_To Lady H――――n._
_Newcastle, September 24, 1755._
_Ever-honoured Madam_,
I KNOW not how long it is since I left your Ladyship; but this I know,
a sense of the satisfaction I felt when at ♦_Donnington_, still lies
upon my heart. Surely, was I not called out to public work, waiting
upon and administring to your Ladyship in holy offices would be my
choice and highest privilege. But JESUS calls, and therefore I travel
to do or suffer thy will, O GOD! The only new ground that hath been
broken up, I think is _Liverpool_; there the prospect is promising. I
preached in a great square on the Lord’s day, and the alarm I hear went
through the town. At _Bolton_ the cup of GOD’s people ran over; and at
_Manchester_ we had large auditories and blessed seasons. At _Leeds_ we
felt what is unutterable, and at _Bradford_, I believe, last _Sunday_
the congregation consisted of at least ten thousand. But O how hath my
pleasure been alloyed at _Leeds_! I rejoiced there with trembling; for
unknown to me, they had almost finished a large house in order to form
a separate congregation. If this scheme succeeds, an awful separation
I fear will take place amongst the societies. I have written to Mr.
_W――――_, and have done all I could to prevent it. O this self-love,
this self-will! It is the devil of devils. LORD JESUS, may thy blessed
spirit purge it out of all our hearts! But O how must the divine
Paraclete sit as a refiner’s fire upon the heart, in order to bring
this about! Few choose such fiery purgations, and therefore so few make
the progress that might justly be expected of them in the divine life.
Make me, O GOD, willing to be made, willing to be, to do, or suffer
what thou pleasest, and then――――what then?――this foolish fluttering
heart will sweetly be moulded into the divine image.――This I write from
_Newcastle_, where the people twice a day hear the gospel gladly. At
_York_ I hope a fine gentleman was touched, and several I find were
awakened there, and here also, at my last visit. What to do now, I know
not. Calls on all sides are very loud, and it is too late to go either
to _Ireland_ or _Scotland_. O my GOD!――Winter is at hand, and in the
summer how little hath been done for thee! I cannot bear to live at
this poor dying rate. My good and ever-honoured Lady, add; for CHRIST’s
sake add to my already innumerable obligations, by praying for a poor
unfruitful and ungrateful dwarf. I am sick of my vileness, and yet just
comes in a letter acquainting me, that my preaching hath been blessed
to many this morning. Good GOD, what is this? Grace! Grace! I am lost,
I am lost.
Take me Uriel, take me hence,
And bear my soul to GOD.
Your Ladyship sees I am running into my old fault. I cannot well help
it, when writing to your Ladyship. May the choicest of GOD’s mercies
rest on you and yours! I hope my poor but sincere respects will find
acceptance with Lady _S――――_’s, Master _H――――_, &c. I must away to pray
for your Ladyship and them, and therefore hasten to subscribe myself,
ever-honoured Madam,
Your Ladyship’s most ready servant,
_G. W._
♦ “Donington” replaced with “Donnington”