CHAPTER XL. Lady Gourlay sees her Son.

Having done all that was possible for poor Fenton, the stranger lost no

time in waiting upon Lady Gourlay, that he might, with as much prudence

as the uncertain state of the young man's health would permit, make

known the long wished for communication, that they had at length got

him in their possession. His task was one of great difficulty, for he

apprehended that an excess of joy on the part of that affectionate woman

might be dangerous, when suddenly checked by the melancholy probability

that he had been restored to her only to be almost immediately removed

by death. He resolved, then, to temper his intelligence in such a way as

to cause her own admirable sense and high Christian feeling to exercise

their usual influence over her heart. As he had promised Corbet,

however, to take no future step in connection with these matters without

consulting him, he resolved, before seeing Lady Gourlay, to pay him

a visit. He was induced the more to do this in consequence of the old

man's singular conduct on the discovery of Fenton. From the very first

interview that he ever had with Corbet until that event, he could

not avoid observing that there was a mystery in everything he did and

said--something enigmatical--unfathomable, and that his looks, and the

disagreeable expression which they occasionally assumed, were frequently

so much at variance with his words, that it was an utter impossibility

to draw anything like a certain inference from them. On the discovery

of Fenton, the old man's face went through a variety of contradictory

expressions. Sometimes he seemed elated--triumphant, sometimes depressed

and anxious, and occasionally angry, or excited by a feeling that was

altogether unintelligible. He often turned his eye upon Fenton, as if

he had discovered some precious treasure, then his countenance became

overcast, and he writhed in an agony which no mortal penetration could

determine as anything but the result of remorse. Taking all this into

consideration, the stranger made up his mind to see him before he should

wait upon Lady Gourlay.

Although a day had elapsed, he found the old man still complaining of

illness, which, he said, would have been more serious had he not taken

medicine.

“My mind, however,” said he, “is what's troublin' me. There's a battle

goin' on within me. At one time I'm delighted, but the delight doesn't

give me pleasure long, for then, again, I feel a weight over me that's

worse than death. However, I can't nor won't give it up. I hope I'll

have time to repent yet; who knows but it is God that has put it into my

heart and kept it there for so many years?”

“Kept what there?” asked the stranger.

The old man's face literally blackened as he replied, almost with a

scream, “Vengeance!”

“This language,” replied the other, “is absolutely shocking. Consider

your advanced state of life--consider your present illness, which may

probably be your last, and reflect that if you yourself expect pardon

from God, you must forgive your enemies.”

“So I will,” he replied; “but not till I've punished them; then I'll

tell them how I made my puppets of them, and when I give their heart

one last crush--one grind--and the old wretch ground his teeth in the

contemplation of this diabolical vision--ay,” he repeated--“one last

grind, then I'll tell them I've done with them, and forgive them;

then--then--ay, but not till then!”

“God forgive you, Corbet, and change your heart!” replied the stranger.

“I called to say that I am about to inform Lady Gourlay that we have

her son safe at last, and I wish to know if you are in possession of

any facts that she ought to be acquainted with in connection with his

removal--in fact, to hear anything you may wish to disclose to me on the

subject.”

“I could, then, disclose to you something on the subject that would make

you wondher; but although the time's at hand, it's not come yet. Here I

am, an ould man--helpless--or, at all events, helpless-lookin'--and you

would hardly believe that I'm makin' this black villain do everything

accordin' as I wish it.”

“That dark spirit of vengeance,” replied the stranger, “is turning your

brain, I think, or you would not say so. Whatever Sir Thomas Gourlay may

be, he is not the man to act as the puppet of any person.”

“So you think; but I tell you he's acting as mine, for all that.”

“Well, well, Corbet, that is your own affair. Have you anything of

importance to communicate to me, before I see Lady Gourlay? I ask you

for the last time.”

“I have. The black villain and she have spoken at last. He yielded to

his daughter so far as to call upon her, and asked her to be present at

the weddin'.”

“The wedding!” exclaimed the stranger, looking aghast. “God of heaven,

old man, do you mean to say that they are about to be married so

soon?--about to be married at all? But I will leave you,” he added;

“there is no possibility of wringing anything out of you.”

