CHAPTER XXXII.

SUSAN POSEY'S TRIAL.

A day or two after Myrtle Hazard returned to the village, Master Byles

Gridley, accompanied by Gifted Hopkins, followed her, as has been already

mentioned, to the same scene of the principal events of this narrative.

The young man had been persuaded that it would be doing injustice to his

talents to crowd their fruit prematurely upon the market. He carried his

manuscript back with him, having relinquished the idea of publishing for

the present. Master Byles Gridley, on the other hand, had in his pocket

a very flattering proposal, from the same publisher to whom he had

introduced the young poet, for a new and revised edition of his work,

"Thoughts on the Universe," which was to be remodelled in some respects,

and to have a new title not quite so formidable to the average reader.

It would be hardly fair to Susan Posey to describe with what delight and

innocent enthusiasm she welcomed back Gifted Hopkins. She had been so

lonely since he was away? She had read such of his poems as she

possessed--duplicates of his printed ones, or autographs which he had

kindly written out for her--over and over again, not without the sweet

tribute of feminine sensibility, which is the most precious of all

testimonials to a poet's power over the heart. True, her love belonged

to another,--but then she was so used to Gifted! She did so love to hear

him read his poems,--and Clement had never written that "little bit of a

poem to Susie," which she had asked him for so long ago! She received

him therefore with open arms,--not literally, of course, which would have

been a breach of duty and propriety, but in a figurative sense, which it

is hoped no reader will interpret to her discredit.

The young poet was in need of consolation. It is true that he had seen

many remarkable sights during his visit to the city; that he had got

"smarted up," as his mother called it, a good deal; that he had been to

Mrs. Clymer Ketchum's party, where he had looked upon life in all its

splendors; and that he brought back many interesting experiences, which

would serve to enliven his conversation for a long time. But he had

failed in the great enterprise he had undertaken. He was forced to

confess to his revered parent, and his esteemed friend Susan Posey, that

his genius, which was freely acknowledged, was not thought to be quite

ripe as yet. He told the young lady some particulars of his visit to the

publisher, how he had listened with great interest to one of his poems,

"The Triumph of Song,"--how he had treated him with marked and flattering

attention; but that he advised him not to risk anything prematurely,

giving him the hope that by and by he would be admitted into that series

of illustrious authors which it was the publisher's privilege to present

to the reading public. In short, he was advised not to print. That was

the net total of the matter, and it was a pang to the susceptible heart

of the poet. He had hoped to have come home enriched by the sale of his

copyright, and with the prospect of seeing his name before long on the

back of a handsome volume.

Gifted's mother did all in her power to console him in his

disappointment. There was plenty of jealous people always that wanted to

keep young folks from rising in the world. Never mind, she did n't

believe but what Gifted could make jest as good verses as any of them

that they kept such a talk about. She had a fear that he might pine away

in consequence of the mental excitement he had gone through, and

solicited his appetite with her choicest appliances,--of which he partook

in a measure which showed that there was no immediate cause of alarm.

But Susan Posey was more than a consoler,--she was an angel to him in

this time of his disappointment. "Read me all the poems over again," she

said,--"it is almost the only pleasure I have left, to hear you read your

beautiful verses." Clement Lindsay had not written to Susan quite so

often of late as at some former periods of the history of their love.

Perhaps it was that which had made her look paler than usual for some

little time. Something was evidently preying on her. Her only delight

seemed to be in listening to Gifted as he read, sometimes with fine

declamatory emphasis, sometimes in low, tremulous tones, the various

poems enshrined in his manuscript. At other times she was sad, and more

than once Mrs. Hopkins had seen a tear steal down her innocent cheek,

when there seemed to be no special cause for grief. She ventured to

speak of it to Master Byles Gridley.

"Our Susan's in trouble, Mr. Gridley, for some reason or other that's

unbeknown to me, and I can't help wishing you could jest have a few words

with her. You're a kind of a grandfather, you know, to all the young

folks, and they'd tell you pretty much everything about themselves. I

calc'late she is n't at ease in her mind about somethin' or other, and I

kind o' think, Mr. Gridley, you could coax it out of her."

