CHAPTER VII.

Reflections――Letter from Lady Hester to the Author asking him to

return――He revisits Syria――Changes which had taken place in

Beyrout――M. Jasper Chasseaud, American consul――Divine service

performed by the American missionaries――Letter from Lady Hester to the

Author――Her continued hostility to Mrs. ――.――The Author takes his

family to Sayda――Dress and demeanour of a lady of Sayda――The Author’s

reception at Jôon――His family frightened by a deserter――Settles at the

convent of Mar Elias――Earthquake of January 1, 1837.

We now arrive at an epoch in Lady Hester Stanhope’s life, when it might

be said that her European reputation had reached its height, and her

domestic humiliations had sunk her to the lowest ebb. She had been

visited in her retirement by so many travellers of all the nations of

the Continent, that it might be supposed her singular mode of life was

known to almost everybody. M. Lamartine’s account of his interview had

spread abroad an undefined sort of wonder about her mystic and singular

opinions, and the public read with avidity whatever details they could

meet with respecting her.

Six years had now elapsed since our separation; and, although

occasionally honoured with a letter from her, I had given up all idea

of ever seeing her again, when, being at Nice, where I had furnished a

house, with the intention of passing two or three years with my family,

I received the following letter.

_Lady H. S. to Dr. ――――._

August 21st, 1836.

I hope I shall not claim in vain the assistance of an old

friend, at the moment I most require one I can depend upon,

to settle the business of my debts, &c., now made public.

Money has been left me, which has been concealed from me. I

could hardly, at first, believe it, until I was assured of

it by a young lawyer, who had the fact from one of my Irish

relations. I should wish you to come as soon as you can

possibly make it convenient to yourself, and return when

the business is over.

[I omit a passage, of no general interest, in which Lady

Hester arranges the mode of transit by which I was to visit

her, assures me that she will “think of my family before

anything else,” and refers to the losses she had sustained

by the non-payment of certain bills.]

An English traveller, who has written, as I am informed, a

very learned work, told a person that, when M. Lamartine’s

book first came out in England, the impression was so

strong that many people, who did not personally know me,

talked of coming here to investigate my affairs, and to

offer their services, but that they were prevented. A

woman, of high rank and good fortune,[54] who has built

herself a _palais_ in a remote part of America, has

announced her intention of passing the rest of her life

with me, so much has she been struck with my situation

and conduct. She is nearly of my age; and, thirty-seven

or thirty-eight years ago――I being personally unknown

to her――was so taken with my general appearance, that

she never could divest herself of the thoughts of me,

which have ever since pursued her. At last, informed by

M. Lamartine’s book where I was to be found, she took

this extraordinary determination, and in the spring I

expect her. She is now selling her large landed estate,

preparatory to her coming. She, as well as Lëila, the mare,

is in the prophecy. (See page 179.) The beautiful boy has

also written, and is wandering over the face of the globe,

till destiny marks the period of our meeting.

Such wonders, doctor! Copy these signs upon another paper,

and remain silent upon the subject. Bring with you your notes

upon Palmyra, &c.――do not forget. Perhaps I may receive from you

an answer to my former letter by the next steamboat; but, as it

only remains an hour at Beyrout, this must be sent off to be in

waiting there. God bless you!

[Not signed.]

(Lady Hester seems to have been interrupted in her writing, and breaks

off; but she thus resumes:)

The little black is not twelve years old, yet she does

my bed-room, and answers the bell: she is the only

good-tempered black I have seen; so I try to please her,

poor thing! If you come, I should, therefore, wish (if not

too expensive) that you should bring, as an encouragement,

a pair of ear-rings, a string of beads, a pair of

bracelets, and a thimble. Her ears, having been spoilt with

boring and heavy ear-rings, were obliged to be bored again,

very high, nearer the face――it is a beautiful ear.

Now, what I want for myself is six cups and saucers; the

top, I think, four inches in diameter; height, four inches;

foot, two inches. I had a cup I was so fond of; for tea

and coffee tasted so good out of it! It was strong and

good china, but it is gone: and one cup held enough for

my breakfast――a moderate cup and a half. I want also a

teapot, black or red, or what you like; two cream-jugs;

four milk-jugs, in case two are broken,――being always in

use――one for hot and one for cold milk; six plates; four

glass things, for butter and honey; a toast-rack, not

plated――a plated one for strangers; a dozen basins; some

little phials and corks; a few common candlesticks, brass,

or something strong; a few common entangling combs; a few

scrubbing-brushes for the kitchen――that is all.

