CHAPTER X.

PERPLEXITIES.--ANOTHER DEATH.

Neath the billows of the ocean,

Hidden treasures wait the hand,

That again to light shall raise them

With the diver's magic wand.

G. W. COOK.

THE family, gathered by James' decease, returned to their homes. Susan

and Charles returned to Baltimore. Letters were received from the

absent, expressing their sympathy and grief. The father bowed like a

"bruised reed," under the loss of his beloved son. He felt desirous to

die the death of the righteous; also, conscious that he was unprepared,

he resolved to start on the narrow way, and some time solicit entrance

through the gate which leads to the celestial city. He acknowledged his

too ready acquiescence with Mrs. B., in permitting Frado to be deprived

of her only religious privileges for weeks together. He accordingly

asked his sister to take her to meeting once more, which she was ready

at once to do.

The first opportunity they once more attended meeting together. The

minister conversed faithfully with every person present. He was

surprised to find the little colored girl so solicitous, and kindly

directed her to the flowing fountain where she might wash and be clean.

He inquired of the origin of her anxiety, of her progress up to this

time, and endeavored to make Christ, instead of James, the attraction of

Heaven. He invited her to come to his house, to speak freely her mind to

him, to pray much, to read her Bible often.

The neighbors, who were at meeting,--among them Mrs. Reed,--discussed

the opinions Mrs. Bellmont would express on the subject. Mrs. Reed

called and informed Mrs. B. that her colored girl "related her

experience the other night at the meeting."

"What experience?" asked she, quickly, as if she expected to hear the

number of times she had whipped Frado, and the number of lashes set

forth in plain Arabic numbers.

"Why, you know she is serious, don't you? She told the minister about

it."

Mrs. B. made no reply, but changed the subject adroitly. Next morning

she told Frado she "should not go out of the house for one while, except

on errands; and if she did not stop trying to be religious, she would

whip her to death."

Frado pondered; her mistress was a professor of religion; was SHE going

to heaven? then she did not wish to go. If she should be near James,

even, she could not be happy with those fiery eyes watching her

ascending path. She resolved to give over all thought of the future

world, and strove daily to put her anxiety far from her.

Mr. Bellmont found himself unable to do what James or Jack could

accomplish for her. He talked with her seriously, told her he had seen

her many times punished undeservedly; he did not wish to have her saucy

or disrespectful, but when she was SURE she did not deserve a whipping,

to avoid it if she could. "You are looking sick," he added, "you cannot

endure beating as you once could."

It was not long before an opportunity offered of profiting by his

advice. She was sent for wood, and not returning as soon as Mrs. B.

calculated, she followed her, and, snatching from the pile a stick,

raised it over her.

"Stop!" shouted Frado, "strike me, and I'll never work a mite more for

you;" and throwing down what she had gathered, stood like one who feels

the stirring of free and independent thoughts.

By this unexpected demonstration, her mistress, in amazement, dropped

her weapon, desisting from her purpose of chastisement. Frado walked

towards the house, her mistress following with the wood she herself was

sent after. She did not know, before, that she had a power to ward off

assaults. Her triumph in seeing her enter the door with HER burden,

repaid her for much of her former suffering.

It was characteristic of Mrs. B. never to rise in her majesty, unless

she was sure she should be victorious.

This affair never met with an "after clap," like many others.

Thus passed a year. The usual amount of scolding, but fewer whippings.

Mrs. B. longed once more for Mary's return, who had been absent over a

year; and she wrote imperatively for her to come quickly to her. A

letter came in reply, announcing that she would comply as soon as she

was sufficiently recovered from an illness which detained her.

No serious apprehensions were cherished by either parent, who constantly

looked for notice of her arrival, by mail. Another letter brought

tidings that Mary was seriously ill; her mother's presence was

solicited.

She started without delay. Before she reached her destination, a letter

came to the parents announcing her death.

No sooner was the astounding news received, than Frado rushed into Aunt

Abby's, exclaiming:--

"She's dead, Aunt Abby!"

"Who?" she asked, terrified by the unprefaced announcement.

"Mary; they've just had a letter."

As Mrs. B. was away, the brother and sister could freely sympathize, and

she sought him in this fresh sorrow, to communicate such solace as she

could, and to learn particulars of Mary's untimely death, and assist him

in his journey thither.

It seemed a thanksgiving to Frado. Every hour or two she would pop in

into Aunt Abby's room with some strange query:

"She got into the RIVER again, Aunt Abby, didn't she; the Jordan is a

big one to tumble into, any how. S'posen she goes to hell, she'll be as

black as I am. Wouldn't mistress be mad to see her a nigger!" and others

of a similar stamp, not at all acceptable to the pious, sympathetic

dame; but she could not evade them.

The family returned from their sorrowful journey, leaving the dead

behind. Nig looked for a change in her tyrant; what could subdue her, if

the loss of her idol could not?

Never was Mrs. B. known to shed tears so profusely, as when she

reiterated to one and another the sad particulars of her darling's

sickness and death. There was, indeed, a season of quiet grief; it was

the lull of the fiery elements. A few weeks revived the former tempests,

and so at variance did they seem with chastisement sanctified, that

Frado felt them to be unbearable. She determined to flee. But where? Who

would take her? Mrs. B. had always represented her ugly. Perhaps every

one thought her so. Then no one would take her. She was black, no one

would love her. She might have to return, and then she would be more in

her mistress' power than ever.

She remembered her victory at the wood-pile. She decided to remain to do

as well as she could; to assert her rights when they were trampled on;

to return once more to her meeting in the evening, which had been

prohibited. She had learned how to conquer; she would not abuse the

power while Mr. Bellmont was at home.

But had she not better run away? Where? She had never been from the

place far enough to decide what course to take. She resolved to speak to

Aunt Abby. SHE mapped the dangers of her course, her liability to fail

in finding so good friends as John and herself. Frado's mind was busy

for days and nights. She contemplated administering poison to her

mistress, to rid herself and the house of so detestable a plague.

But she was restrained by an overruling Providence; and finally decided

to stay contentedly through her period of service, which would expire

when she was eighteen years of age.

In a few months Jane returned home with her family, to relieve her

parents, upon whom years and affliction had left the marks of age. The

years intervening since she had left her home, had, in some degree,

softened the opposition to her unsanctioned marriage with George. The

more Mrs. B. had about her, the more energetic seemed her directing

capabilities, and her fault-finding propensities. Her own, she had full

power over; and Jane after vain endeavors, became disgusted, weary, and

perplexed, and decided that, though her mother might suffer, she could

not endure her home. They followed Jack to the West. Thus vanished all

hopes of sympathy or relief from this source to Frado. There seemed no

one capable of enduring the oppressions of the house but her. She turned

to the darkness of the future with the determination previously formed,

to remain until she should be eighteen. Jane begged her to follow her so

soon as she should be released; but so wearied out was she by her

mistress, she felt disposed to flee from any and every one having her

similitude of name or feature.

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