CHAPTER XXXI

The bustle and folly of a rummage-sale was once in every two or three

years a frolic altogether pleasant to quiet Westways. It enabled Ann

Penhallow and other wise women to get rid of worn-out garments and other

trash dear to the male mind. When Leila complained of the disturbing

antecedents of a rummage-sale, Mrs. Crocker, contributive of unasked

wisdom, remarked, "Men have habits, and women don't; women have blind

instincts. You'll find that out when you're married. You see marriage is

a kind of voyage of discovery. You just remember that and begin early to

keep your young man from storing away useless clothes and the like.

That's where a rummage-sale comes in handy."

Leila laughed. "Why not sell the unsatisfactory young man, Mrs. Crocker?"

"Well, that ain't a bad idea," said the post-mistress slyly, "if he's a

damaged article--a rummage-sale of husbands not up to sample."

"A very useful idea," said the young woman. "Good-bye."

In the afternoon a day later, Leila, making her escape from her aunt's

busy collections, slipped away into the woods alone. The solitude of the

early woodland days of summer were what she needed, and the chance they

gave for such tranquil reflection as the disturbance and restless state

of her home just now made it rarely possible to secure. She tried to put

aside her increasing anxiety about her uncle and had more difficulty in

dealing with John Penhallow and his over-quiet friendliness. She thought

too of her own coldly-worded letters and of the suffering of which she

had been kept so long ignorant. He had loved her once; did he now? She

was annoyed to hear the voice of Mark Rivers.

"So, Leila, you have run away, and I do not wonder. This turmoil is most

distressing."

"Yes, yes--and everything--those years of war and what it has brought

us--and my dear Uncle Jim--and how is it to end? Let us talk of something

else. I came here to be--well, to see if I could find peace of soul and

what these silent forests have often given me, strength to take up again

the cares and troubles of life." He did not excuse his intrusion nor seem

to notice the obvious suggestions, but fell upon their personal

application to himself.

"They have never done that for me," he said sadly. "There is some defect

in my nature--some want. I have no such relation to nature; it is

speechless to me--mute, and I never needed more what I fail to find in

myself. The war and its duties gave me the only entire happiness I have

had for years." Then he added, in a curiously contemplative manner, "It

does seem as if a man had a right to some undisturbed happiness in life.

I must go. I leave you to the quiet of the woods."

"I am sorry," she said, "I am sorry that you are able to imply that you

have never known happiness. Surely you cannot mean that." It was all she

could say. His look of profound melancholy hurt her, for like all who

knew Mark Rivers well, she loved, respected and admired him.

He made no explanatory reply, but after a brief silence said, "I must go,

Leila, where there are both duties and dangers--not--no, not in cities."

"I trust you do not mean to leave us--surely not!"

"No, not yet--not while I can be of use to these dear friends."

As she moved on at his side or before him, he saw too well the easy grace

of her strong young virgin form, the great blue eyes, the expressive

tenderness of features which told of dumb sympathy with what she had no

knowledge to understand. He longed to say, "I love you and am condemned

by my conscience to ask no return." It would only add to his unhappiness

and disturb a relation which even in its incompleteness was dear to him.

The human yearning to confess, to win even the sad luxury of pity beset

the man. In his constant habit of introspection, he had become

unobservant and had no least idea that the two young people he loved so

well were nearing what was to him forever impossible.

"Let me sit down," he said unwilling to leave her; "I am tired." He was

terribly afraid of himself and shaken by a storm of passion, which left

his sensitive body feeble.

She sat down with him on a great trunk wrecked a century ago. "Are you

not well?" she asked, observing the paleness of his face.

"No, it is nothing. I am not very well, but it is nothing of moment.

Don't let it trouble you--I am much as usual. I want, Leila, what I

cannot get--what I ought not to get." Even this approach to fuller

confession relieved him.

