
“I saw you up here, Father Forbes,” he said, with a thickened and
erratic utterance. “Whyn't you come down and join us? I'm setting 'em up
for everybody. You got to take care of the boys, you know. I'll blow in
the last cent I've got in the world for the boys, every time, and they
know it. They're solider for me than they ever were for anybody. That's
how it is. If you stand by the boys, the boys'll stand by you. I'm going
to the Assembly for this district, and they ain't nobody can stop me.
The boys are just red hot for me. Wish you'd come down, Father Forbes,
and address a few words to the meeting--just mention that I'm a
candidate, and say I'm bound to win, hands down. That'll make you solid
with the boys, and we'll be all good fellows together. Come on down!”
The priest affably disengaged his arm from the clutch which the speaker
had laid upon it, and shook his head in gentle deprecation. “No, no; you
must excuse me, Theodore,” he said. “We mustn't meddle in politics, you
know.”
“Politics be damned!” urged Theodore, grabbing the priest's other arm,
and tugging at it stoutly to pull him down the path. “I say, boys” he
shouted to those below, “here's Father Forbes, and he's going to come
down and address the meeting. Come on, Father! Come down, and have a
drink with the boys!”
It was Celia who sharply pulled his hand away from the priest's arm
this time. “Go away with you!” she snapped in low, angry tones at the
intruder. “You should be ashamed of yourself! If you can't keep sober
yourself, you can at least keep your hands off the priest. I should
think you'd have more decency, when you're in such a state as this, than
to come where I am. If you've no respect for yourself, you might have
that much respect for me! And before strangers, too!
“Oh, I mustn't come where YOU are, eh?” remarked the peccant Theodore,
straightening himself with an elaborate effort. “You've bought these
woods, have you? I've got a hundred friends here, all the same, for
every one you'll ever have in your life, Red-head, and don't you forget
it.”
“Go and spend your money with them, then, and don't come insulting
decent people,” said Celia.
“Before strangers, too!” the young man called out, with beery sarcasm.
“Oh, we'll take care of the strangers all right.” He had not seemed to
be aware of Theron's presence, much less his identity, before; but he
turned to him now with a knowing grin. “I'm running for the Assembly,
Mr. Ware,” he said, speaking loudly and with deliberate effort to avoid
the drunken elisions and comminglings to which his speech tended, “and I
want you to fix up the Methodists solid for me. I'm going to drive over
to the camp-meeting tonight, me and some of the boys in a barouche, and
I'll put a twenty-dollar bill on their plate. Here it is now, if you
want to see it.”
As the young man began fumbling in a vest-pocket, Theron gathered his
wits together.
“You'd better not go this evening,” he said, as convincingly as he
knew how; “because the gates will be closed very early, and the
Saturday-evening services are of a particularly special nature, quite
reserved for those living on the grounds.”
“Rats!” said Theodore, raising his head, and abandoning the search for
the bill. “Why don't you speak out like a man, and say you think I'm too
drunk?”
“I don't think that is a question which need arise between us, Mr.
Madden,” murmured Theron, confusedly.
“Oh, don't you make any mistake! A hell of a lot of questions arise
between us, Mr. Ware,” cried Theodore, with a sudden accession of vigor
in tone and mien. “And one of 'em is--go away from me, Michael!--one of
'em is, I say, why don't you leave our girls alone? They've got their
own priests to make fools of themselves over, without any sneak of a
Protestant parson coming meddling round them. You're a married man into
the bargain; and you've got in your house this minute a piano that my
sister bought and paid for. Oh, I've seen the entry in Thurston's books!
You have the cheek to talk to me about being drunk--why--”
These remarks were never concluded, for Father Forbes here clapped a
hand abruptly over the offending mouth, and flung his free arm in a
tight grip around the young man's waist. “Come with me, Michael!” he
said, and the two men led the reluctant and resisting Theodore at a
sharp pace off into the woods.
Theron and Celia stood and watched them disappear among the undergrowth.
“It's the dirty Foley blood that's in him,” he heard her say, as if
between clenched teeth.
The girl's big brown eyes, when Theron looked into them again, were
still fixed upon the screen of foliage, and dilated like those of a
Medusa mask. The blood had gone away, and left the fair face and neck
as white, it seemed to him, as marble. Even her lips, fiercely bitten
together, appeared colorless. The picture of consuming and powerless
rage which she presented, and the shuddering tremor which ran over her
form, as visible as the quivering track of a gust of wind across a pond,
awed and frightened him.
Tenderness toward her helpless state came too, and uppermost. He drew
her arm into his, and turned their backs upon the picnic scene.
“Let us walk a little up the path into the woods,” he said, “and get
away from all this.”
“The further away the better,” she answered bitterly, and he felt the
shiver run through her again as she spoke.
The methodical waltz-music from that unseen dancing platform rose again
above all other sounds. They moved up the woodland path, their steps
insensibly falling into the rhythm of its strains, and vanished from
sight among the trees.
CHAPTER XXIV
Theron and Celia walked in silence for some minutes, until the noises
of the throng they had left behind were lost. The path they followed had
grown indefinite among the grass and creepers of the forest carpet;
now it seemed to end altogether in a little copse of young birches, the
delicately graceful stems of which were clustered about a parent stump,
long since decayed and overgrown with lichens and layers of thick moss.
As the two paused, the girl suddenly sank upon her knees, then threw
herself face forward upon the soft green bark which had formed itself
above the roots of the ancient mother-tree. Her companion looked down
in pained amazement at what he saw. Her body shook with the violence
of recurring sobs, or rather gasps of wrath and grief Her hands, with
stiffened, claw-like fingers, dug into the moss and tangle of tiny
vines, and tore them by the roots. The half-stifled sounds of weeping
that arose from where her face grovelled in the leaves were terrible
to his ears. He knew not what to say or do, but gazed in resourceless
suspense at the strange figure she made. It seemed a cruelly long time
that she lay there, almost at his feet, struggling fiercely with the
fury that was in her.
All at once the paroxysms passed away, the sounds of wild weeping
ceased. Celia sat up, and with her handkerchief wiped the tears and
leafy fragments from her face. She rearranged her hat and the braids of
her hair with swift, instinctive touches, brushed the woodland debris
from her front, and sprang to her feet.
“I'm all right now,” she said briskly. There was palpable effort in her
light tone, and in the stormy sort of smile which she forced upon her
blotched and perturbed countenance, but they were only too welcome to
Theron's anxious mood.
“Thank God!” he blurted out, all radiant with relief. “I feared you were
going to have a fit--or something.”
Celia laughed, a little artificially at first, then with a genuine
surrender to the comic side of his visible fright. The mirth came back
into the brown depths of her eyes again, and her face cleared itself of
tear-stains and the marks of agitation. “I AM a nice quiet party for
a Methodist minister to go walking in the woods with, am I not?” she
cried, shaking her skirts and smiling at him.
“I am not a Methodist minister--please!” answered Theron--“at least not
today--and here--with you! I am just a man--nothing more--a man who has
escaped from lifelong imprisonment, and feels for the first time what it
is to be free!”
“Ah, my friend,” Celia said, shaking her head slowly, “I'm afraid you
deceive yourself. You are not by any means free. You are only looking
out of the window of your prison, as you call it. The doors are locked,
just the same.”
“I will smash them!” he declared, with confidence. “Or for that matter,
I HAVE smashed them--battered them to pieces. You don't realize what
progress I have made, what changes there have been in me since that
night, you remember that wonderful night! I am quite another being, I
assure you! And really it dates from way beyond that--why, from the very
first evening, when I came to you in the church. The window in Father
Forbes' room was open, and I stood by it listening to the music next
door, and I could just faintly see on the dark window across the
alley-way a stained-glass picture of a woman. I suppose it was the
Virgin Mary. She had hair like yours, and your face, too; and that is
why I went into the church and found you. Yes, that is why.”
