Matilda went to the door and knocked. She heard nothing, and was
obliged to knock again. Then the door opened, and David stood before
her. What to say to him Matilda had not just determined, and while she
hesitated he stepped back, mutely inviting her to enter. Matilda went
in and he closed the door. She was afraid to speak when she saw his
face, it was so pale and disturbed. But he prevented her.
"I have found it out, Matilda," he said. "It's all true."
Matilda started and looked up at him to see what he meant.
"I know it now," he said. "He _is_ the Messiah! he is my Messiah; he is
my King But--my people, my people!--"
Breaking off abruptly with this cry, David sat down at a little table
where he had been sitting,--for his Bible was open upon it,--and put
his head down in his hands and burst into tears. And Matilda had never
seen anybody weep as she saw him then; nor in her childishness had
supposed that a boy could; the little deal table shook under the
strength of his sobs. Matilda was bewildered and half frightened; she
stepped back into the gallery, meaning to summon Mr. Richmond; but Mr.
Richmond was not there; and she went back again, and stood, much
distressed, waiting until this paroxysm of pain should have passed by.
It lasted some time. Probably David had not shed a tear until then, and
speaking to her had broken down the barrier. Matilda did not know what
to do. At last she put her hand timidly among the thick dark curls
which lay lower than she had ever seen them before, and spoke.
"Dear David! don't,--please don't do so!"
He heard and heeded the anxious little voice, for the sobs lessened,
and presently he raised himself up and as it were shook them off. But
Matilda thought he looked very sad yet. She waited silently.
"You see, Matilda," he said, "I understand it all now. And _they_
don't!"
"Who don't, David?"
"My people," he said sadly. "I see it all now. They did not know
him--they did not know him! And so they lost him. You know what he
said,--the kingdom is 'taken from them, and given to another nation,
bringing forth the fruits thereof.' So they are scattered abroad on the
face of the whole earth. And still they don't know him!"
"But you do, David?" said Matilda earnestly.
"Tilly, I wish my life was longer, to use it for him. I wish my hands
were stronger, to do his service! But all I am is his, every bit of it,
and all I have; from this day for ever."
The boy stood, with a kind of sad joyfulness, very quiet, with folded
hands, speaking hardly as it seemed to Matilda, but perhaps to angels
and the Lord himself.
"Won't you come and tell Mr. Richmond?"
"Certainly!" he said, starting from his attitude.
"When we heard nothing of you for ever so long, I grew troubled; I
didn't know what had become of you; and then Mr. Richmond proposed that
we should come here and look after you. You'll come to the parsonage
to-night, David? you know we are all going away to-morrow morning."
"I'll be ready in two minutes."
Matilda waited while he washed his face and brushed his hair; then they
went downstairs and found Mr. Richmond. He stretched out his hand to
David, which the boy took with a flitting change of colour that told of
some difficulty of self-command. However in a moment his words were
firm.
"I have found my Messiah, sir, where you bade me look for him. He is
_my_ Messiah, and my King, and I am his servant. I wish I could be his
servant twenty times over!"
"Why?"
"One life is too little to give."
"You may serve him to the ages of the ages. Service shall not end with
_this_ life, do you think so?"
Then David lifted up his dark eyes and smiled. Matilda had always known
him a very grave boy; perhaps partly for that reason this smile seemed
to her like a rift of light between clouds, so sweet and bright. It
filled Matilda with so much awe that she did not open her lips all the
way to the parsonage. Nor did Mr. Richmond say much.
They were in danger of being a silent party at tea, too; only I think
the minister exerted himself to prevent it. Matilda had no words for
anything, and indeed could hardly eat her supper; as often as she
dared, she stole a look at David. For he did not look at all like
himself. He was grave; to be sure that was like him; only now it was a
new sort of high, sweet gravity, even gentle and humble in its seeming;
and if he was silent, it was not that he was not ready and willing to
speak when there was occasion. But Matilda guessed he had too much to
think of to want to talk much. Norton was perhaps a little curious as
to what there was between his three companions; and Miss Redwood was
seldom free with her tongue in the minister's presence. Mr. Richmond,
as I said, had to exert himself, or the silence of the tea-table would
have been too marked.