“Wait a little,” continued Corbet. “What I'm goin' to tell you won't do

you any harm, at any rate.”

“Be quick, then. Gracious heaven!--married!--Curses seize you, old man,

be quick.”

“On the mornin' afther to-morrow the marriage is to take place in Sir

Thomas's own house. Lord Dunroe's sisther is to be bridesmaid, and a

young fellow named Roberts--”

“I know--I have met him.”

“Well, and did you ever see any one that he resembled, or that resembled

him? I hope in the Almighty,” he added, uttering the ejaculation

evidently in connection with some private thought or purpose of his own,

“I hope in the Almighty that this sickness will keep off o' me for a

couple o' days at any rate. Did you ever see any one that resembled

him?”

“Yes,” replied the stranger, starting, for the thought had flashed upon

him; “he is the living image of Miss Gourlay! Why do you ask?”

“Bekaise, merely for a raison I have; but if you have patience, you'll

find that the longer you live, the more you'll know; only at this time

you'll know no more from me, barrin' that this same young officer is to

be his lordship's groom's-man. Dr. Sombre, the clergyman of the parish,

is to marry them in the baronet's house. A Mrs. Mainwaring, too, is to

be there; Miss Gourlay begged that she would be allowed to come, and he

says she may. You see now how well I know everything that happens there,

don't you?” he asked, with a grin of triumph. “But I tell you there

will be more at the same weddin' than he thinks. So now--ah, this

pain!--there's another string of it--I feel it go through me like

an arrow--so now you may go and see Lady Gourlay, and break the glad

tidin's to her.”

With feelings akin to awe and of repugnance, but not at all of

contempt--for old Corbet was a man whom no one could despise--the

stranger took his departure, and proceeded to Lady Gourlay's, with a

vague impression that the remarkable likeness between Lucy and young

Roberts was not merely accidental.

He found her at home, placid as usual, but with evidences of a

resignation that was at once melancholy and distressing to witness.

The struggle of this admirable woman's heart, though sustained by high

Christian feeling, was, nevertheless, wearing her away by slow and

painful degrees. The stranger saw this, and scarcely knew in what terms

to shape the communication he had to make, full as it was of ecstasy to

the mother's loving spirit, yet dashed with such doubt and sorrow.

“Can you bear good tidings, Lady Gourlay,” said he, “though mingled with

some cause of apprehension?”

“I am in the hands of God,” she replied, “and feel that I ought to

receive every communication with obedience. Speak on.”

“Your son is found!”

“What, my child restored to me?”

She had been sitting in an arm-chair, but on hearing these words she

started up, and said again, as she placed her hands upon the table at

which he sat, that she might sustain herself, “What, Charles, my darling

restored to me! Is he safe? Can I see him? Restored! restored at last!”

“Moderate your joy, my dear madam; he is safe--he is in my hotel.”

“But why not here? Safe! oh, at last--at last! But God is a God of

mercy, especially to the patient and long-suffering. But come--oh, come!

Think of me,--pity me, and do not defraud me one moment of his sight.

Bring me to him!”

“Hear me a moment, Lady Gourlay.”

“No, no,” she replied, in a passion of joyful tears, “I can hear you

again. I must see my son--my son--my darling child--where is my son?

Here--but no, I will ring myself. Why not have brought him here at once,

sir? Am not I his mother?”

“My dear madam,” said the stranger, calmly, but with a seriousness of

manner that checked the exuberance of her delight, and placing his hand

upon her shoulder, “hear me a moment. Your son is found; but he is ill,

and I fear in some danger.”

“But to see him, then,” she replied, looking with entreaty in his face,

“only to see him. After this long and dreary absence, to let my eyes

rest on my son. He is ill, you say; and what hand should be near him

and about him but his mother's? Who can with such love and tenderness

cherish, and soothe, and comfort him, as the mother who would die for

him? Oh, I have a thousand thoughts rushing to my heart--a thousand

affectionate anxieties to gratify; but first to look upon him--to press

him to that heart--to pour a mother's raptures over her long-lost child!

