PRETTY MUCH THE SAME!
In the spring of the following year Miss Doris Flower returned from an
extensive professional tour in America. She had enjoyed great success.
The Nun and the Quaker proved thoroughly to the taste of transatlantic
audiences; Joan of Arc did not at first create the same enthusiasm in
the United States as she had in London, the allusion to the happier
relations between France and England naturally not exciting quite equal
interest. However an ingenious gentleman supplied the Maid with a vision
of General Lafayette instead; though not quite so up-to-date, it more
than answered expectations. Across the Canadian border-line the original
vision was, of course, restored, and went immensely. It was all one to
Miss Flower what visions she had, so that they were to the liking of the
public. She came back much pleased with herself, distinctly affluent,
and minded to enjoy for awhile a well-earned leisure. Miss Sally Dutton
returned with her, charged with a wealth of comment on American ways and
institutions, the great bulk of which sensible people could attribute
only to the blackest prejudice.
The lapse of six months is potent to smooth small causes of awkwardness
and to make little changes of feeling or of attitude seem quite natural.
Billy Foot had undoubtedly avoided the Nun for the last few weeks before
her departure; he saw no reason now why he should not be among the
earliest to call and welcome his old friend. It was rather with a
humorous twinkle than with any embarrassment that, when they settled
down to talk, he asked her if she happened to know the Macquart-Smiths.
"Of Kensington?" asked the Nun in a tone of polite interest.
"Yes, Kensington Palace Gardens," Billy replied, tranquilly unconscious
of any other than the obvious bearing of the question. "I thought you
must have heard of them." (The Nun never had, though she had seen at
least one of them.) "The old man made a pile out in Mexico. They're very
good sort of people."
"You brought one of the girls to hear me one night, didn't you?"
"Yes. Well, she's the only girl, in fact--Amaranth's her name. Rather
silly, but that's not her fault, is it?" He seemed anxious to forestall
criticism.
"You can call her Amy--or even Aimee," suggested the Nun consolingly.
Billy laughed. "Have you heard it, or did you guess, Doris?"
"Guessed it. I can guess any conundrum, however baffling. I'm awfully
glad, Billy. I'm sure you'll be tremendously happy. When did it
happen--and when is it going to happen?"
"About a month ago--and in about three months' time. Didn't you think
her pretty?"
"Very pretty," said the Nun, presuming on a somewhat cursory inspection
of Miss Amaranth. "And I suppose that since the old man made his
pile--?"
"Oh, well, there are two sons. Still--yes, that's all right."
"It all sounds splendid. I don't fall in love myself, as I've told
you--"
"Oh, I know that very well," said Billy. "Nobody knows it better."
Her eyes danced as she shook her head at him demurely. "But I like to
see young people settling down happily."
"You are rather a queer girl in that way, Doris. Never feel that way?"
The Nun considered. "I might go so far as to admit that I've an ideal."
"Rather a silly thing to have in this world, isn't it?"
"Happiness makes you unsympathetic, Billy. There's no harm in an ideal
if you're careful to keep it as an ideal. Of course if you try to make
it practical there are awful risks."
"And what, or who, is your ideal?"
"'Pray what is that to you?'" the Nun quoted, under the circumstances
rather maliciously. "I find having an ideal a most comfortable
arrangement. It doesn't worry either him or me--and Sally can't possibly
object to it. How are things at Meriton? Andy wrote me his great news,
and of course I never answered. But isn't it splendid?"
"I haven't had time to go down lately."
"Oh, of course not--now!"
"But I hear he's doing magnificently. Sure to get in. But Gilly's the
best fun. When Andy is off electioneering, Gilly works like a horse.
Sandwiches in the office for lunch, with a glass of sherry from the pub
round the corner! I caught him at it once; he was awfully disgusted."
"Gilly lunching on sandwiches and a glass of sherry from the pub!" Her
voice was full of wondering amazement.
"Yes, he won't hear the last of that in a hurry! When he did come to
lunch the other day, we all went early and had a nice little pile of ham
sandwiches and a liqueur glass of Marsala ready for him when he came in.
You should have seen his face--and not heard his language!" The
unnatural brother laughed. "You see, Andy didn't want to stand because
of neglecting the business, and Gilly backed himself to take on the work
so as not to stand in Andy's way. And he's doing it."
"But that's awfully fine of Gilly, I think."
"So it is, of course. That's why he gets so riled when anybody says
anything about it."
The Nun nodded in understanding. "And Harry?" she asked.