Celia regarded him with gravity. “You will get yourself into great
trouble, my friend,” she said.
“That's where you're wrong,” put in Theron. “Not that I'd mind any
trouble in this wide world, so long as you called me 'my friend,' but
I'm not going to get into any at all. I know a trick worth two of that.
I've learned to be a showman. I can preach now far better than I used
to, and I can get through my work in half the time, and keep on the
right side of my people, and get along with perfect smoothness. I
was too green before. I took the thing seriously, and I let every
mean-fisted curmudgeon and crazy fanatic worry me, and keep me on pins
and needles. I don't do that any more. I've taken a new measure of life.
I see now what life is really worth, and I'm going to have my share of
it. Why should I deliberately deny myself all possible happiness for the
rest of my days, simply because I made a fool of myself when I was in my
teens? Other men are not eternally punished like that, for what they
did as boys, and I won't submit to it either. I will be as free to enjoy
myself as--as Father Forbes.”
Celia smiled softly, and shook her head again. “Poor man, to call HIM
free!” she said: “why, he is bound hand and foot. You don't in the least
realize how he is hedged about, the work he has to do, the thousand
suspicious eyes that watch his every movement, eager to bring the Bishop
down upon him. And then think of his sacrifice--the great sacrifice of
all--to never know what love means, to forswear his manhood, to live
a forlorn, celibate life--you have no idea how sadly that appeals to a
woman.”
“Let us sit down here for a little,” said Theron; “we seem at the end of
the path.” She seated herself on the root-based mound, and he reclined
at her side, with an arm carelessly extended behind her on the moss.
“I can see what you mean,” he went on, after a pause. “But to me, do you
know, there is an enormous fascination in celibacy. You forget that I
know the reverse of the medal. I know how the mind can be cramped, the
nerves harassed, the ambitions spoiled and rotted, the whole existence
darkened and belittled, by--by the other thing. I have never talked to
you before about my marriage.”
“I don't think we'd better talk about it now,” observed Celia. “There
must be many more amusing topics.”
He missed the spirit of her remark. “You are right,” he said slowly. “It
is too sad a thing to talk about. But there! it is my load, and I bear
it, and there's nothing more to be said.”
Theron drew a heavy sigh, and let his fingers toy abstractedly with a
ribbon on the outer edge of Celia's penumbra of apparel.
“No,” she said. “We mustn't snivel, and we mustn't sulk. When I get into
a rage it makes me ill, and I storm my way through it and tear things,
but it doesn't last long, and I come out of it feeling all the better.
I don't know that I've ever seen your wife. I suppose she hasn't got red
hair?”
“I think it's a kind of light brown,” answered Theron, with an effect of
exerting his memory.
“It seems that you only take notice of hair in stained-glass windows,”
was Celia's comment.
“Oh-h!” he murmured reproachfully, “as if--as if--but I won't say what I
was going to.”
“That's not fair!” she said. The little touch of whimsical mockery which
she gave to the serious declaration was delicious to him. “You have me
at such a disadvantage! Here am I rattling out whatever comes into my
head, exposing all my lightest emotions, and laying bare my very heart
in candor, and you meditate, you turn things over cautiously in your
mind, like a second Machiavelli. I grow afraid of you; you are so subtle
and mysterious in your reserves.”
Theron gave a tug at the ribbon, to show the joy he had in her delicate
chaff. “No, it is you who are secretive,” he said. “You never told me
about--about the piano.”
The word was out! A minute before it had seemed incredible to him that
he should ever have the courage to utter it--but here it was. He laid
firm hold upon the ribbon, which it appeared hung from her waist, and
drew himself a trifle nearer to her. “I could never have consented to
take it, I'm afraid,” he went on in a low voice, “if I had known. And
even as it is, I fear it won't be possible.”
“What are you afraid of?” asked Celia. “Why shouldn't you take it?
People in your profession never do get anything unless it's given to
them, do they? I've always understood it was like that. I've often
read of donation parties--that's what they're called, isn't it?--where
everybody is supposed to bring some gift to the minister. Very well,
then, I've simply had a donation party of my own, that's all. Unless
you mean that my being a Catholic makes a difference. I had supposed you
were quite free from that kind of prejudice.”
“So I am! Believe me, I am!” urged Theron. “When I'm with you, it seems
impossible to realize that there are people so narrow and contracted
in their natures as to take account of such things. It is another
atmosphere that I breathe near you. How could you imagine that such a
thought--about our difference of creed--would enter my head? In
fact,” he concluded with a nervous half-laugh, “there isn't any such
difference. Whatever your religion is, it's mine too. You remember--you
adopted me as a Greek.”
“Did I?” she rejoined. “Well, if that's the case, it leaves you without
a leg to stand on. I challenge you to find any instance where a Greek
made any difficulties about accepting a piano from a friend. But
seriously--while we are talking about it--you introduced the subject:
I didn't--I might as well explain to you that I had no such intention,
when I picked the instrument out. It was later, when I was talking to
Thurston's people about the price, that the whim seized me. Now it is
the one fixed rule of my life to obey my whims. Whatever occurs to me as
a possibly pleasant thing to do, straight like a hash, I go and do it.
It is the only way that a person with means, with plenty of money, can
preserve any freshness of character. If they stop to think what it would
be prudent to do, they get crusted over immediately. That is the curse
of rich people--they teach themselves to distrust and restrain every
impulse toward unusual actions. They get to feel that it is more
necessary for them to be cautious and conventional than it is for
others. I would rather work at a wash-tub than occupy that attitude
toward my bank account. I fight against any sign of it that I detect
rising in my mind. The instant a wish occurs to me, I rush to gratify
it. That is my theory of life. That accounts for the piano; and I don't
see that you've anything to say about it at all.”
It seemed very convincing, this theory of life. Somehow, the thought
of Miss Madden's riches had never before assumed prominence in Theron's
mind. Of course her father was very wealthy, but it had not occurred
to him that the daughter's emancipation might run to the length of a
personal fortune. He knew so little of rich people and their ways!
He lifted his head, and looked up at Celia with an awakened humility and
awe in his glance. The glamour of a separate banking-account shone upon
her. Where the soft woodland light played in among the strands of her
disordered hair, he saw the veritable gleam of gold. A mysterious new
suggestion of power blended itself with the beauty of her face, was
exhaled in the faint perfume of her garments. He maintained a timorous
hold upon the ribbon, wondering at his hardihood in touching it, or
being near her at all.
“What surprises me,” he heard himself saying, “is that you are
contented to stay in Octavius. I should think that you would travel--go
abroad--see the beautiful things of the world, surround yourself with
the luxuries of big cities--and that sort of thing.”
Celia regarded the forest prospect straight in front of her with
a pensive gaze. “Sometime--no doubt I will sometime,” she said
abstractedly.
“One reads so much nowadays,” he went on, “of American heiresses going
to Europe and marrying dukes and noblemen. I suppose you will do that
too. Princes would fight one another for you.”
The least touch of a smile softened for an instant the impassivity of
her countenance. Then she stared harder than ever at the vague, leafy
distance. “That is the old-fashioned idea,” she said, in a musing tone,
“that women must belong to somebody, as if they were curios, or statues,
or race-horses. You don't understand, my friend, that I have a different
view. I am myself, and I belong to myself, exactly as much as any man.
The notion that any other human being could conceivably obtain the
slightest property rights in me is as preposterous, as ridiculous,
as--what shall I say?--as the notion of your being taken out with a
chain on your neck and sold by auction as a slave, down on the canal
bridge. I should be ashamed to be alive for another day, if any other
thought were possible to me.”
