GWENDA AT GARTHOWEN
On the slope of the moor, where the autumn sun was burnishing the furze
and purpling the heather, Morva sat knitting, her nimble fingers outrun
by her busy thoughts.
She was sitting half way up the moor, an old cloak wrapped round her
and its hood drawn over her head, for the wind was keen, blowing fresh
from the bright blue bay, which stretched before her to the hazy
horizon. Her eyes gazed absently over its azure surface, flecked with
white, as though with scattered snowflakes, and dotted here and there
with the grey sails of the boats which the herring fishery called out
from their moorings under the cliffs. She sat at the edge of a
rush-bordered pool in the peaty bog, occasionally bending over it to
look at her own image reflected on its glassy surface. Between the
folds of the old cloak glistened the necklace of shells which Gethin
had given her. It was her twentieth birthday, so she seized the excuse
for wearing the precious ornament which generally lay locked in its
painted casket on the shelf at her bed head. It was not at herself she
gazed, but the ever-changing gleam of the shells was irresistible. How
well she remembered that evening when in the moonlight under the elder
tree at Garthowen, Gethin had held them out to her, with a dawning love
in his eyes, and her heart had bounded towards him with that strong
impulse, which alas! she now knew was love!--love that permeated her
whole being, that drew her thoughts away on the wings of the wind, over
the restless sea, away, away, to distant lands and foreign ports.
Where did he roam? What foreign shores did his footsteps tread? In
what strange lands was he wandering? far from his home, far from the
hearts that loved him and longed for his return! The swallows flew in
fluttering companies over the moor, beginning to congregate for their
departure across the seas. Oh! that she could borrow their wings, and
fly with them across that sad dividing ocean, and, finding Gethin,
could flutter down to him and shelter on his breast, and twitter to him
such a song of love and home that he should understand and turn his
steps once more towards the old country!
Will never troubled her now, never asked her to meet him behind the
broom bushes. He had ceased to love her, she knew, and although he had
never freed her from her promise, Morva had too much common sense to
feel bound for ever to a man who had so evidently forgotten her. If
sometimes the meanness and selfishness of his conduct dawned upon her
mind, the feeling was instantly repressed, and as far as possible
banished, in obedience to the instinct of loyalty to Garthowen, which
was so strong a trait in her character.
She turned again to look at her necklace in the pool, and caught sight
of a speck of vivid scarlet on the brow of the hill--another and
another. They were the huntsmen returning from their unsuccessful run,
for she had seen the breathless panting fox an hour before when he
crossed the moor and made for his covert on the rocky sides of the
cliffs. Once there, the hunters knew the chase was over. And there
were the tired hounds for a moment appearing at the bare hill-top. In
a few moments they had passed from sight, leaving the moor to its usual
solitude and silence. But surely no! Here was one stray figure who
turned towards the cliffs, and, alighting, led her horse down the
devious paths between the furze and heather. Such an uncommon sight
roused Morva from her dreams.
"Can I come down this way?" said a clear, girlish voice, as Gwenda
Vaughan drew near. She spoke in very broken Welsh, but Morva
understood her. "Does it lead anywhere?"
"It leads nowhere," said Morva, "but to the cliffs; but round there
beyond the Cribserth," and she pointed to the rugged ridge of rocks,
"is Garthowen; up there to the right is nothing but moorland for two
miles."
"Oh, then I will turn this way," said Gwenda. "Will they let me rest
at the farm a while, do you think? I am very tired and hungry."
"Oh, of course," said Morva, her hospitable instincts awaking at once.
"Come into mother's cottage," and she pointed to the thatched roof and
chimney, which alone were visible above the heathery knoll.
"Is that a cottage?"
"Yes--will you come?"
"Yes, just for a moment, and then perhaps you will show me the way to
the farm. That Cribserth looks a formidable rampart. Are you sure
there is a way round it?"
"Oh, yes; I will come and show you," said Morva. "Here is mother," and
Sara approached from her herb garden with round, astonished eyes.
