CHAPTER XIII.

The light in the town, which had attracted Paulus, was in Petrus' house,

and burnt in Polykarp's room, which formed the whole of a small upper-

story, which the senator had constructed for his son over the northern

portion of the spacious flat roof of the main building. The young man

had arrived about noon with the slaves he had just procured, had learned

all that had happened in his absence, and had silently withdrawn into his

own room after supper was ended. Here he still lingered over his work.

A bed, a table on and under which lay a multitude of wax-tablets,

papyrus-rolls, metal-points, and writing-reeds, with a small bench, on

which stood a water-jar and basin, composed the furniture of this room;

on its whitewashed walls hung several admirable carvings in relief, and

figures of men and animals stood near them in long rows. In one corner,

near a stone water-jar, lay a large, damp, shining mass of clay.

Three lamps fastened to stands abundantly lighted this work-room, but

chiefly a figure standing on a high trestle, which Polykarp's fingers

were industriously moulding.

Phoebicius had called the young sculptor a fop, and not altogether

unjustly, for he loved to be well dressed and was choice as to the cut

and color of his simple garments, and he rarely neglected to arrange his

abundant hair with care, and to anoint it well; and yet it was almost

indifferent to him, whether his appearance pleased other people or no,

but he knew nothing nobler than the human form, and an instinct, which he

did not attempt to check, impelled him to keep his own person as nice as

he liked to see that of his neighbor.

Now at this hour of the night, he wore only a shirt of white woollen

stuff, with a deep red border. His locks, usually so well-kept, seemed

to stand out from his head separately, and instead of smoothing and

confining them, he added to their wild disorder, for, as be worked, he

frequently passed his hand through them with a hasty movement. A bat,

attracted by the bright light, flew in at the open window--which was

screened only at the bottom by a dark curtain--and fluttered round the

ceiling; but he did not observe it, for his work absorbed his whole soul

and mind. In this eager and passionate occupation, in which every nerve

and vein in his being seemed to bear a part, no cry for help would have

struck his ear--even a flame breaking out close to him would not have

caught his eye. His cheeks glowed, a fine dew of glistening sweat

covered his brow, and his very gaze seemed to become more and more firmly

riveted to the sculpture as it took form under his hand. Now and again

he stepped back from it, and leaned backwards from his hips, raising his

hands to the level of his temples, as if to narrow the field of vision;

then he went up to the model, and clutched the plastic mass of clay, as

though it were the flesh of his enemy.

He was now at work on the flowing hair of the figure before him, which

had already taken the outline of a female head, and he flung the bits of

clay, which he removed from the back of it, to the ground, as violently

as though he were casting them at an antagonist at his feet. Again his

finger-tips and modelling-tool were busy with the mouth, nose, cheeks,

and eyes, and his own eyes took a softer expression, which gradually grew

to be a gaze of ecstatic delight, as the features he was moulding began

to agree more and more with the image, which at this time excluded every

other from his imagination.

At last, with glowing cheeks, he had finished rounding the soft form of

the shoulders, and drew back once more to contemplate the effect of the

completed work; a cold shiver seized him, and he felt himself impelled

to lift it up, and dash it to the ground with all his force. But he soon

mastered this stormy excitement, he pushed his hand through his hair

again and again, and posted himself, with a melancholy smile and with

folded hands, in front of his creation; sunk deeper and deeper in his

contemplation of it, he did not observe that the door behind him was

opened, although the flame of his lamps flickered in the draught, and

that his mother had entered the work-room, and by no means endeavored to

approach him unheard, or to surprise him. In her anxiety for her

darling, who had gone through so many bitter experiences during the past

day, she had not been able to sleep. Polykarp's room lay above her

bedroom, and when his steps over head betrayed that, though it was now

near morning, he had not yet gone to rest, she had risen from her bed

without waking Petrus, who seemed to be sleeping. She obeyed her

motherly impulse to encourage Polykarp with some loving words, and

climbing up the narrow stair that led to the roof, she went into his

room. Surprised, irresolute, and speechless she stood for some time

behind the young man, and looked at the strongly illuminated and

beautiful features of the newly-formed bust, which was only too like its

well-known prototype. At last she laid her hand on her son's shoulder,

and spoke his name. Polykarp stepped back, and looked at his mother in

bewilderment, like a man roused from sleep; but she interrupted the

stammering speech with which he tried to greet her, by saying, gravely

and not without severity, as she pointed to the statue, "What does this

mean?"