"Was there ever anything like it?" said Master Byles Gridley to himself.

"I shall have all the young folks in Oxbow Village to take care of at

this rate. Susan Posey in trouble, too! Well, well, well, it's easier

to get a birch-bark canoe off the shallows than a big ship off the rocks.

Susan Posey's trouble will be come at easily enough; but Myrtle Hazard

floats in deeper water. We must make Susan Posey tell her own story, or

let her tell it, for it will all come out of itself."

"I am going to dust the books in the open shelves this morning. I wonder

if Miss Susan Posey would n't like to help for half an hour or so,"

Master Gridley remarked at the breakfast-table.

The amiable girl's very pleasant countenance lighted up at the thought of

obliging the old man who had been so kind to her and so liberal to her

friend, the poet. She would be delighted to help him; she would dust

them all for him, if he wanted her to. No, Master Gridley said, he

always wanted to have a hand in it; and, besides, such a little body as

she was could not lift those great folios out of the lower shelves

without overstraining herself; she might handle the musketry and the

light artillery, but he must deal with the heavy guns himself. "As low

down as the octavos, Susan Posey, you shall govern; below that, the Salic

law."

Susan did not low much about the Salic law; but she knew he meant that he

would dust the big books and she would attend to the little ones.

A very young and a very pretty girl is sometimes quite charming in a

costume which thinks of nothing less than of being attractive. Susan

appeared after breakfast in the study, her head bound with a kerchief of

bright pattern, a little jacket she had outgrown buttoned, in spite of

opposition, close about her up to the throat, round which a white

handkerchief was loosely tied, and a pair of old gauntlets protecting her

hands, so that she suggested something between a gypsy, a jaunty

soubrette, and the fille du regiment.

Master Gridley took out a great volume from the lower shelf,--a folio in

massive oaken covers with clasps Like prison hinges, bearing the stately

colophon, white on a ground of vermilion, of Nicholas Jenson and his

associates. He opened the volume,--paused over its blue, and scarlet

initial letter,--he turned page after page, admiring its brilliant

characters, its broad, white marginal rivers, and the narrower white

creek that separated the black-typed twin-columns, he turned back to the

beginning and read the commendatory paragraph, "Nam ipsorum omnia fidgent

tum correctione dignissima, tum cura imprimendo splendida ac miranda,"

and began reading, "Incipit proemium super apparatum decretalium...."

when it suddenly occurred to him that this was not exactly doing what he

had undertaken to do, and he began whisking an ancient bandanna about the

ears of the venerable volume. All this time Miss Susan Posey was

catching the little books by the small of their backs, pulling them out,

opening them, and clapping them together, 'p-'p-'p! 'p-'p-'p! and

carefully caressing all their edges with a regular professional

dusting-cloth, so persuasively that they yielded up every particle that a

year had drifted upon them, and came forth refreshed and rejuvenated.

This process went on for a while, until Susan had worked down among the

octavos and Master Gridley had worked up among the quartos. He had got

hold of Calmet's Dictionary, and was caught by the article Solomon, so

that he forgot his occupation again. All at once it struck him that

everything was very silent,--the 'p-'p-'p! of clapping the books had

ceased, and the light rustle of Susan's dress was no longer heard. He

looked up and saw her standing perfectly still, with a book in one hand

and her duster in the other. She was lost in thought, and by the shadow

on her face and the glistening of her blue eyes he knew it was her hidden

sorrow that had just come back to her. Master Gridley shut up his book,

leaving Solomon to his fate, like the worthy Benedictine he was reading,

without discussing the question whether he was saved or not.

"Susan Posey, child, what is your trouble?"

Poor Susan was in the state of unstable equilibrium which the least touch

upsets, and fell to crying. It took her some time to get down the waves

of emotion so that speech would live upon them. At last it ventured

out,--showing at intervals, like the boat rising on the billow, sinking

into the hollow, and climbing again into notice.

"O Mr. Grid-ley--I can't--I can't--tell you or--any-body--what 's the

mat-mat-matter. My heart will br-br-break."