"Well, indeed!" she said; "this is a pleasant sight--a lady coming to
see us, and on Morva's birthday, too! Come in, 'merch i, and sit down
and rest. The horse will be safe tied there to the gate."
And Gwenda passed into the cottage with a strange feeling of happiness.
"Now, what shall I give you?" said Sara. "A cup of milk, or a cup of
tea? or, I have some meth here in the corner. My bees are busy on the
wild thyme and furze, you see, so we have plenty of honey for our meth."
"I would like a cup of meth," said Gwenda; and as she drank the
delicious sparkling beverage, Sara gazed at her with such evident
interest that she was constrained to ask:
"Why do you look at me so?"
"Because I think I have seen you before," said the old woman.
"Not likely," replied Gwenda, "unless in the streets at Castell On."
"I have not been there for twenty years," said Sara. "It must be in my
dreams, then."
"Perhaps! What delicious meth! Who would think there was room for
house and garden scooped out on the moor here; and such a dear
sheltered hollow."
Sara smiled.
"Yes; we are safe and peaceful here."
Morva had taken the opportunity of doffing her necklace and placing it
in the box.
"I am going to show the young lady the way to Garthowen, mother."
"Yes; it is easy from there to Castell On," said Sara; "the farm lane
will lead you into the high road. But 'tis many, many years since I
have been that way."
The chat fell into quite a friendly and familiar groove, for Sara and
Morva knew nothing of the restraints of class and conventionality.
"I am so glad I came; but I must go now," said Gwenda, rising at last.
"My name is Gwenda Vaughan," she added, turning to Morva. "What is
yours?"
"Mine is Morva Lloyd; but I am generally called Morva of the Moor, I
think. Mother's is Sara."
"Good-bye, and thank you very much," said Gwenda, and Sara held her
hand a moment between her own soft palms, while she looked into the
girl's face.
"You have a sweet, good face," she said. "Thank you for coming, 'merch
i; in some way you will bring us good."
And again that strangely happy feeling came over Gwenda. Rounding the
Cribserth, the two girls soon reached Garthowen. It was afternoon, and
drawing near tea-time. Ebben Owens was already sitting on the settle
in the best kitchen, waiting for it, when the sound of voices without
attracted his attention.
"Caton pawb!" he said, "a lady, and Morva is bringing her."
Ann hastened to the front door, and Morva led the horse away, knowing
well that she was leaving the visitor in hospitable hands.
"I am Miss Vaughan of Nantmyny! I have been out hunting today, and on
the top of the hill I felt so tired that I made up my mind to call here
and ask if you would let me rest awhile."
"Oh, certainly! Come in," said Ann, holding out her hand, which Gwenda
took warmly.
"Miss Owen, I suppose?"
"I was Ann Owens," she said, blushing. "I am Mrs. Gwilym Morris now
these three years. This is my little boy," she added, as a chubby,
curly-headed child toddled towards her. She had already opened the
door of the best kitchen. "There is no fire in the parlour," she
apologised, "or I would take you there."
"Oh, no; please let me come to your usual sitting-room. Is this your
father?"
And she held out her hand again. There was something in her face that
always ensured its own welcome.
"Yes, I am Ebben Owens," said the old man, "and very glad to see you,
though I not know who you are."
"I am Gwenda Vaughan of Nantmyny, come to ask if you will let me rest
awhile. I have been out with the fox-hounds; we have had a long run,
and I am so tired."
She had no other excuse to give for her inroad upon their hearth; but
in Wales no excuse is required for a call.
"Well, indeed," said the old man, rubbing his knees with pleasure,
"there's a good thing now, you come just in time for tea. I think I
have heard your name, but I not know where. Oh, yes. I remember now;
'twas you the bull was running after in the market, and my boy Will
stop it; 'twas good thing, indeed, you may be kill very well!"
Gwenda stopped to pat Tudor to hide the blush that rose to her cheek as
she answered:
"Yes, indeed, and of course we were very grateful to him!"