Come with me--oh, come. If he is ill, ought I not, as I said, to see

him the sooner on that account? Come, dear Charles, let the carriage

be ordered; but that will take some time. A hackney-coach will do--a

car--anything that will bring us there with least delay.”

“But, an interview, my lady, may be at this moment as much as his life

is worth; he is not out of danger.”

“Well, then, I will not ask an interview. Only let me see him--let his

mother's eyes rest upon him. Let me steal a look--a look; let me steal

but one look, and I am sure, dear Charles, you will not gainsay this

little theft of the mother's heart. But, ah,” she suddenly exclaimed,

“what am I doing? Ungrateful and selfish that I am, to forget my first

duty! Pardon me a few moments; I will return soon.”

She passed into the back drawing-room, where, although the doors were

folded, he could hear this truly pious woman pouring forth with tears

her gratitude to God. In a few minutes she reappeared; and such were

the arguments she used, that he felt it impossible to prevent her from

gratifying this natural and absorbing impulse of the heart.

On reaching the hotel, they found, after inquiring, that he was asleep,

a circumstance which greatly pleased the stranger, as he doubted very

much whether Fenton would have been strong enough, either in mind or

body, to bear such an interview as must have taken place between them.

The unhappy young man was, as we have said, sound asleep. His face was

pale and wan, but a febrile hue had tinged his countenance with a color

which, although it concealed his danger, was not sufficient to remove

from it the mournful expression of all he had suffered. Yet the stranger

thought that he never had seen him look so well. His face was indeed a

fair but melancholy page of human life. The brows were slightly knit,

as if indicative of suffering; and there passed over his features, as he

lay, such varying expressions as we may presume corresponded with some

painful dream, by which, as far as one could judge, he seemed to be

influenced. Sometimes he looked like one that endured pain, sometimes

as if he felt terror; and occasionally a gleam of pleasure or joy would

faintly light up his handsome but wasted countenance.

Lady Gourlay, whilst she looked upon him, was obliged to be supported

by the stranger, who had much difficulty in restraining her grief within

due bounds. As for the tears, they fell from her eyes in showers.

“I must really remove you, my lady,” he said, in a whisper; “his

recovery, his very life, may depend upon the soundness of this sleep.

You see yourself, now, the state he is in; and who living has such an

interest in his restoration to health as you have?”

“I know it,” she whispered in reply. “I will be quiet.”

As they spoke, a faint smile seemed to light up his face, which,

however, was soon changed to an expression of terror.

“Don't scourge me,” said he, “don't and I will tell you. It was my

mother. I thought she kissed me, as she used to do long ago, when I was

a boy, and never thought I'd be here.” He then uttered a few faint sobs,

but relapsed into a calm expression almost immediately.

The violent beatings of Lady Gourlay's heart were distinctly felt by the

stranger, as he supported her; and in order to prevent the sobs which

he knew, by the heavings of her breast, were about to burst forth, from

awakening the sleeper, he felt it best to lead her out of the room;

which he had no sooner done, than she gave way to a long fit of

uncontrollable weeping.

“Oh, my child!--my child!” she exclaimed, “I fear they have murdered him!

Alas! is he only to be restored to me for a moment, and am I then to be

childless indeed? But I will strive to become calm. Why should I

not? For even this is a blessing--to have seen him, and to have the

melancholy consolation of knowing that if he is to die, he will die in

my own arms.”

“Well, but I trust, madam, he won't die. The workings of Providence are

never ineffectual, or without a purpose. Have courage, have patience,

and all will, I trust, end happily.”

“Well, but I have a request to make. Allow me to kiss him; I shall not

disturb him; and if he should recover, as I trust in the Almighty's

mercy he will--oh, how I should like to tell him that the dream about

his mother was not altogether a dream--that I did kiss him. Trust me,

I will not awaken him--the fall of the thistledown will will not be

lighter than the kiss I shall give my child.”

“Well, be it so, my lady; and get yourself calm, for you know not his

danger, if he should awaken and become agitated.”

