TOM TRINGLE GOES UPON HIS TRAVELS.
We must again go back and pick up our threads to April, having rushed
forward to be present at the wedding of Frank Houston and Imogene
Docimer, which did not take place till near Midsummer. This we must
do at once in regard to Tom Tringle, who, if the matter be looked at
aright, should be regarded as the hero of this little history. Ayala
indeed, who is no doubt the real heroine among so many young ladies
who have been more or less heroic, did not find in him the angel of
whom she had dreamed, and whose personal appearance on earth was
necessary to her happiness. But he had been able very clearly to pick
out an angel for himself, and, though he had failed in his attempts
to take the angel home with him, had been constant in his endeavours
as long as there remained to him a chance of success. He had shown
himself to be foolish, vulgar, and ignorant. He had given way to
Bolivian champagne and Faddle intimacies. He had been silly enough
to think that he could bribe his Ayala with diamonds for herself,
and charm her with cheaper jewelry on his own person. He had thought
to soar high by challenging his rival to a duel, and had then been
tempted by pot courage to strike him in the streets. A very vulgar
and foolish young man! But a young man capable of a persistent
passion! Young men not foolish and not vulgar are, perhaps, common
enough. But the young men of constant heart and capable of such
persistency as Tom's are not to be found every day walking about the
streets of the metropolis. Jonathan Stubbs was constant, too; but it
may be doubted whether the Colonel ever really despaired. The merit
is to despair and yet to be constant. When a man has reason to be
assured that a young lady is very fond of him, he may always hope
that love will follow,--unless indeed the love which he seeks
has been already given away elsewhere. Moreover, Stubbs had many
substantial supports at his back; the relationship of the Marchesa,
the friendship of Lady Albury, the comforts of Stalham,--and not
least, if last, the capabilities and prowess of Croppy. Then, too,
he was neither vulgar nor foolish nor ignorant. Tom Tringle had
everything against him,--everything that would weigh with Ayala; and
yet he fought his battle out to the last gasp. Therefore, I desire my
hearers to regard Tom Tringle as the hero of the transactions with
which they have been concerned, and to throw their old shoes after
him as he starts away upon his grand tour.
"Tom, my boy, you have to go, you know, in four days," said his
father to him. At this time Tom had as yet given no positive consent
as to his departure. He had sunk into a low state of moaning and
groaning, in which he refused even to accede to the doctrine of the
expediency of a manly bearing. "What's the good of telling a lie
about it?" he would say to his mother. "What's the good of manliness
when a fellow would rather be drowned?" He had left his bed indeed,
and had once or twice sauntered out of the house. He had been
instigated by his sister to go down to his club, under the idea
that by such an effort he would shake off the despondency which
overwhelmed him. But he had failed in the attempts, and had walked by
the doors of the Mountaineers, finding himself unable to face the
hall-porter. But still the preparations for his departure were going
on. It was presumed that he was to leave London for Liverpool on the
Friday, and his father had now visited him in his own room on the
Tuesday evening with the intention of extorting from him his final
consent. Sir Thomas had on that morning expressed himself very freely
to his son-in-law Mr. Traffick, and on returning home had been glad
to find that his words had been of avail, at any rate as regarded the
dinner-hour. He was tender-hearted towards his son, and disposed to
tempt him rather than threaten him into obedience.
"I haven't ever said I would go," replied Tom.
"But you must, you know. Everything has been packed up, and I want to
make arrangements with you about money. I have got a cabin for you to
yourself, and Captain Merry says that you will have a very pleasant
passage. The equinoxes are over."
"I don't care about the equinoxes," said Tom. "I should like bad
weather if I am to go."
"Perhaps you may have a touch of that, too."
"If the ship could be dashed against a rock I should prefer it!"
exclaimed Tom.
"That's nonsense. The Cunard ships never are dashed against rocks.
By the time you've been three days at sea you'll be as hungry as a
hunter. Now, Tom, how about money?"
"I don't care about money," said Tom.
"Don't you? Then you're very unlike anybody else that I meet. I think
I had better give you power to draw at New York, San Francisco,
Yokohama, Pekin, and Calcutta."
"Am I to go to Pekin?" asked Tom, with renewed melancholy.
