A man who writes his friend's love-letters is twice a fool if he admires
his work. Burns, Byron, Morris and the others who contributed toward
these high crimes and misdemeanors were dead, and so escaped the wrath
of the angry gods, who switch triflers in Love's domain. I got all the
punishment due for the guilt of writing the compositions, and piled on
top of that came another turn on the hard road of the transgressor for
issuing them again. I did not intend to put them into general
circulation, of course; but my carelessness in leaving one of the
letters in the sun parlor really amounted to the same thing. The fellow
who carelessly hits a can of dynamite with an axe gets the same perfect
results as if he had planned to do it for several months. The worst,
however, was the swelling pride which led to the discussion of the
letters with Hygeia. It snatched her forcibly from my life at a time
when sustaining hope was most needed. The hypnotizing poets were to
blame. As I read the letters, I got the notion that I was responsible
for the inspired as well as the uninspired portions, and so became
topheavy and foolhardy in handling a kind of fire I did not understand.
Many another has been burned the same way.
Before letters of this character are passed out for general reading, it
must be understood that the audience shall not include the man who sent
them to a woman he afterwards killed, for the simple purpose of marrying
an accomplished lady of means, who is also a listener with him at the
recital. It is one of the rules in reading aloud second-hand
love-letters, never to have these conditions present, for they are apt
to induce distress in both parties. Had I been consulted with full
details presented for my consideration, I know I should have advised
against it.
Gabrielle and Jim listened to the reading of the letter left in the sun
parlor. It seemed to be public property, as there was no name attached
to it, and so it went the rounds of the hospital. Hygeia had intended to
read it for my entertainment first, but before doing so she chanced to
read it in the next room; perhaps because she thought the audience would
know more than I did of such matters, and would be more appreciative. In
this she was not mistaken. Jim's interest was there in cold shivers,
which made the springs hum and the slat gables whistle. Gabrielle
laughed and giggled like a schoolgirl.
"It's the funniest letter you ever heard," declared Hygeia, who seemed
to lose sight of its serious character. "I am sure you will both think
it so."
"If it's a love-letter, ought we to trifle with it?" asked Gabrielle.
"The man or woman to whom it belongs might not regard it as a joke."
"There are no names on it, and it will never be claimed now," said
Hygeia, hesitatingly.
"Read it, by all means, then, to cheer us," said Gabrielle.
Hygeia proceeded to read this collaboration of R. Burns and B. Hopkins:
"'My Darling Margaret: During your visits to the country your letters
cheer me as I fondly dwell upon the sweet suggestive thought that you
are ever thinking of me, as I am thinking of you, every waking and
dreaming moment. I fade away into dreamland, hand in hand with you,
and joyously together like innocent children we walk across the broad
meadows and through the woods to some hidden bower by the brook;
there as I look up into your eyes, the pebbly streamlet flashing a
glint of wayward sunshine, the wooing songbirds and the reposeful
harmonies of Nature soothe me like your tender glances when they fall
upon me alone. Aye, quite alone I would have them fall, to produce
that magic sensation of a dream's delight. Then when I awake in the
morning and realize that you are far, far away, and read your latest
letter again with pangs of the bitterest remorse, I dwell only upon
those passages which hint of other joys quite apart from your
interest in me. My desolation is that of a storm-tossed soul, seized
by every breath of fear and tortured by every agony known to the
forsaken. Have you no pity for me, Margaret? Drive no more shafts of
anguish through my bruised and shattered heart, but gently administer
in words of endearment the potency of your enthralling glances.
"'Forlorn, my love, no comfort near,
Far, far from thee, I wander here;
Far, far from thee, the fate severe,
At which I most repine, love.
"O, wert thou, love, but near me;
But near, near, near me;
How kindly thou wouldst cheer me,
And mingle sighs with mine, love!
"Around me scowls a wintry sky,
That blasts each bud of hope and joy,
And shelter, shade nor home have I,
Save in those arms of thine, love.'"
"Oh, my! How gushy!" exclaimed Gabrielle, as she laughed, and looked at
Jim to see if he were enjoying it as thoroughly.
"Yes, but how jolly it is to read," said Hygeia. "Listen to this:
"'There comes a faint ray of sunshine and hope when I read just a
word of your possible home-coming in a fortnight. Would that I might
keep that single thought in mind to illumine the dreary prospect!