They then reentered the apartment, and Lady Gourlay, after contemplating

him for a moment or two, stooped down and gently kissed his

lips--once--twice--and a third time--and a single tear fell upon his

cheek. At this moment, and the coincidence was beautiful and affecting,

his face became once more irradiated by a smile that was singularly

serene and sweet, as if his very spirit within him had recognized and

felt the affection and tenderness of this timid but loving embrace.

The stranger then led her out again, and a burden seemed to have been

taken off her heart. She dried her tears, and in grateful and fervid

terms expressed the deep obligations she owed him for his generous and!

persevering exertions in seeking out and restoring her son.

This sleep was a long one; and proved very beneficial, by somewhat

recruiting the little strength that had been left him. The stranger had

every measure taken that could contribute to his comfort and recovery.

Two nurse tenders were procured, to whose care he was committed,

under the general superintendence of Dandy Dulcimer, whom he at once

recognized, and by whose performance upon that instrument the poor young

man seemed not only much-pleased, but improved in confidence and the

general powers of his intellect. The physician saw him twice a day, so

that at the period of Lady Gourlay's visit, she found that every care

and attention, which consideration and kindness, and anxiety for his

recovery could bestow upon him, had been paid; a fact that eased and

satisfied her mind very much.

One rather gratifying symptom appeared in him after he awoke on that

occasion. He looked about the room, and inquired for Dulcimer, who soon

made his appearance.

“Dandy,” said he, for he had known him very well in Ballytrain, “will

you be angry with me if I ask you a question? Dandy, I am a gentleman,

and you will not treat me ill.”

“I would be glad to see the villain that 'ud dare to do it, Mr. Fenton,”

replied Dandy, a good deal moved, “much less to do it myself.”

“Ah,” he replied in a tone of voice that was enough to draw tears from

any eye, “but, then, I can depend on no one; and if they should bring me

back there--” His eyes became wild and full of horror, as he spoke,

and he was about to betray symptoms of strong agitation, when Dandy

judiciously brought him back to the point.

“They won't, Mr. Fenton; don't be afeared of that; you are among friends

now; but what was the question you were goin' to ask me?”

“A question!--was I?” said he, pausing, as if striving to recover the

train of thought he had lost. “Oh, yes,” he proceeded, “yes; there was

a pound note taken from me. I got it from the strange gentleman in the

inn, and I wish I had it.”

“Well, sir,” replied Dandy, “if it can be got at all, you must have it.

I'll inquire for it.”

“Do,” he said; “I wish to have it.” Dandy, in reply to the stranger's

frequent and anxious inquiries about him, mentioned this little

dialogue, and the latter at once recollected that he had the note in his

possession.

“It may be good to gratify him,” he replied; “and as the note can be of

little use now, we had better let him have it.”

He accordingly sent it to him by Dandy, who could observe that the

possession of it seemed to give him peculiar satisfaction.

Had not the stranger been a man capable of maintaining great restraint

over the exercise of very strong feelings, he could never have conducted

himself with so much calmness and self-control in his interview with

Lady Gourlay and poor Fenton. His own heart during all the time was in

a tumult of perfect distraction, but this was occasioned by causes that

bore no analogy to those that passed before him. From the moment he

heard that Lucy's marriage had been fixed for the next day but one, he

felt as if his hold upon hope and life, and all that they promised him,

was lost, and his happiness annihilated forever; he felt as if reason

were about to abandon him, as if all existence had become dark, and the

sun himself had been struck out of the system of the universe. He could

not rest, and only with difficulty think at all as a sane man ought. At

length he resolved to see the baronet, at the risk of life or death--in

spite of every obstacle--in despite of all opposition;--perish social

forms and usages--perish the insolence of wealth, and the jealous

restrictions of parental tyranny. Yes, perish one and all, sooner than

he, a man, with an unshrinking heart, and a strong arm, should tamely

suitor that noble girl to be sacrificed, ay, murdered, at the shrine

of a black and guilty ambition. Agitated, urged, maddened, by these

considerations, he went to the baronet's house with a hope of seeing

him, but that hope was frustrated. Sir Thomas was out.