"Oh, yes; he's very good fellow. Will you take off your hat? 'Tis not
often we're having visitors here, so we are very glad when anybody is
come."
"I was afraid, perhaps, I was taking rather a liberty," said Gwenda,
laying her hat and gloves aside, "but you are all so kind, you make me
feel quite at home."
"That's right," said the old man; "there's a pity now, my son-in-law,
Gwilym Morris, is not at home. He was go to Castell On to-day to some
meeting there. What was it? Let me see--some hard English word."
"I can speak Welsh," said Gwenda, turning to that language.
"Oh! wel din!" said the old man, relieved, and continuing in Welsh,
"'tisn't every lady can speak her native language nowadays."
"No. I am ashamed of my countrywomen, though I speak it very badly
myself," said Gwenda.
"There's my son Will now, indeed I'm afraid he will soon forget his
Welsh, he is speaking English so easy and smooth. Come here, Ann," the
old man called, as his daughter passed busily backwards and forwards
spreading the snowy cloth and laying the tea-table. "The lady can
speak Welsh!"
"Oh! well indeed, I am glad," said Ann; "Will is the only one of us who
speaks English quite easily."
"Oh! there's Gwilym," said her father.
"Yes, Gwilym speaks it quite correctly," said Ann, with pride, "but he
has a Welsh accent, which Will has not--from a little boy he studied
the English, and to speak it like the English."
"Will is evidently their centre of interest," thought Gwenda, "and how
little he seems to think of them!"
Here the little curly pate came nestling against her knee.
"Hello! rascal!" said the old man, "don't pull the lady's skirts like
that."
But Gwenda took the child on her lap.
"He is a lovely boy," she said, thus securing Ann's good opinion at
once.
The little arms wound round her neck, and before tea was over she had
won her way into all their hearts.
"I am sorry my sons are not here," said the old man; "they are good
boys, both of them, and would like to speak to such a beautiful young
lady."
"Have you two sons, then?" asked Gwenda.
"Yes, yes. Will, my second son, is a clergyman. He is curate of
Llansidan, 'tis about forty miles from here; but Gethin, my eldest son,
is a sailor; indeed, I don't know where he is now, but I am longing for
him to come home, whatever; and Will does not come often to see me. He
is too busy, I suppose, and 'tis very far."
And Gwenda, sensitive and tender, heard a tremble in the old man's
voice, and detected the pain and bitterness of his speech.
"Young men," she said, "are so often taken up with their work at first,
that they forget their old home, but they generally come back to it,
and draw towards it as they grow older; for after all, there is nothing
like the old home, and I should think this must have been a nest of
comfort indeed."
"Well, I don't know. My two sons are gone over the nest, whatever; but
Ann is stopping with me, She is the home-bird."
Gwenda thought she had never enjoyed such a tea. The tea cakes so
light, the brown bread so delicious; and Ann, with her quiet manners,
made a perfect hostess; so that, when she rose to go, she was as
reluctant to leave the old farmhouse as her entertainers were to lose
her.
"Indeed, there's sorry I am you must go," said Ebben Owens. "Will you
come again some day?"
"I will," said Gwenda, waving them a last good-bye; and as she rode
down the dark lane beyond the farmyard she said to herself, "And I
_will_ some day, please God!"
Reaching the high road, she hurried down the hill to the valley below,
where Castell On lay nestled in the bend of the river. It was scarcely
visible in the darkening twilight, except here and there where a light
glimmered faintly. The course of the river was marked by a soft white
mist, and above it all, in the clear evening sky, hung the crescent
moon. The beauty of the scene before her reached Gwenda's heart, and
helped to fill her cup of happiness. Her visit to the farm had
strengthened her determination to turn her lover's heart back to his
old home. It was all plain before her now; she had a work to do, an
aim in life, not only to make her future husband happy, but to lead him
back into the path of duty, from which she clearly saw he had been
tempted to stray. There was no danger that she would take too harsh a
view of his fault, for her love for Will was strong and abiding. There
was little doubt that in that wonderful weaving of life's pattern,
which some people call "Fate" and some "Providence," Gwenda and Will
had been meant for each other.
