CHAPTER XX.

THE EDGE OF DOOM.

A cold black void; a struggle that was agony to get out of it; a

falling through deep waters that were loud in her ears, then blackness

once more, deep and awful. Slowly, slowly, it faded, and with a

sickness like death at her heart Ismay was conscious again. Where was

she? What was this?

She lifted her head from the wintry earth, and let it fall again.

“Lie still; don’t move.” Cylmer was kneeling beside her, inwardly

cursing himself for a fool, when he knew her horror of death.

“Ismay, darling, forgive me, and forget it. I might have known it was

enough to sicken any woman.”

“Death--murder--you!” she cried incoherently. “Ever since I came here

death has been round me, I”--her voice was shrill, hysterical--“I smell

death in Marchant’s Hold, and I meet it.” Her eyes closed again.

“No, no! Don’t talk like that, my sweet,” gathering her close with

protecting arms. “I was a brute to tell you such things. You were tired

out, unstrung already. I was too rough and careless with you, my heart.”

But she shrank away.

“You--to bring any one to their death; to find clues that would hang

them!”

“It is not I, it is justice. Oh! don’t draw away from me.”

“Justice on the poor, the tempted!” A sudden sense of the danger that

her words held checked her. “Oh, why did you tell me? Why should I

know you are helping to hunt any poor wretch down?”

“Oh, the tender woman’s soul that cannot bear anything to be hurt!” he

thought swiftly, loving her all the more for her weakness.

“Would you let things go, and have the innocent suffer for the guilty?”

he said gravely. “I think not, dear.”

The innocent! Was there any one in the world innocent? She had no

reason to love her mother, yet now, in her peril, she was ready to

fight, tooth and nail, for her, even when her enemy was Miles Cylmer,

whose kiss had opened heaven.

All that he was doing she must know, and make of no avail, and at the

task before her the girl’s brave spirit quailed. Somehow she must save

her mother, and keep him! Her brain reeled as she thought that some

one, no matter how innocent, must have that crime brought home to them

to save the mother who was guilty.

Ismay summoned all her strength, and sat up, very white.

“Did you know I was such a baby?” she whispered. “I hate hearing of

horrors, and it startled me to know you had anything to do with things

like that. But you’re quite right. I won’t be so silly any more. Only

I--I was ready to cry in any case. I loved you, and you kissed me,

and----”

“And then I had not any more sense than to blurt out things you should

never hear of,” he finished for her, kissing her again, very softly.

“I’m going to take you home now, and we’ll never speak of Abbotsford

again.”

“You can as much as you like, now,” and if her lips were wan he did not

notice. “I know whatever you do will be for the right,” speaking the

truth, but not adding, “no matter the cost to me and mine.”

“My little sweetheart,” he said, fastening the fur collar of her

coat, that he had unfastened to give her room to breathe when she lay

unconscious. “I wish I could carry you home. You aren’t fit to walk.”

“I am fit to go anywhere with you,” she smiled, with all the strange

sorcery that was hers, a smile that covered deadly terror. “Bring my

roses. They are the first thing you ever gave me,” pointing to the

great bunch of blood-red flowers lying on the ground in the early

twilight.

“They are not half so sweet and fine as you,” Cylmer said, as he saw

her put them to her face. “Do you know how beautiful you are? I wish

you would marry me to-morrow, so that you could put away all that

black, and let me see you in a white gown.”

With a little shiver, she drew closer to him, where she walked within

his arm in the sheltering dusk.

“Tell me about Lord Abbotsford,” she said, as his arm tightened round

her, for she must know; she dared not let him go back to talk of that

love that might turn so bitter in the end.

“And make you faint again? Not I!”

“I won’t. It wasn’t that.” He could not know the sweet shyness of her

voice was put there to cover the first lie she had ever told him. “I

was--tired.”

And in the languor of happiness that was in his own blood, he believed

her.

“But you hate those things!”

“Not if you say they are right.”

“They are, I suppose,” he answered slowly. “A man’s blood cries from

the ground for justice, and I was his only friend. But I don’t think I

ought to talk about it--to you.”

“If I am going to be your wife, will you always hide unpleasant things

from me?” softly. “I don’t think I should like that.”

“I’m never going to hide anything from you,” he cried, with love in his

voice. “But there isn’t much to tell.”

She listened with a heart like ice as he told her all that she knew so

well--the missing photograph, the money, the diamonds--she had to hold

herself hard not to forestall him as he talked. Would he never come to

something new? But when he came to it she was thankful for the darkness

that hid her face.

“The diamonds vanished utterly,” he was saying; “but the other day, one

of them, a very curious stone, with a pink tinge in it, turned up in

Amsterdam. The tracing of it will be long, but certain in the end; it

will ruin the man or woman who took it.”

“Or woman!” The interruption was nearly a cry. “What woman would do

such things?”

