TALES OUT OF SCHOOL FOR ONCE.
The inner circle of Andy Hayes' friends, who were gradually accustoming
themselves to see him described as Mr. Andrew Hayes, M.P., included some
of a sportive, or even malicious, turn of wit. It cannot be denied that
to these the spectacle of Andy's wooing--it never occurred to him to
conceal his suit--presented some material for amusement. All through his
career, even after he had mounted to eminences great and imposing, it
was his fate to bring smiles to the lips even of those who admired,
supported, and followed him. To the comic papers, in those later days
when the Press took account of him, he was always a slow man, almost a
stupid man, inclined to charge a brick wall when he might walk round it,
yet, when he charged, knocking a hole big enough to get through. For the
cartoonists--when greatness bred cartoons, as by one of the world's
kindly counterbalances it does--he was always stouter in body and more
stolid in countenance than a faithful photograph would have recorded
him. The idea of him thus presented did him no harm in the public mind.
That a career is open to talent is a fact consolatory only to a
minority; flatter mere common-sense with the same prospect, and every
man feels himself fit for the Bench--of Judges, Bishops, or Ministers.
But as a lover--a wooer? Passion, impetuosity, a total absorption, great
eloquence in few words, the eyes beating the words in persuasion--such
seemed, roughly, the requisites, as learnt by those who had sat at Harry
Belfield's feet and marked his practical expositions of the subject.
Andy was neither passionate nor eloquent, not even in glances. Nor was
he absorbed. Gilbert Foot and Co. from nine-thirty to two-thirty: the
House from two-thirty to eleven, with what Gilly contemptuously termed
"stoking" slipped in anywhere: there was hardly time for real
absorption. He was as hard-worked as Mr. Freere himself, and, had he
married Mrs. Freere, would probably have made little better success of
it. He was not trying to marry Mrs. Freere; but he was trying to win a
girl who had listened to wonderful words from Harry Belfield's lips and
suffered the persuasion of Harry Belfield's eyes.
In varying fashion his friends made their jesting comments, with
affection always at the back of the joke; nay more, with a confidence
that the efforts they derided would succeed in face of their
derision--like the comic papers of future days.
"He wants to marry, so he must make love; but I believe he hates it all
the time," said the Nun compassionately.
"That shows his sense," remarked Sally Dutton.
"He's a natural monogamist," opined Billy Foot, "and no natural
monogamist knows anything about making love."
"He ought to have been born married," Gilly yawned, "just as I ought to
have been born retired from business."
Mrs. Billy (_nee_ Amaranth Macquart-Smith) was also of the party. Among
these sallies she spread the new-fledged wings of her wit rather
timidly. To say the truth, she was not witty, but felt bound to try--a
case somewhat parallel to his at whom her shaft was aimed. She was liked
well enough in the circle, yet would hardly have entered it without
Billy's passport.
"He waits to be accepted," she complained, "as a girl waits to be
asked."
"Used to!" briefly corrected Miss Dutton.
Billy Foot cut deeper into the case. "He's never imagined before that he
could have a chance against Harry. He's got the idea now, but it takes
time to sink in."
"Harry's out of it anyhow," drawled Gilly.
"Out of what?" asked the Nun.
Billy's nod acknowledged the import of the question. Out of reason, out
of possibility, out of bounds! Not out of memory, of echo, of the mirror
of things not to be forgotten.
"He still thinks he can't compete with Harry," she went on, "and he's
right as far as this game is concerned. But he'll win just by not
competing. To be utterly different is his chance." With a glance round
the table, she appealed to their experience. "Nobody ever begins by
choosing Andy--well, except Jack Rock perhaps, and that was to be a
butcher! But he ends by being indispensable."
"You all like him," said Amaranth. "And yet you all give the impression
that he's terribly dull!" Her voice complained of an enigma.
"Well, don't you know, what would a fellow do without him?" asked Gilly,
looking up from his _pate_.
"Gilly has an enormous respect for him. He's shamed him into working,"
Billy explained to his wife.
"That's it, by Jove!" Gilly acknowledged sadly. "And the worst of it is,
work pays! Pays horribly well! We're getting rich. I've got to go on
with it." He winked a leisurely moving eyelid at the Nun. "I wish the
deuce I'd never met the fellow!"
"I must admit he points the moral a bit too well," Billy confessed. "But
I'm glad to say we have Harry to fall back upon. I met Harry in the
street the other day, and he was absolutely radiant."
"Who is she?" asked Sally Dutton.
"Not a bit, Sally! He's just given up Lady Lucy. Going straight again,
don't you know? Off to the seaside with his wife and kid."