"What should it mean, mother?" answered Polykarp in a low tone, and

shaking his head sadly. "Ask me no more at present, for if you gave me

no rest, and even if I tried to explain to you how to-day--this very day

--I have felt impelled and driven to make this woman's image, still you

could not understand me--no, nor any one else."

"God forbid that I should ever understand it!" cried Dorothea. "'Thou

shalt not covet thy neighbor's wife,' was the commandment of the Lord on

this mountain. And you? You think I could not understand you? Who

should understand you then, if not your mother? This I certainly do not

comprehend, that a son of Petrus and of mine should have thrown all the

teaching and the example of his parents so utterly to the wind. But what

you are aiming at with this statue, it seems to me is not hard to guess.

As the forbidden-fruit hangs too high for you, you degrade your art, and

make to yourself an image that resembles her according to your taste.

Simply and plainly it comes to this; as you can no longer see the Gaul's

wife in her own person, and yet cannot exist without the sweet presence

of the fair one, you make a portrait of clay to make love to, and you

will carry on idolatry before it, as once the Jews did before the golden

calf and the brazen serpent."

Polykarp submitted to his mother's angry blame in silence, but in painful

emotion. Dorothea had never before spoken to him thus, and to hear such

words from the very lips which were used to address him with such heart-

felt tenderness, gave him unspeakable pain. Hitherto she had always been

inclined to make excuses for his weaknesses and little faults, nay, the

zeal with which she had observed and pointed out his merits and

performances before strangers as well as before their own family, had

often seemed to him embarrassing. And now? She had indeed reason to

blame him, for Sirona was the wife of another, she had never even noticed

his admiration, and now, they all said, had committed a crime for the

sake of a stranger. It must seem both a mad and a sinful thing in the

eyes of men that he of all others should sacrifice the best he had--his

Art--and how little could Dorothea, who usually endeavored to understand

him, comprehend the overpowering impulse which had driven him to his

task.

He loved and honored his mother with his whole heart, and feeling that

she was doing herself an injustice by her false and low estimate of his

proceedings, he interrupted her eager discourse, raising his hands

imploringly to her.