“It looked as if a woman had taken away the photograph.” He drew her

closer. “Look out, the path is slippery!”

“Very slippery,” said Ismay Trelane, keeping down the dry sob in her

throat. Slippery, and on the very edge of doom, this path that she must

walk to the end.

“You see, there must have been a woman in it somewhere, for Abbotsford

was going to be married, and he was leaving all the people he had been

friendly with, and arranging all his affairs.”

“Say it plainly,” said the old Ismay Trelane, who had been brought up

to uncanny knowledge.

“I can’t say it--to you,” Cylmer returned, with shame.

“Go on, then, I know what you mean. Let us say the photograph was the

woman’s he was leaving for his wife.”

“Then, don’t you see, it must have either been she or some man for her

who came back and took it.”

“I think it must have been a man!” Her voice through her white lips

sounded almost indifferent. “A woman would not dare.”

“Whichever it was, they were mad to take the diamonds. I don’t know,”

he continued, “that it’s going to make much difference. The diamonds

may be traced, of course, but they are not the clue I spoke about.

Kivers tells me there was something found in the room when they were

getting things ready for the new Lord Abbotsford’s family. It will

probably show clearly enough whether the murderer was a man or not.”

“Something found! What, I wonder?” like lightning she was going over

that day. Her mother had not dropped or lost anything; she could not

have, or she would have missed it, and said so, Ismay thought, in new

terror. “Why must it belong to the man who killed him? What was found,

I mean? Fifty people may have been in and out of that room since he

died.”

“No one has; it was locked and sealed after the inquest by my--the

detective,” quickly correcting himself. “It was only opened two days

ago by him, when he made a last search, before giving up hope, and

before the new family came to him. And in the last search he found

something.”

“What?” Her impatience made her eyes burn in the dusk.

“That’s what I’m going up to see. ‘A trinket, or a part of one,’ he

said.”

“A trinket!” involuntarily the words escaped her, with an anxiety that

was pain. Yet she was sure that her mother had not lost anything that

awful day, unless--she had not known she did!

“It may be something I have seen before,” said Cylmer coolly, and once

more that hand of ice was on her heart. “So I shall go up to-morrow.”

“To-morrow!” What should she do all the long day when he was gone. When

each minute might be bringing detection nearer? “You won’t stay long?”

she added imploringly. “You’ll come back?”

“As soon as I possibly can; the next day at farthest. Shall you miss

me?”

“Miss you!” She gathered all her strength and laughed lightly, without

a trace of care. “I have not had you long enough to miss you.”

They were close to Marchant’s Hold now. The lighted lamps shone rosy

from the drawing-room windows, and she kept carefully out of the

patches of light on the gravel where they stood.

“I shall miss you, then, every second! And, look here, Ismay! I hate

the business. I only do it because he was my friend, and I feel bound

to it. Do you understand?”

“I dare say you will hate it more before it is done,” she said, as if

in idleness, and afterward he remembered, when the stone he had set

rolling threatened to crush all he loved on earth. “But it interests me

in a dreadful sort of way. When you come back you will tell me what

you found, won’t you? I won’t tell. It shall be your secret, like your

loving me is mine.”

“I’ll tell you anything you ask,” he said tenderly. “But I wish you

would let me have my way, and be engaged to you openly. I would like to

go in and tell Cristiane now!” He moved toward the great door with so

much purpose that she flew after him.

“No, no!” she cried. “Mother hates you; she’d send me away straight

off; you’d never see me again. If you tell it means that I shall

suffer.”

“Then I’ll wait forever.” In the shadow of an evergreen he caught her

to him, as a man holds his only love on earth. “Till you tell me to

speak I will hold my tongue. Will that satisfy you? And, instead of my

coming to Marchant’s Hold, will you meet me at the stile, at five, the

day after to-morrow? It will be best, if we are to keep our secret.”

She gave a long sigh of relief, resting for perhaps the last time

against the strong shoulders of the man who might know things when he

came from London that would part them forever.

“That is all I want,” she said; “just to let no one know but us two! I

must go now; good-by.”

“But I want to come in.” He had not let her go.

She smiled in the darkness.

“And even Thomas would know from your face! And how should I look

coming home at this hour with you?”

“You are too worldly-wise. How do you know all these things?”

half-proud of her shrewdness and sense. “You’re too young to know them.”

“Sometimes I feel old, so old,” she answered gravely, “as if I had

lived lives and lives.”

“And loved?” catching her jealously, as if they were not talking

nonsense. “And loved, Ismay?”

For answer her arms went round his neck in quick passion.

“I never loved any one on earth till I loved you,” she whispered.

“There is only you for me now, till I die. Even if you tire of me--or

hate me.”

She stepped away from him and into the house before he could answer,

before he could even tighten his arms to hold her. He turned away for

his long walk home with a strange loneliness, as if his very soul had

left him when Ismay went.

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