Chapter XVIII

"For now I stand as one upon a rock,

Environed with a wilderness of sea,

Who marks the waxing tide grow wave by wave,

Expecting ever when some envious surge

Will in his brinish bowels swallow him."

SHAKESPEARE.

The tide was on the ebb when Newton was left in this desolate situation.

After some minutes passed in bitterness of spirit, his natural courage

returned; and, although the chance of preservation was next to hopeless,

Newton rose up, resolved that he would use his best efforts, and trust

to Providence for their success. His first idea was to examine the

beach, and see if Jackson had left him any portion of the provisions

which he had put into the boat; but there was nothing. He then walked

along the beach, following the receding tide, with the hope of

collecting any shell-fish which might be left upon the sands; but here

again he was disappointed. It was evident, therefore, that to stay on

this islet was to starve; his only chance appeared to remain in his

capability of reaching the islet next to it, which, as we have before

mentioned, was covered with trees. There, at least, he might find some

means of sustenance, and be able with the wood to make a raft, if

nothing better should turn up in his favour.

The tide swept down towards the islet, but it ran so strong that there

was a chance of his being carried past it; he therefore determined to

wait for an hour or two, until the strength of the current was

diminished, and then make the attempt. This interval was passed in

strengthening his mind against the horror of the almost positive death

which stared him in the face.

It was about an hour before low water that Newton walked into the sea,

and, commending himself to Providence, struck out for the islet, keeping

his course well to windward, to allow for the tide sweeping him down. To

use a nautical phrase, he "held his own" extremely well, until he

reached the centre of the channel, where the water ran with great

velocity, and bore him down rapidly with the stream. Newton struggled

hard; for he was aware that the strength of the current once passed, his

labour would be comparatively easy; and so it proved: as he neared the

shore of the islet, he made good way; but he had been carried down so

far when in the centre of the stream that it became a nice point, even

to the calculation of hope, whether he would fetch the extreme point of

the islet. Newton redoubled his exertions, when, within thirty yards of

the shore, an eddy assisted him, and he made sure of success; but when

within ten yards, a counter current again caught him, and swept him

down. He was now abreast of the very extreme point of the islet; a bush

that hung over the water was his only hope; with three or four desperate

strokes he exhausted his remaining strength, at the same time that he

seized hold of a small bough. It was decayed--snapped asunder, and

Newton was whirled away by the current into the broad ocean.

How constantly do we find people running into real danger to avoid

imaginary evil! A mother will not permit her child to go to sea, lest it

should be drowned, and a few days afterwards it is kicked to death by a

horse. Had the child been permitted to go afloat, he might have lived

and run through the usual term of existence. Wherever we are, or

wherever we may go, there is death awaiting us in some shape or another,

sooner or later; and there is as much danger in walking through the

streets of London as in ploughing the foaming ocean. Every tile over our

heads contains a death within it as certain, if it were to fall upon

us, as that occasioned by the angry surge which swallows us up in its

wrath. I believe, after all, that as many sailors, in proportion, run

out their allotted span as the rest of the world that are engaged in

other apparently less dangerous professions; although it must be

acknowledged that occasionally we do become food for fishes. "There is a

tide in the affairs of men," says Shakespeare; but, certainly, of all

the tides that ever interfered in a man's prospects, that which swept

away Newton Forster appeared to be the least likely to "lead to

fortune." Such, however, was the case. Had Newton gained the islet which

he coveted, he would have perished miserably; whereas it will soon

appear that, although his sufferings are not yet ended, his being

carried away was the most fortunate circumstance which could have

occurred, and proved the means of his ultimate preservation.

Newton had resigned himself to his fate. He ceased from further

exertion, except such as was necessary to keep him above water a little

longer. Throwing himself on his back, he appealed to Heaven for pardon,

as he floated away with the stream. That Newton had as few errors and

follies to answer for as most people, is most certain; yet even the most

perfect soon run up a long account. During our lives our sins are

forgotten, as is the time at which they were committed; but when death

is certain, or appears to be so, it is then that the memory becomes most

horribly perfect, and each item of our monstrous bill requires but a few

seconds to be read, and to be acknowledged as too correct. This is the

horror of death; this it is which makes the body struggle to retain the

soul, already pluming herself and rustling her wings, impatient for her

flight. This it is which constitutes the pang of separation, as the

enfeebled body gradually relaxes its hold, and--all is over, at least on

this side of the grave.