When she reached home she found a letter awaiting her--a letter in the
square clear writing which she had learned to look for with happy
longing. She hastened to her room to read it. It bore good
tidings--first, that Will had acceded to Mr. Price's request to preach
at Castell On the following Sunday; secondly and chiefly, that the
living of Llanisderi had been offered him, and had been accepted.
"The church is close to my uncle's property, and as he has always
wished me to make my home at Isderi, he now proposes that we should be
married at once, and take his house off his hands, only letting him
live on with us, which I think neither you nor I will object to. There
is no regular vicarage, so this arrangement seems all that could be
desired. Does my darling agree?" etc., etc.
Of course "his darling" agreed, stipulating only that their marriage
should take place in London, for she thought this plan would obviate
the necessity for inviting her husband's relations to her wedding, and
still cause them no pain.
Will was delighted with the suggestion, for he had not been without
some secret twinges of compunction at the idea of being married at
Castell On, and still having none of his people at the wedding. That,
of course, in his own and his uncle's opinion was quite out of the
question; and so the matter was settled.
* * * * * *
One day there was great excitement at Garthowen.
"Well, Bendigedig!" [1] said Magw under her breath, as crossing the
farmyard she met Mr. Price the vicar making his way through the stubble
to the house-door, "well, Bendigedig! there's grand we are getting.
Day before yesterday a lady on horseback, to-day Price the vicare
coming to see the mishteer! Well, well! Oh, yes, sare," she said
aloud, in answer to the vicar's inquiry, "he's there somewhere, or he
was there when I was there just now, but if he is not there he must be
somewhere else. Ann will find him."
And she jerked her thumb towards the house as Mr. Price continued his
way laughing.
"I am come again," said the genial vicar, shaking hands with Ebben
Owens, whom he found deeply studying the almanac, "I am come to
congratulate you on your son's good fortune. I hear he has been given
the living of Llanisderi, and I think he will fill it very well. You
are a fortunate man to have so promising a son and such an influential
brother, and I expect you will be still better pleased with the rest of
my news. He is going to preach at Castell On next Sunday."
Ebben Owens gasped for breath.
"Will!" he said, "my son Will? Oh! yes, he is a good boy, indeed, and
is he going to preach here on Sunday? Well, well, 'twill be a grand
day for me!"
"Yes," said Mr. Price, "I hear he is a splendid preacher, and I thought
'twas a pity his old friends in this neighbourhood should not hear him,
so I asked him, and he has agreed to come. You must all come in and
hear him--you too, Mrs. Morris, and your husband."
"My husband," said Ann, drawing herself up a little, "will have his own
services to attend to; but on such an occasion I will be there
certainly."
"Well, you must all dine with me," said the hospitable vicar.
"No, no, sir," said Ebben Owens, "I'll take the car, and we'll bring
Will back here to dinner. We'll have a goose, Ann, and a leg of mutton
and tongue."
"Yes," said Ann, smiling, "Magw will see to them while we are at
church."
Mr. Price stayed to tea this time, and satisfied the old man's heart by
his praises of his son. On his departure Ebben Owens sat down at once
to indite a letter to Will, informing him of the great happiness it had
given him to hear of his intention to preach at Castell On.
"Of course, my boy," he went on to say in his homely, rugged Welsh, "we
will be there to hear you, and I will drive you home in the car, and we
will have the fattest goose for dinner, and the best bedroom will be
ready for you. These few lines from
"Your delighted and loving father,
"EBBEN OWENS,
"Garthowen."
Will crushed the letter with a sigh when he had read it, and threw it
into the fire, and the old Garthowen pucker on his forehead was only
chased away by the perusal of a letter from Gwenda, whose contents we
will not dare to pry into.