I do not want any books, having no one to read to me: it

even puts my eyes out to write this.

I have heard of your situation, and it pains me beyond

expression. Here you might, I believe, have been happy,

and I also comfortable, as I have confidence in your

integrity; and, whilst you were regulating all as I should

have wished, you would have pursued those avocations most

pleasing to your taste. What advice can I give you that I

have not already given fifty times?

Of myself, I can say but little which is amusing; for, from

the time the Egyptian troops entered this country until

now, I have been in hot water. After the siege,[55] all

that remained of the wretched population fled here, and my

house and the village were, for the space of three years,

the tower of Babel. Indeed, it was only at the beginning of

this year that I got rid of the last of eighteen persons of

one family, all orphans and widows; and only a lad, who was

not capable, from his want of education, of gaining anything

for himself and family, remained. I had, at one time,

seventy-five coverlets out for strangers, chiefly

soldiers――the village full of families――and those at Sayda

and other places coming and going for a little money to buy

their daily bread.

I have saved many lives by my energy and determination,

and have stood alone in such a storm! All trembled, Franks

as much as the rest; and, if they pretended to act with

a little spirit, they were sure to have folly, and not

justice, on their side, and to be at last obliged to give

in: but the most of them joined, heart and hand, with the

usurpers, whom I have treated without mercy, and, in the

end, carried all before me. God helped me in all; for,

otherwise, I never could have got through with it, having

no one of any sort of use to me.

Lunardi, Mr. Webb’s man, whom you so strongly recommended

to me, turned himself into a doctor, and was too much taken

up with his new title to be of any use to me: yet this

useless Lunardi is a good-hearted fellow. Were you to see

him now, however, you would hardly know him; his manners

are so improved, as well as his understanding: I believe,

also, that he is attached to me.

Anxiety, agitation, and fatigue, together with the violent

passions I sometimes put myself in, caused me, only a

year ago, to vomit blood enough several times to have

killed a horse. In seven days it stopped; but yet I was

obliged to be bled eleven times in four months and a half,

fearing a return. Yesterday, I was working like a _fellah_

[ploughman] in my garden. I am very thin, but contented

about my health, as this gives proof of my natural

strength. With the blood running out of my mouth, I was

collected enough to give orders respecting a man, who, if

he had been caught, would have lost his head; and no soul

in the family knew of this but one, who insisted on seeing

me in the state I was in: and although I could hardly

speak, I reflected much, and, thank God! settled all to my

satisfaction.

Abdallah Pasha has behaved very ill at Constantinople――a

vain, stupid fool, without heart and without common sense:

but it is for the Sultan that I have worked, as I am really

attached to him, he being a most superior character.

Your friend Urquhart will be very useful to Lord Ponsonby,

who, though a sensible man, is idle. Should U. gain the

confidence of the Turks, he may learn their opinion of

me; but he must not repeat it to the Franks, as a great

jealousy exists respecting my politics. I have long

foretold the change that must take place in those of the

French and English, and now say that Sultan Mahmood will be

_mansôor_ [victorious.]

P.[56] has gambled away nearly five hundred dollars I gave

him about four years ago for things that I wanted, and

never sent me anything.

Do not be uneasy about my health; for an English medical

man, who came here after my illness, said he never saw such

a constitution in his life, and that my pulse was then a

better pulse than his.

I am reckoned here the first politician in the world,

and by some a sort of prophet. Even the Emir [Beshýr]

wonders, and is astonished; for he was not aware of this

extraordinary gift formerly: but yet, all say――I mean

enemies――that I am worse than a lion when in a passion, and

that they cannot deny I have justice on my side.

Write whenever you please; do not expect me to write, as it

hurts my eyes too much, and I have no one to assist me.

[Signed] H. L. S.

* * * * *

This summons from Lady Hester Stanhope took me a little unexpectedly. I

had not much faith in a story like that on which she built her hopes of

paying her debts; for I did not think it likely that property left to

her could have been purposely concealed from her knowledge, or would be

withheld from her by her relations: but, notwithstanding this, I did

not hesitate to write immediately, and say I would come as soon as I

could arrange my private concerns, which period I limited to the

following spring.

