A DESOLATE NIGHT.
Yes, he was gone. Great Britain rose on the Sunday morning to the
news, for the telegraphs were at work, and the tidings were carried
through the length and breadth of the land. And people did not believe
it. It could not be! Why, it seemed but yesterday that he had come
over in the flower of youth and promise to wed the fair young Queen!
Dead! Prince Albert dead! None of you have forgotten the wide gap in
the Litany that Sunday morning; the pale lips of the clergymen,
compelled to make it; the quivering, breathless hearts that answered
to it. But for the remembrance that God's ways are not as our ways,
how many of those startled and grieved hearts would have felt tempted
to question the _why_ of the stroke, in their imperfect wisdom.
But to return to Caroline Cray, for the night was not yet over and
the bell was ringing out. When the first immediate shock had passed,
she quitted the window and leaned her head upon the counterpane. A
solemn awe had laid hold of her, and she felt as she had never felt
in all her life. Her whole soul seemed to go up in--may I dare to
say?--heavenly commune. It was as if heaven had opened--had become
very near. I may be mistaken, but I believe this same feeling was
experienced by many in the first startling shock. This was so entirely
unlike an ordinary death; even of one of our near and dear relatives.
Heaven seemed no longer the far-off mysterious place she had been wont
to regard it, but a _home_, a refuge, all near and real. It had opened
and taken him in; in his early manhood; in his full usefulness; in
England's need; when that wife and royal lady had learned to lean
upon him; when his sons and his daughters were growing up around him,
some of them at the moment in other lands, out of reach of the
loving farewell of his aching heart! with his mission here--it so
seemed--only half-fulfilled!--it had taken him in before his time, and
gathered him to his rest. He did not seem to have gone entirely away;
he was only hidden beyond reach and sight for a little while; that
same refuge would open for her, Caroline, and others; a little
earlier, a little later, and she and all would follow him. Heavy as
the blow was in itself, incapable as she was of understanding it, it
yet seemed an earnest of the overruling presence of the living God.
Oh, what was the poor world in that night, with the strokes of the
death-bell sounding in her ears, compared to that never-ending world
above, that heritage on which he had entered!
Fatigue and emotion did their most on Mrs. Cray. In the morning she
was unable to get up, and Watton wisely and kindly urged that she
should not rise at all that day, but take a good rest, and go on to
Miss Davenal's on the morrow. So she lay where she was, and listened
to that gloomy death-bell, as it periodically gave forth its sound;
and the bursts of tears, in her bodily weakness could not be
suppressed, but came forth repeatedly to wet the pillow, as she
thought of the widowed Queen, the fatherless children.
The day's rest did her a great deal of good, and she rose on the
Monday renovated and refreshed. A wish had come over her that she
could see a doctor and learn her fate before she went to her aunt
Bettina's. She had not come to town with the intention of consulting
any particular surgeon;--indeed she hardly knew the name of one from
another. Watton, when sitting with her on the Sunday night, had spoken
of a noted surgeon living in Westminster, and Caroline remembered then
to have heard Dr. Davenal speak of his skill: and she determined to go
to him.
She went up in an early omnibus through the mourning streets. The
bells were tolling, the shutters were partially closed, men and women
stood in groups to converse, sadness pervading every countenance. The
surgeon, Mr. Welch, was at home, but she had to wait her turn to be
admitted to him.
He was not in the least like Monsieur Le Bleu, except in one little
matter--he wore spectacles. A silent man, who looked more than talked;
he bade Mrs. Cray tell her case to him from beginning to end in the
best manner she was able, and he never took his spectacles from her
face while she was doing so.
What she said necessitated an examination of the side. It could be but
a slight one there, dressed as she was, but the surgeon appeared to
form a pretty rapid opinion. She inquired whether it was curable, and
he replied that he could not say upon so superficial an examination,
but he would see her at home, if she would tell him where she lived.
In her reply, when she said she had no home in London, it escaped her
that her husband was a medical man living in France.
"What part of it?" he inquired.
"At Honfleur."
"Honfleur!" echoed the surgeon in an accent of surprise. "Is there
sufficient practice to employ an English medical man at Honfleur? I
should not have thought it. I was there a year or two ago."
The consciousness of the truth of what the "practice" was dyed her
cheeks with their carmine flush. Her eyelids drooped, her trembling
fingers entwined themselves convulsively one within the other, as if
there were some sad tale to tell. Her bonnet was untied, and its rich
white strings (for Watton had affixed these new ones, and taken off
the dirty ones) fell on her velvet cloak, nearly the only good relic
left of other days. That grave gentleman of sixty, seated opposite to
her, thought he had never seen so lovely a face, with its fragile
features, its delicate bloom, and its shrinking expression.
She raised her dark blue violet eyes, their lashes wet. Misfortune had
brought to her a strange humility. "There's not much practice yet,
sir. It may come with time."
