III

In the evening of the same day Olivier arrived. He had been unable to bear

the thought of leaving Christophe alone in those tragic hours of which he

had had only too much experience. He was fearful also of the risks his

friend was running in returning to Germany. He wanted to be with him, to

look after him. But he had no money for the journey. When he returned from

seeing Christophe off he made up his mind to sell the few family jewels

that he had left: and as the pawnshop was closed at that hour, and he

wanted to go by the next train, he was just going out to look for a

broker's shop in the neighborhood when he met Mooch on the stairs. When the

little Jew heard what he was about he was genuinely sorry that Olivier had

not come to him: he would not let Olivier go to the broker's, and made him

accept the necessary money from himself. He was really hurt to think that

Olivier had pawned his watch and sold his books to pay Christophe's fare,

when he would have been only too glad to help them. In his zeal for doing

them a service he even proposed to accompany Olivier to Christophe's home,

and Olivier had great difficulty in dissuading him.

Olivier's arrival was a great boon to Christophe. He had spent the day,

prostrated with grief, alone by his mother's body. The nurse had come,

performed certain offices, and then had gone away and had never come back.

The hours had passed in the stillness of death. Christophe sat there,

as still as the body: he never took his eyes from his mother's face: he

did not weep, he did not think, he was himself as one dead.--Olivier's

wonderful act of friendship brought him back to tears and life.

"_Getrost! Es ist der Schmerzen werth dies haben,

So lang ... mit uns ein treues Auge weint._"

("Courage! Life; is worth all its suffering as long as there are faithful

friends to weep with us.")

* * * * *

They clasped each other in a long embrace, and then sat by the dead woman's

side and talked in whispers. Night had fallen. Christophe, with his arms on

the foot of the bed, told random tales of his childhood's memories, in

which his mother's image ever recurred. He would pause every now and then

for a few minutes, and then go on again, until there came a pause when he

stopped altogether, and his face dropped into his hands: he was utterly

worn out: and when Olivier went up to him, he saw that he was asleep. Then

he kept watch alone. And presently he, too, was overcome by sleep, with his

head leaning against the back of the bed. There was a soft smile on

Louisa's face, and she seemed happy to be watching over her two children.

* * * * *

In the early hours of the morning they were awakened by a knocking at the

door. Christophe opened it. It was a neighbor, a joiner, who had come to

warn Christophe that his presence in the town had been denounced, and

that he must go, if he did not wish to be arrested. Christophe refused to

fly: he would not leave his mother before he had taken her to her last

resting-place. But Olivier begged him to go, and promised that he would

faithfully watch over her in his stead: he induced him to leave the house:

and, to make sure of his not going back on his decision, went with him to

the station. Christophe refused point-blank to go without having a sight

of the great river, by which he had spent his childhood, the mighty echo

of which was preserved for ever within his soul as in a sea-shell. Though

it was dangerous for him to be seen in the town, yet for his whim he

disregarded it. They walked along the steep bank of the Rhine, which

was rushing along in its mighty peace, between its low banks, on to its

mysterious death in the sands of the North. A great iron bridge, looming

in the mist, plunged its two arches, like the halves of the wheels of a

colossal chariot, into the gray waters. In the distance, fading into the

mist, were ships sailing through the meadows along the river's windings. It

was like a dream, and Christophe was lost in it. Olivier brought him back

to his senses, and, taking his arm, led him back to the station. Christophe

submitted: he was like a man walking in his sleep. Olivier put him into the

train as it was just starting, and they arranged to meet next day at the

first French station, so that Christophe should not have to go back to

Paris alone.

The train went, and Olivier returned to the house, where he found two

policemen stationed at the door, waiting for Christophe to come back. They

took Olivier for him, and Olivier did not hurry to explain a mistake so

favorable to Christophe's chances of escape. On the other hand, the police

were not in the least discomfited by their blunder, and showed no great

zest in pursuing the fugitive, and Olivier had an inkling that at bottom

they were not at all sorry that Christophe had gone.

Olivier stayed until the next morning, when Louisa was buried. Christophe's

brother, Rodolphe, the business man, came by one train and left by the

next. That important personage followed the funeral very correctly, and

went immediately it was over, without addressing a single word to Olivier,

either to ask him for news of his brother or to thank him for what he had

done for their mother. Olivier spent a few hours more in the town, where he

did not know a soul, though it was peopled for him with so many familiar

shadows: the boy Christophe, those whom he had loved, and those who had

made him suffer;--and dear Antoinette.... What was there left of all those

human beings, who had lived in the town, the family of the Kraffts, that

now had ceased to be? Only the love for them that lived in the heart of a

stranger.