Never were there such preparations for attending a service, as were
made at Garthowen before the next Sunday morning. Never had Bowler's
harness received such a polish, every buckle shone like burnished gold.
Ebben Owens had brushed his greatcoat a dozen times, and laid it on the
parlour table in readiness, and had drawn his sleeve every day over the
chimney-pot hat which he had bought for the occasion.
When the auspicious morning arrived Ann arrayed herself in her black
silk, with a bonnet and cape of town fashion; and in the sunny frosty
morning they set off to Castell On, full of gratified pride and
pleasant anticipations.
Leaving the car at a small inn near the church, they entered and took
their places modestly in the background. No one but he who reads the
secrets of all hearts knew what a tumult of feelings surged through the
breast of that rugged, bent figure as Will passed up the aisle, looking
handsomer than ever in his clerical garb. Thankfulness, pride, love, a
longing for closer communion with his son, were all in that throbbing
heart, but underneath and permeating all was the mysterious gnawing
pain that had lately cast its shadow over the old man's life.
During the service both he and Ann were much perplexed by the
difficulty of finding their places in the prayer-book, and they were
greatly relieved when at last it was over and the sermon commenced.
Mr. Price had not been misinformed. Will was certainly an eloquent
preacher, if not a born orator, and possessed that peculiar gift known
in Wales as "hwyl"--a sudden ecstatic inspiration, which carries the
speaker away on its wings, supplying him with burning words of
eloquence, which in his calmer and normal state he could never have
chosen for himself. Will controlled this feeling, not allowing it to
carry him to that degree of excitement to which some Welsh preachers
abandon themselves; on the contrary, when he felt most, he lowered his
voice, and kept a firm rein upon his eloquence. His command of
English, too, surprised his hearers, and Dr. Owen, himself a popular
preacher, confessed he had never possessed such an easy flow of that
language. As for Ebben Owens himself, as the sermon proceeded,
although he understood but little English, not a word, nor a phrase,
nor an inflection of the beloved voice escaped his attention; and as he
bent his head at the benediction tears of thankfulness, pride, and joy
filled his eyes. But he dried them hastily with his bran new silk
handkerchief, and followed Ann out of the church with the first of the
congregation.
"We'll wait with the car," he said, "at the top of the lane. We won't
push ourselves on to him at the church door when all the gentry are
speaking to him."
And Ann sat in the car with the reins in her hand, while the
congregation filed past, many of them turning aside to congratulate
warmly the father and sister of such a preacher. One by one the people
passed on, two or three carriages rolled by, and still Will had not
appeared.
"Here he is, I think," said Ebben Owens, as two gentlemen walked slowly
up the lane, and watching them, he scarcely caught sight of a carriage
that drove quickly by. But a glance was enough as it turned round the
corner into the street. In it sat Will, accompanied by Dr. Owen,
Colonel Vaughan, and his niece.
"Was that Will?" said Ann, looking round.
"Yes," said her father faintly, looking about him in a dazed, confused
manner. He put his hand to his head and turned very pale.
Ann was out of the car in a moment, flinging the reins to the stable
boy who stood at Bowler's head.
"Come, father anwl!" she said, supporting the old man's tottering
steps, for he would have fallen had she not passed her strong arm round
him. "Come, we'll go home. You will be better once we are out of the
town," and with great difficulty she got him into the car. "Cheer up,
father bâch," she said, trying to speak cheerfully, though her own
voice trembled, and her eyes were full of tears. "No doubt he meant to
come, or he would have written, but I'm thinking they pressed him so
much that he couldn't refuse."
"Yes, yes," said the old man in a weak voice; "no doubt, no doubt!
_'tis all right_, Ann; 'tis the hand of God."
Ann thought he was wandering a little, and tried to turn his thoughts
by speaking of the sermon.
"'Twas a beautiful sermon, father, I have never heard a better, not
even from Jones Bryn y groes."