“That is not the generally accepted view, I should think,” faltered
Theron.
“No more is it the accepted view that young married Methodist ministers
should sit out alone in the woods with red-headed Irish girls. No, my
friend, let us find what the generally accepted views are, and as fast
as we find them set our heels on them. There is no other way to live
like real human beings. What on earth is it to me that other women crawl
about on all-fours, and fawn like dogs on any hand that will buckle
a collar onto them, and toss them the leavings of the table? I am not
related to them. I have nothing to do with them. They cannot make any
rules for me. If pride and dignity and independence are dead in them,
why, so much the worse for them! It is no affair of mine. Certainly it
is no reason why I should get down and grovel also. No; I at least stand
erect on my legs.”
Mr. Ware sat up, and stared confusedly, with round eyes and parted lips,
at his companion. Instinctively his brain dragged forth to the surface
those epithets which the doctor had hurled in bitter contempt at
her--“mad ass, a mere bundle of egotism, ignorance, and red-headed
lewdness.” The words rose in their order on his memory, hard and
sharp-edged, like arrow-heads. But to sit there, quite at her side; to
breathe the same air, and behold the calm loveliness of her profile; to
touch the ribbon of her dress--and all the while to hold these poisoned
darts of abuse levelled in thought at her breast--it was monstrous. He
could have killed the doctor at that moment. With an effort, he drove
the foul things from his mind--scattered them back into the darkness.
He felt that he had grown pale, and wondered if she had heard the groan
that seemed to have been forced from him in the struggle. Or was the
groan imaginary?
Celia continued to sit unmoved, composedly looking upon vacancy.
Theron's eyes searched her face in vain for any sign of consciousness
that she had astounded and bewildered him. She did not seem to be
thinking of him at all. The proud calm of her thoughtful countenance
suggested instead occupation with lofty and remote abstractions and
noble ideals. Contemplating her, he suddenly perceived that what she had
been saying was great, wonderful, magnificent. An involuntary thrill ran
through his veins at recollection of her words. His fancy likened it to
the sensation he used to feel as a youth, when the Fourth of July reader
bawled forth that opening clause: “When, in the course of human events,
it becomes necessary,” etc. It was nothing less than another Declaration
of Independence he had been listening to.
He sank again recumbent at her side, and stretched the arm behind her,
nearer than before. “Apparently, then, you will never marry.” His voice
trembled a little.
“Most certainly not!” said Celia.
“You spoke so feelingly a little while ago,” he ventured along, with
hesitation, “about how sadly the notion of a priest's sacrificing
himself--never knowing what love meant--appealed to a woman. I should
think that the idea of sacrificing herself would seem to her even sadder
still.”
“I don't remember that we mentioned THAT,” she replied. “How do you
mean--sacrificing herself?”
Theron gathered some of the outlying folds of her dress in his hand, and
boldly patted and caressed them. “You, so beautiful and so free, with
such fine talents and abilities,” he murmured; “you, who could have the
whole world at your feet--are you, too, never going to know what love
means? Do you call that no sacrifice? To me it is the most terrible that
my imagination can conceive.”
Celia laughed--a gentle, amused little laugh, in which Theron's ears
traced elements of tenderness. “You must regulate that imagination of
yours,” she said playfully. “It conceives the thing that is not. Pray,
when”--and here, turning her head, she bent down upon his face a gaze of
arch mock-seriousness--“pray, when did I describe myself in these terms?
When did I say that I should never know what love meant?”
For answer Theron laid his head down upon his arm, and closed his
eyes, and held his face against the draperies encircling her. “I cannot
think!” he groaned.
The thing that came uppermost in his mind, as it swayed and rocked in
the tempest of emotion, was the strange reminiscence of early childhood
in it all. It was like being a little boy again, nestling in an
innocent, unthinking transport of affection against his mother's skirts.
The tears he felt scalding his eyes were the spontaneous, unashamed
tears of a child; the tremulous and exquisite joy which spread,
wave-like, over him, at once reposeful and yearning, was full of
infantile purity and sweetness. He had not comprehended at all before
what wellsprings of spiritual beauty, what limpid depths of idealism,
his nature contained.
“We were speaking of our respective religions,” he heard Celia say, as
imperturbably as if there had been no digression worth mentioning.
“Yes,” he assented, and moved his head so that he looked up at her back
hair, and the leaves high above, mottled against the sky. The wish
to lie there, where now he could just catch the rose-leaf line of her
under-chin as well, was very strong upon him. “Yes?” he repeated.
“I cannot talk to you like that,” she said; and he sat up again
shamefacedly.
“Yes--I think we were speaking of religions--some time ago,” he
faltered, to relieve the situation. The dreadful thought that she might
be annoyed began to oppress him.
“Well, you said whatever my religion was, it was yours too. That
entitles you at least to be told what the religion is. Now, I am a
Catholic.”
Theron, much mystified, nodded his head. Could it be possible--was there
coming a deliberate suggestion that he should become a convert? “Yes--I
know,” he murmured.
“But I should explain that I am only a Catholic in the sense that its
symbolism is pleasant to me. You remember what Schopenhauer said--you
cannot have the water by itself: you must also have the jug that it is
in. Very well; the Catholic religion is my jug. I put into it the things
I like. They were all there long ago, thousands of years ago. The Jews
threw them out; we will put them back again. We will restore art and
poetry and the love of beauty, and the gentle, spiritual, soulful life.
The Greeks had it; and Christianity would have had it too, if it hadn't
been for those brutes they call the Fathers. They loved ugliness and
dirt and the thought of hell-fire. They hated women. In all the earlier
stages of the Church, women were very prominent in it. Jesus himself
appreciated women, and delighted to have them about him, and talk with
them and listen to them. That was the very essence of the Greek spirit;
and it breathed into Christianity at its birth a sweetness and a grace
which twenty generations of cranks and savages like Paul and Jerome
and Tertullian weren't able to extinguish. But the very man, Cyril, who
killed Hypatia, and thus began the dark ages, unwittingly did another
thing which makes one almost forgive him. To please the Egyptians, he
secured the Church's acceptance of the adoration of the Virgin. It is
that idea which has kept the Greek spirit alive, and grown and grown,
till at last it will rule the world. It was only epileptic Jews who
could imagine a religion without sex in it.”
“I remember the pictures of the Virgin in your room,” said Theron,
feeling more himself again. “I wondered if they quite went with the
statues.”
The remark won a smile from Celia's lips.
“They get along together better than you suppose,” she answered.
“Besides, they are not all pictures of Mary. One of them, standing on
the moon, is of Isis with the infant Horus in her arms. Another might as
well be Mahamie, bearing the miraculously born Buddha, or Olympias with
her child Alexander, or even Perictione holding her babe Plato--all
these were similar cases, you know. Almost every religion had its
Immaculate Conception. What does it all come to, except to show us that
man turns naturally toward the worship of the maternal idea? That is the
deepest of all our instincts--love of woman, who is at once daughter and
wife and mother. It is that that makes the world go round.”
Brave thoughts shaped themselves in Theron's mind, and shone forth in a
confident yet wistful smile on his face.
“It is a pity you cannot change estates with me for one minute,” he
said, in steady, low tone. “Then you would realize the tremendous truth
of what you have been saying. It is only your intellect that has reached
out and grasped the idea. If you were in my place, you would discover
that your heart was bursting with it as well.”
Celia turned and looked at him.
“I myself,” he went on, “would not have known, half an hour ago, what
you meant by the worship of the maternal idea. I am much older than
you. I am a strong, mature man. But when I lay down there, and shut my
eyes--because the charm and marvel of this whole experience had for
the moment overcome me--the strangest sensation seized upon me. It was
absolutely as if I were a boy again, a good, pure-minded, fond little
child, and you were the mother that I idolized.”