* * * * *

In the afternoon Olivier met Christophe at the frontier station as they had

arranged. It was a village nestling among wooded hills. Instead of waiting

for the next train to Paris, they decided to go part of the way on foot, as

far as the nearest town. They wanted to be alone. They set out through the

silent woods, through which from a distance there resounded the dull thud

of an ax. They reached a clearing at the top of a hill. Below them, in a

narrow valley, in German territory, there lay the red roof of a forester's

house, and a little meadow like a green lake amid the trees. All around

there stretched the dark-blue sea of the forest wrapped in cloud. Mists

hovered and drifted among the branches of the pines. A transparent veil

softened the lines and blurred the colors of the trees. All was still.

Neither footsteps nor voices were to be heard. A few drops of rain rang

out on the golden copper leaves of the beeches, which had turned to autumn

tints. A little stream ran tinkling over the stones. Christophe and Olivier

stood still and did not stir. Each was dreaming of those whom he had lost.

Olivier was thinking:

"Antoinette, where are you?"

And Christophe:

"What is success to me, now that she is dead?"

But each heard the comforting words of the dead:

"Beloved, weep not for us. Think, not of us. Think of Him...."

They looked at each other, and each ceased to feel his own sorrow, and was

conscious only of that of his friend. They clasped their hands. In both

there was sad serenity. Gently, while no wind stirred, the misty veil was

raised: the blue sky shone forth again. The melting sweetness of the earth

after rain.... So near to us, so tender!... The earth takes us in her arms,

clasps us to her bosom with a lovely loving smile, and says to us:

"Rest. All is well...."

The ache in Christophe's heart was gone. He was like a little child.

For two days he had been living wholly in the memory of his mother, the

atmosphere of her soul: he had lived over again her humble life, with its

days one like unto another, solitary, all spent in the silence of the

childless house, in the thought of the children who had left her: the poor

old woman, infirm but valiant in her tranquil faith, her sweetness of

temper, her smiling resignation, her complete lack of selfishness.... And

Christophe thought also of all the humble creatures he had known. How near

to them he felt in that moment! After all the years of exhausting struggle

in the burning heat of Paris, where ideas and men jostle in the whirl

of confusion, after those tragic days when there had passed over them

the wind of the madness which hurls the nations, cozened by their own

hallucinations, murderously against each other, Christophe felt utterly

weary of the fevered, sterile world, the conflict between egoisms and

ideas, the little groups of human beings deeming themselves above humanity,

the ambitious, the thinkers, the artists who think themselves the brain of

the world, and are no more than a haunting evil dream. And all his love

went out to those thousands of simple souls, of every nation, whose lives

burn away in silence, pure flames of kindness, faith, and sacrifice,--the

heart of the world.

"Yes," he thought, "I know you; once more I have come to you; you are blood

of my blood; you are mine. Like the prodigal son, I left you to pursue the

shadows that passed by the wayside. But I have come back to you; give me

welcome. We are one; one life is ours, both the living and the dead; where

I am there are you also. Now I bear you in my soul, O mother, who bore me.

You, too, Gottfried, and you Schulz, and Sabine, and Antoinette, you are

all in me, part of me, mine. You are my riches, my joy. We will take the

road together. I will never more leave you. I will be your voice. We will

join forces: so we shall attain the goal."

A ray of sunlight shot through the dripping branches of the trees. From the

little field down below there came up the voices of children singing an Old

German folk-song, frank and moving: the singers were three little girls

dancing round the house: and from afar the west wind brought the chiming of

the bells of France, like a perfume of roses....

"O peace, Divine harmony, serene music of the soul set free, wherein are

mingled joy and sorrow, death and life, the nations at war, and the nations

in brotherhood. I love you, I long for you, I shall win you...."

* * * * *

"The night drew down her veil. Starting from his dream, Christophe saw the

faithful face of his friend by his side. He smiled at him and embraced him.

Then they walked on through the forest in silence: and Christophe showed

Olivier the way.

"_Taciti, soli e senza compagnia,

N'andavan I' un dinnanzi, e I' altro dopo,

Come i frati minor vanno per via...._"

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