Accordingly, having engaged a governess for my daughter, to be at

the same time a companion for my wife in the long evenings during my

sittings with Lady Hester Stanhope, we left Nice on the 24th of May,

1837, for Marseilles; and agreed there for our passage on board of the

Zoave, Captain Robert, a tight brigantine, paying, for the exclusive

use of the cabin and our provisions, 1000 francs. We embarked on the

6th of June, being my fifty-fourth birthday, and, after a prosperous

voyage, landed at Beyrout on the 1st of July, 1837.

The city of Beyrout had undergone great changes since the conquest of

Syria by Ibrahim Pasha; not in the tortuosity of its streets, not in

its broken pavement and the filthy entrances to its houses, but in the

appearance of its population. Formerly, a few straggling Europeans, or

Levantines in European dresses, were seen hanging about the doors of

a warehouse or two in the Frank quarter; and occasionally a European

woman, the wife of a consul or a merchant, would steal from one house

to another, as if afraid, in her way, of insult from a fanatic Turk.

Now, the bustle of a crowded mart was visible, and Europeans and their

ladies walked about with a freedom which showed that a strong arm kept

the haughty Mussulman under control. In 1831, the appearance of a

French lady in the streets, wearing a green silk gown, was signalized

as a feat of great hardihood; such an assumption of the colour peculiar

to the prophet Mahomet’s descendants generally entailing vexations on

the wearer: and a gentleman would never have dared to give his arm to

a lady out of doors: but now, both the one and the other passed on

without any loud remark, although, internally, the grave Mussulmans

cherished a feeling of vengeance against those who so openly violated

their religious and moral institutions. Emboldened by these changes, I

led my family through the bazars, and showed them the busy Christians

and Turks, working with their fingers and toes those beautiful silk

stuffs, purses, cords, ribbons, &c., which form the admiration of all

persons who visit the Levant.

We were lodged at the inn kept by Pareschivà, formerly a servant of

Mr. John Maddox, an English gentleman, who had made a stay of two or

three years in Syria. This Greek, by his cleanliness and attention,

had secured, in an album which he kept for the purpose, so many

certificates of good entertainment from travellers who had put up

at his inn, that it would have required some courage to raise a

dissenting voice: but he maintained, by a continuance of the same

attentions to his guests, the reputation he had justly acquired.

The environs of Beyrout had always been studded with small villas and

garden-cottages, but some very handsome country-houses had now risen up

among them. New houses had also been built in the town; and among them

were two, the property of our old acquaintance, M. Jasper Chasseaud,

now become American consul, one of which he inhabited. We had the

pleasure of complimenting him on his new dignity, and partaking of his

hospitality in a splendid saloon, overlooking the shipping and port,

and commanding an extensive view of Mount Lebanon. M. Guys, the French

consul, and his estimable lady, also entertained us; and, could our

stay have been prolonged here, we should have had no great reason to

regret the delightful society of Nice.

I hastened to inform Lady Hester Stanhope of our arrival, and, whilst

waiting for the camels and mules which she would probably send, I

made the necessary preparations for the road. A cook was hired, named

Cabôor, who, some twenty or five-and-twenty years before, had been

my servant boy. Great was his joy at seeing his old master. He was

destined, however, to remain but a short time with us, as I discovered

that he had been turned away from Lady Hester Stanhope’s service, a

circumstance which, of course, rendered it impossible for me to retain

him in mine.

We attended divine service, performed by the American missionaries

in the great saloon of M. Chasseaud’s house, and were much edified

by the exemplary piety of these good men, who were labouring to

spread general information among the Syrians, by giving gratuitous

instruction to the children of the inhabitants, by printing useful

books of practical knowledge in Arabic, and by leading them, through

reading and meditation, to work their own way to salvation; trusting

that an acquaintance with the scriptures and with the advantages of

civilization will silently effect the pious object they have in view,

without those violent attempts at conversion which cause enmity between

brethren, and defeat their own end.

M. Guys lent us a handsome green double marquee, and all preparations

were made for our departure, when two servants arrived from her

ladyship, with her own mules, and the following answer to my letter.

_Lady Hester Stanhope to Dr. ――――, at Beyrout._

Djoûn, July 1, 1837.