They all went to church together. Matilda caught a look of extreme
surprise on Norton's face when he saw that David was one of the party;
but there was no time for explanations then. Little Matilda thought she
had hardly ever been so happy in her life. In the old place, Mr.
Richmond preaching, and David and Norton beside her, one of them there
in heart as well as in person. The singing was sweet, and the prayers
were happy.
Coming back from church, Matilda and Norton fell a little behind the
others.
"What's come over David Bartholomew?" Norton whispered. "Politeness?"
"O no, Norton; not politeness. He will tell you himself."
"Davy's strong on politeness," said Norton. "I didn't know but it was
that. Politeness took _me;_ but of course, to take Davy, it would have
to be a most extraordinary and uncommon sort of politeness. I can
hardly believe my eyes yet."
"You always said Mr. Richmond was a brick, Norton," said Matilda.
"Yes, but you never heard me say David Bartholomew was another, did
you?"
"Well, but he _is_, Norton."
"He _is!_ Phew! that's news."
They came to the parsonage door and Matilda could not reply. Going in,
Mr. Richmond said to them that he had something to talk with David
about, and that they must not sit up if they were tired. So he and
David turned into the study, and Norton and Matilda went on into the
dining-room, where Miss Redwood was sitting with her Bible. Then
David's head was put into the room after them. "Tell Norton for me,
please, Matilda," he said; and went back.
"Tell me what?" said Norton.
Matilda did not know how to begin.
"Well, you've got home," remarked the housekeeper closing her book.
"Was there many out?"
"Would have been more if you hadn't staid at home, Miss Redwood,"
Norton replied.
"When you're as old as I am, my young gentleman, you'll know that folks
don't do things without reasons."
"Ah!" said Norton. "But are they always good reasons?"
"That's their own look out," said the housekeeper. "What did you go to
church for this evening, for instance?"
"I've just been telling my sister," said Norton. "But what, in the name
of Rabbi Solomon, and all the Rabbis, ever took David Bartholomew
there?"
"Ain't he a Jew?" said the housekeeper.
"Of course he is. And he don't love Christians, I can tell you, except
one here and there."
"He does now," said Matilda in a low voice.
"What?" said Norton.
"He loves Christians now, Norton. And he loves Jesus. He is a Christian
himself."
"David Bartholomew a Christian!" exclaimed Norton.
Matilda nodded. Her eyes were full and her lips were trembling.
"I _thought_ there was something to pay," said the good housekeeper,
whose eyes watered for company. But Norton was transfixed with
astonishment.
"Pink, what do you mean?"
"It's true, Norton," said Matilda nodding again.
"What's made him?"
"He has been studying the Bible and the New Testament this long while.
Now, he says, he knows."
"And he means it!" said the housekeeper. "I can tell by the look of
him."
"Means what?"
"He means what he says--whatever that is."
"But you said, you were thinking, something in particular, Miss
Redwood."
"Yes; just what he was thinking," said the housekeeper. "He'll never be
one o' those Christians that stand on one leg at a time; that's what I
mean. Whoever wants to walk alongside of him, 'll have to step up to
the mark."
Norton looked at her, in somewhat disdainful want of comprehension, and
then turned to Matilda again.
"Pink, I don't believe a word of it!"
"Why, Norton, I heard him myself, all that he said."
"Mind, he may have found out that his famous old uncles of rabbis don't
know anything; _that's_ very likely; but I don't believe David
Bartholomew has given up being a Jew."
"Why he can't do that, Norton; he's born so; but he is a Christian too."
"A man can't be a Christian and a Jew too," said Norton.
"Miss Redwood, can't he?"
"I reckon it's difficult," said the good housekeeper; "and you may
depend he's found that out; but he's found it's possible too. Why what
'ud become of all the Jewish nation if it warn't possible?"
"What should become of them?" Norton asked scornfully.
"Well, there's wonderful things about the Jews in the Bible," said the
housekeeper rising; "if the minister was here he'd tell you. And there
was an old promise to Abraham, that if I was you I wouldn't run
against."
"Run against a promise to Abraham!" said Norton.
"Well, yes," said the housekeeper, setting her chair back at the wall
in its place. "I wouldn't like to run against none o' the Lord's words,
and this is one of 'em. 'I will bless them that bless thee, and curse
him that curseth thee.'"
