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This night I am guest at a banquet. I am seated next to my host who is

a rich man, ah yes, we are all rich men; and he is dining and wining

us in celebration of the anniversary of his birth. The table is a long

one and is stretched away into a double banqueting hall. The guests are

assembled. An orchestra is playing. There is much wine, and food in

abundance is passed before us, and we make merry. Course after course

is served before us--turtle soup, timbales of pheasant, terrapin,

Kennebec salmon, venison, pates of birds in jelly, aspic of plover

eggs--bah! I am satiated and can eat no more--and yet now the dessert

comes on the table, course after course, but instead of eating anything

more I turn my chair a little sideways so that I may shade my eyes

and see into the next room. The hall wherein we sit is lighted with

brilliant spangles of bright bulbs and dangling prisms, and the whole

of our room is surrounded with great mirrors that we may see ourselves

feasting and drinking and making merry. But lo! as I shade my eyes and

look down the table, it seems to stretch away into a dimness beyond my

sight, and seated at the other end of the table in the next room are

countless guests; but they are glum and not merry. Upon more careful

scrutiny, I observe that this adjoining room is dimly lighted and that

there is no food upon the table, neither is there liquor for them to

drink. I can see snowflakes falling in the darkness without; I can see

it through the crevices in the windows of their room; whereas in our

hall the blinds are down, the shutters are closed and the curtains are

drawn close.

Every now and then, one of those who are sitting at that other end of

the table in the next room way off there in the dimness, would rise,

shove his empty chair under the table and make towards the door, but

on his way out he would have to pass by my host. As one after another

of them drew near, I noticed their wan, care-worn faces. Each one as

he passed my host, stooped over and said, “Good-night, brother; you

wouldn’t let me eat and I have to go, for all the food is at your end

of the table.” Then each would shut the door behind him as he went out

into the darkness.

“Who are they?” I asked my host, putting my fingers to my ear that he

might whisper.

“They are the poor,” he answered, contracting his eyebrows, “let me

fill your glass.”

He filled it to the brim; but in a moment of impulse, I arose and

dashed the glass against the wall.

The breaking of the glass and its pieces falling on the floor brought

me to my senses. Sandy came rushing into the room. “There is a tumbler

over there. Bring me in another;” I said to him. He picked up the

broken bits of glass and brought a cloth to dry the stain on the

wall-paper where I had thrown my sangaree.

I fear that I shall not be able to sleep this night. Oh, if I could get

just a little sleep--

‘the innocent sleep,

Sleep that knits up the ravell’d sleave of care,

The death of each day’s life, sore labour’s bath,

Balm of hurt minds, great nature’s second course,

Chief nourisher in life’s feast.’

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