Saturday night.

Dear Doctor,

I have sent you Botrôos Metta, with the mules necessary

for your trunks and what you want immediately. Your heavy

luggage had better go by sea.

I could wish you, first of all, to come here alone, to see

a house at Sayda for your family, and to well understand

each other before you bring them here. For your sake, I

should ever wish to show civility to all who belong to you,

but caprice I will never interfere with: for, from my early

youth, I have been taught to despise it. Botrôos Metta,

if he can be useful to Mrs. ――――, may remain until your

return; if not, he will come with you. I hope your health

is quite recovered, and, in the end, that you will have no

reason to regret your voyage.

Yours, sincerely,

HESTER LUCY STANHOPE.

* * * * *

So then, thought I, the past is never to be forgotten; and, hardly have

we set foot on the shores of Syria, but war is declared against my

wife. Lady Hester Stanhope made no mystery of her likes and dislikes;

and Botrôos Metta, in his confabulations with Cabôor (as servants in

general talk about their masters and mistresses) dwelt on the rising

storm, which probably would soon burst. Cabôor bore no good will to her

ladyship. He had picked up a little French, and his reflections on my

situation were not deficient in shrewdness. “Ah!” he would exclaim,

“it will be just as it was six years ago――my mistress crying, my lady

_emportée_, and my master trying to satisfy both――no easy task! He will

have one woman saying one thing in one ear, and the other saying the

contrary in the other ear; well! he will be a clever gentleman if he

reconciles them!”

As it would not have been proper to leave my family in an inn, I

resolved to take them with me at once to Sayda, notwithstanding Lady

Hester’s suggestion to the contrary. On the 3rd of July, at sunset, we

commenced our journey; for the weather was too hot to travel in the

daytime. It was pitch dark; nothing whatever was visible; we could

not even see the path before us: but Abdhu, the mule-driver, and

Botrôos, led the way, and each person had a driver by his side. We

were, therefore, spared the horrors of the surrounding scenery, which

M. de Lamartine describes in such imaginative diction. In four hours

we reached Khaldy, where the tent was pitched on the seashore; and,

after supping on a _pâté à la Perigord_, with which Madame Guys had

kindly provided us, and taking a cup of nice Mocha coffee, we lay down

in our clothes, and slept until the morning star made its appearance:

then, remounting, we marched four hours more, which brought us to Nebby

Yuness, where we breakfasted on coffee and milk and the remains of our

provision basket. Here we rested until three in the afternoon, and

then proceeded along the seashore to Sayda. When within about a quarter

of a mile of the town-gates, we met M. Conti, the French consular

agent, and from him learned that the earthquake had so damaged the

city, and the French khan in particular, that he could not give us

lodging in it, but politely offered us his garden, where, under the

shade of the trees, we might pitch our tent. The gardens, or rather

orchards of Sayda, occupy a flat strip of land which intervenes between

the seashore and the foot of Mount Lebanon, from a quarter to half a

mile in width, and stretching a league along the shore. M. Conti’s

garden was on the verge of the sands, and near the spot where we met

him. His offer was accordingly thankfully accepted; and, turning in

at the orchard gate, in about half an hour our camp arrangements were

completed, and Cabôor, with his cooking utensils round a gipsy’s fire,

was busily occupied in preparing our supper.

The lovely wife of M. Pierre Gerardin, who had also just returned to

her home from Beyrout, astride on a kedýsh,[57] in the space of seven

hours, alighted from her horse at the garden-gate, when she learned

who was within, and paid us a visit. This lady was married to a son

of that Gerardin who had treated us with such politic incivility in

1831, and who had since died. She was in the costume of a Syrian lady:

her hair hung in strait tresses down her back, and black braids of

silk fell intermingled with it, so as seemingly to lengthen it to the

bend of her knees. The whole was bespangled with small gold money,

called _rubiahs_, of which there might be two hundred or more; and a

band, set with gold money, encircled her head, on a level with her

forehead, in the fashion of a diadem: the whole being surmounted by a

marone-coloured skull cap, richly embroidered in gold. A cream-coloured

gown, open in front, and buttoned only at the waist, disclosed her

silk gauze chemise, which overhung her pantaloons of silk brocade, and

served as a handkerchief to her neck. Her feet were without stockings,

and covered only by a pair of yellow papooches. She was a lively young

creature; and, as it is common in the Levant to suppose that European

ladies who go in public unveiled must, on that account, have much

levity of conduct, she endeavoured to imitate what she fancied to be

their manners by an assumed freedom, which certainly shocked the

females of our party. Mulberries were brought, and eaten with little

pointed wooden picks, not to stain the fingers. When our new friends

were gone, we supped or dined, and passed the night beneath the tent,

bitten most dreadfully by fleas and musquitoes.