The housekeeper went off and left Matilda and Norton looking at each
other. Norton wore a vexed face.
"This is all trumpery," he said. "It will blow away like smoke."
"No it won't, Norton," said Matilda. "I hope not."
"And how long have you and David been holding secret meetings together
to talk about this?"
"I don't know, Norton. But we had better go to bed, I suppose; for Miss
Redwood will call us very early to have breakfast before the omnibus
comes for us."
"Nonsense to have breakfast!" said Norton. "We shall be home time
enough."
"But then you and Davy will have to rush right off to school. Good
night."
"Good night"--said Norton, in an uncomfortable tone. And they went up
to their rooms, leaving David and Mr. Richmond still shut up in the
study.
It was early, dawn just breaking, when the summons came for them to get
up; the dawn of a fair spring morning. What a visit it had been!
Matilda thought to herself, as she dressed and put up her things in her
little hand bag. And as the first sunbeams were glinting on the top of
the old tower, she ran down to breakfast. Mr. Richmond gave her a very
warm greeting, in his quiet way. So did David. He looked bright and
well, Matilda saw at a glance. Norton had not by any means got over his
discomfiture. He seemed embarrassed as well as uneasy; watched David
with furtive glances, and eat his breakfast in silence. Mr. Richmond
and Matilda were the talkers.
"Have you had any more difficulties about boots?" he asked in the
course of the conversation. Matilda looked at him in bewilderment.
"You wrote me some time ago, on the subject of a deep question that had
to do with boots."
Matilda coloured and laughed, while Norton remarked that boots were a
queer subject for deep questions to have to do with.
"Deep questions can spring out of anything--out of your bread and
butter," said Mr. Richmond. "How is it, Tilly, about the matter of
boots?"
"I have hardly thought about it, Mr. Richmond, this long while."
"How is that?"
"I have had so much else to think of, I believe."
"Studies?"
"No, sir; my studies have been a good deal broken off by my being sick."
"What then? Can you tell me?"
Matilda gave briefly the history of her connexion with Sarah Staples.
She meant to give it briefly; but the story was too sweet in the
telling; it rather grew long. Yet she did by no means put herself or
her own doings in the foreground; that place was given as much as
possible to Mr. Wharncliffe and David and the poor family themselves.
The minister and the housekeeper were both very much interested.
"Yes," said the former, in conclusion, "I understand, and am satisfied.
I see that now boots are boots; and nothing more."
Matilda laughed, for the boys looked mystified.
"Will you tell me, sir," inquired Norton, "how deep questions could
spring out of my bread and butter?"
The minister could have smiled at the boy's air, which had much the
effect of seeming to put a "poser" to him; but he controlled himself
and answered quite gravely.
"Shall we consider them together? or apart?"
"Apart, if you please."
"Well--Bread, you know, daily bread, stands for the matters which
support life, in all variety. This question arises.--Who gives this
daily bread to you, and gives you power to eat it? And what use does He
wish to make of you, that he should give you both?"
Norton was silent.
"You are not prepared with an answer?" said the minister.
"I never thought of the questions before, sir. The second one sounds to
me very strange."
"Does it? Do you think the Lord had no purpose to serve, in putting you
here and nourishing you up to strength and power?"
"That's for the bread," said Norton after a pause, but not rudely;
lifting his eyes to the minister as he spoke. "You were going to
consider the bread _and butter_."
"I think you do not seem disposed to 'consider' anything," said Mr.
Richmond smiling; "but, however, I will hope the time of consideration
may come. Now for deep question Number three, or Number four,--You have
butter to your bread, and plenty of it; what is your duty towards
others who have no butter, and others still who have no bread?"
"There's the omnibus, Mr. Richmond," said the housekeeper. And there
was no more talk. Only a hurried putting on of hats and seizing of hand
bags; eager, warm, hearty grasping of hands in good bye; and then the
three travellers were in the omnibus and rolling along the parsonage
lane and out at the gate.
What a visit it had been! Matilda was so full of content that she was
still. Not a very noisy child at any time, she was now as quiet as a
mouse, just with content. Three days of sweet pleasure, three days of
country skies and greening grass and free sunshine; three nights and
mornings of parsonage delights. And more than that; more than all she
had hoped for; David going home with _his_ deep questions solved and
his calls of duty and privilege met. What would they think at home? and
how would they find out about it? "He was one of those lost pieces of
silver," thought Matilda, smiling to herself; "and Jesus has found him!"