"They were abroad or in Scotland all the winter; came back to town about
a month ago. They've taken a flat in Clarges Street for the season, I
believe."
"Have you been to call on Mrs. Harry Belfield?"
"Well, no, I haven't. I don't know what he wants. I think I'll leave him
to begin. It seems to be the same old game with him. One sees him
everywhere."
"With her?"
"Sometimes with her. I don't think he's doing anything about another
constituency; seems to have chucked it for the present. But he does
appear to be having a very good time in London."
"Is he friendly when you meet?"
"Yes, he's friendly and jolly enough." Billy smiled. "It's true that
he's generally in a hurry. When I met him with her once, he was in too
much of a hurry to stop!"
"It's very sad, but I'm afraid his memories of us are not those of
unmixed pleasure."
"I'm afraid not. Andy says he never goes down to Meriton."
"Well, really I don't very well see how he could--with her!"
"I suppose he and his people have some understanding about it. One's
sorry for them, you know."
"I think I shall go down to Meriton again this autumn. Any chance of
your being there--as a family man?"
"I've promised to speak for Andy, so we may put in a few days there.
Most of the time I shall have to be preaching to my own flock. I say,
will you come and meet Amaranth?"
"Of course I will. But really I think I should make it 'Amy'!"
"It's worth considering; but I don't know how she'll feel about it,"
said Billy cautiously.
"Oh, said in the way you'll say it, it'll sound sweet," remarked the Nun
flippantly.
Billy still looked doubtful; perhaps "Amaranth" already sounded sweet.
When left alone, Miss Flower indulged herself for awhile in a reverie of
a pensive, hardly melancholy, character--not unpleasant, rather
philosophical. Billy Foot's new state was the peg from which it hung,
its theme the balance of advantage between the single and the married
state. It was in some degree a drawback to the former that other people
would embrace the latter. Old coteries were thus broken up; old
friendships, if not severed, yet rendered less intimate. New comrades
had to be found, not always an easy task. There was a danger of
loneliness. On the other hand, there were worse things than loneliness;
enforced companionship, where companionship had become distasteful,
seemed to her distinctly one of them. Being so very much in another
person's hands also was a formidable thing; it involved such a liability
to be hurt. The balance thus inclined in favour of the single life, in
spite of its liability to loneliness. The Nun gave her adhesion to it,
with a mental reservation as to the case of an ideal. And even then--the
attempt to make it practical? She shook her head with a little sigh,
then smiled. "I wonder if Billy had any idea whom I had in my head!" she
thought.
Sally Dutton came in and found her friend in this ruminative mood. Doris
roused herself to communicate the news of Billy Foot's engagement. It
was received in Sally's usual caustic manner. "Came to tell you about
it, did he? I wonder how much he's told her about you!"
"I can't complain if my want of responsiveness hasn't been emphasised,
Sally. You couldn't expect him to."
"I've been having a talk with Mrs. Harry Belfield," said Sally, taking
off her hat.
This announcement came rather pat on the Nun's reflections. She was
interested.
"Well, how is she? What happened?"
"In my opinion it's just another of them," Sally pronounced.
Being engaged in shopping at certain "stores" which she frequented, she
had gone into the tea-room to refresh her jaded energies, and had found
herself at the next table to Isobel. Friendly greetings had passed; the
two had drunk their tea together--with other company, as presently
appeared.
"What made you think that?" There was no need to inquire what it was
that Sally thought when she spoke of "another of them;" she did not
refer to ideally successful unions.
Sally wrinkled her brow. "She said they'd had a delightful winter,
travelling and so on, and that she was having a very gay time in London,
going everywhere and making a heap of friends. She said they liked their
flat, but were looking out for a house. She said Harry was very well and
jolly."
"Well, that sounds all right. What's the matter, Sally? Not that I
pretend to be particularly anxious for her unruffled happiness. I don't
want anything really bad, of course, but--"
"Set your mind at ease; she won't be too happy to please you--and she
knows it." Miss Dutton considered. "At least she's a fool if she doesn't
know it. Who do you think came in while we were at tea?"
"Harry?" suggested the Nun, in an obviously insincere shot at the
answer.
"Harry at Harrod's! Mrs. Freere! You remember Mrs. Freere?--Mrs. Freere,
and a woman Mrs. Freere called 'Dear Lady Lucy.'" Sally's sarcastic
emphasis on the latter lady's title--surely a harmless social
distinction?--was absolutely savage.
