VII

I am in a warm part of the world where the sun is always vertical.

I should judge that I must be somewhere in the tropic of Capricorn.

Magnificent forests stretch away from the spot where I am lying, but

immediately before me is a grove of the wild date palm, while I myself

am luxuriating in the midst of gigantic grasses. I seem to be overcome

with deep drowsiness. Yet my mind is quick to such a degree that I am

able to contemplate an endless panorama that is unwinding before me.

My body is bare in the white sunlight, but my head is kept cool by the

lush green shade of the date palm. Let me watch that figure in the

panorama.

I observe that the figure is a male. He is seated at the trunk of a

tree on the edge of the forest. I set my eyes steadily upon him and

perceive that his jaw projects as it does in all brutes, his nose is

rudimentary, his hide is covered with silken hairs, his face partially

naked, and when he turns his back to me I can see that his buttocks

are callous. He is devouring fruit; but he is of a prying, inquisitive

nature and examines what he eats. His mate, overhead in the branches,

is likewise eating, and feeding their single offspring, but her meal

is upon cocoanuts, which she throws at other of her kind who draw near

to their tree.

When lo! of a sudden, I see the male figure try to raise himself off

all fours. He appears to find it most difficult to stand erect for more

than a moment, for his head is thrown forward, and he stands awkwardly

upon the sides of his two rear feet. He keeps, trying, trying, and

each time that I see him erect himself, he takes a look afar off,

and gradually from these attempts, lo and behold! his forehead rises

slowly, his jaw is receding, his eye develops, he can see his enemy at

a distance!

Who is this enemy? I scan the outer skirts of the forest and perceive

another male figure, fashioned like himself. Only this one approaches

on all fours, whereas his upright brother has already seen him and is

striving to prepare for his attack. I can see his front claws itch and

quiver with indecision, when, ha! one claw spreads out from the others

and the thumb is born! Now he is thinking. An idea is germinating!

His enemy is creeping slowly upon him, imagining himself unseen,

little knowing of his disadvantage of being upon all fours. With a

hideous yell he springs into view. But our upright brother is calmly

chattering. He has used that thumb--he has grasped a club! The enemy

is awe-stricken at that erect figure, which drives him to cover and

strikes him dead.

The mate in the tree screams with exultation, the offspring leaps to

her bosom, and both descend to embrace their upright spouse and father

in a perfect whirl of chattering. Inarticulate chattering, most unlike

speech, but still chattering--for Love was born.

And those other enemies, those tremendous enemies, various and of a

multitude of shapes, some as big as a mastodon--think of it!--he can

see them away in the distance in season to escape. He pats himself with

a sense of relief. He even kisses his wife.

Scenes shift before me; and there is a persistent blank in the

panorama. This tapestry of the fated past, vast and unknown, winds and

unwinds before me. Yet chaos on the screen is becoming more and more

definite in outline. Yes, praise be given, there is the figure, the

same upright figure, before me again. He is sitting on a rocky beach,

bordering the bank of a gurgling river. His club is beside him. It

is evidently late in the autumn, for the rock pile is covered with

dried leaves. A little animal that he has killed with his club, is

lying beside him. That off-member, the thumb, has grown strong on both

hands, and he is grabbing the smaller boulders with intense delight

and clashing them together. What? A spark flew to the elemental tinder

and the dead leaves are all ablaze. The figure became so frightened at

this sight and so insane in his actions that he fell into the river.

But by the time he scrambled ashore, the blaze had spent its force,

and he noticed that where he shook himself, the water extinguished the

fire. Gracious! What a relief to be without those biting colors once

more. What _did_ cause that trouble? He sits upon his haunches and

ponders until his mind hurts. He is hungry. Where is the animal that he

killed? He looks over at the rock pile with trepidation. Yes, there is

the little carcass, but its fur is gone! He can hardly recognize it.

He summons up courage and snatches it. But it hurts so that he lets it

fall. He sucks his thumb in pain. The new smell! The new taste! Those

biting colors made that rich odor and delicious flavor. How did he make

them? He will make them again! He wants some more cooked meat.

Here the panorama ceased; and I fell inadvertently into a light sleep.

I know not for how long I remained in slumber, but I was abruptly

aroused by cries of “Fire! Fire!” That did not seem to me strange, as

my room is directly opposite an engine house. I rushed to my windows.

I could hear the telephone and the telegraph ring and click in the

engine house. Gong! Gong! The fire tower sounded. Gong! Gong! And there

was the hitching up of the fire patrol.

I could not rid myself of the remembrance of the figure, and my mental

eye kept looking about for him. Gong! Gong! There was the clatter of

the horses’ hoofs. Gong! Gong! The entire fire company sprang through

its doors. Gong! Gong!

“There he is!” I cried to myself, tingling in every hair of my head,

“there he is!”

It was the flash of the figure that I saw, driving horses breakneck, to

save his fellow men.

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