"How long has Lady Lucy lasted?" asked Gilly.
The Nun gurgled. "I should like to have that set to music," she
explained. "The alliteration is effective, Gilly, and I would give it a
pleasing lilt."
"I don't wish to hear you sing it," said Billy, in a voice none too
loud. Amaranth was looking about the room, and an implied reference to
bygones was harmlessly agreeable.
"With his wife and his kid, to the Bedford at Brighton," Billy
continued, after his aside. "From something he let fall, I gathered that
the Freeres were going to be at the Norfolk."
Amaranth did not see the point. "I don't know the Freeres," she
remarked.
"We do," said Gilly. "In fact we're in the habit of turning them to the
uses of allegory, Amaranth. I may say that we are coming to regard Mrs.
Freere as a comparative reformation--as the irreducible minimum. If only
Harry wouldn't wander from Freere's wife!"
"But the man's got a wife of his own!" cried Amaranth.
"Yes, but we're dealing with practical possibilities," Gilly insisted.
"And, from that point of view, his own wife really doesn't count."
"And yet Vivien Wellgood--!" The Nun relapsed into a silence which was
meant to express bewilderment, though she was not bewildered, having too
keen a memory of her own achievement.
"Oh, you really understand it better than that, Doris," said Billy.
"Harry can make it seem a tremendous thing--while it lasts. Andy's fault
is that he never makes things seem tremendous. He just makes them seem
natural. His way is safer; it takes longer, but it lasts longer too.
Neither of them is the ideal man, you know. Andy wants an occasional
hour of Harry--"
"Dangerously long!" the Nun opined.
"And Harry ought to have seven years' penal servitude of Andy. Then you
might achieve the perfectly balanced individual."
"I think you're perfectly balanced, dear," said Amaranth, and thereby
threw her husband into sorest confusion, and the rest of the company
into uncontrolled mirth. Moreover the Nun must needs add, with her most
innocent expression, "Just what I've always found him, Amaranth!"
"Oh, hang it--when I was trying to talk sense!" poor Billy expostulated.
His bride's remark--admirably bridal in character--choked Billy's
philosophising in its hour of birth. The trend of the conversation was
diverted, the picture of the perfectly balanced man never painted. Else
there might have emerged the interesting and agreeable paradox that the
perfectly balanced man was he who knew when to lose his balance, when to
kick the scales away for an hour, when to stop thinking of anybody
except himself, when to sink consideration in urgency, pity in desire,
affection in love. All this, of course, only for an hour--and in the
right company. It must be allowed that the perfect balance is a rare
phenomenon.
Isobel Vintry had not sought it; it is to her credit that she refrained
from accusing fate because she had not found what she did not seek.
Forgiving Harry over the Lady Lucy episode--his penitence was
irresistibly sincere--and accepting Mrs. Freere as an orderly and
ordinary background to married life, almost a friend, certainly an ally
(for Mrs. Freere was now, as ever, a prudent woman), she recalled the
courage that had made her a fit preceptress for Vivien, and Wellgood's
ideal woman. She saw the trick her heart had played her, and knew--with
Harry himself--that hearts would always be playing tricks. The poacher
was made keeper, but the poaching did not stop. The thief was robbed,
the raider raided. All a very pretty piece of poetical justice--with the
unusual characteristic of being quite commonplace, an everyday affair,
no matter of melodrama, but just what constantly happens.
She and Wellgood had so often agreed that Vivien must be trained to face
the rubs of life, its ups and downs, its rough and smooth; timidity and
fastidiousness were out of place in a world like this. The two had
taught the lesson to an unwilling pupil; they themselves had now to
aspire to a greater aptitude in learning it. Wellgood conned his lesson
ill. The gospel of anti-sentimentality fits other people's woes better
than a man's own; his seem so real as to defeat the application of the
doctrine. The first and loudest to proclaim that no man or woman is to
be trusted, that he who does not suspect invites deception and has
himself to thank if he is duped--that is the man who nurses bitterest
wrath over the proving of his own theories. Aghast at having yourself
the honour of proving your own theories! The world does funny things
with us. To be taken at your word like that; really to find people about
you as bad as you have declared humanity at large to be; to stumble and
break your knees over a justification of your cynicism--it would seem a
thing that should meet with acquiescence, perhaps even with a sombre
satisfaction. Yet it does not happen so. The optimist fares better; he
falls from a higher chair but on to a thicker carpet; and he himself is
far more elastic. "With what measure you mete, it shall be measured to
you again." Hard measure for hard people seems to fulfil the saying, and
is not a just occasion for grumbling--even for internal grumbling, which
is the hard man's only resource, since he has accustomed sympathy and
confidence to hide their faces from his ridicule, and their tender hands
to shrink from the grip of his contempt.