"Did they join you?" asked the Nun, by now much interested.
"Join us? They swallowed us! Of course they didn't take much notice of
me. They'd never heard of 'Miss Dutton,' and I didn't suppose I should
make a much better impression if I told them that I lived with you."
"No, of course not, Sally," said the Nun, and drew up on the edge of an
ill-timed gurgle. "Mrs. Freere's an old story. Who's Lady Lucy? One of
the heap of friends Mrs. Harry is making?"
"Lady Lucy's young--younger than Isobel. Mrs. Freere isn't young--not so
young as Isobel. Mrs. Freere's the old friend, Lady Lucy's the new one."
"Did you gather whether Lady Lucy was a married woman?"
"Oh yes. She referred to 'our money troubles,' and 'my motor-car.' She's
married all right! But nobody bothered to tell me her name. Well, as I
say, Mrs. Freere's the old friend, and she's the new friend. They're
fighting which of them shall run the Belfields--I don't know what else
they may be fighting about! But they unite in sitting on Isobel. Harry's
given her away, I gathered--told them what she was before he married
her. So, of course, she hasn't got a chance! The only good thing is that
they obviously hate one another like poison. In fact I don't think I
ever sat at a table with three women who hated one another more--though
I've had some experience in that line."
"She hates them both, you think? Well, I shouldn't have thought she was
the kind of woman to like being sat upon by anybody."
"Oh, she's fighting; she's putting up a good fight for him."
"Well, we know she can do that!" observed the Nun with a rather acid
demureness.
"I'm not asking you to sympathise. I'm just telling you how it is.
'Harry likes this,' says Mrs. Freere. 'He always did.' 'Did he, dear? He
tells me he likes the other now,' says Lady Lucy. 'I don't think he's
really fond of either of them,' says Isobel. 'Oh yes, my dear. Besides,
you must, if you want to do the right thing,' say both of them. I
suppose that, when they once get her out of the way, they'll fight it
out between themselves."
"Will they get her out of the way? It's rather soon to talk about that."
"They'll probably both of them be bowled over by some newcomer in a few
months, and Isobel go with them--if she hasn't gone already."
"Your views are always uncompromising, Sally."
"I only wish you'd heard those two women this afternoon. And, in the
end, off they all three went together in the motor-car. Going to pick up
Harry somewhere!"
"Rather too much of a good thing for most men. And it might have been
Vivien!"
"It's a woman, and one of God's creatures, anyhow," said Sally with some
temper.
"Yes," the Nun agreed serenely. "And Mrs. Freere's a woman--and so, I
presume from your description, is Lady Lucy. And I gather that they have
husbands? God's creatures too, we may suppose!"
Sally declined the implied challenge to weigh, in the scales of an
impartial judgment, the iniquities of the two sexes. Her sympathies,
born on the night when she had given shelter to Isobel at the Lion, were
with the woman who was fighting for her husband, who had a plain right
to him now, though she had used questionable means to get him. If Doris
asked her to discern a Nemesis in Isobel's plight--as Belfield had in
the fall of his too well admired son--to see Vivien avenged by Mrs.
Freere and Lady Lucy, Sally retorted on the philosophic counsel by
declaring that Doris, a partisan of Vivien's, lacked human pity for
Vivien's successful rival, whose real success seemed now so dubious.
Whatever the relative merit of these views, and whatever the truth as to
the wider question of the iniquities of the sexes, Sally's encounter at
least provided for her friend's contemplation an excellent little
picture of the man whose name had been so bandied about among the three
women at the tea-table. Her dislike of Isobel enabled the Nun to
contemplate it rather with a scornful amusement than with the hot
indignation with which she had lashed Vivien's treacherous lover. Her
feelings not being engaged in this case, she was able to regain her
favourite attitude of a tolerant, yet open-eyed, onlooker, and to ask
what, after all, was the use of expecting anything else from Harry
Belfield. What Mrs. Freere--nay, what prehistoric Rosa Hinde--had found
out, what Vivien had found out, what Isobel was finding out, that, in
due time, Lady Lucy would find out also. Perhaps some women did not much
mind finding out. Vivien had renounced him utterly, but here was Mrs.
Freere back again! And no doubt Lady Lucy had her own ideas about Mrs.
Freere--besides the knowledge, shared by the world in general, of the
brief engagement to Vivien and the hurried marriage with Isobel. Some of
them did not mind, or at least thought that the game was worth the
candle. That was the only possible conclusion. In some cases, perhaps,
they were the same sort of people themselves; in others, Harry's appeal
was too potent to be resisted, even though they knew that sorrow would
be the ultimate issue.