“Was Miss Gourlay at home?”

“No; she too had gone out with her father,” replied Gibson, who happened

to open the door.

“Would you be kind enough, sir, to deliver a note to Miss Gourlay?”

“I could not, sir; I dare not.”

“I will give you five pounds, if you do.”

“It is impossible, sir; I should lose my situation instantly if I

attempted to deliver it. Miss Gourlay, sir, will receive no letters

unless through her father's hands, and besides, sir, we have repeatedly

had the most positive orders not to receive any from you, above all men

living.”

“I will give you ten pounds.”

Gibson shook his head, but at the same time the expression of his

countenance began manifestly to relax, and he licked his lips as he

replied, “I--really--could--not--sir.”

“Twenty.”

The fellow paused and looked stealthily in every direction, when, just

at the moment he was about to entertain the subject, Thomas Corbet, the

house-steward, came forward from the front parlor where he evidently had

been listening, and asked Gibson what was the matter.

“This gentleman,” said Gibson, “ahem--is anxious to have a--ahem--he was

inquiring for Sir Thomas.”

“Gibson, go down stairs,” said Corbet. “You had better do so. I have

ears, Gibson. Go down at once, and leave the gentleman to me.”

Gibson again licked his lips, shrugged his shoulders, and with a visage

rather blank and disappointed, slunk away as he had been desired. When

he had gone,

“You wish, sir,” said Corbet, “to have a note delivered to Miss

Gourlay?”

“I do, and will give you twenty pounds if you deliver it.”

“Hand me the money quietly,” replied Corbet, “and the note also. I shall

then give you a friend's advice.”

The stranger immediately placed both the money and the note in his

hands; when Corbet, having put them in his pocket, said, “I will

deliver the note, sir; but go to my father, and ask him to prevent this

marriage; and, above all things, to direct you how to act. If any man

can serve you in the business, he can.”

“Could you not let me see Miss Gourlay herself?” said the stranger.

“No, sir; she has promised her father neither to see you, nor to write

to you, nor to receive any letters from you.”

“But I must see Sir Thomas himself,” said the stranger determinedly.

“You seem a good deal excited, sir,” replied Corbet; “pray, be calm, and

listen to me. I shall be obliged to put this letter under a blank cover,

which I will address in a feigned hand, in order that she may even

receive it. As for her father, he would not see you, nor enter into any

explanation whatsoever with you. In fact, he is almost out of his mind

with delight and terror; with delight, that the marriage is at length

about to take place, and with terror, lest something might occur to

prevent it. One word, sir. I see Gibson peeping up. Go and see my

father; you have seen him more than once before.”

On the part of Corbet, the stranger remarked that there was something

sneaking, slightly derisive, and intimating, moreover, a want of

sincerity in this short dialogue, an impression that was strengthened

on hearing the relation which he bore to the obstinate old sphinx on

Constitution Hill.

“But pardon me, my friend,” said he, as Corbet was about to go away; “if

Miss Gourlay will not receive or open my letter, why did you accept such

a sum of money for it?” He paused, not knowing exactly how to proceed,

yet with a tolerably strong suspicion that Corbet was cheating him.

“Observe, sir,” replied the other, “that I said I would deliver the

letter only--I didn't undertake to make her read it. But I dare say you

are right--I don't think she will even open it at all, much less read

it. Here, sir, I return both money and letter; and I wish you to know,

besides, that I am not a man in the habit of being suspected of improper

motives. My advice that you should see my father is a proof that I am

your friend.”

The other, who was completely outmanoeuvred by Corbet, at once declined

to receive back either the letter or notes, and after again pressing the

worthy steward to befriend him in the matter of the note as far as he

could, he once more paid a visit to old Anthony. This occurred on the

day before that appointed for the marriage.

“Corbet,” said he, addressing him as he lay upon an old crazy sofa, the

tarnished cover of which shone with dirt, “I am distracted, and have

come to ask your advice and assistance.”

“Is it a helpless ould creature like me you'd come to?” replied Corbet,

hitching himself upon the sofa, as if to get ease. “But what is wrong

now?”