"What is there, my dear Mr. Rivers, you cannot get? Oh! you are a man to

envy with your hold on men, your power to charm, your eloquence. I have

heard Dr. McGregor talk of what you were among the wounded and the dying

on the firing-line. Don't you know that you are one of God's helpful

messengers, an interpreter into terms of human thought and words of what

men need to-day, when--"

"No, no," he broke in, lifting a hand of dissenting protest. The flushed

young face as she spoke, his sense of being nobly considered by this

earnest young woman had again made him feel how just the little more

would have set free in ardent words what he was honestly striving to

control.

"Thank you, my dear Leila, I could wish I were all you think I am; but

were it all true, there would remain things that sweeten life and which

must always be forbidden to me."

He rose to his feet once again master of his troubled soul. "I leave

you," he said, "and your tireless youth to your walk. We cannot have

everything, I must be contented in some moment of self-delusion to half

believe the half of what you credit me with."

"Then," cried Leila, laughing, "you would have only a fourth."

"Ah! I taught you arithmetic too well." He too laughed as he turned away.

Laughter was rare with him and to smile frequent. He walked slowly away

to the rectory and for two days was not seen at Grey Pine.

Leila, more at ease and relieved by the final gay banter, strolled into

the solemn quiet of the pines the Squire had so successfully freed from

underbrush and left in royal solitude. At the door of the old log-cabin

she lay down on the dry floor of pine-needles. The quick interchange of

talk had given her no chance to consider, as now she reviewed in

thoughtful illumination, what had seemed to her strange. She tried to

recall exactly what he had said. Of a sudden she knew, and was startled

to know. She had come into possession of the power of a woman innocent of

intention to inflict pain on a strong and high-minded man. A lower nature

might have felt some sense of triumph. It left her with no feeling but

the utmost distress and pitiful thinking of what had gone wrong in this

man's life. Once before she had been thus puzzled. The relief of her walk

was gone. She gathered some imperfect comfort in the thought that she

might not have been justified in her conclusions regarding a man who was

in so many ways an unexplained personality.

During the next few days the village was in a state of anticipative

pleasure and of effort to find for the rummage-sale articles which were

damaged or useless. At Grey Pine John and Leila Grey were the only

unexcited persons. She was too troubled in divers ways to enjoy the

amusement to be had out of what delighted every one else except John

Penhallow. To please his aunt he made some small and peculiar offerings,

and daily went away to the mills to meet and consult with the Colonel's

former partners. He was out of humour with his world, saw trouble ahead

if he did as he meant to do, and as there was an east wind howling

through the pines, his wounded arm was recording the storm in dull aches

or sharp twinges. He smoked, I fear, too much during these days of

preparation for the rummage-sale, and rode hard; while Leila within the

dismantled house was all day long like the quiet steadying flywheel in

some noisy machinery. What with Billy as the over-excited Colonel's aide

and her aunt aggrieved by a word of critical comment on her husband's

actions, Leila had need of all the qualities required in a household

where, as it seemed to her, it was hard to keep tongue or temper quiet.

Mr. Rivers towards the end of the week came in often, and would, of

course, see that the Sunday school hall was made ready for the sale. He

would make some contributions and help to arrange the articles for the

sale. The Colonel's continuity of childlike interest deceived him into

sharing the belief of Ann Penhallow, who was, Leila thought, unreasonably

elated. Meanwhile Leila felt as a kind of desertion John's successive

days of absence. Where was he? What was he doing? Once she would have

asked frankly why he left to her the burden of cares he ought to have

been eager to share, while Mark Rivers was so steadily helpful. When Ann

Penhallow asked him to act as salesman, he said that he was at her

disposal. The Colonel declared that was just the thing, and John must

uncover and announce the articles to be sold. He said, "How long ago was

the last sale? Wasn't it last year?"

"No, dear, not so lately."

"I must have forgotten. Perhaps, Rivers, we might sell a few useless

people. What would Leila fetch in the marriage market?" Ann somewhat

annoyed said nothing; nor did Rivers like it. The Colonel continued,

"Might sell John--badly damaged."

"I must go," said Rivers. "I have my sermon to think over. I mean to use

the text you gave me, Leila, some two weeks ago."