That was intelligible enough. For the moment, to the woman of the
moment, his charm was well-nigh irresistible. His power to conquer lay
in the completeness with which he was conquered. He had the name of
being a great flirt; in the exact sense of words, he did not flirt save
as a mere introduction of the subject; he always made love--to the woman
of the moment. He did not pay attentions; he was swept into a
passion--for the woman of the moment. It was afterwards, when that
particular moment and that particular woman had gone by, that Harry's
feelings passed a retrospective Act by which the love-making and passion
became, and were to be deemed always to have been, flirtation and
attention. Amply accepting this legislation for himself, and quite
convinced of its justice, he seemed to have power to impose it--for the
moment--on others also. And he would go on like that indefinitely? There
seemed no particular reason why he should stop. He would go on loving
for a while, being loved for a while; deserting and being despaired of;
sometimes, perhaps, coming back and beginning the process over again;
living the life of the emotions so long as it would last, making it
last, perhaps, longer than it ought or really could, because he had no
other life adequate to fill its place. The Nun's remorseless fancy
skipped the years, and pictured him, Harry the Irresistible, Harry the
Incorrigible, still pursuing the old round, still on his way from the
woman of the last moment to the woman of the next; getting perhaps
rather gray, rather fat, a trifle inclined to coarseness, but preserving
all his ardour and all his art in wooing, like a great singer grown old,
whose voice is feeble and spent, but whose skill is still triumphant
over his audiences--still convinced that each affair was "bigger" than
any of the others, still persuading his partner of the same thing, still
suffering pangs of pity for himself when he fell away, still responding
to the stimulus of a new pursuit.
A few days later chance threw him in her way; in truth it could scarcely
be called chance, since both, returned from their wanderings, had
resumed their habit of frequenting that famous restaurant, and had been
received with enthusiasm by the presiding officials. Waiting for her
party in the outer room, suddenly she found him standing beside her,
looking very handsome and gay, with a mischievous sparkle in his eye.
"May I speak to you--or am I no better than one of the wicked?" he said,
sitting down beside her.
"You're looking very well, Harry. I hope Mrs. Belfield is all right?"
"Oh yes, Isobel's first-rate, thank you. So am I. How London agrees with
a man! I was out of sorts half the time down at Meriton. A country life
doesn't agree with me. I shall chuck it."
"You seemed very well down there--physically," the Nun observed.
"Sleepy, wasn't it? Sleepy beyond anything. Now here a man feels alive,
and awake!"
It was not in the least what he had thought about Meriton, it was what
he was feeling about Meriton now. He had passed a retrospective Act
about Meriton; it was to be deemed to have been always sleepy and dull.
"No," he pursued, "when I come into Halton--I hope it won't be for a
long while--I think I shall sell it. I can't settle down as a country
squire. It's not my line. Too stodgy!"
"What about Parliament? Going to find another place?"
"If I do, it'll be a town constituency. When I think of those beastly
villages! Really couldn't go through with it again! The fact is, I'm
rather doubtful about the whole of that game, Doris. No end of a
grind--and what do you get out of it? More kicks than ha'pence, as a
rule. Your own side doesn't thank you, and the other abuses you like a
pickpocket."
She nodded. "I think you're quite right. Let it alone."
He turned to her quite eagerly. "Do you really think so? Well, I'm more
than half inclined to believe you're right. Isobel's always worrying me
about it--talks about letting chances slip away, and time slip away, and
I don't know what the devil else slip away--till, hang it, my only
desire is to imitate time and chances, and slip away myself!" He laughed
merrily.
The old charm was still there, the power to make his companion take his
point of view and sympathise with him, even when the merits were all
against him.
"You see now what it is to give a woman the right to lecture you,
Harry!"
"Oh, it's kind of her to be ambitious for me," said Harry
good-naturedly. "I quite appreciate that. But--" His eyes twinkled
again, and his voice fell to a confidential whisper. "Well, you've been
behind the scenes, haven't you? My last shot in that direction has put
me a bit off."
It was his first reference to the catastrophe; she was curious to see
whether he would develop it. This Harry proceeded to do.
"You were precious hard on me about that business, Doris," he said in a
gentle reproach. "Of course I don't justify what happened. But my dear
old pater and Wellgood pressed matters a bit too quick--oh, not Vivien,
I don't mean that for a moment. There's such a thing as making the game
too easy for a fellow. I didn't see it at the time, but I see it now.
