CHAPTER IV

HOW SHE SANG GRANDFATHER TO SLEEP

GRANDFATHER began to fail. He complained of no pain or distress; but

his stately figure seemed to shrink, and his head that he used to hold

so high was now bowed on his breast, and he began to creep and shuffle

in his walk. Widow Peace said the change had begun when he came back

from the vain search for his graceless son, and I think it was true.

“He won’t more than last out the winter,” said Mrs. Peace, “if he does

that. The Merions don’t run much above seventy.”

“Don’t, mother!” said Anne.

“Don’ting won’t stop the course of nature,” said her mother, “nor yet

is it proper you should say ‘Don’t’ to me, Anne Peace.”

“I beg your pardon, mother; I meant no harm.”

“No more you did, daughter. You may hand me the tape measure. Anne, if

you can tell me how to cut this dress so as to make Mis’ Broadback look

like anything besides Behemoth in the Bible I shall be obliged to you.”

“You’re real funny, mother!” said Anne, who never quite understood her

parent.

“Fun keeps the fiddle going!” said Mrs. Peace. “You may cut them gores

if you’re a mind to, Anne. There’s Rachel and Manuel goin’ off again.

S’pose they’re goin’ to make a match of it?”

“Oh, mother!” said little Anne.

“‘Oh,’ said the owl, and set up a hootin’,

But Jabez kept still when he done the shootin’.”

What does Grandmother do these days? I haven’t seen her go out of the

gate for a week and more. You were over this morning, wasn’t you?”

“Yes,” said Anne. “Oh, mother, she just sits by Grandfather all the

time—when her work is done, that’s to say; Grandmother never slights

anything; sits by him all day, reading to him when he’s awake, or

talking, or singing those little songs he likes; and when he drops off

asleep she just reaches for her sewing and sits and waits till he wakes

up. And she’s growing so white and thin—there! it just makes me ache

to see her. I said to her ‘Grandmother,’ I said, ‘when he drops off

asleep that way, you’d ought to slip out into the garden for a mouthful

of air, even if you don’t go no further. Rachel can stay round,’ I

said, ‘case he should want anything,’ I said. But she just shook her

head. ‘No, Anne!’ she says. ‘I must be here,’ she says. ‘He has been so

good to me; so good to me; he must always find me here when he wants

me.’

“And sure enough, mother, directly he woke up, before he opened his

eyes he says ‘You here, Grandmother?’ kinder restless like, and she

says ‘Yes, Grandfather, right here!’ and laid her hand on his and began

to sing, and he smiled real happy and contented, said he didn’t want

anything except just to know that she was there. But, mother, ’tis a

sweet pretty sight now, to see them two together. Of course he’s an

old man and she’s a young girl, but yet—well, they aren’t like other

folks, neither one of them. What makes you look like that, mother?”

“Nobody ever was like other folks that ever I heard of,” said Widow

Peace rather grimly. “Now you be quiet, Anne Peace. Here comes Rachel.”

Rachel Merion came flying in, splendid in her scarlet dress. “How do,

Mis’ Peace?” she said. “Anne, will you lend me that mantilla pattern?

I want to make one out of some of that black lace Grandmother Willard

had. Will you, Anne? hurry up, I can’t wait.”

Mrs. Peace looked at her with mild severity. “Rachel,” she said; “sit

down a spell. I want to speak to you.”

“Oh, I can’t, Mis’ Peace!” said Rachel. “Manuel’s waiting for me

outside.”

“Manuel _can_ wait,” said Mrs. Peace. “It’ll do him good. Sit down,

Rachel!”

“I’d full as lives stand, thank you,” said Rachel sullenly.

“I asked you to sit down,” said Mrs. Peace quietly; and Rachel sat down

with a flounce on the edge of a chair, and listened with lowering brows.

“I want to speak to you about Grandmother,” said the little widow. “She

isn’t well; Anne sees it, and I see it. She’s outdoing her strength,

caring for Grandfather all day long, and I think you’d ought to help

her more than what you do.”

Rachel’s eyes flashed under their black brows.

“She wanted him,” she said, “and she got him; now let her see to him. I

don’t feel no call to take care of Grandfather; he isn’t my husband.”

Anne’s soft eyes glowed with indignation. She was about to speak, her

mother motioned her to silence. “Rachel Merion,” she said. “You’d ought

to be slapped, and I’ve a good part of a mind to do it. You’re careless

and shiftless, and heathen; and you’ll neither do good nor get it in

this world till you get a human heart in your bosom. Grandmother is

worth twenty of you, and I pay her no compliment either in saying it;

it shows what she is, that she has put up with your actions so long.