Sunday went by, and Tuesday, the day of the sale, came with a return of

the east wind and a cold downpour of rain. The Colonel and Billy were

busy late in the day; Mrs. Ann was tired; while John in some pain was

silent at dinner. The carriage took the Colonel and his wife to the hall.

He was now quiet and answered curtly the too frequent questions about how

he felt.

"We will send back for you, Leila," said her aunt.

"No, I want to walk there with John."

The Captain looked up surprised, "Why, yes, with pleasure."

She came down in her rain-cloak. "Take a large umbrella, John. How it

blows!"

As they set off in the face of a rain-whipped wind, he said, "Take my

arm, Leila--the other side--the sound arm."

"You were in pain at dinner, John."

"It is my familiar devil, the east wind, but don't talk of it."

She understood him, and returned, "I will not if you don't wish me to

talk of it. Where have you been all these uneasy days?"

"Oh, at the mills. Uncle refuses to speak of business and I am trying to

understand the situation--some one must."

"I see--you must explain it all to me later."

"I will. One of the mill men of my Corps needed help. I have asked Tom to

see him. How depressed Mr. Rivers seems. Gracious, how it rains!"

"Yes, he is at his worst. I am sorry you missed his sermon on Sunday--it

was great. He talked about Lincoln, and used a text I gave him some time

ago."

"What was it?"

"It is in Exodus: 'Ye have seen what I did unto the Egyptians and how I

bare you on eagles' wings, and brought you unto myself.'"

John's ready imagination began for a silent moment to play with the

words. "How did he use it, Leila?"

"Oh, he told the preceding story briefly, and then his great seeking eyes

wandered a little and he said, 'Think how the uplift of God's eagles'

wings enlarged their horizon!' Then he seemed to me to have the idea that

they might not comprehend, so he made one of those eloquent pauses and

went on to say, 'You can all, like Lincoln, rise as he rose from the

lesser things of a hard life to see more widely and more surely the

duties of life. The eagle-wings of God's uplifting power are for you,

for me, for all of us.' He made them understand."

"I am sorry I missed it. I spent the Sunday morning with my engineer."

"Aren't you getting wet, John?"

"No. How did he end?"

"What I did not like was the dwelling on Lincoln's melancholy, and the

effort it must have cost him--at times. It seemed to me, John, as if he

was preaching to himself. I wonder if clergymen often preach to

themselves. Some of us have to. The sketch of Lincoln's life was to me a

wonder of terse biography. At the close he did not dwell on the murder,

but just said--'Then--and then, my friends, God took him to himself.'"

"Thank you, Leila. What a lot of wagons--we must have half the

county--and in this rain too."

"Now, John, you hate this affair, and so do I; but the Westways people

think it great fun, and in the last few years they have had very little."

"_Ni moi non plus, Mademoiselle Grey._"

"Yes, yes," she said, "I know, John, but make it go--make it gay, John.

It will soon be over."

"I will try." They left their wet garments in an empty outer room and

entering by a side door stood beside the raised platform at the end of

the crowded hall.

Quite a hundred villagers or farming people, young and old, filled the

room, and the air was oppressively heavy. At one end on a raised platform

the Colonel was seated, and near by his wife well pleased to see him

smiling as he recognized here and there some of the farmers who had been

the playmates of his youth. John stood by the long table on which,

covered by sheets, lay the articles for sale. Rivers came forward to the

front of the platform, leaving Leila, who declined to sit down, at one

side with Mr. Grace and the two McGregors.

The murmur of voices ceased; there was an appearance of expectant

attention. Rivers raised a hand, and said, "You are all, I am sure, most

glad to welcome the friend who like others among you has paid so dearly

for keeping unbroken the union of the States." Loud applause followed, as

he paused. "An occasion like this brings together young and old for

good-humoured fun, and may remind you of a similar meeting years ago.

This is to be a rummage-auction of useful things out of use, and of

useless things. If you will explain why anybody wants useless things I

shall know why some of you come to hear me preach or"--with a slight

pause--"my friend, Grace." Every one laughed, and John and Leila alike

felt that Rivers had struck the right note.