There are times when it blazes brightly, and with the tripping
footsteps of joy I think of you as here at my side. How sweet the
fancy--
"'We'll gently walk, and sweetly talk,
Till the silent moon shine clearly;
I'll grasp thy waist, and, fondly prest,
Swear how I love thee dearly;
Not vernal showers to budding flow'rs,
Not autumn to the farmer,
So dear can be as thou to me,
My fair, my lovely charmer!'"
"My, but wouldn't it be fine to have such letters to treasure!" laughed
Gabrielle, teasingly. "Jim, don't you think it splendid?"
But Jim looked glum and tried to dodge under the quilts.
"'It is not every night I _can_ dream, believe me, darling,'"
continued Hygeia, her face in smiles, for she felt that her audience
was now in sympathy with the reading. "'Many and many a night I pace
the floor of my dark room or idly sit by the window gazing out at the
flickering stars and the pale moon until they fade away in the dawn,
and then I rush out into the turmoil of the unheeding, jostling
world, with nothing to live for but your return. On those nights one
soft word from your fair lips would summon me to peaceful dreams.
Alas! to realize that you are far, far from me, and the agony of the
thought that you may never return seizes and holds me fast. Then it
is--
"'O, thou pale orb, that silent shines,
While care-untroubled mortals sleep!
Thou seest a wretch who inly pines,
And wanders here to wail and weep!
With woe I nightly vigils keep,
Beneath thy wan, unwarming beam,
And mourn in lamentation deep
How life and love are all a dream.
"'Encircled in her clasping arms,
How have the raptured moments flown!
How have I wished for fortune's charms,
For her dear sake and hers alone!
And must I think it!--is she gone,
My secret heart's exulting boast?
And does she heedless hear my groan?
And is she ever, ever lost?
"'Oh! can she bear so base a heart,
So lost to honor, lost to truth,
As from the fondest lover part,
The plighted husband of her youth!'"
"Jim, why didn't you learn how to write letters, so that you could send
some to me like that? Don't you think it lovely? Please don't stop.
Pardon my interruptions," said Gabrielle.
"Never mind the interruptions. Let us get all the fun out of it we can,"
replied Hygeia, who continued to read with frequent interruptions from
Gabrielle, but none whatever from Jim--the livelier the comments and
laughter, the greater he was inclined to silence and disappearance
beneath the covers.
"Jim, why don't you laugh?" Gabrielle would say, turning to the poor
fellow, who was as meek as any beggar could be. The partition wall was
too thick for me to hear what was going on, although by direct line I
was probably not two feet away from Jim, for our beds stood head to
head.
The idea of entertaining Miss Tescheron and her ill companion in this
way was pleasing to Hygeia. Of course, she knew there was nothing in
those letters that could make a woman cry, so on she read, and as she
proceeded the fun for Gabrielle and the interest from Jim's standpoint
became intensified. I don't suppose I did anything except snore.
"'I have tried hard, my sweetheart,'" continued Hygeia, "'to find
distraction by visiting the places of amusement alone, but the music
of the orchestras became jarring discord in my ears; the plays,
either dull, or if interesting in plot with lovers happily united,
they but added to my anguish. There is no escape for a heart crushed
as mine has been. How I long for the wilderness; to be alone with my
sorrow since heaven calling for your companionship cannot be mine!
"'Had I a cave on some wild distant shore,
Where the winds howl to the waves' dashing roar;
There would I weep my woes,
There seek my lost repose,
Till grief my eyes should close,
Ne'er to wake more.
"'Every time you mention a birdie in one of your letters, Margaret,
I am driven to desperation. Why have I not the charms of the
woodland warblers to pierce with dulcet note the inmost fortresses
of your heart buttressed to strong resistance against my awkward
protestations of undying love? Nature has taught these creatures of
the wild to woo with a finer art. Man is but a clod--too sordid to
rise on wings of song into that vast expanse of heaven, a woman's
heart. Let me learn of the birds:
"'O, stay, sweet warbling woodlark, stay!
Nor quit for me the trembling spray;
A hapless lover courts thy lay,
Thy soothing, fond complaining.
"'Again, again, that tender part,
That I may catch thy melting art,
For surely that would touch her heart,
Wha kills me wi' disdaining.'"