July 4.――In the morning I walked into Sayda to see the house destined

for us; but it was inconvenient, and was still in the possession of

its tenants, a Turkish family; so that the idea of locating ourselves

there was abandoned. Then, leaving my family under the tent, I set off

for Jôon, where I arrived about sunset, it being three hours’ ride from

Sayda.

Lady Hester Stanhope’s reception of me was kind and warm, but more

serious than it had been in 1830; one would have said it was a welcome,

as if I had left her a month before, and had just come back, for she

proceeded, as she called it, immediately to business. She told me it

would have given her pleasure if I had left my family at Beyrout, for

she had no house to offer them; and, from the dreadful effects of the

earthquake, which, on the 1st of January of this year, had thrown down

or cracked a third of the houses throughout Palestine, it would be

difficult for me to find one, if I could not content myself with that

which had been fixed upon for us at Sayda.

July 5.――This discussion occupied the whole of the next day; when,

towards evening, a letter came from my family to say they were in

the greatest trouble and fright, and that my presence was required

immediately. It was hastily determined, therefore, that I should take

them to the convent of St. Elias, (Dayr Mar Elias, as it is called)

which had been the first residence of Lady Hester Stanhope when she

settled in this country.

July 6.――In the morning I rode down to the tent, and found my whole

family in tears, and apparently inconsolable. To understand this,

the reader must fancy himself transported from a comfortable and

well-furnished home to a distant, half-civilized country, where he does

not comprehend a word of the language, and planted under a tent in

the outskirts of a city, without bar or bolt, without table or chair,

and with nobody for an interpreter of his wants but two servants, one

of whom speaks broken French, and even that hardly intelligible, and

the other nothing but Arabic. It is true, the ladies of the French

vice-consul’s family paid mine a visit, and assured them there was

no danger to be apprehended: but, when I had left them, and had gone

up into the mountains, the defiles, ravines, and precipices of which

were visible from the tent, it required no very gloomy imagination to

conjure up horrors of all sorts.

It so happened that, on the night of my quitting them, a deserter,

who expected to be severely bastinadoed or shot next morning, made

his escape from the barrack prison[58] which overhung the walls of

Sayda towards the sea, by letting himself down through a sewer, which

emptied itself into the surf. He ran for his life along the seashore,

until, seeing a light burning in M. Conti’s garden, and a tent, he

crawled through the hedge of prickly pear in the state he was in, and

thought he might find pity, and a temporary hiding-place. A rustling

and a noise awoke Mrs. ――――, and she saw a man, in a _nizàm_ dress,

wet and filthy, standing at the opening of the tent. Her screams awoke

the children, the governess, the cook, the gardener, and Abdhu, who

slept in the gardener’s shed close by. They seized the man, who did

not attempt to escape, but told them his story; and as all the lower

classes were suffering from the oppressive conscription, and other

onerous burthens imposed by Ibrahim Pasha, whose rule they abhorred,

they furnished the poor deserter with a little covering, and directed

him by a lane, through the gardens, towards the mountains, where he

would find holes in the rocks to secrete himself, until he could obtain

succour from the peasantry.

It is not extraordinary that such an apparition as this should have

frightened them all; for, up to the hour of my return, from ignorance

of the language, they had hardly comprehended the circumstances that

gave rise to it. Entreaties and tears, even then, made it imperative

on me to remove them forthwith; and, as the mules had been kept

tethered on the ground in readiness for a removal, they were reloaded;

and, threading the romantic lanes which wind through the gardens,

where lilac-trees, bananas, vines, orange and lemon trees, of

extraordinary height, with passionflowers, and other creeping plants,

wantoning among the thick foliage, made a delicious shade, we emerged

from them at the foot of the mountain. Then, passing the hamlet of

Hellaléah, where, at the doors of their country _bastides_,[59] the

_Kheláts_ and _Dubâanys_, friends of my younger days, stood watching

to hail my return among them, whilst the elders pointed to their

children, now grown up, that I might notice them, we made a steep

descent into a small torrent bed, and, again ascending a rough and

zigzag path, reached the elevation on which stands, on a barren and

unproductive cliff, the small monastery of Mar Elias Abra, or St.