"What's so amusing?" inquired Norton. He was rather in a disordered
state of mind, and certainly seemed to see nothing amusing himself.
Matilda looked up, still smiling, though her eyes were dewy, and from
him glanced at David. Their eyes met. His smile answered hers, quite
recognizing its meaning. Norton whistled. There was no other passenger
in the omnibus; and he whistled half way to the station.
In the cars the same content possessed Matilda. It was still early
morning; she thought the river had never looked so pretty as in the
crisp light of that hour; nor the opposite hills so lovely as under
those wreaths of bright vapour which lay along the hillsides; nor ever
was there a blue sky more smiling. She glanced at her two companions.
Norton was not smiling by any means; his discomposure had not gone off,
whatever it might mean; and he eyed David now and then with a jealous,
doubtful expression. David was grave enough, but not as usual. Matilda
looked again and again, to see how different the thoughtful bright calm
of his face was from the old dark gloom that used to be there; and then
her eyes turned to the sunny river and sky and hills, with a glad
feeling of the harmony between things outward and inward. Before long,
David had taken out a little book and was deep in the study of it;
which he never interrupted till they reached Poughkeepsie. There Norton
rushed out, to get something to eat, he said; though Matilda guessed it
was rather to get rid of himself for a minute. Many other people left
the car on the same errand; and David looked up from his book and came
over to Matilda.
"Well," said he, "how are you getting along?"
"Nicely. I am so happy, David!"
"So am I," said he gravely. "All the world is new, and it seems to me I
see the sun shine for the first time."
"See the sun shine?" repeated Matilda doubtfully.
"Yes," said he smiling.
"But you don't look at it, David. You are reading all the while."
"I see it, though. Now I know what the prophet Malachi meant by the sun
of righteousness. Do you remember, Matilda? I guess you don't; but I
know the words.
'And risen to you, ye who fear my name,
Hath the sun of righteousness and healing in its wings.'
I feel that now. I never could understand it before."
"There are a great many things that we cannot understand till we feel
them,--are there not, David?"
"I suppose so," he said thoughtfully.
Their talk stopped there; and presently the people who had gone out
came pouring back. Norton brought a great piece of sponge-cake to
Matilda.
"Thank you, Norton, but I'm not hungry, I've just had breakfast a few
minutes ago."
"You hadn't time to eat."
"Yes, I had. You spent your time talking, I suppose; you and Mr.
Richmond; that's the reason you are hungry."
Norton sat down and eat his sponge-cake; and spoke no more till the
train got in. The carriage was in waiting; took the two boys
immediately to school, and carried Matilda and the bags home.
She wondered all day how and when David's disclosure would be made, and
how it would be taken at home. She had a good many questions to answer
herself, even Judy seeming curious to know what they had been doing and
how they had spent the time, and why they had not come home Saturday;
especially what David had done with himself and why he had taken it
into his head to go at all. Matilda declined to enter into any
discussion of David's affairs, and left him to speak for himself. But
much she wondered how he would, and whether he would, and when he would.
It happened that evening that there was no company, and the family were
all gathered together in the little reception room; talking over the
children's reports and discussing plans for the coming summer.
Matilda's heart began to beat; for she saw that David was thoughtfully
still, and that Norton, in a corner, only talked by jerks, as it were,
and sat turning over and over one of his school-books, with an odd air
of expectancy. Yes, certainly he knew that David was going to speak,
and was waiting for it. Matilda could think of nothing else; her talk
all came to an end.
"Norton hasn't much to say to-night," Mrs. Bartholomew remarked. "No
more than if he were my boy."
"I haven't anything to talk about," said Norton, looking at nothing but
his book.
"Matilda has lost her tongue too," said Judy.
"She never had such a one as yours," replied her grandmother; "you must
remember that. It isn't such a loss in the house."
Judy seemed inclined to pout at this; but then her attention was turned
to her brother, who began rather suddenly.
"May I speak, grandmamma?"
"I shall be very happy to hear," said Mrs. Lloyd smiling.
"I am not so sure of that," said David; "at least, not of you all;
though I really have something to say."