He thought he could discern the whole case. It is that of _some_ who go
abroad; a struggle for existence, anxiety of mind and body, privation,
and the latent constitutional weakness showing itself at last.
One single word of confidential sympathy, and Caroline burst into
tears. Her spirits that morning were strangely low, and she had no
power to struggle against emotion.
"I beg your pardon," she murmured apologetically when she could speak.
"The fatigue of the long journey--the universal gloom around--I shall
be better in a minute."
"Now tell me all about it," said Mr. Welch in a kind tone, when she
had recovered. "There's an old saying, you know: 'Tell your whole case
to your lawyer and your doctor,' and it is a good injunction. I like
my patients to treat me as a friend. I suppose; the practice in
Honfleur is worth about five francs every three months, and that you
have suffered physically in consequence. Don't hesitate to speak: I
can shake hands with your husband: when I was first in practice I had
hardly bread to eat."
It was so exceedingly like the real fact, "about five francs every
three months," and his manner and tone were so entirely kind and
sympathising, that Mrs. Cray made no pretence of denial. The practice
was really not enough to starve upon, she acknowledged: none of the
English residents at Honfleur ever got ill.
"But why did your husband settle there? Was it his first essay?--his
start in life?"
"O no. He was in practice at Hallingham before that, in partnership
with Dr. Davenal."
"With Dr. Davenal!"
The repetition of the name, the astonished tone, recalled Mrs. Cray to
a sense of her inadvertence. The admission had slipped from her
carelessly, in the thoughtlessness of the moment. Mr. Welch saw that
there was something behind, and he kept his inquiring eyes fixed upon
her. She felt obliged to give some sort of explanation.
"After Dr. Davenal's death my husband gave up the medical profession,
and embarked in something else. He thought he should like it better.
But it--it---failed: And he went to Honfleur."
Her confusion--which she could not hide--was very palpable: it was
confusion as well as distress. All in a moment the name, Cray, struck
upon a chord in the surgeon's memory. It was his custom to take down
the names of his patients ere he entered upon their cases, and he
looked again at the memorandum-book before him. "Cray."
"Your husband is not the Mr. Cray who was connected with the Great
Chwddyn Mine!" he exclaimed. "Marcus Cray?"
She was startled to tremor. There was no cause for it, of course the
fact of its being known that she was Mark's wife could not result in
their taking _him_. But these unpleasant recognitions do bring a fear
with them, startling as it is vague.
"Don't be alarmed," said the surgeon kindly, discerning the exact
state of the case. "I do not wish ill to your husband. I was no
shareholder in the company. Not but that I felt an inclination for a
dip into it, and might have had it, had the thing gone on."
"It was not Mr. Cray's fault," she gasped. "He would have kept the
water out had it been in his power: its coming in ruined him. I cannot
see--I have never been able to see--why everybody should be so much
against him."
"I cannot understand why he need keep away," was the answering remark.
He looked at her inquiringly as he spoke. She shook her head in a
helpless sort of manner: she had never clearly understood it either.
"Ah well; I see you don't know much; you young wives rarely do. Did
you know Dr. Davenal?"
"He was my uncle," she said. "He brought me up. I was Miss Caroline
Davenal."
Another moment of surprise for Mr. Welch. It seemed so impossible for
a niece of the good and flourishing physician-surgeon to be so
reduced, as he suspected she was--almost homeless, friendless,
penniless.
She was struggling with her tears again. With the acknowledgment her
memory had gone back to the old home, the old days. She had scarcely
believed _then_ there was such a thing as care in the world;
_now_----?
"You will tell me the truth about myself," she said, recovering
composure. "I came to England to learn it. _Pray_ don't deceive me. I
am a doctor's wife you know, and can bear these shocks," she added,
with a poor attempt at a smile. "Besides, I seem to _know_ the fate
that is in store for me: since Saturday night I have not felt that I
should get well."
There was one moment of hesitation--of indecision. Caroline caught at
it all too readily. "I see," she said, "there is no hope."
"I said nothing of the sort," he returned.
"But I am sure you think that there is not. Mr. Cray thought there
might be an operation: the French doctor said no."
"I cannot tell you anything decisive now. I will come to you if you
will tell me where."
She gave him Miss Davenal's address. "I am so sorry to trouble you; I
did not think of that. A few days and I shall go back to France."
"No," replied the surgeon. "You must not think of going back. It would
not do."
"But I came. And it has not hurt me."
"You must not return."
He spoke in a tone so quietly grave that Caroline did not like it.
Could it be that he knew she would be unable to go back? What would
become of Mark? what would become of _her?_ But she could not take up
his time longer then.
"Is this right?" she asked timidly, as she laid a sovereign and a
shilling on the table.
"It's quite wrong," said he. "Doctors don't prey upon one another.