Elias, of the village of Abra, about an hour’s ride from the gates of

Sayda.

Mar Elias had originally been the dwelling of a few monks, who

performed the duties of a small chapel attached to it. Being a retired

and healthy spot, it was chosen by the Bishop of the Schismatic Greeks

(to whose see it now belonged) for his residence, and, in 1813, when

Lady Hester Stanhope first went to live there, was inhabited by one of

his successors to the see, Macarius, who was also Patriarch of

Antioch. At the request of the Emir Beshýr, prince of the Druses, the

patriarch[60] had given it up to Lady Hester, who lived there five or

six years, until she removed to Dar Jôon. After that time she only

occasionally visited it, and, since Miss Williams’s death, had never

been there. General Loustaunau[61] occupied one of the rooms, and an

old woman, the widow of Metta, the village doctor, with her son, lived

in the lodge, and served as porters.

The injuries caused by the earthquake were very extensive. It seems

to have begun somewhere near the sea of Tiberiàd, burying the town of

that name, Suffad, and some others, in ruins, and throwing down or

damaging the greater part of the dwellings in every city or village

along the coast as far as Beyrout, which latter place did not suffer.

The monastery of Mar Elias was shaken to its very foundations; and, on

taking possession of our new residence, the state it was in

sufficiently showed how terrible the terrestrial convulsion had been.

General Loustaunau described it to me as follows:――He was sitting

under the verandah which runs round a part of the small quadrangle,

reading his Bible, when his chair gave a tilt under him. He raised his

eyes from his book, and saw the side of the building facing him rock.

A cloud of dust immediately rose above the roof. He knew it was an

earthquake, but was not, or had not time to be, terrified; for, before

he could well think about it, it was over, and he found himself unhurt.

He never quitted the spot where he was, until his maid, the porter,

and the porter’s mother, called to him with loud cries. When they came

to examine the mischief that had been done, they found the store-room,

which was the corner room of the quadrangle to the north-west, entirely

fallen in, burying in its ruins more than two hundred weight of copper

utensils. The wall of the room which formerly served as Lady Hester

Stanhope’s bed-room, next to the store-room, had peeled from top to

bottom――half having fallen, and half being left standing. The kitchen

roof had fallen in. In the centre of the quadrangle, the parterre,

bordered with oblong freestones, had been raised perpendicularly about

two feet, with a _zenzeluct_ tree, the rose-bushes, and a palm-tree

on it; and so we found them still, the pavement giving a hollow sound

to the tread. The arch of the gate of the stable-yard was lifted out

of its curve, and the wood-house was down. The room inhabited formerly

by Monsieur Beaudin, then her ladyship’s secretary, and now French

vice-consul at Damascus, was a heap of ruins; and numberless rents and

partial fissures manifested themselves everywhere. The chapel, General

Loustaunau’s room, the saloon, and another large room of equal size,

had escaped entirely, together with the bath, and two or three small

rooms adjoining. The beams of what had been Lady Hester’s bed-room were

now propped up by balks of wood; and thus we had three large rooms at

our disposal.

Here then I fixed my family; and hiring two women, Tabithâ and Helôon,

a girl, Werdy, and a boy, Habyb, from the village of Abra, which was

about ten minutes’ walk from Mar Elias, as servants, there seemed a

prospect of great comfort and tranquillity for us all, whilst I could

give my undivided attention to Lady Hester’s health and affairs,

passing my time alternately between the two places.

FOOTNOTES:

[54] The Baroness de Fériat.

[55] Of Acre.

[56] An Italian.

[57] The name given to horses taught to amble; a palfrey.

[58] The ancient palace of Fakr-ed-dyn.

[59] The name given in Provence to country boxes.

[60] This patriarch died in 1814, and was embalmed by my

hands. A niche was cut in the solid wall of the chapel

at Mar Elias, and the body was there entombed, seated

in a chair, and then walled in.

[61] Some account of this gentleman’s history will appear

farther on.

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