All eyes turned to David. Norton looked up at him from under his brows,
with a strange expression of curiosity and displeasure. Matilda only
looked away. David hesitated, then went on very calmly and gently.
"You know, mother and grandmother, that I have been very strong in my
love for my own people, and very strong in my sympathies with them."
"Is it in the past tense?" asked Mrs. Lloyd.
"And very fixed in my prejudices against what was not Jewish; against
what in your beliefs was contrary to mine."
"We all know that," said his mother a little bitterly.
"Is _that_ in the past tense?" demanded Judy.
"I joined with my people in expecting the Messiah and hoping for him."
"Did you?" said his mother.
"I have changed," said David slowly. "I have been studying these things
for some time past; I have studied and studied; and now I know. Our
Messiah _has_ come; our people did not know him, and--they lost him. I
know now that Jesus of Nazareth is the Messiah."
A scream of startled rage from Judy broke in upon the closing
utterances of this speech. She prevented everybody else.
"You do not mean to say that, David Bartholomew!" she exclaimed,
jumping out of her chair and standing before him. "You don't mean it."
"Do I ever say what I do not mean, Judy?" he answered gravely.
"Say it again. Say you have left us and gone over to the Christians."
"Judy! are you not ashamed!" cried Mrs. Bartholomew. "What do you think
of your mother?"
"Nothing," said Judy. "I'm not talking of you, mamma. You are neither
one thing nor the other. You are nothing. _Have_ you gone over, David?"
"You know what I said," her brother answered. "I believe that Jesus of
Nazareth is the Messiah."
"The Christians' Messiah," said Judy scornfully.
"Theirs and ours," said David sorrowfully. "Messiah ben David, the King
of Israel."
"Take that!" said Judy, administering a slap on the cheek which was
heartily delivered. "You are a mean good-for-nothing, David
Bartholomew! and I wish your name was something else."
All the voices in the room cried out upon Judy except her brother's.
His colour changed, back and forth, but he was silent She stood in the
centre of the room like a little fury.
"Judy, Judy! Sit down!" said Mrs. Bartholomew. But it was doubtful if
Judy heard.
"What do you think your uncle Solomon and Rabbi Nathan will say to you,
you mean boy!" she cried. "I am going straight to tell them."
"I will tell them myself, Judy," said David.
"And what do you think they will say to you, hey? You deserve all
you'll get. Ugh! What is a Jew who isn't a Jew any longer?"
"I was going to tell you what I am," said David. "Grandmamma, I had not
finished what I had to say to you."
"Let him speak, Judy," said Mrs. Lloyd.
"If the rest is like the beginning, I don't want to hear it," said Judy.
"You need not hear it," said her mother. "Leave the room, then."
"I won't!" said Judy. "There is nobody here but me to make him ashamed."
"I wish something would make you ashamed," said her mother. "Judy
Bartholomew, hold your tongue. Go on, David."
"Mamma, you don't like all this stuff any better than I do."
"I choose to hear it out, though," said Mrs. Bartholomew. "Sit down and
be silent."
"I will--till I get something else to talk about," said Judy, sitting
down as requested. And all eyes turned once more upon David. He was
very quiet, outwardly: he had been quietly waiting.
"Grandmamma," he said with a slight smile, "I am as good a Jew as ever
I was"--("It's a lie," put in Judy;--"unless the rest was!")--"I am as
good a Jew as ever I was, and _better_. I had studied about the
Messiah, and knew about him, and knew that he was promised--the hope of
Israel, and the King of Israel. Now I know that he has come, and I know
him; and he isn't the Messiah that I am hoping for, but"--he hesitated
and smiled again,--"the Christ I am glad for; the Hope of Israel and
the King, and so my King and my Hope. I have given myself to him to be
his servant. I believe in him--I love him--and all that I am is his."
Possibly Judy was bewildered by this speech; perhaps she was astonished
into silence; at any rate she sat still and was quiet. Norton tossed
his book over and over. Matilda was in such a tumult of delight that
she could hardly contain herself, but she made a great effort and kept
it from observation. The ladies seemed somewhat in Judy's condition. At
last Mrs. Bartholomew spoke.
"By your last words, what do you mean, David?"