Celia had not taken her eyes from his face. “I find myself liking you
better at this moment,” she said, with gravity, “than I have ever liked
you before.”
Then, as by a sudden impulse, she sprang to her feet. “Come!” she cried,
her voice and manner all vivacity once more, “we have been here long
enough.”
Upon the instant, as Theron was more laboriously getting up, it became
apparent to them both that perhaps they had been there too long.
A boy with a gun under his arm, and two gray squirrels tied by the tails
slung across his shoulder, stood at the entrance to the glade, some
dozen paces away, regarding them with undisguised interest. Upon the
discovery that he was in turn observed, he resumed his interrupted
progress through the woods, whistling softly as he went, and vanished
among the trees.
“Heavens above!” groaned Theron, shudderingly.
“Know him?” he went on, in answer to the glance of inquiry on his
companion's face. “I should think I did! He spades my--my wife's garden
for her. He used to bring our milk. He works in the law office of one
of my trustees--the one who isn't friendly to me, but is very friendly
indeed with my--with Mrs. Ware. Oh, what shall I do? It may easily mean
my ruin!”
Celia looked at him attentively. The color had gone out of his face, and
with it the effect of earnestness and mental elevation which, a minute
before, had caught her fancy. “Somehow, I fear that I do not like you
quite so much just now, my friend,” she remarked.
“In God's name, don't say that!” urged Theron. He raised his voice in
agitated entreaty. “You don't know what these people are--how they would
leap at the barest hint of a scandal about me. In my position I am a
thousand times more defenceless than any woman. Just a single whisper,
and I am done for!”
“Let me point out to you, Mr. Ware,” said Celia, slowly, “that to be
seen sitting and talking with me, whatever doubts it may raise as to
a gentleman's intellectual condition, need not necessarily blast his
social reputation beyond all hope whatever.”
Theron stared at her, as if he had not grasped her meaning. Then he
winced visibly under it, and put out his hands to implore her. “Forgive
me! Forgive me!” he pleaded. “I was beside myself for the moment with
the fright of the thing. Oh, say you do forgive me, Celia!” He made
haste to support this daring use of her name. “I have been so happy
today--so deeply, so vastly happy--like the little child I spoke of--and
that is so new in my lonely life--that--the suddenness of the thing--it
just for the instant unstrung me. Don't be too hard on me for it! And
I had hoped, too--I had had such genuine heartfelt pleasure in the
thought--that, an hour or two ago, when you were unhappy, perhaps it had
been some sort of consolation to you that I was with you.”
Celia was looking away. When he took her hand she did not withdraw it,
but turned and nodded in musing general assent to what he had said.
“Yes, we have both been unstrung, as you call it, today,” she said,
decidedly out of pitch. “Let each forgive the other, and say no more
about it.”
She took his arm, and they retraced their steps along the path, again
in silence. The labored noise of the orchestra, as it were, returned to
meet them. They halted at an intersecting footpath.
“I go back to my slavery--my double bondage,” said Theron, letting his
voice sink to a sigh. “But even if I am put on the rack for it, I shall
have had one day of glory.”
“I think you may kiss me, in memory of that one day--or of a few minutes
in that day,” said Celia.
Their lips brushed each other in a swift, almost perfunctory caress.
Theron went his way at a hurried pace, the sobered tones of her
“good-bye” beating upon his brain with every measure of the droning
waltz-music.
PART IV
CHAPTER XXV
The memory of the kiss abode with Theron. Like Aaron's rod, it swallowed
up one by one all competing thoughts and recollections, and made his
brain its slave.
Even as he strode back through the woods to the camp-meeting, it was the
kiss that kept his feet in motion, and guided their automatic course.
All along the watches of the restless night, it was the kiss that bore
him sweet company, and wandered with him from one broken dream of bliss
to another. Next day, it was the kiss that made of life for him a sort
of sunlit wonderland. He preached his sermon in the morning, and took
his appointed part in the other services of afternoon and evening,
apparently to everybody's satisfaction: to him it was all a vision.
When the beautiful full moon rose, this Sunday evening, and glorified
the clearing and the forest with its mellow harvest radiance, he could
have groaned with the burden of his joy. He went out alone into the
light, and bared his head to it, and stood motionless for a long time.
In all his life, he had never been impelled as powerfully toward earnest
and soulful thanksgiving. The impulse to kneel, there in the pure,
tender moonlight, and lift up offerings of praise to God, kept uppermost
in his mind. Some formless resignation restrained him from the act
itself, but the spirit of it hallowed his mood. He gazed up at the broad
luminous face of the satellite. “You are our God,” he murmured. “Hers
and mine! You are the most beautiful of heavenly creatures, as she is of
the angels on earth. I am speechless with reverence for you both.”
It was not until the camp-meeting broke up, four days later, and Theron
with the rest returned to town, that the material aspects of what had
happened, and might be expected to happen, forced themselves upon his
mind. The kiss was a child of the forest. So long as Theron remained in
the camp, the image of the kiss, which was enshrined in his heart and
ministered to by all his thoughts, continued enveloped in a haze of
sylvan mystery, like a dryad. Suggestions of its beauty and holiness
came to him in the odors of the woodland, at the sight of wild flowers
and water-lilies. When he walked alone in unfamiliar parts of the
forest, he carried about with him the half-conscious idea of somewhere
coming upon a strange, hidden pool which mortal eye had not seen
before--a deep, sequestered mere of spring-fed waters, walled in by
rich, tangled growths of verdure, and bearing upon its virgin bosom only
the shadows of the primeval wilderness, and the light of the eternal
skies. His fancy dwelt upon some such nook as the enchanted home of
the fairy that possessed his soul. The place, though he never found it,
became real to him. As he pictured it, there rose sometimes from among
the lily-pads, stirring the translucent depths and fluttering over the
water's surface drops like gems, the wonderful form of a woman, with
pale leaves wreathed in her luxuriant red hair, and a skin which gave
forth light.
With the homecoming to Octavius, his dreams began to take more account
of realities. In a day or two he was wide awake, and thinking hard. The
kiss was as much as ever the ceaseless companion of his hours, but it no
longer insisted upon shrouding itself in vines and woodland creepers, or
outlining itself in phosphorescent vagueness against mystic backgrounds
of nymph-haunted glades. It advanced out into the noonday, and assumed
tangible dimensions and substance. He saw that it was related to the
facts of his daily life, and had, in turn, altered his own relations to
all these facts.
What ought he to do? What COULD he do? Apparently, nothing but wait.
He waited for a week--then for another week. The conclusion that the
initiative had been left to him began to take shape in his mind. From
this it seemed but a step to the passionate resolve to act at once.
Turning the situation over and over in his anxious thoughts, two things
stood out in special prominence. One was that Celia loved him. The other
was that the boy in Gorringe's law office, and possibly Gorringe, and
heaven only knew how many others besides, had reasons for suspecting
this to be true.
And what about Celia? Side by side with the moving rapture of thinking
about her as a woman, there rose the substantial satisfaction of
contemplating her as Miss Madden. She had kissed him, and she was very
rich. The things gradually linked themselves before his eyes. He tried
a thousand varying guesses at what she proposed to do, and each time
reined up his imagination by the reminder that she was confessedly a
creature of whims, who proposed to do nothing, but was capable of all
things.