"Yes, I should think 'twas a good sermon, though I couldn't understand
the English well; only the text 'twas coming in very often 'Lord, try
me and see if there be any wicked way in me,'" and he repeated several
times as he drove home "'any wicked way in me.' Yes, yes, 'tis all
right!"
When they reached home without Will, Gwilym Morris seemed to understand
at once what had happened, and he helped the old man out of the car
with a pat on his back and a cheery greeting.
"Well, there now! didn't I tell you how it would be? Will had so many
invitations he could not come back with you. There was Captain Lewis
Bryneiron said, 'You must come and dine with me!' and Colonel Vaughan
Nantmyny said, 'He must come with me!' and be bound Sir John Hughes
wanted him to go to Plâsdû; so, poor fellow, he _had_ to go, and we've
got to eat our splendid dinner ourselves! Come along; such a goose you
never saw!"
Ebben Owens said nothing, as he walked into the house, stooping more
than usual, and looking ten years older.
There was dire disappointment in the kitchen, too, when the dinner came
out scarcely tasted.
It is not to be supposed that by such observant eyes as Gwenda's, the
Garthowen car, with the waiting Ann and the old man hovering about, had
escaped unnoticed. Nay! To her quick perception the whole event
revealed itself in a flash of intuition. They were waiting there for
Will. He had disappointed and wounded his old father, but at the same
moment she saw that the slight had been unintentional; for as the
carriage dashed by the waiting car, she saw in Will's face a look of
surprise and distress, a hurried search in his pocket, and an unwelcome
discovery of a letter addressed and stamped--but, alas! unposted. The
pathetic incident troubled her not a little. An English girl would
probably have spoken out at once with the splendid honesty
characteristic of her nation, but Gwenda, being a thorough Welshwoman,
acted differently. With what detractors of the Celtic character would
probably call "craftiness," but what we prefer to call "tact and
tenderness," she determined not to ruffle the existing happy state of
affairs by risking a misunderstanding with her lover, but would rather
wait until, as a wife, she could bring the whole influence of her own
honest nature to bear upon this weak trait in his character.
A few days later the announcement of his approaching marriage reached
Garthowen, in a letter from Will himself, enclosing the unposted
missive, which he had discovered in his pocket as he drove to Nantmyny
on the previous Sunday.
It pacified the old man somewhat, but nothing availed to lift the cloud
which had fallen upon his life; and the intimation of the near approach
of his son's marriage with "a lady" coming upon him as it did
unexpectedly, was the climax of his depression of spirits. He sat in
the chimney-corner and brooded, repeating to himself occasionally in a
low voice:
"Gone! gone! Both my boys gone from me for ever!"
Ann and Gwilym's arguments were quite unheeded. Morva's sympathy alone
seemed to have any consoling effect upon him. She would kneel beside
him with her elbows on his knees, looking up into his face, and with
make-believe cheerfulness would reason with a woman's inconsequence,
fearlessly deducing results from causes which had no existence.
"'Tis as plain as the sun in the sky, 'n'wncwl Ebben bâch! Gethin is
only gone on another voyage, and so will certainly be back here before
long. Well, you see he _must_ come, because he wouldn't like to see
his old father breaking his heart--not he! We know him too well. And
then there's his best clothes in the box upstairs! And there's the
corn growing so fast, he will surely be here for the harvest."
She knew herself it was all nonsense, realising it sometimes with a
sudden sad wistfulness; but she quickly returned to her argument again.
"Look at me now, 'n'wncwl Ebben!--Morva Lloyd, whom you saved from the
waves! Would I tell you anything that was not true? Of course, I
wouldn't indeed! indeed! and I'm sure he'll come soon. You may take my
word for it they will both come back very soon. I feel it in my heart,
and mother says so too."
"Does she?" said the old man, with a little show of interest. "Does
Sara say so?"
"Yes," said Morva; "she says she is sure of it."
"Perhaps indeed! I hope she is right, whatever!" And he would lay his
hands on Morva's and Tudor's heads, both of whom leant upon his knees
and looked lovingly into his face.
[1] "Blessed be!"