“If this marriage between Miss Gourlay and Lord Dunroe takes place, I

shall lose my senses.”

“Well, in troth,” replied Anthony, in his own peculiar manner, “if you

don't get more than you appear to be gifted with at present, you won't

have much to lose, and that will be one comfort. But how can you expect

me to assist you?”

“Did you not tell me that the baronet is your puppet?”

“I did; but that was for my ends, not for yours.”

“Well, but could you not prevent this accursed, sacrilegious,

blasphemous union?”

“For God's sake, spake aisy, and keep yourself quiet,” said Anthony; “I

am ill, and not able to bear noise and capering like this. I'm a weak,

feeble ould man.”

“Listen to me, Corbet,” continued the other, with vehemence, “command my

purse, my means to any extent, if you do what I wish.”

“I did like money,” implied Corbet, “but of late my whole heart is

filled with but one thought; and rather than not carry that out, I would

sacrifice every child I have. I love Miss Gourlay, for I know she is a

livin' angel, but--”

“What? You do not mean to say that you would sacrifice her?”

“If I would sacrifice my own, do you think I'd be apt to spare her?” he

asked with a groan, for in fact his illness had rather increased.

“Are you not better?” inquired the stranger, moved by a feeling of

humanity which nothing could eradicate out of his noble and generous

nature. “Allow me to send a doctor to you? I shall do so at my own

expense.”

Anthony looked upon him with more complacency, but replied,

“The blackguard knaves, no; they only rob you first and kill you

afterwards. A highway-robber's before them; for he kills you first, and

afther that you can't feel the pain of being robbed. Well, I can't talk

much to you now. My head's beginnin' to get troublesome; but I'll tell

you what you'll do. I'll call for that young man, Fenton, and you

must let him come with me to the wedding to-morrow mornin'. Indeed, I

intended to take a car, and drive over to ask it as a favor from you.”

“To what purpose should he go, even if he were able? but he is too ill.”

“Hasn't he been out in a chaise?”

“He has; but as he is incapable of bearing any agitation or excitement,

his presence there might cause his death.”

“No, sir, it will not; I knew him to be worse, and he recovered; he will

be better, I tell you: besides, if you wish me to sarve you in one way,

you must sarve me in this.”

“But can you prevent the marriage?”

“What I can do, or what I cannot do, a team of horses won't drag out o'

me, until the time--the hour--comes--then! Will you allow the young man

to come, sir?”

“But his mother, you say, will be there, and a scene between them would

be not only distressing to all parties, and out of place, but might be

dangerous to him.”

“It's because his mother's to be there, maybe, that I want him to be

there. Don't I tell you that I want to--but no, I'll keep my own mind to

myself--only sink or swim without me, unless you allow him to come.”

“Well, then, if he be sufficiently strong to go, I shall not prevent

him, upon the condition that you will exercise the mysterious influence

which you seem in possession of for the purpose of breaking up the

marriage.”

“I won't promise to do any such thing,” replied Anthony. “You must only

make the best of a bad bargain, by lavin' everything to myself. Go away

now, sir, if you plaise; my head's not right, and I want to keep it

clear for to-morrow.”

The stranger saw that he was as inscrutable as ever, and consequently

left him, half in indignation, and half impressed by a lurking hope

that, notwithstanding the curtness of his manner, he was determined to

befriend him.

This, however, was far from the heart of old Corbet, whose pertinacity

of purpose nothing short of death itself could either moderate or

change.

“Prevent the marriage, indeed! Oh, ay! Catch me at it. No, no; that must

take place, or I'm balked of half my revenge. It's when he finds that

he has, by his own bad and blind passions, married her to the

profligate without the title that he'll shiver. And that scamp, too, the

bastard--but, no matther--I must try and keep my head clear, as I said,

for to-morrow will be a great day, either for good or evil, to some

of them. Yes, and when all is over, then my mind will be at aise; this

black thing that's inside o' me for years--drivin' me on, on, on--will

go about his business; and then, plaise goodness, I can repent

comfortably and like a Christian. Oh, dear me!--my head!”

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