"No, mother, no!" he exclaimed. "As truly as God is my helper, it is

not so. It is true that I have moulded this head, but not to keep it,

and commit the sin of worshipping it, but rather to free myself from the

image that stands before my mind's eye by day and by night, in the city

and in the desert, whose beauty distracts my mind when I think, and my

devotions when I try to pray. To whom is it given to read the soul of

man? And is not Sirona's form and face the loveliest image of the Most

High? So to represent it, that the whole charm that her presence

exercises over me might also be felt by every beholder, is a task that I

have set myself ever since her arrival in our house. I had to go back to

the capital, and the work I longed to achieve took a clearer form; at

every hour I discovered something to change and to improve in the pose of

the head, the glance of the eye or the expression of the mouth. But

still I lacked courage to put the work in hand, for it seemed too

audacious to attempt to give reality to the glorious image in my soul, by

the aid of gray clay and pale cold marble; to reproduce it so that the

perfect work should delight the eye of sense, no less than the image

enshrined in my breast delights my inward eye. At the same time I was

not idle, I gained the prize for the model of the lions, and if I have

succeeded with the Good Shepherd blessing the flock, which is for the

sarcophagus of Comes, and if the master could praise the expression of

devoted tenderness in the look of the Redeemer, I know--nay, do not

interrupt me, mother, for what I felt was a pure emotion and no sin--

I know that it was because I was myself so full of love, that I was

enabled to inspire the very stone with love. At last I had no peace, and

even without my father's orders I must have returned home; then I saw her

again, and found her even more lovely than the image which reigned in my

soul. I heard her voice, and her silvery bell-like laughter--and then--

and then--. You know very well what I learned yesterday. The unworthy

wife of an unworthy husband, the woman Sirona, is gone from me for ever,

and I was striving to drive her image from my soul, to annihilate it and

dissipate it--but in vain! and by degrees a wonderful stress of creative

power came upon me. I hastily placed the lamps, took the clay in my

hand, and feature by feature I brought forth with bitter joy the image

that is deeply graven in my heart, believing that thus I might be

released from the spell. There is the fruit which was ripened in my

heart, but there, where it so long has dwelt, I feel a dismal void, and

if the husk which so long tenderly enfolded this image were to wither and

fall asunder, I should not wonder at it.--To that thing there clings the

best part of my life."

"Enough!" exclaimed Dorothea, interrupting her son who stood before her

in great agitation and with trembling lips. "God forbid that that mask

there should destroy your life and soul. I suffer nothing impure within

my house, and you should not in your heart. That which is evil can never

more be fair, and however lovely the face there may look to you, it looks

quite as repulsive to me when I reflect that it probably smiled still

more fascinatingly on some strolling beggar. If the Gaul brings her back

I will turn her out of my house, and I will destroy her image with my own

hands if you do not break it in pieces on the spot."

Dorothea's eyes were swimming in tears as she spoke these words. She had

felt with pride and emotion during her son's speech how noble and high-

minded he was, and the idea that this rare and precious treasure should

be spoilt or perhaps altogether ruined for the sake of a lost woman,

drove her to desperation, and filled her motherly heart with indignation.

Firmly resolved to carry out her threat she stepped towards the figure,

but Polykarp placed himself in her way, raising his arm imploringly to

defend it, and saying, "Not to-day--not yet, mother! I will cover it up,

and will not look at it again till to-morrow, but once--only once--I must

see it again by sunlight."

"So that to-morrow the old madness may revive in you!" cried Dorothea.

"Move out of my way or take the hammer yourself."

"You order it, and you are my mother," said Polykarp.

He slowly went up to the chest in which his tools and instruments lay,

and bitter tears ran down his cheeks, as he took his heaviest hammer in

his hand.

When the sky has shown for many days in summer-blue, and then suddenly

the clouds gather for a storm, when the first silent but fearful flash

with it noisy but harmless associate the thunder-clap has terrified the

world, a second and third thunder-bolt immediately follow. Since the

stormy night of yesterday had broken in on the peaceful, industrious, and

monotonous life by the senator's hearth, many things had happened that

had filled him and his wife with fresh anxiety.

In other houses it was nothing remarkable that a slave should run away,

but in the senator's it was more than twenty years since such a thing had

occurred, and yesterday the goat-herd Miriam had disappeared. This was

vexatious, but the silent sorrow of his son Polykarp was a greater

anxiety to Petrus. It did not please him that the youth, who was usually

so vehement, should submit unresistingly and almost indifferently to the

Bishop Agapitus, who prohibited his completing his lions. His son's sad

gaze, his crushed and broken aspect were still in his mind when at last

he went to rest for the night; it was already late, but sleep avoided him

even as it had avoided Dorothea. While the mother was thinking of her

son's sinful love and the bleeding wound in his young and betrayed heart,

the father grieved for Polykarp's baffled hopes of exercising his art on

a great work and recalled the saddest, bitterest day of his own youth;

for he too had served his apprenticeship under a sculptor in Alexandria,

had looked up to the works of the heathen as noble models, and striven to

form himself upon them. He had already been permitted by his master to

execute designs of his own, and out of the abundance of subjects which

offered themselves, he had chosen to model an Ariadne, waiting and

longing for the return of Thescus, as a symbolic image of his own

soul awaiting its salvation. How this work had filled his mind! how

delightful had the hours of labor seemed to him!--when, suddenly, his

stern father had come to the city, had seen his work before it was quite

finished, and instead of praising it had scorned it; had abused it as a

heathen idol, and had commanded Petrus to return home with him

immediately, and to remain there, for that his son should be a pious

Christian, and a good stone-mason withal--not half a heathen, and a maker

of false gods.