Newton's strength was exhausted; his eyes were fixed on the clear blue

sky, as if to bid it farewell; and, resigned to his fate, he was about

to give over the last few painful efforts which he was aware could only

prolong, not save his life, when he received a blow on his shoulders

under the water. Imagining that it proceeded from the tail of a shark,

or of some other of the ravenous monsters of the deep, which abound

among these islands, and that the next moment his body would be severed

in half, he uttered a faint cry at the accumulated horror of his death;

but the next moment his legs were swung round by the current, and he

perceived, to his astonishment, that he was aground upon one of the

sand-banks which abounded on the reef, and over which the tide was

running with the velocity of a sluice. He floundered, then rose, and

found himself in about one foot of water. The ebb-tide was nearly

finished; and this was one of the banks which never showed itself above

water, except during the full and change of the moon. It was now about

nine o'clock in the morning, and the sun shone with great power. Newton,

faint from want of sustenance, hardly knew whether to consider this

temporary respite as an advantage. He knew that the tide would soon flow

again, and he felt that his strength was too much spent to enable him to

swim back to the islet which he had missed when he had attempted to

reach it, and which was more than two miles from the bank upon which he

then stood. What chance had he, then, but to be swept away by the return

of the tide? He almost regretted that it had not been a shark instead of

the sand-bank which had struck him; he would then have been spared a few

hours of protracted misery.

As Newton had foreseen, the ebb-tide was soon over; a short pause of

"slack water" ensued, and there was an evident and rapid increase of the

water around him: the wind, too, freshened, and the surface of the ocean

was in strong ripples. As the water deepened, so did the waves increase

in size: every moment added to his despair. He had now remained about

four hours on the bank! the water had risen to underneath his arms, the

waves nearly lifted him off his feet, and it was with difficulty that he

could retain his position. Hope deserted him, and his senses became

confused. He thought that he saw green fields, and cities, and

inhabitants. His reason was departing; he saw his father coming down to

him with the tide, and called to him for help, when the actual sight of

something recalled him from his temporary aberration. There was a dark

object upon the water, evidently approaching. His respiration was almost

suspended as he watched its coming. At last he distinguished that it

must either be a whale asleep, or a boat bottom up. Fortunately for

Newton, it proved to be the latter. At last it was brought down by the

tide to within a few yards of him, and appeared to be checked. Newton

dashed out towards the boat, and in a minute was safely astride upon it.

As soon as he had recovered a little from his agitation, he perceived

that it was the very boat belonging to the brig, in which Jackson had so

treacherously deserted and left him on the island!

At three o'clock it was high water, and at five the water had again

retreated, so that Newton could quit his station on the bottom of the

boat, and walk round her. He then righted her, and discovered that the

mast had been carried away close to the step, but, with the sail, still

remained fast to the boat by the main-sheet, which had jammed on the

belaying pin, so that it still was serviceable. Everything else had been

lost out of the boat, except the grapnel, which had been bent, and which

hanging down in the water, from the boat being capsized, had brought it

up when it was floated on the sand-bank. Newton, who had neither eaten

nor drunk since the night before, was again in despair, tormented as he

was by insufferable thirst: when he observed that the locker under the

stern-sheets was closed. He hastened to pull it open, and found that the

bottles of wine and cider which he had deposited there were remaining. A

bottle of the latter was soon poured down his throat, and Newton felt as

if restored to his former vigour.

At seven o'clock in the evening the boat was nearly high and dry. Newton

baled her out, and, fixing the grapnel firmly in the sand, lay down to

sleep in the stern-sheets, covered over with the sail. His sleep was so

sound that he did not wake until six o'clock the next morning; when the

boat was again aground. He refreshed himself with some wine, and

meditated upon his prospect. Thanking Heaven for a renewed chance of

escape, and lamenting over the fate of the unprepared Jackson, who had

evidently been upset, from the main-sheet having been jammed, Newton

resolved to make for one of the English isles, which he knew to be about

two hundred miles distant.

The oars had been lost, but the rudder of the boat was fortunately made

fast by a pennant. In the afternoon he drew up his grapnel, and made

sail in the direction, as well as he could judge from the position of

the sun, to the English isles. As the night closed in, he watched the

stars, and steered his course by them.

The next day came, and, although the boat sailed well, and went fast

before a free wind, no land was in sight. Newton had again recourse to

the cider and the wine.

The second night he could hardly keep his eyes open; yet, wearied as he

was, he still continued his course, and never quitted his helm. The day

again dawned, and Newton's strength was gone, from constant watching;

still he bore up against it, until the sun had set.

No land was yet to be seen, and sleep overpowered him. He took a hitch

of the main-sheet round his finger, that, should the breeze freshen, he

might be roused, in case he should go to sleep; and, having taken this

precaution, in a few minutes the boat _was steering herself_.

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