And as to the boy. If he had blabbed what he saw, it was incredible that
somebody should not take the subject up, and impart a scandalous twist
to it, and send it rolling like a snowball to gather up exaggeration and
foul innuendo till it was big enough to overwhelm him. What would happen
to him if a formal charge were preferred against him? He looked it up
in the Discipline. Of course, if his accusers magnified their mean
suspicions and calumnious imaginings to the point of formulating a
charge, it would be one of immorality. They could prove nothing; there
was nothing to prove. At the worst, it was an indiscretion, which would
involve his being admonished by his Presiding Elder. Or if these narrow
bigots confused slanders with proofs, and showed that they intended to
convict him, then it would be open to him to withdraw from the ministry,
in advance of his condemnation. His relation to the church would be
the same as if he had been expelled, but to the outer world it would be
different. And supposing he did withdraw from the ministry?
Yes; this was the important point. What if he did abandon this mistaken
profession of his? On its mental side the relief would be prodigious,
unthinkable. But on the practical side, the bread-and-butter side? For
some days Theron paused with a shudder when he reached this question.
The thought of the plunge into unknown material responsibilities gave
him a sinking heart. He tried to imagine himself lecturing, canvassing
for books or insurance policies, writing for newspapers--and remained
frightened. But suddenly one day it occurred to him that these qualms
and forebodings were sheer folly. Was not Celia rich? Would she not with
lightning swiftness draw forth that check-book, like the flashing sword
of a champion from its scabbard, and run to his relief? Why, of course.
It was absurd not to have thought of that before.
He recalled her momentary anger with him, that afternoon in the woods,
when he had cried out that discovery would mean ruin to him. He saw
clearly enough now that she had been grieved at his want of faith in her
protection. In his flurry of fright, he had lost sight of the fact that,
if exposure and trouble came to him, she would naturally feel that she
had been the cause of his martyrdom. It was plain enough now. If he got
into hot water, it would be solely on account of his having been seen
with her. He had walked into the woods with her--“the further the
better” had been her own words--out of pure kindliness, and the
desire to lead her away from the scene of her brother's and her own
humiliation. But why amplify arguments? Her own warm heart would tell
her, on the instant, how he had been sacrificed for her sake, and would
bring her, eager and devoted, to his succor.
That was all right, then. Slowly, from this point, suggestions expanded
themselves. The future could be, if he willed it, one long serene
triumph of love, and lofty intellectual companionship, and existence
softened and enriched at every point by all that wealth could command,
and the most exquisite tastes suggest. Should he will it! Ah! the
question answered itself. But he could not enter upon this beckoning
heaven of a future until he had freed himself. When Celia said to him,
“Come!” he must not be in the position to reply, “I should like to, but
unfortunately I am tied by the leg.” He should have to leave Octavius,
leave the ministry, leave everything. He could not begin too soon to
face these contingencies.
Very likely Celia had not thought it out as far as this. With her,
it was a mere vague “sometime I may.” But the harder masculine sense,
Theron felt, existed for the very purpose of correcting and giving point
to these loose feminine notions of time and space. It was for him to
clear away the obstacles, and map the plans out with definite decision.
One warm afternoon, as he lolled in his easy-chair under the open
window of his study, musing upon the ever-shifting phases of this vast,
complicated, urgent problem, some chance words from the sidewalk in
front came to his ears, and, coming, remained to clarify his thoughts.
Two ladies whose voices were strange to him had stopped--as so many
people almost daily stopped--to admire the garden of the parsonage. One
of them expressed her pleasure in general terms. Said the other--
“My husband declares those dahlias alone couldn't be matched for thirty
dollars, and that some of those gladiolus must have cost three or four
dollars apiece. I know we've spent simply oceans of money on our garden,
and it doesn't begin to compare with this.”
“It seems like a sinful waste to me,” said her companion.
“No-o,” the other hesitated. “No, I don't think quite that--if you can
afford it just as well as not. But it does seem to me that I'd rather
live in a little better house, and not spend it ALL on flowers. Just
LOOK at that cactus!”
The voices died away. Theron sat up, with a look of arrested thought
upon his face, then sprang to his feet and moved hurriedly through the
parlor to an open front window. Peering out with caution he saw that the
two women receding from view were fashionably dressed and evidently
came from homes of means. He stared after them in a blank way until they
turned a corner.
He went into the hall then, put on his frock-coat and hat, and stepped
out into the garden. He was conscious of having rather avoided it
heretofore--not altogether without reasons of his own, lying unexamined
somewhere in the recesses of his mind. Now he walked slowly about, and
examined the flowers with great attentiveness. The season was
advancing, and he saw that many plants had gone out of bloom. But what a
magnificent plenitude of blossoms still remained!
Thirty dollars' worth of dahlias--that was what the stranger had said.
Theron hardly brought himself to credit the statement; but all the same
it was apparent to even his uninformed eye that these huge, imbricated,
flowering masses, with their extraordinary half-colors, must be unusual.
He remembered that the boy in Gorringe's office had spoken of just one
lot of plants costing thirty-one dollars and sixty cents, and there had
been two other lots as well. The figures remained surprisingly distinct
in his memory. It was no good deceiving himself any longer: of course
these were the plants that Gorringe had spent his money upon, here all
about him.
As he surveyed them with a sour regard, a cool breeze stirred across the
garden. The tall, over-laden flower-spikes of gladioli bent and nodded
at him; the hollyhocks and flaming alvias, the clustered blossoms on the
standard roses, the delicately painted lilies on their stilt-like stems,
fluttered in the wind, and seemed all bowing satirically to him. “Yes,
Levi Gorringe paid for us!” He almost heard their mocking declaration.
Out in the back-yard, where a longer day of sunshine dwelt, there were
many other flowers, and notably a bed of geraniums which literally made
the eye ache. Standing at this rear corner of the house, he caught the
droning sound of Alice's voice, humming a hymn to herself as she went
about her kitchen work. He saw her through the open window. She was
sweeping, and had a sort of cap on her head which did not add to the
graces of her appearance. He looked at her with a hard glance, recalling
as a fresh grievance the ten days of intolerable boredom he had spent
cooped up in a ridiculous little tent with her, at the camp-meeting. She
must have realized at the time how odious the enforced companionship was
to him. Yes, beyond doubt she did. It came back to him now that they
had spoken but rarely to each other. She had not even praised his sermon
upon the Sabbath-question, which every one else had been in raptures
over. For that matter she no longer praised anything he did, and took
obvious pains to preserve toward him a distant demeanor. So much the
better, he felt himself thinking. If she chose to behave in that
offish and unwifely fashion, she could blame no one but herself for its
results.
She had seen him, and came now to the window, watering-pot and broom
in hand. She put her head out, to breathe a breath of dustless air, and
began as if she would smile on him. Then her face chilled and stiffened,
as she caught his look.
“Shall you be home for supper?” she asked, in her iciest tone.
He had not thought of going out before. The question, and the manner of
it, gave immediate urgency to the idea of going somewhere. “I may or I
may not,” he replied. “It is quite impossible for me to say.” He turned
on his heel with this, and walked briskly out of the yard and down the
street.
It was the most natural thing that presently he should be strolling past
the Madden house, and letting a covert glance stray over its front and
the grounds about it, as he loitered along. Every day since his return
from the woods he had given the fates this chance of bringing Celia
to meet him, without avail. He had hung about in the vicinity of the
Catholic church on several evenings as well, but to no purpose. The
organ inside was dumb, and he could detect no signs of Celia's presence
on the curtains of the pastorate next door. This day, too, there was
no one visible at the home of the Maddens, and he walked on, a little
sadly. It was weary work waiting for the signal that never came.
But there were compensations. His mind reverted doggedly to the flowers
in his garden, and to Alice's behavior toward him. They insisted upon
connecting themselves in his thoughts. Why should Levi Gorringe, a
money-lender, and therefore the last man in the world to incur reckless
expenditure, go and buy perhaps a hundred dollars, worth of flowers for
his wife's garden? It was time--high time--to face this question. And
his experiencing religion afterward, just when Alice did, and marching
down to the rail to kneel beside her--that was a thing to be thought of,
too.
