ON BOILERS AND BUTTERFLIES

|I went recently to an industrial town in the North on some business,

and while there had occasion to meet a man who manufactured boilers and

engines and machinery of all sorts. He talked to me about boilers

and engines and machinery of all sorts, and I did my best to appear

interested and understanding. But I was neither one nor the other. I was

only bored. Boilers and engines, I know, are important things. Compared

with a boiler, the finest lyric that was ever written is only a perfume

on the gale. There is a practical downrightness about a boiler that

makes “Drink to me only with thine eyes,” or “O mistress mine, where are

you roaming?” or even “Twelfth Night” itself, a mere idle frivolity.

All you can say in favour of “Twelfth Night,” from the strictly business

point of view, is that it doesn't wear out, and the boiler does. Thank

heaven for that.

But though boilers and engines are undoubtedly important things, I can

never feel any enthusiasm about them. I know I ought to. I know I ought

to be grateful to them for all the privileges they confer on me. How,

for example, could I have gone to that distant town without the help of

a boiler? How--and this was still more important--how could I hope

to get away from that distant town without the help of a boiler? But

gratitude will not keep pace with obligation, and the fact remains that

great as my debt is to machinery, I dislike personal contact with it

as much as I dislike the east wind. It gives the same feeling of arid

discomfort, of mental depression, of spiritual bleakness. It has no

bowels of compassion. It is power divorced from feeling and is the

symbol of brute force in a world that lives or perishes by its emotional

values. In Dante's “Inferno” each sinner had a hell peculiarly adapted

to give him the maximum of misery. He would have reserved a machine-room

for me, and there I should have wandered forlornly for ever and ever

among wheels and pulleys and piston-rods and boilers, vainly trying

amidst the thud and din of machinery and the nauseous reek of oily

“waste” to catch those perfumes on the gale, those frivolous rhythms

to which I had devoted so much of that life' which should be “real and

earnest” and occupied with serious things like boilers. And so it came

about that as my friend talked I spiritually wilted away.

I did not seem to be listening to a man. I seemed to be listening to a

learned and articulate boiler.

Then something happened. I do not recall what it was; but it led from

boilers to butterflies. The transition seems a little violent and

inexplicable. The only connection I can see is that there is a “b” in

boilers and a “b” in butterflies. But, whatever the cause, the effect

was miraculous. The articulate boiler became suddenly a flaming spirit.

The light of passion shone in his eyes. He no longer looked at me as if

I were a fellow-boiler; but as if I were his long-lost and dearly-loved

brother. Was I interested in butterflies? Then away with boilers! Come,

I must see his butterflies. And off we went as fast as petrol could

whisk us to his house in the suburbs, and there in a great room,

surrounded with hundreds of cases and drawers, I saw butterflies from

the ends of the earth, butterflies from the forests of Brazil and

butterflies from the plains of India, and butterflies from the veldt of

South Africa and butterflies from the bush of Australia, all arranged

in the foliage natural to their habitat to show how their scheme of

coloration conformed to their setting. Some of them had their wings

folded back and were indistinguishable from the leaves among which they

lay. And as my friend, with growing excitement, revealed his treasure,

he talked of his adventures in the pursuit of them, and of the law of

natural selection and all its bearing upon the mystery of life, its

survivals and its failures. This hobby of his was, in short, the key

of his world. The boiler house was the prison where he did time. At the

magic word “butterflies” the prison door opened, and out he sailed on

the wings of passion in pursuit of the things of the mind.

There are some people who speak slightingly of hobbies as if they were

something childish and frivolous. But a man without a hobby is like a

ship without a rudder. Life is such a tumultuous and confused affair

that most of us get lost in the tangle and brushwood and get to the

end of the journey without ever having found a path and a sense of

direction. But a hobby hits the path at once. It may be ever so trivial

a thing, but it supplies what the mind needs, a disinterested enthusiasm

outside the mere routine of work and play. You cannot tell where it

will lead. You may begin with stamps, and find you are thinking in

continents. You may collect coins, and find that the history of man is

written on them. You may begin with bees, and end with the science of

life. Ruskin began with pictures and found they led to economics and

everything else. For as every road was said to lead to Rome, so every

hobby leads out into the universe, and supplies us with a compass

for the adventure. It saves us from the humiliation of being merely

smatterers. We cannot help being smatterers in general, for the world

is too full of things to permit us to be anything else, but one field

of intensive culture will give even our smattering a respectable

foundation.

It will do more. It will save our smattering from folly. No man who

knows even one subject well, will ever be quite such a fool as he might

be when he comes to subjects he does not know. He will know he does not

know them and that is the beginning of wisdom. He will have a scale of

measurement which will enable him to take soundings in strange waters.

He will have, above all, an attachment to life which will make him at

home in the world. Most of us need some such anchorage. We are plunged

into this bewildering whirlpool of consciousness to be the sport of

circumstance. We have in us the genius of speculation, but the further

our speculations penetrate the profounder becomes the mystery that

baffles us. We are caught in the toils of affections that crumble to

dust, indoctrinated with creeds that wither like grass, beaten about by

storms that shatter our stoutest battlements like spray blown upon the

wind. In the end, we suspect that we are little more than dreams within

a dream--or as Carlyle puts it, “exhalations that are and then are not.”

And we share the poet's sense of exile--

In this house with starry dome,

Floored with gem-like lakes and seas,

Shall I never be at home?

Never wholly at my ease?

From this spiritual loneliness there are various ways of escape, from

stoicism to hedonism, but one of the most rational and kindly is the

hobby. It brings us back from the perplexing conundrum of life to things

that we can see and grasp and live with cheerfully and companionably and

without fear of bereavement or disillusion. We cultivate our garden and

find in it a modest answer to our questions. We see the seasons come

and go like old friends whose visits may be fleeting, but are always

renewed. Or we make friends in books, and live in easy comradeship with

Horace or Pepys or Johnson in some static past that is untouched by the

sense of the mortality of things. Or we find in music or art a garden

of the mind, self-contained and self-sufficing, in which the anarchy of

intractible circumstance is subdued to an inner harmony that calms the

spirit and endows it with more sovereign vision. The old gentleman

in “Romany Rye,” you will remember, found his deliverance in studying

Chinese. His bereavement had left him without God and without hope in

the world, without any refuge except the pitiful contemplation of the

things that reminded him of his sorrow. One day he sat gazing vacantly

before him, when his eye fell upon some strange marks on a teapot, and

he thought he heard a voice say, “The marks! the marks! cling to the

marks! or-----” And from this beginning--but the story is too fruity,

too rich with the vintage of Borrow to be mutilated. Take the book

down, turn to the episode, and thank me for sending you again into the

enchanted Borrovian realm that is so unlike anything else to be found in

books. It is enough for the purpose here to recall this perfect example

of the healing power of the hobby. It gives us an intelligible little

world of our own where we can be at ease, and from whose warmth and

friendliness we can look out on the vast conundrum without expecting an

answer or being much troubled because we do not get one. It was a hobby

that poor Pascal needed to allay that horror of the universe which he

expressed in the desolating phrase, “Le silence étemel de ces espaces

infinis m'effraie.” For on the wings of the butterfly one can not only

outrange the boiler, but can adventure into the infinite in the spirit

of happy and confident adventure.

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