"No, no, no, child," said Mr. Gridley, sympathetically stirred a little

himself by the sight of Susan in tears and sobbing and catching her

breath, "that mustn't be, Susan Posey. Come off the steps, Susan Posey,

and stop dusting the books,--I can finish them,--and tell me all abort

your troubles. I will try 'to help you out of them, and I have begun to

think I know how to help young people pretty well. I have had some

experience at it."

But Susan cried and sobbed all the more uncontrollably and convulsively.

Master Gridley thought he had better lead her at once to what he felt

pretty sure was the source of her grief, and that, when she had had her

cry out, she would probably make the hole in the ice he had broken big

enough in a very few minutes.

"I think something has gone wrong between you and your friend, the young

gentleman with whom you are in intimate relations, my child, and I think

you had better talk freely with me, for I can perhaps give you a little

counsel that will be of service."

Susan cried herself quiet at last. "There's nobody in the world like

you, Mr. Gridley," she said, "and I've been wanting to tell you something

ever so long. My friend--Mr. Clem--Clement Lindsay does n't care for me

as he used to,--I know he does n't. He hasn't written to me for--I don't

know but it's a month. And O Mr. Gridley! he's such a great man, and I

am such a simple person,--I can't help thinking--he would be happier with

somebody else than poor little Susan Posey!"

This last touch of self-pity overcame her, as it is so apt to do those

who indulge in that delightful misery, and she broke up badly, as a

horse-fancier would say, so that it was some little time before she

recovered her conversational road-gait.

"O Mr. Gridley," she began again, at length, "if I only dared to tell him

what I think,--that perhaps it would be happier for us both--if we could

forget each other! Ought I not to tell him so? Don't you think he would

find another to make him happy? Wouldn't he forgive me for telling him

he was free? Were we not too young to know each other's hearts when we

promised each other that we would love as long as we lived? Sha'n't I

write him a letter this very day and tell him all? Do you think it would

be wrong in me to do it? O Mr. Gridley, it makes me almost crazy to

think about it. Clement must be free! I cannot, cannot hold him to a

promise he does n't want to keep."

There were so many questions in this eloquent rhapsody of Susan's that

they neutralized each other, as one might say, and Master Gridley had

time for reflection. His thoughts went on something in this way:

"Pretty clear case! Guess Mr. Clement can make up his mind to it. Put it

well, did n't she? Not a word about our little Gifted! That's the

trouble. Poets! how they do bewitch these schoolgirls! And having a

chance every day, too, how could you expect her to stand it?" Then

aloud: "Susan Posey, you are a good, honest little girl as ever was. I

think you and Clement were too hasty in coming together for life before

you knew what life meant. I think if you write Clement a letter, telling

him that you cannot help fearing that you two are not perfectly adapted

to each other, on account of certain differences for which neither of you

is responsible, and that you propose that each should release the other

from the pledge given so long ago,--in that case, I say, I believe he

will think no worse of you for so doing, and may perhaps agree that it is

best for both of you to seek your happiness elsewhere than in each

other."

The book-dusting came to as abrupt a close as the reading of Lancelot.

Susan went straight to her room, dried her tears so as to write in a fair

hand, but had to stop every few lines and take a turn at the

"dust-layers," as Mrs. Clymer Ketchum's friend used to call the fountains

of sensibility. It would seem like betraying Susan's confidence to

reveal the contents of this letter, but the reader may be assured that it

was simple and sincere and very sweetly written, without the slightest

allusion to any other young man, whether of the poetical or cheaper human

varieties.

It was not long before Susan received a reply from Clement Lindsay. It

was as kind and generous and noble as she could have asked. It was

affectionate, as a very amiable brother's letter might be, and candidly

appreciative of the reasons Susan had assigned for her proposal. He gave

her back her freedom, not that he should cease to feel an interest in

her, always. He accepted his own release, not that he would ever think

she could be indifferent to his future fortunes. And within a very brief

period of time after sending his answer to Susan Posey, whether he wished

to see her in person, or whether he had some other motive, he had packed

his trunk, and made his excuses for an absence of uncertain length at the

studio, and was on his way to Oxbow Village.

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