"Mamma," he said, "I meant to make them quite plain. I thought it was
right to tell you all. I am the servant of the Lord Jesus Christ."
"Well, so are we all," said his mother. "What do you mean to do, that
you proclaim it so publicly?"
"Nothing, mamma; only to follow my Master."
"Follow him how?"
"In his own way--obeying his words."
"But people that talk in that way often go into extremes, and do
ridiculous things--unlike all the world. I hope that is not what you
mean, David?"
"I don't know, mamma," said the boy gravely. "I will do ridiculous
things if He command me"--and again a flicker of a smile that came like
a flicker of light passed over his face. "The first thing I thought I
had to do was to tell you all; he says his servants must confess him;
and to-morrow I will go to my uncles." The smile had faded and he was
very grave then.
"And do you know what they will say to you?"
"I suppose I know," he answered slowly.
"Is this a very new thing, David Bartholomew?"
"No, mamma. The _finishing_ of it is new; it has been growing and
preparing for a long while."
"Like you!" said his mother discontentedly. "Think and think and say
nothing,--and then come out with your mind, when nobody can change it!"
"And it's all because of her!" Judy exclaimed, starting from her
silence and her seat together, and pointing to Matilda. "_She_ has made
the mischief. David would never have thought of these low ways, if
there had not been somebody to put it into his head. That's what you
get, aunt Zara, by your works."
"Hush!" said Mrs. Bartholomew sharply. "Matilda has nothing to do with
it."
"Hasn't she though?" Judy retorted. "Just ask her. Or ask this boy.
Mean little spy! coming into such a house as this to upset it!"
"Hold on, Judy," cried Norton; "you are going too fast."
"Keep yourself out of the mess!" retorted Judy with great sharpness;
"there's enough without you. I say, she is at the bottom of it all; and
I wish it was the bottom of the Red Sea with Pharaoh's chariots!"
"Judy, Judy!" said Mrs. Bartholomew, angry and half laughing--"hold
your tongue and don't be a fool."
"You've only one of that name among your children, mamma," said the
young lady. "Half's enough."
"What has Matilda done?" Mrs. Laval asked calmly.
"She has been doing ever since she came here," Judy answered.
"What _has_ bewitched you, David, though?" his mother inquired. "There
was nothing of all this when you went to the catechizing?"
"No, mamma. But the study about that time put me on thinking and asking
questions; nobody could answer my questions; not even our wise men;
until at last I began to ask--where I found the answer."
"Matilda?" said Mrs. Bartholomew.
"Matilda helped me a great deal."
"Didn't I say so?" exclaimed Judy.
"But it was her Bible that answered me--hers and my own."
"When did she help you?" Norton broke out from his corner where he had
been tossing his book. "You and she are not such particular friends,
that ever I knew."
"O but I think we are now, Norton," said Matilda.
"Yes," said David, with a smile. "And she has been _my_ friend for a
good while."
"Very well," said Norton, returning to his book, which he tossed over
and over with greater exactness than ever.
"I wash my hands of you, both of you," cried Judy. "You'll be a
religious poke--O mamma! to think that we should have anything
religious in _our_ family. And Matilda always was a poke. Whatever will
become of us, with two of them!"
"You have more to do with it than you think, Judy," said her brother.
"The way Matilda bore your persecutions was the first thing that made
me want to know about her religion."
"What persecutions?" Mrs. Bartholomew asked; but nobody seemed ready to
answer her, and she went on--"Judy, you are a fool. David might change
his opinions, surely, without being a poke. My son, you do not mean to
be different from what you have always been,--do you?"
David hesitated, and said, "I hope so, mother."
"Different--how?" she asked quickly.
"I am the King's servant, mamma," he answered with a certain
steadfastness which had much dignity about it.
"Well, what then? what does that mean?"
"Then of course I must do the King's commands, mamma."
"Didn't you always?"
David's answer was prevented by a fresh outburst of Judy's reproaches
and charges, which lasted till her brother took himself out of hearing;
then silence fell. Norton stopped the book exercise and looked about
him. Matilda's face he had seen by glimpses; he knew it was flushed and
anxious and glad at once. Mrs. Laval and her sister were grave, with
different styles of gravity; one thoughtful, the other vexed. Old Mrs.
Lloyd was in tears.