Meditation, it is true, hardly threw fresh light upon the matter. It
was incredible, of course, that there should be anything wrong. To even
shape a thought of Alice in connection with gallantry would be wholly
impossible. Nor could it be said that Gorringe, in his new capacity as a
professing church-member, had disclosed any sign of ulterior motives,
or of insincerity. Yet there the facts were. While Theron pondered them,
their mystery, if they involved a mystery, baffled him altogether.
But when he had finished, he found himself all the same convinced that
neither Alice nor Gorringe would be free to blame him for anything
he might do. He had grounds for complaint against them. If he did not
himself know just what these grounds were, it was certain enough that
THEY knew. Very well, then, let them take the responsibility for what
happened.
It was indeed awkward that at the moment, as Theron chanced to emerge
temporarily from his brown-study, his eyes fell full upon the spare,
well-knit form of Levi Gorringe himself, standing only a few feet away,
in the staircase entrance to his law office. His lean face, browned by
the summer's exposure, had a more Arabian aspect than ever. His hands
were in his pockets, and he held an unlighted cigar between his teeth.
He looked the Rev. Mr. Ware over calmly, and nodded recognition.
Theron had halted instinctively. On the instant he would have given
a great deal not to have stopped at all. It was stupid of him to have
paused, but it would not do now to go on without words of some sort. He
moved over to the door-way, and made a half-hearted pretence of looking
at the photographs in one of the show-cases at its side. As Mr. Gorringe
did not take his hands from his pockets, there was no occasion for any
formal greeting.
“I had no idea that they took such good pictures in Octavius,” Theron
remarked after a minute's silence, still bending in examination of the
photographs.
“They ought to; they charge New York prices,” observed the lawyer,
sententiously.
Theron found in the words confirmation of his feeling that Gorringe was
not naturally a lavish or extravagant man. Rather was he a careful and
calculating man, who spent money only for a purpose. Though the minister
continued gazing at the stiff presentments of local beauties and
swains, his eyes seemed to see salmon-hued hollyhocks and spotted lilies
instead. Suddenly a resolve came to him. He stood erect, and faced his
trustee.
“Speaking of the price of things,” he said, with an effort of arrogance
in his measured tone, “I have never had an opportunity before of
mentioning the subject of the flowers you have so kindly furnished for
my--for MY garden.”
“Why mention it now?” queried Gorringe, with nonchalance. He turned his
cigar about with a movement of his lips, and worked it into the corner
of his mouth. He did not find it necessary to look at Theron at all.
“Because--” began Mr. Ware, and then hesitated--“because--well, it
raises a question of my being under obligation, which I--”
“Oh, no, sir,” said the lawyer; “put that out of your mind. You are no
more under obligation to me than I am to you. Oh, no, make yourself easy
about that. Neither of us owes the other anything.”
“Not even good-will--I take that to be your meaning,” retorted Theron,
with some heat.
“The words are yours, sir,” responded Gorringe, coolly. “I do not object
to them.”
“As you like,” put in the other. “If it be so, why, then all the more
reason why I should, under the circumstances--”
“Under what circumstances?” interposed the lawyer. “Let us be clear
about this thing as we go along. To what circumstances do you refer?”
He had turned his eyes now, and looked Theron in the face. A slight
protrusion of his lower jaw had given the cigar an upward tilt under the
black mustache.
“The circumstances are that you have brought or sent to my garden a
great many very expensive flower-plants and bushes and so on.”
“And you object? I had not supposed that clergymen in general--and you
in particular--were so sensitive. Have donation parties, then, gone out
of date?”
“I understand your sneer well enough,” retorted Theron, “but that
can pass. The main point is, that you did me the honor to send these
plants--or to smuggle them in--but never once deigned to hint to me that
you had done so. No one told me. Except by mere accident, I should not
have known to this day where they came from.”
Mr. Gorringe twisted the cigar at another angle, with lines of grim
amusement about the corner of his mouth. “I should have thought,” he
said with dry deliberation, “that possibly this fact might have raised
in your mind the conceivable hypothesis that the plants might not be
intended for you at all.”
“That is precisely it, sir,” said Theron. There were people passing, and
he was forced to keep his voice down. It would have been a relief, he
felt, to shout. “That is it--they were not intended for me.”
“Well, then, what are you talking about?” The lawyer's speech had become
abrupt almost to incivility.
“I think my remarks have been perfectly clear,” said the minister, with
dignity. It was a new experience to be addressed in that fashion.
It occurred to him to add, “Please remember that I am not in the
witness-box, to be bullied or insulted by a professional.”
Gorringe studied Theron's face attentively with a cold, searching
scrutiny. “You may thank your stars you're not!” he said, with
significance.
What on earth could he mean? The words and the menacing tone greatly
impressed Theron. Indeed, upon reflection, he found that they frightened
him. The disposition to adopt a high tone with the lawyer was melting
away.
“I do not see,” he began, and then deliberately allowed his voice to
take on an injured and plaintive inflection--“I do not see why you
should adopt this tone toward me--Brother Gorringe.”
The lawyer scowled, and bit sharply into the cigar, but said nothing.
“If I have unconsciously offended you in any way,” Theron went on, “I
beg you to tell me how. I liked you from the beginning of my pastorate
here, and the thought that latterly we seemed to be drifting apart has
given me much pain. But now it is still more distressing to find you
actually disposed to quarrel with me. Surely, Brother Gorringe, between
a pastor and a probationer who--”
“No,” Gorringe broke in; “quarrel isn't the word for it. There isn't any
quarrel, Mr. Ware.” He stepped down from the door-stone to the sidewalk
as he spoke, and stood face to face with Theron. Working-men with
dinner-pails, and factory girls, were passing close to them, and he
lowered his voice to a sharp, incisive half-whisper as he added, “It
wouldn't be worth any grown man's while to quarrel with so poor a
creature as you are.”
Theron stood confounded, with an empty stare of bewilderment on his
face. It rose in his mind that the right thing to feel was rage,
righteous indignation, fury; but for the life of him, he could not
muster any manly anger. The character of the insult stupefied him.
“I do not know that I have anything to say to you in reply,” he
remarked, after what seemed to him a silence of minutes. His lips
framed the words automatically, but they expressed well enough the blank
vacancy of his mind. The suggestion that anybody deemed him a “poor
creature” grew more astounding, incomprehensible, as it swelled in his
brain.
“No, I suppose not,” snapped Gorringe. “You're not the sort to stand up
to men; your form is to go round the corner and take it out of somebody
weaker than yourself--a defenceless woman, for instance.”
“Oh--ho!” said Theron. The exclamation had uttered itself. The sound of
it seemed to clarify his muddled thoughts; and as they ranged themselves
in order, he began to understand. “Oh--ho!” he said again, and nodded
his head in token of comprehension.
The lawyer, chewing his cigar with increased activity, glared at him.
“What do you mean?” he demanded peremptorily.
“Mean?” said the minister. “Oh, nothing that I feel called upon to
explain to you.”
It was passing strange, but his self-possession had all at once returned
to him. As it became more apparent that the lawyer was losing his
temper, Theron found the courage to turn up the corners of his lips in
show of a bitter little smile of confidence. He looked into the other's
dusky face, and flaunted this smile at it in contemptuous defiance. “It
is not a subject that I can discuss with propriety--at this stage,” he
added.
“Damn you! Are you talking about those flowers?”
“Oh, I am not talking about anything in particular,” returned Theron,
“not even the curious choice of language which my latest probationer
seems to prefer.”