Isobel Belfield possessed just what Isobel Vintry had stolen. Neither
Church nor State, no, nor the more primitive sanction of the birth of a
son, availed to give a higher validity to her title. In rebuking
inconstancy she was out of court; she was estopped, as the lawyers call
it. How could she refuse to forgive the thing which alone gave her the
right to be aggrieved? Her possession was tainted in its origin. Or was
she to arrogate to herself the privilege of being the only thief? Harry
Belfield confessed new crimes to an old accomplice; severity would have
merited a smile. Stolen kisses acknowledged recalled stolen kisses that
had been a secret. Condemned by the tribunal of the present, Harry's
offences appealed to the past. "See yourself as Vivien--see her (Lady
Lucy, Mrs. Freere, or another) as yourself!" Harry's deprecatory smile
seemed to threaten some such disarming suggestion. Church and State and
the little boy might say, "There's all the difference!" Neither State
nor Church nor little boy could deafen the echo of Wellgood's
denunciation or blur the image of Vivien's stricken face. They were a
pair of thieves; the court of conscience would not listen to her plea if
she complained of an unfair division of the plunder. Hands held up in
petition for justice must be clean--an old doctrine of equity; an
account will not be taken between two highwaymen on Hounslow Heath.
Origins are obstinate, leaving marks whatever variations time may bring.
She had begun as one of two--and not the legitimate one. She was to be
one of two always, so it appeared, through all the years until the Nun's
pitiless vision worked itself out, and even Harry Belfield ceased to
suffer new passions--or, at least, to inspire them; perhaps the latter
ending of the matter was the more likely.
He did nothing else than suffer passions and inspire them; that was the
hardest rub. Where was the brilliant career? Where the great success of
which Vivien had been wont to talk shyly? Isobel was a woman of hard
mettle, of high ambition. She could have endured to be official queen,
though queens unofficial came and went. But there was to be no kingdom!
There was abdication of all realms save Harry's own. He grew more and
more contented to specialise there. Irregularity in private conduct is
partially condoned in useful men; as a discreetly hidden diversion, it
is left to another jurisdiction--_deorum injuriae dis curae_--but as the
occupation of a life? The widest stretch of philosophic contemplation of
the whole is demanded to excuse or to justify.
He made a strange thing of her life--a restless, unpeaceful,
interesting, and unhappy thing. The old idea of reigning at Nutley, of
skilfully managing stubborn Wellgood, of the seeming submission that was
really rule (perhaps woman's commonest conception of triumph), did not
serve the turn of this life. It was stranger work--living with Harry!
Being so well treated--and so well deceived! So courted and so flouted!
The change was violent from the days when Vivien's companion stole
kisses that belonged to her unsuspecting charge. A pretty irony to find
herself on the defensive! A prettier, perhaps, to see her best resource
in an alliance with Mrs. Freere! But it came to that. Never in words, of
course--tacitly, in lifted brows and shoulders shrugged. So long as
there was nobody except Mrs. Freere--so long as there was nobody besides
his wife--things were not very wrong for the allies. A sense of security
regained, precariously regained--a current of silent but mutual
congratulations--ran between the Bedford and the Norfolk hotels at
Brighton when Lady Lucy had received her _conge_. Harry's degrees of
penitence and of confession at the two houses of entertainment must
remain uncertain; at both he was no doubt possessed by the determination
to lead a new life; he had been possessed by that when first he heard
the potent voice calling him to Meriton.
Harry Belfield--the admired Harry of so many hopes--was in process of
becoming a joke! It was the worst fate of all; yet what other refuge had
the despair of his friends? Even to condemn with gravity was difficult;
gravity seemed to accuse its wearer of making too much of the
ridiculous--which was to be ridiculous himself. In old days they had
laughed at Harry's love affairs as at his foible; he seemed all foible
now--there was nothing else. His life and its possibilities had narrowed
and dwindled down to that. Billy Foot had tried to be serious on the
subject. What was the use, when there was only one question to be asked
about him--who was the latest woman? An atmosphere of ridicule, kindly,
tender, infinitely regretful, yet still ridicule, enveloped the figure
of him who once had been a hero. This was a different quality of jest
from that which found its occasion in Andy Hayes' patient wooing. Andy
could afford to be patient; once again his opponent was doing his work
for him.