"Why, how apt those quotations are and how full!" laughed Gabrielle.
"You don't suppose the writer could have been so cruel as to
deliberately copy them, and yet he must have done so, of course.
Just think of it: some man sitting there wildly in love, seeking
counsel of the inspired poets to plead his cause. His great devotion
leads him to select the tenderest passages; only those verses that
speak the deep sentiments of his flaming heart does he see, and with
them he presents his case. Why, really, I find that I am arguing
myself into a friendly attitude toward this poor soul. Perhaps it is
not right for us to laugh at that which is so real to this earnest
pleader. Still, it is funny to stand aside and see two people in
love, isn't it, Jim? Really one can't help laughing, and as we don't
know whose letters these are, why shouldn't we laugh? Then think of
the poor girl, up there in the country, writing long letters in
return, proud of her lover's ardor, yet shy in penning words of
devotion. Isn't it an attractive picture, Jim?--full of that
'soothing, fond complaining' for them, and comedy for the rest of
us? Go on, my dear, and let us hear more of this poetic woe;
although Jim doesn't say anything, I can see that he is listening.
Does it make you tired, Jim?"
"Oh, no. No, no, Gabrielle--not at all!" Jim managed to spruce up
enough to deny the intimation.
"Then please continue," urged Gabrielle.
Hygeia was delighted to find her entertainment so successful, and
proceeded, not noting, of course, the inward groans which spread
through the quaking man in the bed. Jim could see that unless a
great stroke of luck turned up there would be another fire, and he
would take a fall that would probably kill him next time.
It is dangerous to leave waste paper like those letters lying around
close to such highly inflammable material.
Poor Hygeia! She played with the fire like a child. What did she
know about the rules of the Board of Underwriters! Neither had she
ever heard of the Bureau of Combustibles!
It's a mighty lucky thing for my nerves that I was dreaming an
easier plot.
If Jim had been able to reach over the back of his bed and slit me
with a cleaver into rosette ribbons, one-quarter inch wide, I
believe he would have done it and been proud of the job.
Hygeia continuing, with Gabrielle expectant and Jim well muffled,
must have presented a picture I would give anything to have
preserved in oil paint.
"'How dearly I cherish the lock of hair I stole from you the evening
we parted! You are not angry with me, are you, Margaret?'" read
Hygeia.
"'Her hair is like the curling mist
That climbs the mountain sides at e'en,
When flow'r-reviving rains are past.
"'Really I do not wonder at the volumes of poetry that have been
written on the beautiful tresses of the fair enshrined in lovers'
hearts. Sweet dreams hover near this soft remembrance and I only
regret that I did not snip off enough to have a jeweler braid it for
my watch-charm locket. Enclosed please find some of mine in return.'"
"Here it is," exclaimed Hygeia, and she produced the small
allotment of Jim's, tied with a cotton thread in the middle.
Fortunately the original quantity had dwindled in fondling or
transit, so that with an exhibit of only eighteen strands, as per
my inventory, there was not enough to bulk and show the same depth
of shade as the original on the neighboring pillow. Gabrielle took
the fragmentary token and held it up, playfully remarking:
"Why, the dear fellow was a blond; almost your color, Jim, I should
imagine; perhaps a little lighter. He probably had eyes like yours,
Jimmy. Now, what a fortunate girl she was! Oh, my! Some men are so
tender and thoughtful about these little matters. Jim, you never
teased me by stealing a lock of my hair, did you? and so of course
I never asked for yours. What a slow old chap you are! These
letters will teach you a lesson, which I hope you will heed. Put
the lock back with that poetry to preserve it, and do let us hear
the rest of it."
"Listen, then," said Hygeia, continuing:
"'How the fresh breezes must be painting their ruddy hues on those
cheeks of yours, Margaret, for you write me that you are spending
most of your time in the open these beautiful days. How I long to be
with you and behold, for as the poet would sing of you--
"'Her cheeks are like yon crimson gem,
The pride of all the flow'ry scene,
Just opening on its thorny stem.
* * * * *
"'Aye, and then--
"'Her lips are like yon cherries ripe,
That sunny walls from Boreas screen--
They tempt the taste and charm the sight;
An' she has twa sparkling roguish een.'"
