XXXVII In the “Personal” Column

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Early Thursday morning, David was on the point of going out to the

Marksley Addition to estimate the fire loss, when he stopped at sight

of Judith, entering her own gate. He crossed the parched grass of the

wide lawn and joined her. Once before he had hinted that his wife’s

mind might be failing--that the shock of Eileen’s tragedy and the

consequent relief of her propitious marriage might have unsettled

her mother’s reason. He had talked to Dr. Schubert about it, but had

elicited no sympathy for his theory. The physician did not believe

for a moment that Sylvia--in spite of the evidential letter to her

father--had refused to open the door or to answer the telephone. Sylvia

was entirely absorbed in herself, but she was not a fool. He was rather

taken with the belief that Lavinia had been playing some sort of prank

on her family. A born play-actor, she grew weary of the burden of

actuality, and sought relief--excitement--in a world of make-believe.

This time she had miscalculated, and found things hard to explain.

“He said one thing that went against the grain, Judith, even from

Dr. Schubert. He said that when we make a lifelong practice of petty

deception, we don’t gain the facility we gain by any other constant

exercise; but instead, we grow reckless, until we are unable to know

truth from falsehood. Then we overreach ourselves. I accept the

fact--but I don’t like to think that Vine would deliberately--lie to

me. She doesn’t always see things in their true relations. But that she

would make up a lie ... I can’t believe that.”

“Certainly you can’t, father.”

Through the sheer curtains of her bedroom window Lavinia watched

them--Lavinia who through five days of shifting from one detail to

another had maintained the mystery of her fruitless visit. What were

they saying? She strained her keen ears, to catch only a muffled note

of solicitude. Now the postman loomed in sight. The ubiquitous postman!

If he had not delivered that letter.... In her rage, she began to

abuse the postman for her wretchedness, the collapse of her iridescent

bubble of happiness. He was putting into David’s hand some letters

and a paper, the Bromfield Sentinel. She had forgotten that this was

Thursday. She saw her husband open the crude little sheet and glance at

the Personal Column, where he so often found news of a friend he had

not seen since his wedding day. A long agony of waiting ... and David

thrust the paper into Judith’s hand and walked rapidly away, a strange

look on his transparent face.

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