Spring saw the Nun installed in a hired house of her own at Meriton,
Seymour being kept busy conveying her to and fro between her new home
and London, as and when the claims of her profession called her. But
Sunday was always marked by a gathering of friends--the Foots if they
were at Halton, Andy, Vivien Wellgood from Nutley; often Belfield would
drop in to see the younger folk. Jack Rock had his audiences to himself,
for he sturdily refused to intrude on his "betters"--aye, even though
his sign was down, though the National, Colonial, and International
Purveyors reigned in his stead, though the Member for the Division
occupied rooms in his house. To Jack life seemed to have done two
wonderful things for him--one was the rise and triumph of Andy; the
other was his friendship with Miss Doris Flower. He was, in fact,
hopelessly in love with that young lady; the Nun was quite aware of it
and returned his affection heartily. Jack delighted to sit with her, to
look and listen, and sometimes to talk of Andy--of all that he had done,
of all that he was going to do. Jack's hard-working, honest, and, it may
be added, astute life was crowned by a very gracious evening.
The Nun's new home stood in High Street, with a pretty little front
garden, where she loved to sit and survey the doings of the town, even
as had been her wont from her window at the Lion. Here she was one
morning, and Jack Rock with her. She lay stretched on a long chair, with
her tiny feet protruding from her white frock, her hair gleaming in the
sun, her eyes looking at Jack with a merry affection.
"You do make a picture, miss; you fair do make a picture!" said Jack.
"Don't flirt, Jack," said the Nun in grave rebuke. "You ought to know by
now that I don't go in for flirtation, and I can't let even you break
the rules. Though I confess at once that you tempt me very much, because
you do it so nicely. It's funny, Jack, that both you and I should have
chosen the single life, isn't it?"
Jack shook his head reproachfully. "Ah, miss, that's where you're wrong!
I'm not sayin' anythin' against Miss Vivien--she's a sweet young lady."
"What has Vivien got to do with single lives?"
"Well, miss, no offence, I hope? But if it had been so as you'd laid
yourself out--so to speak--for Andy."
The Nun blushed just a little, and laughed just a little also. "Oh,
that's your idea, Jack? You are a schemer!"
"I've got nothin' to say against Miss Vivien. But I wish it had been
you, miss," Jack persisted.
"Oh, Jack, wouldn't you have been jealous? Do say you'd have been
jealous!"
"Keepin' him waitin' too the way she does!" Jack's voice grew rather
indignant. "It don't look to me as if she put a proper value on him,
miss."
"Perhaps you're just a little bit partial to Andy?" the Nun suggested.
"And not a proper value on herself either, if she's still hankerin'
after Mr. Harry. Him as is after half the women in London, if you can
trust all you hear."
The Nun's face was towards the street, Jack's back towards it. The
garden gate was open.
"Hush!" said the Nun softly. "Here comes Vivien!"
Poor old Jack was no diplomatist. He sprang to his feet, red as a turkey
cock, and turned round to find Vivien at his elbow.
"I--I beg your pardon, miss," he stammered, rushing at the conclusion
that she had overheard.
Vivien looked at him in amused surprise. "But what's the matter, Mr.
Rock? Why, I believe you must have been talking about me!" She looked at
the Nun. "Was he?" she asked merrily.
"I don't know that it's much good trying to deny it, is it, Jack?"
Jack was terribly ashamed of himself. "It wasn't my place to do it. I
beg your pardon, miss." He stooped and picked up his hat, which he had
taken off and laid on the ground by him. "Miss Flower's too kind to me,
miss. She makes me forget my place--and my manners."
Vivien held out her hand to him; she was grave now. "But we're all so
fond of you, Mr. Rock. And I'm sure you weren't saying anything unkind
about me. Was he, Doris?"
Jack took her hand. "It wasn't my place to do it. I ask your pardon."
Then he turned to the Nun. "You'll excuse me, miss?"
The Nun smiled radiantly at him. "I hate your going, Jack. Perhaps you'd
better, though. Only don't be unhappy. There's no harm done, you know."
Jack shook his head again sadly, then put his hat on it with a rueful
air. He regarded Vivien for a moment with a ponderous sorrow, lifted his
hat again, shook his head again, and walked out of the garden. The Nun
gave a short gurgle, and then regained a serene and silent composure. It
was most certainly a case for allowing the other side to take first
innings! Vivien sat down in the seat that Jack had vacated in such sad
confusion.
"It was about--Harry?" she asked slowly. "You all hear and know! I hear
nothing, I know nothing. Nobody mentions him to me. Not Andy, not my
father any more. Mr. Belfield said a word or two once--not happy words.
Except for that--well, he might be dead! I don't see the use of treating
me like that. I think I've a right to know."
"What Jack said was more about you really. There's no fresh news about
Harry."
While saying these words, the Nun allowed her look at Vivien to be very
direct. "You must accept that as final," the look seemed to say.