* * * * *
At this point I awoke, sat up in bed and reached out for the suspended
electric button, which I pushed for two long rings and a short one, my
private signal. I was thirsty for grape-juice. Hygeia seldom traveled
beyond range of my bell. As soon as she heard it, she stopped reading
and asked to be excused for a few minutes, until she could attend to my
wants.
It was now my eighth week at the hospital, and it found me with little
to do. I pined silently. The nurse flitting in and out cheered and then
distracted me; she was too busy elsewhere most of the time to suit me. I
dared not think too much of my troubles, for I found it discouraging and
weakening. The letters from Obreeon furnished the material I needed to
sustain a happy train of thought. Sitting up in bed with this precious
poetic patchwork piled over my lap, I had many a good sneeze. I am sure
I got some of my money back by reading them over and over again, with
the memory of the original spirit in which they were slapped together.
For a time the happy days of the fifth flat came back to me, and I
smiled and chuckled over the wildest specimens in suppressed glee.
Robert Burns, of Scotland, and I were responsible for many of these lone
lover's laments. I must say that Burns held up his end fairly well,
because I knew just where to place his underpinning to make it support
my magnificent prose. The Byron and Shakespeare-built letters were also
good. Scott rumbled a little too hard; his stride was too firm to answer
the purpose, except for short fillers now and then. All the big licks
were put in with Byron and Burns, and Morris occasionally as a
substitute. Those fellows warmed up to the subject in a way that pleased
me; they took right hold of a girl with as little timidity as a dancing
professor and poured their song into her inclining ear, happy in the
understanding that they were delivering the goods she wanted. Early in
the business I had come to the conclusion that it was useless to fool
with the cold-blooded wooers if results were wanted. Shakespeare, of
course, was a leader, but his best stuff was getting to be so common in
the language I found it impossible to quote him and maintain an air of
dignified originality, so as to make it appear that the gems fell
naturally by suggestion from Jim's well-stocked poem reservoir. If the
maiden should get the idea that the prose was written around the poetry
the scenic effect would be destroyed. The great thing was to make a hit
by getting the sincerity in the prose boiled down so thick that the
following poetry would seem to be only a breath of steam arising from
the solid mass of seething sentiment. It was assumed that the lady would
know who the poet was, but give Jim credit for selecting the verses the
same as if he had written them; she would not doubt him on the prose,
for occasionally I brought that down to the style of a plain business
letter to destroy suspicion.
The more I read those letters over at the hospital, the prouder I
became. My calm judgment was that they were well worth the price and any
woman might be proud to have them sent to her. Perhaps I would copy them
off again some time when I needed help that way myself; at any rate, I
was so proud of them I decided I would always keep them for their
literary value.
When Hygeia entered, I was deeply interested in this documentary mass. I
had forgotten about my thirst, imbibing from this fount of poetic
inspiration. She asked me what it was that pleased me so much, but I
dodged that question politely.
Soon I began to regret my evasive answer. When a man gets to be real
proud of his work of art, he wants somebody to admire it with him and
tell him how nice it is. I had believed I should be close-mouthed about
those letters, but when I had taken off the few at the top signed with
Jim's name I noticed there was nothing in them to tell who wrote them.
Why shouldn't Hygeia enjoy them with me? If a few seemed to affect her,
a clue to her heart's entrance would appear, and then I could undertake
the composition of more with greater earnestness than ever. A man can do
better in such business for himself. Just a few would do no harm, at any
rate. She would not know who "Devoted Darling" and "Jamie" and "My
Dearest Own" might be, with no envelopes and addresses to give the thing
away, and if she did, what would it matter? She would soon forget me as
well as the letters. Why not brighten the dull moments?
There is no limit to the persuasive questions a fool can put to himself.
"I thought you rang for something," she said.
"Why, I remember--I was thirsty. Please let me have some grape-juice off
the ice."
While she was gone I thought it all out carefully and decided not to
show the letters. It would be better to be a little cagy for a while.
When Hygeia returned, I again changed my mind and passed over to her a
dozen or so choice specimens.
"Please sit right down and read these and tell me what you think of
them," said I.
She went over to the window and presently began to laugh a little louder
than the regulations would permit. That suited me, because it proved the
style would melt if addressed to her; taken second-hand and cold that
way, she was bound to laugh at them. Letters in divorce cases referring
to the defendant woman as "a dream in curves" were no joke to the fair
one who had sighed over them. Buckwheat cakes and love-letters must be
done to order and served hot, or the steam dews on them and soggy
fermentation ensues, giving off laughing-gas.