They had their plan. Well, I fell in with it too readily. It looked
pleasant enough. The result was that I mistook the strength of my
feelings. That was the beginning of all the trouble."
Vastly amused, the Nun nodded gravely. "I ought to have thought of that
before I was so down on you."
He looked at her in a merry suspicion. "I'm not sure you're not pulling
my leg, Doris; but all the same that's the truth about it. And at any
rate I suppose you'll admit I did the right thing when--when the trouble
came?"
"Yes, you did the right thing then."
"I'm glad you admit that much! I say--I suppose you--you haven't heard
anything of Vivien Wellgood?"
"I hear she's in excellent health and spirits."
"I've never been so cut up about anything. Still, of course, she was a
mere girl, and--well, things pass!"
"Luckily things pass. I've no doubt she'll soon console herself."
"He'll be a very lucky fellow," said Harry handsomely. After all, he
himself had admired Vivien, and his taste was good.
"He will. In fact I think I know only one man good enough for her--and
that's Andy Hayes."
Harry's face was suddenly transformed to a peevish amazement.
"My dear girl, are you out of your mind? Don't say such silly things!
Old Andy's a good chap, but the idea that Vivien would look at him! He's
not her class; and she's the most fastidious little creature alive--as
dainty and fastidious as can be!" He smiled again--probably at some
reminiscence.
"I don't see why her being fastidious should prevent her liking Andy."
Harry broke into open impatience. "I like old Andy--well, I think I've
done something to prove that--but, upon my soul, you all seem to have
gone mad about him. You all ram him down a man's throat. It's possible
to have too much of him, good fellow as he is. He and Vivien Wellgood!
Well, it's simply damned ridiculous!" He took out his watch and, as he
looked at it, exclaimed with great irritation, "Why the devil doesn't
this woman come?"
"I thought Mrs. Belfield was always so punctual?"
"It's not Mrs. Belfield," Harry snapped out.
"Well, don't be disagreeable to the poor woman simply because I said
something you didn't like."
"Something I didn't like? That's an absurd way of putting it. It's only
that to be for ever hearing of nobody but--"
"That tall young woman over there seems to be staring rather hard at you
and me, Harry."
"By gad, it is her! I must run." His smiles broke out again. "I say,
Doris, I shall get into trouble over this! You're looking your best, my
dear, and she's as jealous as--I must run! Au revoir!"
"It's not Mrs. Freere--so I suppose it's Lady Lucy," thought the Nun.
She was in high good temper at the result of her casual allusion to Andy
Hayes. The shoe pinched there, did it? She was not vicious towards
Harry; she wished him no harm--indeed she wished him more good than he
would be likely to welcome--but the extreme complacency of his manner in
the earlier part of their talk stirred her resentment. Her suggestion
about Andy Hayes put a quick end to that.
Lady Lucy had an impudent little face, with an impudent little turned-up
nose. She settled herself cosily into her chair on the balcony and
peeled off her gloves.
"I'm so glad we're just by ourselves--I mean, since poor Mrs. Belfield
wasn't well enough to come. I was afraid of finding Lily Freere!"
"What made you afraid of that?" asked Harry, smiling.
"Well, she is about with you a good deal, isn't she? Does your wife like
being managed so much? Or is it your choice?"
"Mrs. Freere's an old friend."
"So I've always understood!"
"You mustn't listen to ill-natured gossip. Just an old friend! But it's
not very likely I should have asked her to come to-day."
The Nun and her party entered, and sat down at the other end of the
balcony.
"There's that girl you were talking to. Look round; she's sitting facing
me."
"Oh yes, Doris Flower!"
"An old friend too? You seemed to be having a very confidential
conversation at least."
"On the most strictly unsentimental footing. Really there you may
believe me!" Harry's voice fell to an artistic whisper. "Did you come
only to tease me?"
"I don't think you care much whether I tease you or not," said Lady
Lucy.
He was helping her to wine; he held the bottle, she held the glass.
Somehow it chanced that their hands touched. Lady Lucy blushed a little
and glanced at Harry. "How shall I persuade you that I care?" asked
Harry.
The Nun's host--at the other end of the balcony--turned to her. "You're
not very talkative to-day, Miss Doris!"
"Oh, I'm sorry: There's always so much to look at at the other tables,
isn't there?"
"Pretty much the same old lot!" remarked the host--an experienced youth.
"Pretty much!" agreed the Nun serenely.