"Lots of men, good men, make a mistake, one mistake, about things like
that. He'll be all right now--with his boy."
"He's had a love affair, repented of it--and probably started another
since that event. The child, if I remember, is about five months old."
Still with her gaze direct, the Nun laughed. Vivien flushed. "There's no
other way to take it," the Nun assured her.
Vivien spoke low; her cheeks red, her eyes dim. "I gave him all my
heart, oh, so readily--and such trust! Doris, did he ever make love to
you?"
"As a general rule I don't tell tales. In this case I feel free to say
that he did."
Vivien's smile was woeful. "What, he wanted to marry you too once?"
"Oh no, he never wanted to marry me, Vivien."
It was drastic treatment--and the doctor paid for it as well as the
patient.
"But you went on being friends with him!"
"I became friends with him again--presently," the Nun corrected. "I
suppose I don't come well out of it, according to your views. I know the
difference there is between us in that way. Look at your life and mine!
That's bound to make a difference. Besides, it would have been taking
him much too seriously."
"I think you're rather hard, Doris."
"Thank God, I am, my dear! I need it."
"It's a terrible thing to make the mistake I did."
"It's worse to go on with it."
"I should have liked to go on with it. I feel as people must who've lost
their religion."
"Is that so sad, if the religion is proved not to be true?"
"Yes, terribly sad." Vivien's back was to the street. She wept silently;
none saw her tears save Doris. "I thought I had lost everything. It's
worse to find that you never had anything, and have lost nothing."
"It's good to find that out, when it's true," Doris persisted stoutly.
"But I hope he won't happen on any more girls like you. With the proper
people--his Mrs. Freeres and Lady Lucies--the thing's a farce. That's
all right!"
Her bitter ridicule pierced the armour of Vivien's recollection. With
the proper people it was all a farce. She had taken it as a tragedy. Her
tears ceased to flow, but her colour came hot again.
"I don't know anything about those women--I never heard their names--but
he seems to have insulted me almost as much as he insulted you."
The Nun was relentless. "In both cases he considered, and still
considers, that he paid a very high compliment. And he'll find lots of
women to agree with him."
"Doris, be kind to me. I've nobody else!"
"The Lord forgive you for saying so! You've the luck of one girl in ten
thousand." Now the Nun's colour grew a little hot; she raised herself on
her elbow. "Here are your two men. One's going to lead a big life, while
the other's chasing petticoats!"
"You think the world of Andy, don't you, Doris?"
"I'd think the universe of him if he'd give you a shaking."
Vivien smiled, rose, came to the Nun, and kissed her. The Nun's lips
quivered. "He's coming down at the end of the week," said Vivien. Her
voice fell to a whisper. "He's not quite so patient as you think." With
another kiss she was swiftly gone.
The Nun sat on, gazing at Meriton High Street. Sally Dutton came out of
the house and regarded the same prospect with an air of criticism or
even of disfavour.
"I think it's all coming right about Vivien and Andy," the Nun remarked.
Sally turned her critical eyes on her friend. "Have you been helping?"
"Just a little bit perhaps, Sally." She paused a moment. "I shall be
rather glad to have it settled."
The motor-car drew up at the door.
"You'll not have more than enough time for lunch before your matinee,
Miss Flower," Seymour observed, with his usual indifferent air. Not his
business whether she were in time, but he might as well mention the
matter!
"My hat and cloak!" cried the Nun, springing up. She took Sally's arm
and ran her into the house with her. "Hurrah for work, Sally!"
Suddenly Sally threw her arms round her friend's neck and exclaimed,
with something very like a sob, "Oh, my darling, if only you could have
everything you want!"
The Nun's lips quivered again; her bright eyes were a little dim. "But,
Sally dear, I never fall in love!"
Miss Dutton relapsed, with equal abruptness, into her habitual
demeanour.
"Well, he's a man--and a fool like all the rest of them!" she remarked.
The Nun gurgled. A record was saved--at the last moment. Because she did
not cry--any more than she fell in love.
The Nun came out, equipped for the journey. She was smiling still. "Do I
look all right, Seymour?"
"At the best of your looks, if I may say so, Miss Flower."
"Thank you very much, Seymour. Get in with you, Sally! You are a slow
girl, always!"
She pressed Sally's hand as the car started. "Much better like this,
really. I have always Seymour's admiration."
His name caught Seymour's ear. "I beg your pardon, Miss Flower?"
"I only said you were an admirable driver, Seymour."
"Naturally I drive carefully when you're in the car, Miss Flower."
"There!" said the Nun triumphantly. "I told you so, Sally!"