"Captain John Penhallow"--loud plaudits--"Captain John Penhallow will

mention the articles for sale. Now, as you see, they are all hidden--some

of them I have never seen. Whoever makes the highest bid of the sale for

the most useless article will collect the whole product--the whole

proceeds of the sale, and"--he laughed--"will pay it over to the girl

about to be married."

This was really great fun, and even John felt some relief as the hall

rang with merry laughter. Only Tom McGregor was grave while he watched

the Colonel. As Rivers spoke, Colonel Penhallow stood up, swayed a

little, straightened his tall figure, and waving Rivers aside said, "I

shall now conduct this sale." This was only a pleasant surprise to the

audience, and was welcomed with noisy hands.

The two McGregors exchanged looks of anxious alarm as the Colonel said,

"Now, John!" Mrs. Penhallow smiled approval.

John uncovered a corner of the nearest sheet and brought out a clock

without hands. "First article! Who'll bid? I think the hands have all

struck like the mill-hands down East. Five cents--do I hear ten?

Going--gone," cried the Colonel.

A rag doll came next and brought a penny. There was high bidding over a

heavy band-box. When it went for half a dollar to Mrs. Crocker and was

found to contain a shrivelled pumpkin of last year's crop, the audience

wildly congratulated the post-mistress.

John, who was now thoroughly in the spirit of their fun, produced two

large apples. "Now what daughter of Eve will bid," said the elated

Colonel. Leila laughing bid fifty cents. "Going--gone."

"Look out for the serpent, Miss Grey," said Grace.

Leila handed the apples to a small girl, who losing no time followed

Eve's remote example. "Oh, mother!" she cried, "it's got a five-dollar

piece in it--most broke my new tooth."

"The root of all evil," said Grace.

There were pots that were cracked or bottomless, old novels, and to the

evident dismay of John a favourite smoking jacket. Ann clapped her hands

with delight as John shook at her a finger of reproach. Then came tied up

in paper, which John unrolled, the long-forgotten cane of his youth, and

how it got there the Squire or Billy may have known. John bid, but at

a warning signal from Leila gave up, as she recaptured her property.

There were other apples, with and without money; and so with fun and

merriment the sale went on to Westways' satisfaction.

"What's this," said John, with an unpleasant shock of annoyance as he

uncovered the Colonel's war-worn uniform. He hesitated, looking towards

his uncle who seemed bewildered. "That's that rascal, Billy--it's a

mistake," exclaimed the Colonel.

"No, sir," shouted Billy, "Squire told me to take 'em. There's a sword

too. Squire said it wasn't any use now."

No one laughed; it was obviously one of Billy's blunders. John put the

worn uniform and the sword aside and threw a cover over them. It was an

unpleasant reminder of the Colonel's state of mind and disturbed the

little group at one side of the stage. John made haste to get away from

it.

"Last article for sale--it's large and must be bought covered up. Who

will bid?" Amid laughter the bids rose. At a dollar and ten cents it fell

to Mrs. Pole, and proved when uncovered to be another band-box. Mrs. Pole

came forward, and Ann Penhallow pleased to have been able to amuse her

husband said, "We are curious, Mrs. Pole, open it." Mrs. Pole obeyed, and

as she held up the rolled package it dropped into the unmistakable form

of a man's breeches.

Westways exploded into wild applause, understanding joyously this freak

of fortune. Mrs. Pole joined in their merriment, and the carpenter

punched the butcher in the ribs for emphasis, as he said, "How's that,

Pole?" The butcher made use of unpleasant language, as John relieved

said, "The sale is over. You can settle with Mr. Grace." As he spoke he

moved over to where Leila stood beside the two McGregors.

The people rose and put on their cloaks preparing to leave. Then John

heard Tom McGregor say, "Look out, father! Something is going to happen."

The Colonel moved forward unsteadily. His face flushed, grew pale, and

something like a grimace distorted his features, as he said, "The sale is

not over, sit down."