Petrus had much loved his art, but he offered no resistance to his

father's orders; he followed him back to the oasis, there to superintend

the work of the slaves who hewed the stone, to measure granite-blocks for

sarcophagi and pillars, and to direct the cutting of them. His father

was a man of steel, and he himself a lad of iron, and when he saw himself

compelled to yield to his father and to leave his master's workshop, to

abandon his cherished and unfinished work and to become an artizan and

mail of business, he swore never again to take a piece of clay in his

hand, or to wield a chisel. And he kept his word even after his fathers

death; but his creative instincts and love of art continued to live and

work in him, and were transmitted to his two sons.

Antonius was a highly gifted artist, and if Polykarp's master was not

mistaken, and if he himself were not misled by fatherly affection, his

second son was on the high road to the very first rank in art--to a

position reached only by elect spirits.

Petrus knew the models for the Good Shepherd and for the lions, and

declared to himself that these last were unsurpassable in truth, power,

and majesty. How eagerly must the young artist long to execute them in

hard stone, and to see them placed in the honored, though indeed pagan,

spot, which was intended for them. And now the bishop forbade him the

work, and the poor fellow might well be feeling just as he himself had

felt thirty years ago, when he had been commanded to abandon the immature

first-fruits of his labor.

Was the bishop indeed right? This and many other questions agitated the

sleepless father, and as soon as he heard that his wife had risen from

her bed to go to her son, whose footsteps he too could hear overhead, he

got up and followed her.

He found the door of the work-room open, and, himself unseen and unheard,

he was witness to his wife's vehement speech, and to the lad's

justification, while Polykarp's work stood in the full light of the

lamps, exactly in front of him.

His gaze was spell-bound to the mass of clay; he looked and looked, and

was not weary of looking, and his soul swelled with the same awe-struck

sense of devout admiration that it had experienced, when for the first

time, in his early youth, he saw with his own eyes the works of the great

old Athenian masters in the Caesareum.

And this head was his son's work!

He stood there greatly overcome, his hands clasped together, holding his

breath till his mouth was dry, and swallowing his tears to keep them from

falling. At the same time he listened with anxious attention, so as not

to lose one word of Polykarp's.

"Aye, thus and thus only are great works of art begotten," said he to

himself, "and if the Lord had bestowed on me such gifts as on this lad,

no father, nay, no god, should have compelled me to leave my Ariadne

unfinished. The attitude of the body was not bad I should say--but the

head, the face--Aye, the man who can mould such a likeness as that has

his hand and eye guided by the holy spirits of art. He who has done that

head will be praised in the latter days together with the great Athenian

masters--and he-yes, he, merciful Heaven! he is my own beloved son!"

A blessed sense of rejoicing, such as he had not felt since his early

youth, filled his heart, and Dorothea's ardor seemed to him half pitiful

and half amusing.

It was not till his duteous son took the hammer in his hand, that he

stepped between his wife and the bust, saying kindly:

"There will be time enough to-morrow to destroy the work. Forget the

model, my son, now that you have taken advantage of it so successfully.

I know of a better mistress for you--Art--to whom belongs everything of

beauty that the Most High has created--In Art in all its breadth and

fulness, not fettered and narrowed by any Agapitus."

Polykarp flung himself into his father's arms, and the stern man, hardly

master of his emotions, kissed the boy's forehead, his eyes, and his

cheeks.

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