I wouldn’t have, not a single week. I’d have drove you out with a

broomstick, Rachel, and give you time to learn manners before I let you

in again. There! now I’ve said my say, and you can go.”

As Anne said, it was a pretty sight there, in the Merion kitchen. The

good old man sat in his great armchair, dozing or dreaming the hours

away, less and less inclined to stir as the weeks went on; and always

beside him was the slight figure in the clear print dress, watching,

waiting, tending; yes, it was pretty enough.

“Sing, Grandmother!” he would say now and then; and Grandmother would

sing in her low sweet voice, like a flute:

“Sweet sleep to fold me,

Sweet dreams to hold me;

Listen, oh! listen!

This the angels told me.

Fair grow the trees there,

Soft blows the breeze there,

Golden ways, golden days,

When will ye enfold me?”

Or that quaint little old song that he specially liked:

“As I went walking, walking,

I heard St. Michael talking,

He spoke to sweet St. Gabriel,

The one who loves my soul so well,

‘Oh, brother, tell me here,

Why hold that soul so dear?’

‘Because, alas, since e’er ‘twas born,

I feel the piercing of its thorn.’”

Or it would be the song of the river, and that she loved to sing,

because Grandfather would fall asleep to the soft lulling time of it:

“Flow, flow, flow down river,

Carry me down to the sea!

Ropes of silk and a cedar paddle,

For to set my spirit free.

Roll, roll, rolling billow;

Smooth, smooth my sleepy pillow:

Silver sails and a cedar paddle,

For to set my spirit free!

“Long, long work and weeping,

Trying for to do my best:

Soon, soon, time for sleeping;

Cover me up to rest!

Roll, roll, rolling billow,

Smooth, smooth my sleepy pillow,

Golden masts and a cedar paddle,

For to set my spirit free!”

One day she was singing this, softer and softer, till she thought

Grandfather was fast asleep. Lower and lower sank the lulling voice,

till at length it died away in a sigh. Then she sat silent, looking

at him; at the good white head, the broad forehead, with its strong

lines of toil and thought, all the kind face that she knew and loved

well now. She sighed again, not knowing that she did; and at that

Grandfather opened his eyes without stirring and looked at her—oh, so

kindly!

“Little Grandmother,” he said. “You know I am going soon?”

“Yes, Grandfather!” said she.

“You have been a good, good child,” said Grandfather; “a good and

faithful child, and when I go my blessing stays with you. You are

young, and I want you to be happy. Perhaps you will like to marry

Manuel, my dear?”

Grandmother lifted her clear eyes to his.

“Yes, Grandfather!” she said.

“He is not good enough for you,” said Grandfather, “but—well! well!

you are both young, both young, and youth is a great thing. I was young

myself—a long, long time ago, my dear.” He was silent.

Grandmother knelt down beside him, and took his hand in her own two,

stroking it and singing softly.

“Silver sails and a cedar paddle,

For to set my spirit free.”

Presently he looked up, and spoke hurriedly, in a strange, confused

voice.

“Mary!” he said. “Are you there?”

Now Mary was the name of the wife of his youth. Grandmother was silent.

“Are you there, Mary?” asked the old man impatiently. “‘Tis so dark I

can’t see you.”

“Yes, I am here!” said Grandmother.

“‘Tis time to light up!” said Grandfather. “We mustn’t sit here in the

dark like old folks, Mary. Let me get up and light the lamps.”

The afternoon light fell clear on his face with its open sightless

eyes, and on the angel face turned up to it in faithful love.

“Wait just a little, John,” said Grandmother. “I—I love the twilight;

’tis restful. Let—let me rest a bit before we light up, won’t you?”

“Surely, Mary; surely, my dear. We’ll rest together then; I—I am tired

too, I—think.”

There was a long silence. The light was growing softer, fainter; the

old clock ticked steadily; a coal tinkled from the fire.

“Mary—you are there?”

“Yes, dear!”

“Song—the sleepy song; I think I shall sleep.”

Hush! rest, dear white head, on my breast; close, poor eyes that cannot

see the light. Rest, rest, in the quiet twilight!

“Roll, roll, rolling billow,

Smooth, smooth my sleepy pillow,

Golden mast and a cedar paddle,

For to set my spirit free!”

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