"Why, who in the world could have written this nonsense?" laughed
Hygeia. "It sounds exactly like that letter one of the nurses found in
the sun parlor the other day--the same in many respects as that
letter--which has been passed around for the entertainment of the nurses
and the doctors. That also must belong to you. Shall I get it for you?"
"Perhaps I dropped some carelessly, but it's no matter," said I. "Let me
see it some time and I can tell you. What do you think of them?"
[Illustration: "WHY, WHO IN THE WORLD COULD HAVE WRITTEN THIS NONSENSE?"
LAUGHED HYGEIA.--_Page_ 214.]
"Think of them!" And she smiled as if she was pleased, as she continued
to turn page after page. "Surely you could not have written them, did
you, Mr. Hopkins?"
"I? A friend of mine--you showed him in the other day--thought they
would keep my mind occupied, so he brought them here."
"Well, I'm glad he did and that you let me read them. I think the other
nurses would enjoy them. May I not read a few to them?"
"Certainly, take all you want and read all you please; only return them
in order."
"But did your friend say who wrote them? If they concerned you
personally at all, or your friend, Mr. Hosley, of course I should not
want to take such liberties with them. Do they?"
"Why, my friend who brought them to me thought of publishing those
letters," said I, "just before he brought them to me, but I persuaded
him not to. Both the woman and her husband--"
"Why, did he really win her heart with them, and did they get married?"
"Certainly. Letters like that are written to win," I answered, with
quiet satisfaction, even though murder had been the outcome of my art.
"The lady and her husband dead and gone (honesty would have made me say
'or gone'), the letters fell into the possession of my friend, who in a
way deals in such curios. I bought them from him for a song (some songs
are worth one thousand dollars), although he was not over-anxious to
sell them."
"Well, if you bought them from a dealer in letters, then they must have
belonged to strangers. Really, are you fooling? Are you telling me the
truth?"
"I have not, since I have known you, told you a single thing which is
not true. But tell me, why do you doubt my sincerity? Why do you care if
they concern me?" I wondered if I could have smitten her slightly, and
my shoulders began to broaden against the pillow and a sensation of
feeling handsome passed over me, although I had not been to a barber in
weeks.
"Well, it would seem cruel to take your love-letters, you know, Mr.
Hopkins, and read them to the other nurses to laugh over, now wouldn't
it?"
"As you state it, perhaps it would," said I. "But what do you care about
Hosley? Why do you ask if they concern him? Has Miss Tescheron spoken to
you about him?" I was getting suspicious again, for she had refused, on
one excuse or another, to let me see Mr. Marshall. It had flashed on me
several times again that there was a bare chance of Marshall being
Hosley under another name given to him by a person mistaken in
identifying him, or that he was trying to hide from me under an alias so
easy for him to assume, and had induced Miss Tescheron, perhaps, to
avoid meeting me. The flowers, perhaps, were only to mislead me.
"Did I really ask if they concerned Mr. Hosley?" And she looked at me
with such a teasing air.
"You surely did."
"Well, you used to have so much to say about him I thought perhaps you
might have heard from him, you know, through this gentleman who called,
and if you are still friendly to him you would not want to have his
letters read around the hospital to furnish entertainment. Still, these
letters were written by a married man, and I understand you and Mr.
Hosley are bachelors. Mr. Hosley might have written these letters as a
bachelor, I feared, and might not be proud to hear them now. He--"
"Tell me, if you thought of reading them to Mr. Hosley, where is he? It
might interest me to know. You sometimes talk strangely, as if you know
where he is, and yet you will not tell me. Has Miss Tescheron confided
his whereabouts to you? If so, please tell me, for I would, indeed, like
to confront that gentleman mighty well."
"Then you are really friendly to Mr. Hosley, and may look for him when
you leave here?" She spoke as if I were about to confirm her impression
that I knew only good of Hosley.
"I shall certainly find him, never fear. But my friendship for that man
is dead--slain by his own hand," said I, bitterly.
This seemed to shock her rudely, but she quickly recovered and asked:
"Why look for a man in whom you have no interest? Has he committed some
crime that you would track him down?"