"Well, yes;--I think so. You had better see what the various houses
are doing in China. And then from Calcutta you can go up the country.
By that time I dare say we shall have possession of Cabul. With such
a government as we have now, thank God! the Russians will have been
turned pretty nearly out of Asia by this time next year."*
[*It has to be stated that this story was written in 1878.]
"Am I to be away more than a year?"
"If I were you," said the father, glad to catch the glimmer of assent
which was hereby implied,--"if I were you I would do it thoroughly
whilst I was about it. Had I seen so much when I was young I should
have been a better man of business."
"It's all the same to me," said Tom. "Say ten years, if you like it!
Say twenty! I shan't ever want to come back again. Where am I to go
after Cabul?"
"I didn't exactly fix it that you should go to Cabul. Of course you
will write home and give me your own opinion as you travel on. You
will stay two or three months probably in the States."
"Am I to go to Niagara?" he asked.
"Of course you will, if you wish it. The Falls of Niagara, I am told,
are very wonderful."
"If a man is to drown himself," said Tom, "it's the sort of place to
do it effectually."
"Oh, Tom!" exclaimed his father. "Do you speak to me in that way when
I am doing everything in my power to help you in your trouble?"
"You cannot help me," said Tom.
"Circumstances will. Time will do it. Employment will do it. A sense
of your dignity as a man will do it, when you find yourself amongst
others who know nothing of what you have suffered. You revel in your
grief now because those around you know that you have failed. All
that will be changed when you are with strangers. You should not talk
to your father of drowning yourself!"
"That was wrong. I know it was wrong," said Tom, humbly. "I won't do
it if I can help it,--but perhaps I had better not go there. And how
long ought I to stay at Yokohama? Perhaps you had better put it all
down on a bit of paper." Then Sir Thomas endeavoured to explain to
him that all that he said now was in the way of advice. That it would
be in truth left to himself to go almost where he liked, and to stay
at each place almost as long as he liked;--that he would be his own
master, and that within some broad and undefined limits he would have
as much money as he pleased to spend. Surely no preparations for a
young man's tour were ever made with more alluring circumstances! But
Tom could not be tempted into any expression of satisfaction.
This, however, Sir Thomas did gain,--that before he left his son's
room it was definitely settled,--that Tom should take his departure
on the Friday, going down to Liverpool by an afternoon train on that
day. "I tell you what," said Sir Thomas; "I'll go down with you, see
you on board the ship, and introduce you to Captain Merry. I shall be
glad of an opportunity of paying a visit to Liverpool." And so the
question of Tom's departure was settled.
On the Wednesday and Thursday he seemed to take some interest in
his bags and portmanteaus, and began himself to look after those
assuagements of the toils of travel which are generally dear to young
men. He interested himself in a fur coat, in a well-arranged despatch
box, and in a very neat leathern case which was intended to hold two
brandy flasks. He consented to be told of the number of his shirts,
and absolutely expressed an opinion that he should want another pair
of dress-boots. When this occurred every female bosom in the house,
from Lady Tringle's down to the kitchenmaid's, rejoiced at the signs
of recovery which evinced themselves. But neither Lady Tringle nor
the kitchenmaid, nor did any of the intermediate female bosoms, know
how he employed himself when he left the house on that Thursday
afternoon. He walked across the Park, and, calling at Kingsbury
Crescent, left a note addressed to his aunt. It was as follows:--"I
start to-morrow afternoon,--I hardly know whither. It may be for
years or it may be for ever. I should wish to say a word to Ayala
before I go. Will she see me if I come at twelve o'clock exactly
to-morrow morning? I will call for an answer in half-an-hour. T. T.,
junior. Of course I am aware that Ayala is to become the bride of
Colonel Jonathan Stubbs." In half-an-hour he returned, and got his
answer. "Ayala will be glad to have an opportunity of saying good-bye
to you to-morrow morning."
From this it will be seen that Ayala had at that time returned from
Stalham to Kingsbury Crescent. She had come back joyful in heart,
thoroughly triumphant as to her angel, with everything in the world
sweet and happy before her,--desirous if possible to work her fingers
off in mending the family linen, if only she could do something for
somebody in return for all the joy that the world was giving her.