People took their places again wondering what was to come. Then with the

clear ringing voice the cavalry lines knew in far-away Indian wars, he

cried, "We will now sell the most useless article in Westways. Who'll buy

silly Billy?"

"Can't sell me," piped out Billy's thin voice as he fled in alarm, amid

laughter.

"The sale is over, uncle," said John.

"No, sir--don't interrupt. I'd like to sell Swallow."

This was much to their taste. "Guess he's sold a many of us," cried an

old farmer.

"Why, he's dead," said Mrs. Crocker.

The Colonel's gaze wandered. The little group of friends became

hopelessly uneasy; even Mrs. Ann ceased to smile. "You stand up, Polly

Somers--you are the handsomest girl in the county," which was quite true.

The girl, who was near by, sat still embarrassed. "Get up," said

Penhallow sharply.

"She's withdrawed these three months," cried a ready-witted young farmer.

"Oh, is she? Well, then, we will go on." Tom McGregor went quietly up the

two steps to the platform. All those who were near to the much-loved

master of Grey Pine stood still aware of something wrong and unable to

interfere. Rivers alone moved towards him and was put aside by an

authoritative gesture. The moment of silence was oppressive, and Leila

was hardly conscious of the movement which carried her up beside Dr.

McGregor to the level of the platform.

"Oh, do something," she whispered; "please do something."

"It is useless--this can't last."

"Uncle Jim," she exclaimed in her despair, and what more she would have

urged was unheard or unsaid as the Colonel turned towards her and cried,

"One more for sale!"

No one spoke. At last these various people who loved the man well saw

more or less clearly that he was no longer their James Penhallow of

other days. He went on at once with raised voice: "Last sale--Leila

Grey--likely young woman--warranted sound--single or double harness.

Fetch her up." His confusion of mind was painfuly apparent. "Who'll bid?"

A suppressed titter rose from the younger people.

"She is withdrawn, uncle," said John Penhallow distinctly.

"Ah! who did you say--Like Polly, owner withdraws her--Can't you speak

out?"

"I said, withdrawn, sir," John repeated. As he spoke he saw the Colonel

stagger backwards and sink into his chair; his face became white and

twitched; his head fell to one side; he breathed stertorously, flushed

slightly, and was instantly as one asleep.

Ann Penhallow and the two doctors were at his side. Rivers called out,

"Leave the room, all of you, please. Open the windows, Grace!"

"Is he dead?" asked Ann of McGregor.

"No, no--it is a slight fit--there is no danger."

A moment later Penhallow opened his eyes, sat up, and said, "Where am I?

What's all this about?"

John said, "A bit faint, uncle. The carriage is waiting." He staggered to

his feet, and seizing Rivers's arm followed Ann and John in silence. With

Rivers they were driven back to Grey Pine. Of all Ann Penhallow's schemes

to amuse or interest her husband this had been the most utter failure.

Every one had gone from the hall when John missing Leila returned to the

outer room to put on his cloak. The boy-cap Leila liked to wear in bad

weather, her rain-cloak, his umbrella, were as they had been left. He

stood still in the first moment available for thought and knew that here

was a new trouble. She must have been so shocked and ashamed as to have

fled in the rain eager to get away.

Neither he nor any man could have realized what she felt as her uncle

talked wildly--and she had been put up for sale. She used none of the

resources of reason. All her body was hot with the same flush of shame

which burned in her face. In her passion of disgust and anger, she

hurried out into the storm. The chill of the east wind was friendly. She

gave no other thought to the wind-driven rain, but ran through the woods

like a wild thing, all virginal woman, unreasonable, insulted, angry as a

child is angry--even her uncle was forgotten. She ran upstairs, the glory

of her rain-soaked hair in tumbled disorder, and in her room broke into

the open speech which passion confides to the priest solitude.

"Oh, John Penhallow, how could you! That ends it--a man who could--and

oh, John Penhallow!" She cried a little, wailing in a childish way, and

then with some returning sense of anxiety put herself in condition to go

downstairs, where she learned that her uncle was in bed. She went back to

her room.

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