“Go and strike my name off the list!” said Gorringe, with rising
passion. “I was a fool to ever have it there. To think of being a
probationer of yours--my God!”
“That will be a pity--from one point of view,” remarked Theron, still
with the ironical smile on his lips. “You seemed to enter upon the new
life with such deliberation and fixity of purpose, too! I can imagine
the regrets your withdrawal will cause, in certain quarters. I only hope
that it will not discourage those who accompanied you to the altar,
and shared your enthusiasm at the time.” He had spoken throughout with
studied slowness and an insolent nicety of utterance.
“You had better go away!” broke forth Gorringe. “If you don't, I shall
forget myself.”
“For the first time?” asked Theron. Then, warned by the flash in the
lawyer's eye, he turned on his heel and sauntered, with a painstaking
assumption of a mind quite at ease, up the street.
Gorringe's own face twitched and his veins tingled as he looked after
him. He spat the shapeless cigar out of his mouth into the gutter, and,
drawing forth another from his pocket, clenched it between his teeth,
his gaze following the tall form of the Methodist minister till it was
merged in the crowd.
“Well, I'm damned!” he said aloud to himself.
The photographer had come down to take in his showcases for the night.
He looked up from his task at the exclamation, and grinned inquiringly.
“I've just been talking to a man,” said the lawyer, “who's so much
meaner than any other man I ever heard of that it takes my breath away.
He's got a wife that's as pure and good as gold, and he knows it, and
she worships the ground he walks on, and he knows that too. And yet the
scoundrel is around trying to sniff out some shadow of a pretext for
misusing her worse than he's already done. Yes, sir; he'd be actually
tickled to death if he could nose up some hint of a scandal about
her--something that he could pretend to believe, and work for his own
advantage to levy blackmail, or get rid of her, or whatever suited his
book. I didn't think there was such an out-and-out cur on this whole
footstool. I almost wish, by God, I'd thrown him into the canal!”
“Yes, you lawyers must run against some pretty snide specimens,”
remarked the photographer, lifting one of the cases from its sockets.
CHAPTER XXVI
Theron spent half an hour in aimless strolling about the streets. From
earliest boyhood his mind had always worked most clearly when he walked
alone. Every mental process which had left a mark upon his memory and
his career--the daydreams of future academic greatness and fame which
had fashioned themselves in his brain as a farm lad; the meditations,
raptures, and high resolves of his student period at the seminary; the
more notable sermons and powerful discourse by which he had revealed the
genius that was in him to astonished and delighted assemblages--all were
associated in his retrospective thoughts with solitary rambles.
He had a very direct and vivid consciousness now that it was good to be
on his legs, and alone. He had never in his life been more sensible of
the charm of his own companionship. The encounter with Gorringe seemed
to have cleared all the clouds out of his brain, and restored lightness
to his heart. After such an object lesson, the impossibility of his
continuing to sacrifice himself to a notion of duty to these low-minded
and coarse-natured villagers was beyond all argument. There could no
longer be any doubt about his moral right to turn his back upon them, to
wash his hands of the miserable combination of hypocrisy and hysterics
which they called their spiritual life.
And the question of Gorringe and Alice, that too stood precisely where
he wanted it. Even in his own thoughts, he preferred to pursue it no
further. Between them somewhere an offence of concealment, it might be
of conspiracy, had been committed against him. It was no business of his
to say more, or to think more. He rested his case simply on the fact,
which could not be denied, and which he was not in the least interested
to have explained, one way or the other. The recollection of Gorringe's
obvious disturbance of mind was especially pleasant to him. He himself
had been magnanimous almost to the point of weakness. He had gone out
of his way to call the man “brother,” and to give him an opportunity of
behaving like a gentleman; but his kindly forbearance had been wasted.
Gorringe was not the man to understand generous feelings, much less rise
to their level. He had merely shown that he would be vicious if he knew
how. It was more important and satisfactory to recall that he had also
shown a complete comprehension of the injured husband's grievance. The
fact that he had recognized it was enough--was, in fact, everything.
In the background of his thoughts Theron had carried along a notion of
going and dining with Father Forbes when the time for the evening meal
should arrive. The idea in itself attracted him, as a fitting capstone
to his resolve not to go home to supper. It gave just the right kind
of character to his domestic revolt. But when at last he stood on the
doorstep of the pastorate, waiting for an answer to the tinkle of the
electric bell he had heard ring inside, his mind contained only the
single thought that now he should hear something about Celia. Perhaps he
might even find her there; but he put that suggestion aside as slightly
unpleasant.
The hag-faced housekeeper led him, as before, into the dining-room. It
was still daylight, and he saw on the glance that the priest was alone
at the table, with a book beside him to read from as he ate.
Father Forbes rose and came forward, greeting his visitor with profuse
urbanity and smiles. If there was a perfunctory note in the invitation
to sit down and share the meal, Theron did not catch it. He frankly
displayed his pleasure as he laid aside his hat, and took the chair
opposite his host.
“It is really only a few months since I was here, in this room, before,”
he remarked, as the priest closed his book and tossed it to one side,
and the housekeeper came in to lay another place. “Yet it might have
been years, many long years, so tremendous is the difference that the
lapse of time has wrought in me.”
“I am afraid we have nothing to tempt you very much, Mr. Ware,” remarked
Father Forbes, with a gesture of his plump white hand which embraced the
dishes in the centre of the table. “May I send you a bit of this boiled
mutton? I have very homely tastes when I am by myself.”
“I was saying,” Theron observed, after some moments had passed in
silence, “that I date such a tremendous revolution in my thoughts, my
beliefs, my whole mind and character, from my first meeting with you,
my first coming here. I don't know how to describe to you the enormous
change that has come over me; and I owe it all to you.”
“I can only hope, then, that it is entirely of a satisfactory nature,”
said the priest, politely smiling.
“Oh, it is so splendidly satisfactory!” said Theron, with fervor. “I
look back at myself now with wonder and pity. It seems incredible
that, such a little while ago, I should have been such an ignorant
and unimaginative clod of earth, content with such petty ambitions and
actually proud of my limitations.”
“And you have larger ambitions now?” asked the other. “Pray let me help
you to some potatoes. I am afraid that ambitions only get in our way and
trip us up. We clergymen are like street-car horses. The more steadily
we jog along between the rails, the better it is for us.”
“Oh, I don't intend to remain in the ministry,” declared Theron. The
statement seemed to him a little bald, now that he had made it; and as
his companion lifted his brows in surprise, he added stumblingly: “That
is, as I feel now, it seems to me impossible that I should remain much
longer. With you, of course, it is different. You have a thousand things
to interest and pleasantly occupy you in your work and its ceremonies,
so that mere belief or non-belief in the dogma hardly matters. But in
our church dogma is everything. If you take that away, or cease to have
its support, the rest is intolerable, hideous.”
Father Forbes cut another slice of mutton for himself. “It is a pretty
serious business to make such a change at your time of life. I take it
for granted you will think it all over very carefully before you commit
yourself.” He said this with an almost indifferent air, which rather
chilled his listener's enthusiasm.
“Oh, yes,”, Theron made answer; “I shall do nothing rash. But I have a
good many plans for the future.”
Father Forbes did not ask what these were, and a brief further period of
silence fell upon the table.
“I hope everything went off smoothly at the picnic,” Theron ventured, at
last. “I have not seen any of you since then.”
The priest shook his head and sighed. “No,” he said. “It is a bad
business. I have had a great deal of unhappiness out of it this past
fortnight. That young man who was rude to you--of course it was mere
drunken, irresponsible nonsense on his part--has got himself into a
serious scrape, I'm afraid. It is being kept quite within the family,
and we hope to manage so that it will remain there, but it has terribly
upset his father and his sister. But that, after all, is not so hard
to bear as the other affliction that has come upon the Maddens. You
remember Michael, the other brother? He seems to have taken cold that
evening, or perhaps over-exerted himself. He has been seized with quick
consumption. He will hardly last till snow flies.”