When she was told that Tom wished to see her for the last time,--for
the last time at any rate before her marriage,--she assented at once.
"I think you should see him as he asks it," said her aunt.
"Poor Tom! Of course I will see him." And so the note was written
which Tom received when he called the second time at the door.
At half-past eleven he skulked out of the house in Queen's Gate,
anxious to avoid his mother and sisters, who were on their side
anxious to devote every remaining minute of the time to his comfort
and welfare. I am afraid it must be acknowledged that he went with
all his jewelry. It could do no good. At last he was aware of that.
But still he thought that she would like him better with his jewelry
than without it. Stubbs wore no gems, not even a ring, and Ayala when
she saw her cousin enter the room could only assure herself that the
male angels certainly were never be-jewelled. She was alone in the
drawing-room, Mrs. Dosett having arranged that at the expiration of
ten minutes, which were to be allowed to Tom for his private adieux,
she would come down to say good-bye to her nephew. "Ayala!" said Tom.
"So you are going away,--for a very long journey, Tom."
"Yes, Ayala; for a very long journey; to Pekin and Cabul, if I live
through, to get to those sort of places."
"I hope you will live through, Tom."
"Thank you, Ayala. Thank you. I daresay I shall. They tell me I shall
get over it. I don't feel like getting over it now."
"You'll find some beautiful young lady at Pekin, perhaps."
"Beauty will never have any effect upon me again, Ayala. Beauty
indeed! Think what I have suffered from beauty! From the first moment
in which you came down to Glenbogie I have been a victim to it. It
has destroyed me,--destroyed me!"
"I am sure you will come back quite well," said Ayala, hardly knowing
how to answer the last appeal.
"Perhaps I may. If I can only get my heart to turn to stone, then I
shall. I don't know why I should have been made to care so much about
it. Other people don't."
"And now we must say, Good-bye, I suppose."
"Oh, yes;--good-bye! I did want to say one or two words if you ain't
in a hurry. Of course you'll be his bride now."
"I hope so," said Ayala.
"I take that for granted. Of course I hate him."
"Oh, Tom; you shan't say that."
"It's human nature! I can tell a lie if you want it. I'd do anything
for you. But you may tell him this: I'm very sorry I struck him."
"He knows that, Tom. He has said so to me."
"He behaved well to me,--very well,--as he always does to everybody."
"Now, Tom, that is good of you. I do like you so much for saying
that."
"But I hate him!"
"No!"
"The evil spirits always hate the good ones. I am conscious of an
evil spirit within my bosom. It is because my spirit is evil that you
would not love me. He is good, and you love him."
"Yes; I do," said Ayala.
"And now we will change the conversation. Ayala, I have got a little
present which you must take from me."
"Oh, no!" said Ayala, thinking of the diamond necklace.
"It's only a little thing,--and I hope you will." Then he brought out
from his pocket a small brooch which he had selected from his own
stock of jewelry for the occasion. "We are cousins, you know."
"Yes, we are cousins," said Ayala, accepting the brooch, but still
accepting it unwillingly.
"He must be very disdainful if he would object to such a little thing
as this," said Tom, referring to the Colonel.
"He is not at all disdainful. He will not object in the least. I am
sure of that, Tom. I will take it then, and I will wear it sometimes
as a memento that we have parted like friends,--as cousins should
do."
"Yes, as friends," said Tom, who thought that even that word was
softer to his ear than cousins. Then he took her by the hand and
looked into her face wistfully, thinking what might be the effect
if for the last and for the first time he should snatch a kiss. Had
he done so I think she would have let it pass without rebuke under
the guise of cousinship. It would have been very disagreeable;--but
then he was going away for so long a time, for so many miles! But at
the moment Mrs. Dosett came in, and Ayala was saved. "Good-bye," he
said; "good-bye," and without waiting to take the hand which his aunt
offered him he hurried out of the room, out of the house, and back
across the Gardens to Queen's Gate.
At Queen's Gate there was an early dinner, at three o'clock, at which
Sir Thomas did not appear, as he had arranged to come out of the
city and meet his son at the railway station. There were, therefore,
sitting at the board for the last time the mother and the two sisters
with the intending traveller. "Oh, Tom," said Lady Tringle, as
soon as the servant had left them together, "I do so hope you will
recover."