My dear lady, do you think I should take money from Dr. Davenal's
niece?--or your husband's wife? Anything that I can possibly do for
you I shall be most happy to do--and I am glad you happened to come to
me."
She went out of the house. Why it should have been she could not tell,
for certainly Mr. Welch's words had not induced it, but the conviction
of a fatal termination, which had but dawned upon her before, had
taken firm possession of her now. Lost in thought as she walked, she
missed the turning by which she had gained the surgeon's house, and,
found herself at last in a labyrinth, far away from omnibuses and
anything else available.
One directed her this way; one directed her that. Weary, faint, unfit
to move another step, she found herself at last in a street whose
aspect seemed more familiar; but not until she caught sight of a
door-plate, "Bracknell, Street, and Oswald Cray," did she recognise it
to be Parliament Street.
The temptation to go in and ask to be allowed to rest was strong upon
her, but she did not like to do so, and walked on, longing to sit down
on every door-step. A little way further and she met Oswald Cray.
When the physical strength has been taxed beyond its power, especially
in a peculiar case such as hers, any little break to it of mental
excitement either renovates it for the moment or destroys it utterly.
It was the latter case with Caroline.
"Mrs. Cray!" exclaimed Oswald, in surprise. "I did not know you were
in London."
She caught hold of something in her faintness. Whether pillar, railings,
post, she could not have told. Her brow grew moist, her lips white.
Oswald hastened to support her.
"I have lost my way," she gasped, leaning heavily upon him. "I missed
it when I came out of the surgeon's, Mr. Welch. I came over from
Honfleur on Saturday, Oswald; I came to consult an English doctor. I
am dying."
"Dying!" repeated Oswald. "No, no, it is only a little faintness."
"Not _this_. I shall be better of this directly. It is my side. I'll
tell you about it when the faintness has passed. I thought there was
no hope for me. I know it now."
He was leading her gently, by slow steps, towards the house. "How is
Mark? Is he here too?" he asked.
"Not Mark. He cannot come, you know."
"Is he getting on?"
"Oh, Oswald! getting on! There's no practice; and we have not a
penny-piece; and--I--I am dying. Oh, if I had not to die abroad! If
Mark could but come to me."
"Where are you staying?" he asked after a pause.
"Watton gave me shelter. It was late when the boat got up, too late to
go on to my aunt Bettina's, and I called at Watton's, and asked her to
take me in. Oswald!--Oswald!--"
"What?" he asked, for she had dropped her voice, and her utterance
seemed to be impeded by emotion.
"I heard the bell toll out for Prince Albert! I was close to it!"
"Ah!"
"Oswald! can you realise the fact that he is dead?"
"Not yet; scarcely yet. It is difficult to believe that _he_ is taken,
while we are left. It seems to us, in our finite notions, that there's
hardly a man in the realm but could have been better spared. But God
knows best."
His tone of pain had changed to reverence. There was no more said
until they reached his door. He assisted her upstairs to the old
sitting-room, the same sitting-room, with the same plans and charts
and signs of work on its table. Oswald was a full partner now.
Industry--trustful, patient, persevering, fair-dealing industry--had
met with its reward. Did you ever know it fail? I never did.
Mr. Bracknell had virtually retired from the firm, leaving most of its
profit to Mr. Street and Oswald Cray. Had Miss Sara Davenal been the
daughter of the still-living and flourishing physician, on whom not a
cloud rested, as was the case in the years gone by, Oswald could have
asked for her hand now, and given her a home that even he would have
deemed worthy of her.
Not having her, however, or any other lady, as a wife in prospective,
he was content to let the home remain in abeyance, and lived in the
old rooms, putting up with the comforts and agreeables Mrs. Benn chose
to provide for him. The first thing Caroline did, on being placed on
an easy chair, was to faint away. It was the only time she had fainted
since the day in October when she walked to the Côte de Grâce. Mark
Cray gave fatigue the benefit of the blame then, and it was probably
due to the same cause now. When Mrs. Benn came up in answer to
Oswald's summons, nothing could well exceed her amazement at seeing a
lifeless lady lying in the chair, her bonnet hanging at the back by
its strings, her gloves on the ground, and Mr. Oswald Cray rubbing her
unconscious hands.
The first thought that occurred to Mrs. Benn was one of wonder how she
got there: the second, that it was some stranger who had come to the
offices on business, and had been taken ill.
"She's married, at any rate," remarked that lady, as she took up the
left hand to chafe it. "But nobody would say so to look in her face.
She's like a girl."
"Don't you know her?" returned Oswald, glancing at the woman. "It is
Mrs. Cray; my brother's wife."
Mrs. Benn gave a shriek in her surprise. "_Her!_ Why, sir, how she's
altered! She looks fit----"
"Hush!" was his interrupting caution, for Caroline began to revive.
"Can't we improvise a sofa or mattress, or something of that sort, to
place her on?"