“Oh, I am GRIEVED to hear that!” Theron spoke with tremulous
earnestness. It seemed to him as if Michael were in some way related to
him.
“It is very hard upon them all,” the priest went on. “Michael is as
sweet and holy a character as it is possible for any one to think of. He
is the apple of his father's eye. They were inseparable, those two. Do
you know the father, Mr. Madden?”
Theron shook his head. “I think I have seen him,” he said. “A small man,
with gray whiskers.”
“A peasant,” said Father Forbes, “but with a heart of gold. Poor man! he
has had little enough out of his riches. Ah, the West Coast people, what
tragedies I have seen among them over here! They have rudimentary lung
organizations, like a frog's, to fit the mild, wet soft air they live
in. The sharp air here kills them off like flies in a frost. Whole
families go. I should think there are a dozen of old Jeremiah's children
in the cemetery. If Michael could have passed his twenty-eighth year,
there would have been hope for him, at least till his thirty-fifth.
These pulmonary things seem to go by sevens, you know.”
“I didn't know,” said Theron. “It is very strange--and very sad.” His
startled mind was busy, all at once, with conjectures as to Celia's age.
“The sister--Miss Madden--seems extremely strong,” he remarked
tentatively.
“Celia may escape the general doom,” said the priest. His guest noted
that he clenched his shapely white hand on the table as he spoke, and
that his gentle, carefully modulated voice had a gritty hardness in its
tone. “THAT would be too dreadful to think of,” he added.
Theron shuddered in silence, and strove to shut his mind against the
thought.
“She has taken Michael's illness so deeply to heart,” the priest
proceeded, “and devoted herself to him so untiringly that I get a little
nervous about her. I have been urging her to go away and get a change of
air and scene, if only for a few days. She does not sleep well, and that
is always a bad thing.”
“I think I remember her telling me once that sometimes she had sleepless
spells,” said Theron. “She said that then she banged on her piano at
all hours, or dragged the cushions about from room to room, like a wild
woman. A very interesting young lady, don't you find her so?”
Father Forbes let a wan smile play on his lips. “What, our Celia?”
he said. “Interesting! Why, Mr. Ware, there is no one like her in the
world. She is as unique as--what shall I say?--as the Irish are among
races. Her father and mother were both born in mud-cabins, and she--she
might be the daughter of a hundred kings, except that they seem mostly
rather under-witted than otherwise. She always impresses me as a sort of
atavistic idealization of the old Kelt at his finest and best. There in
Ireland you got a strange mixture of elementary early peoples, walled
off from the outer world by the four seas, and free to work out their
own racial amalgam on their own lines. They brought with them at the
outset a great inheritance of Eastern mysticism. Others lost it, but the
Irish, all alone on their island, kept it alive and brooded on it, and
rooted their whole spiritual side in it. Their religion is full of it;
their blood is full of it; our Celia is fuller of it than anybody else.
The Ireland of two thousand years ago is incarnated in her. They are the
merriest people and the saddest, the most turbulent and the most docile,
the most talented and the most unproductive, the most practical and the
most visionary, the most devout and the most pagan. These impossible
contradictions war ceaselessly in their blood. When I look at Celia,
I seem to see in my mind's eye the fair young-ancestral mother of them
all.”
Theron gazed at the speaker with open admiration. “I love to hear you
talk,” he said simply.
An unbidden memory flitted upward in his mind. Those were the very words
that Alice had so often on her lips in their old courtship days. How
curious it was! He looked at the priest, and had a quaint sensation of
feeling as a romantic woman must feel in the presence of a specially
impressive masculine personality. It was indeed strange that this
soft-voiced, portly creature in a gown, with his white, fat hands and
his feline suavity of manner, should produce such a commanding and
unique effect of virility. No doubt this was a part of the great sex
mystery which historically surrounded the figure of the celibate priest
as with an atmosphere. Women had always been prostrating themselves
before it. Theron, watching his companion's full, pallid face in the
lamp-light, tried to fancy himself in the priest's place, looking down
upon these worshipping female forms. He wondered what the celibate's
attitude really was. The enigma fascinated him.
Father Forbes, after his rhetorical outburst, had been eating. He pushed
aside his cheese-plate. “I grow enthusiastic on the subject of my race
sometimes,” he remarked, with the suggestion of an apology. “But I make
up for it other times--most of the time--by scolding them. If it were
not such a noble thing to be an Irishman, it would be ridiculous.”
“Ah,” said Theron, deprecatingly, “who would not be enthusiastic in
talking of Miss Madden? What you said about her was perfect. As you
spoke, I was thinking how proud and thankful we ought to be for the
privilege of knowing her--we who do know her well--although of course
your friendship with her is vastly more intimate than mine--than mine
could ever hope to be.”
The priest offered no comment, and Theron went on: “I hardly know how to
describe the remarkable impression she makes upon me. I can't imagine to
myself any other young woman so brilliant or broad in her views, or so
courageous. Of course, her being so rich makes it easier for her to do
just what she wants to do, but her bravery is astonishing all the same.
We had a long and very sympathetic talk in the woods, that day of the
picnic, after we left you. I don't know whether she spoke to you about
it?”
Father Forbes made a movement of the head and eyes which seemed to
negative the suggestion.
“Her talk,” continued Theron, “gave me quite new ideas of the range and
capacity of the female mind. I wonder that everybody in Octavius isn't
full of praise and admiration for her talents and exceptional character.
In such a small town as this, you would think she would be the centre of
attention--the pride of the place.”
“I think she has as much praise as is good for her,” remarked the
priest, quietly.
“And here's a thing that puzzles me,” pursued Mr. Ware. “I was immensely
surprised to find that Dr. Ledsmar doesn't even think she is smart--or
at least he professes the utmost intellectual contempt for her, and says
he dislikes her into the bargain. But of course she dislikes him, too,
so that's only natural. But I can't understand his denying her great
ability.”
The priest smiled in a dubious way. “Don't borrow unnecessary alarm
about that, Mr. Ware,” he said, with studied smoothness of modulated
tones. “These two good friends of mine have much enjoyment out of
the idea that they are fighting for the mastery over my poor unstable
character. It has grown to be a habit with them, and a hobby as well,
and they pursue it with tireless zest. There are not many intellectual
diversions open to us here, and they make the most of this one. It
amuses them, and it is not without its charms for me, in my capacity
as an interested observer. It is a part of the game that they should
pretend to themselves that they detest each other. In reality I fancy
that they like each other very much. At any rate, there is nothing to be
disturbed about.”
His mellifluous tones had somehow the effect of suggesting to Theron
that he was an outsider and would better mind his own business. Ah, if
this purring pussy-cat of a priest only knew how little of an outsider
he really was! The thought gave him an easy self-control.
“Of course,” he said, “our warm mutual friendship makes the observation
of these little individual vagaries merely a part of a delightful whole.
I should not dream of discussing Miss Madden's confidences to me, or the
doctor's either, outside our own little group.”
Father Forbes reached behind him and took from a chair his black
three-cornered cap with the tassel. “Unfortunately I have a sick call
waiting me,” he said, gathering up his gown and slowly rising.
“Yes, I saw the man sitting in the hall,” remarked Theron, getting to
his feet.
“I would ask you to go upstairs and wait,” the priest went on, “but my
return, unhappily, is quite uncertain. Another evening I may be more
fortunate. I am leaving town tomorrow for some days, but when I get
back--”