"Of course he will recover," said Augusta.
"Why shouldn't he recover?" asked Gertrude. "It's all in a person's
mind. If he'd only make up his mind not to think about her the thing
would be done, and there would be nothing the matter with him."
"There are twenty others, ever so much better than Ayala, would have
him to-morrow," said his mother.
"And be glad to catch him," said Gertrude. "He's not like one of
those who haven't got anything to make a wife comfortable with."
"As for Ayala," said Augusta, "she didn't deserve such good luck.
I am told that that Colonel Stubbs can't afford to keep any kind of
carriage for her. But then, to be sure, she has never been used to a
carriage."
"Oh, Tom, do look up," said his mother, "and say that you will try to
be happy."
"He'll be all right in New York," said Gertrude. "There's no place in
the world, they say, where the girls put themselves forward so much,
and make things so pleasant for the young men."
"He will soon find some one there," said Augusta, "with a deal more
to say for herself than Ayala, and a great deal better-looking."
"I hope he will find some one who will really love him," said his
mother.
Tom sat silent while he listened to all this encouragement, turning
his face from one speaker to the other. It was continued, with many
other similar promises of coming happiness, and assurances that
he had been a gainer in losing all that he lost, when he suddenly
turned sharply upon them, and strongly expressed his feelings to his
sisters. "I don't believe that either of you know anything about it,"
he said.
"Don't know anything about what?" said Augusta, who as a lady who
had been married over twelve months, and was soon about to become a
mother, felt that she certainly did know all about it.
"Why don't we know as well as you?" asked Gertrude, who had also had
her experiences.
"I don't believe you do know anything about it;--that's all," said
Tom. "And now there's the cab. Good-bye, mother! Good-bye, Augusta.
I hope you'll be all right." This alluded to the baby. "Good-bye,
Gertrude. I hope you'll get all right too some day." This alluded to
Gertrude's two lovers. Then he left them, and as he got into his cab
declared to himself that neither of them had ever, or would ever,
know anything of that special trouble which had so nearly overwhelmed
himself.
"Upon my word, Tom," said his father, walking about the vessel with
him, "I wish I were going to New York myself with you;--it all looks
so comfortable."
"Yes," said Tom, "it's very nice."
"You'll enjoy yourself amazingly. There is that Mrs. Thompson has two
as pretty daughters with her as ever a man wished to see." Tom shook
his head. "And you're fond of smoking. Did you see the smoking-room?
They've got everything on board these ships now. Upon my word I envy
you the voyage."
"It's as good as anything else, I daresay," said Tom. "Perhaps it's
better than London."
Then his father, who had been speaking aloud to him, whispered a word
in his ear. "Shake yourself, Tom;--shake yourself, and get over it."
"I am trying," said Tom.
"Love is a very good thing, Tom, when a man can enjoy it, and make
himself warm with it, and protect himself by it from selfishness and
hardness of heart. But when it knocks a man's courage out of him, and
makes him unfit for work, and leaves him to bemoan himself, there's
nothing good in it. It's as bad as drink. Don't you know that I am
doing the best I can for you, to make a man of you?"
"I suppose so."
"Then shake yourself, as I call it. It is to be done, if you set
about it in earnest. Now, God bless you, my boy." Then Sir Thomas
got into his boat, and left his son to go upon his travels and get
himself cured by a change of scene.
I have no doubt that Tom was cured, if not before he reached New
York, at any rate before he left that interesting city;--so that when
he reached Niagara, which he did do in company with Mrs. Thompson and
her charming daughters, he entertained no idea of throwing himself
down the Falls. We cannot follow him on that prolonged tour to Japan
and China, and thence to Calcutta and Bombay. I fancy that he did
not go on to Cabul, as before that time the Ministry in England was
unfortunately changed, and the Russians had not as yet been expelled
from Asia;--but I have little doubt that he obtained a great deal of
very useful mercantile information, and that he will live to have
a comfortable wife and a large family, and become in the course of
years the senior partner in the great house of Travers and Treason.
Let us, who have soft hearts, now throw our old shoes after him.