"I will track that man down to his very grave," said I, solemnly,
shaking my forefinger at her as she rested one hand on the foot of the
bed and looked at me with breathless interest. "Miss Tescheron shall
know all that I learn. If she should ever happen to call here to see
you, be sure to tell her that, if you please; but you need not say I
told you to tell her. Only, I shall be willing to have her know that I
am on the trail of that scoundrel. There--I did not mean to burden you
with my opinion of Hosley. I had intended to leave here quietly without
saying a word about him. The secret has clawed at my heart so that I
have not been able to keep it. And what matters it? You do not know him.
I am satisfied that he has skipped to parts unknown, because he fears
that officers are watching for him here. My, but it is terrible!
Terrible! How can such villains achieve their dastardly ends with women
and escape detection! Some mysterious influence seems to cover them, in
all their devilish ways, from the suspicion of innocent people. Perhaps
their victims in many cases shrink from exposing them. Oh, forgive me
for burdening you with this awful mystery! It almost drives me mad!"
"Mystery! What has he done? In heaven's name, tell me!" And she almost
screamed as she clenched the bed with both hands and leaned far toward
me, those wonderful eyes staring in horror. The effect of my eloquence
was greater than I suspected, but I continued to expand with
commensurate pride.
"He murdered a woman but two days before he sought to marry Miss
Tescheron"; and as I said it, I sank upon my pillow with a hand across
my eyes to stay the tears which a more vivid presentation of the crimes
of Hosley brought to my eyes. When I looked up, the nurse, pale but
calm, was looking at me.
How wide I was of the mark! Instantly she had conceived the idea that
the letter she had been reading to furnish diverting comedy in the next
room was burdened with tragedy for the young woman to whom she had
become deeply attached. Her training had taught her to maintain
self-control in the emergency. Another woman, brought face to face with
a murderer fondling his next victim with gory hands, might have swooned
or excitedly rushed to the rescue of the fair prey with wild
denunciations of the criminal.
"My! but you seem pale," I said anxiously.
"Your ghost story frightened me, Mr. Hopkins. Please don't tell me any
more like that. It is now time for your luncheon."
There were so many things on my schedule of routine that it was always
time for some cruel requirement to steal her away from me.
As she passed out I noticed a strange expression of care upon her
beautiful face. I could not account for it, unless my earnestness had
impressed her. Her point of view made the serious letters comedy for her
at first; perhaps this was the reaction. There could be no reason for
her agitation, based on her transient interest in Miss Tescheron, I
imagined, for she had only met her for a few minutes at a time. It must
have been my eloquence, the power of my dramatic art to so vividly
portray the hideous Hosley that she became quite as much affected as if
she had intimately known the criminal, and had followed his creeping,
serpentine ways for bringing the next creature into his power. It rather
pleased me to find that I could exercise this wonderful influence--a
force so long latent in a superior intellectual equipment, obscured by a
disenchanting personal appearance, especially unconvincing then, for I
never looked particularly well in bed.
A nurse I had not seen before brought my luncheon, and with it the
letter, which I quickly recognized belonged to my thousand-dollar
collection.
"Your nurse sends this letter, which I am told is yours," said my new
guardian. "She is ill and the doctor has ordered her to rest."
"Ill? Why, I am very, very sorry to hear that," said I. "Tell me,
please, how seriously ill she is. Only a moment ago she left here
looking very pale. Do tell me about her."
"Why, that is all I know."
The next day I learned that Hygeia had gone to her home in Connecticut
for a brief vacation. Something had happened; I did not know what. The
doctor, it appears, advised that a vacation would be the thing. I could
learn no more. I was able to get her address, and wrote a long letter to
her, but no reply came. I began to doubt the strength of my magnetic
power over her, so encouragingly demonstrated, and was utterly miserable
again. Every other worldly interest became dim; the last ray of hope had
gone and through the dark valley of despair I stumbled alone.
Marshall, I learned, had left the same day Hygeia departed, but I did
not care. I should not have spoken to him. I was in no humor to talk
with him over that tame experience passed through while I was
unconscious. When burning over a slow fire, a man is not fit for
reminiscence. Two weeks later, after an illness of ten weeks, I was
discharged from the hospital with all wounds healed except the one I
received there, and perhaps that other--the maddening effect of Hosley's
infidelity.