Chapter XXII. THE BLAZE OF THE TINDER: FLESH WARS WITH THE FLESH

The misfortune of the Hurstwood household was due to the fact that

jealousy, having been born of love, did not perish with it. Mrs.

Hurstwood retained this in such form that subsequent influences could

transform it into hate. Hurstwood was still worthy, in a physical

sense, of the affection his wife had once bestowed upon him, but in a

social sense he fell short. With his regard died his power to be

attentive to her, and this, to a woman, is much greater than outright

crime toward another. Our self-love dictates our appreciation of the

good or evil in another. In Mrs. Hurstwood it discoloured the very hue

of her husband’s indifferent nature. She saw design in deeds and

phrases which sprung only from a faded appreciation of her presence.

As a consequence, she was resentful and suspicious. The jealousy that

prompted her to observe every falling away from the little amenities of

the married relation on his part served to give her notice of the airy

grace with which he still took the world. She could see from the

scrupulous care which he exercised in the matter of his personal

appearance that his interest in life had abated not a jot. Every

motion, every glance had something in it of the pleasure he felt in

Carrie, of the zest this new pursuit of pleasure lent to his days. Mrs.

Hurstwood felt something, sniffing change, as animals do danger, afar

off.

This feeling was strengthened by actions of a direct and more potent

nature on the part of Hurstwood. We have seen with what irritation he

shirked those little duties which no longer contained any amusement of

satisfaction for him, and the open snarls with which, more recently, he

resented her irritating goads. These little rows were really

precipitated by an atmosphere which was surcharged with dissension.

That it would shower, with a sky so full of blackening thunderclouds,

would scarcely be thought worthy of comment. Thus, after leaving the

breakfast table this morning, raging inwardly at his blank declaration

of indifference at her plans, Mrs. Hurstwood encountered Jessica in her

dressing-room, very leisurely arranging her hair. Hurstwood had already

left the house.

“I wish you wouldn’t be so late coming down to breakfast,” she said,

addressing Jessica, while making for her crochet basket. “Now here the

things are quite cold, and you haven’t eaten.”

Her natural composure was sadly ruffled, and Jessica was doomed to feel

the fag end of the storm.

“I’m not hungry,” she answered.

“Then why don’t you say so, and let the girl put away the things,

instead of keeping her waiting all morning?”

“She doesn’t mind,” answered Jessica, coolly.

“Well, I do, if she doesn’t,” returned the mother, “and, anyhow, I

don’t like you to talk that way to me. You’re too young to put on such

an air with your mother.”

“Oh, mamma, don’t row,” answered Jessica. “What’s the matter this

morning, anyway?”

“Nothing’s the matter, and I’m not rowing. You mustn’t think because I

indulge you in some things that you can keep everybody waiting. I won’t

have it.”

“I’m not keeping anybody waiting,” returned Jessica, sharply, stirred

out of a cynical indifference to a sharp defence. “I said I wasn’t

hungry. I don’t want any breakfast.”

“Mind how you address me, missy. I’ll not have it. Hear me now; I’ll

not have it!”

Jessica heard this last while walking out of the room, with a toss of

her head and a flick of her pretty skirts indicative of the

independence and indifference she felt. She did not propose to be

quarrelled with.

Such little arguments were all too frequent, the result of a growth of

natures which were largely independent and selfish. George, Jr.,

manifested even greater touchiness and exaggeration in the matter of

his individual rights, and attempted to make all feel that he was a man

with a man’s privileges—an assumption which, of all things, is most

groundless and pointless in a youth of nineteen.

Hurstwood was a man of authority and some fine feeling, and it

irritated him excessively to find himself surrounded more and more by a

world upon which he had no hold, and of which he had a lessening

understanding.

Now, when such little things, such as the proposed earlier start to

Waukesha, came up, they made clear to him his position. He was being

made to follow, was not leading. When, in addition, a sharp temper was

manifested, and to the process of shouldering him out of his authority

was added a rousing intellectual kick, such as a sneer or a cynical

laugh, he was unable to keep his temper. He flew into hardly repressed

passion, and wished himself clear of the whole household. It seemed a

most irritating drag upon all his desires and opportunities.

For all this, he still retained the semblance of leadership and

control, even though his wife was straining to revolt. Her display of

temper and open assertion of opposition were based upon nothing more

than the feeling that she could do it. She had no special evidence

wherewith to justify herself—the knowledge of something which would

give her both authority and excuse. The latter was all that was

lacking, however, to give a solid foundation to what, in a way, seemed

groundless discontent. The clear proof of one overt deed was the cold

breath needed to convert the lowering clouds of suspicion into a rain

of wrath.

An inkling of untoward deeds on the part of Hurstwood had come. Doctor

Beale, the handsome resident physician of the neighbourhood, met Mrs.

Hurstwood at her own doorstep some days after Hurstwood and Carrie had

taken the drive west on Washington Boulevard. Dr. Beale, coming east on

the same drive, had recognised Hurstwood, but not before he was quite

past him. He was not so sure of Carrie—did not know whether it was

Hurstwood’s wife or daughter.

“You don’t speak to your friends when you meet them out driving, do

you?” he said, jocosely, to Mrs. Hurstwood.

“If I see them, I do. Where was I?”

“On Washington Boulevard.” he answered, expecting her eye to light with

immediate remembrance.

She shook her head.

“Yes, out near Hoyne Avenue. You were with your husband.”

“I guess you’re mistaken,” she answered. Then, remembering her

husband’s part in the affair, she immediately fell a prey to a host of

young suspicions, of which, however, she gave no sign.

“I know I saw your husband,” he went on. “I wasn’t so sure about you.

Perhaps it was your daughter.”

“Perhaps it was,” said Mrs. Hurstwood, knowing full well that such was

not the case, as Jessica had been her companion for weeks. She had

recovered herself sufficiently to wish to know more of the details.

“Was it in the afternoon?” she asked, artfully, assuming an air of

acquaintanceship with the matter.

“Yes, about two or three.”

“It must have been Jessica,” said Mrs. Hurstwood, not wishing to seem

to attach any importance to the incident.

The physician had a thought or two of his own, but dismissed the matter

as worthy of no further discussion on his part at least.

Mrs. Hurstwood gave this bit of information considerable thought during

the next few hours, and even days. She took it for granted that the

doctor had really seen her husband, and that he had been riding, most

likely, with some other woman, after announcing himself as _busy_ to

her. As a consequence, she recalled, with rising feeling, how often he

had refused to go to places with her, to share in little visits, or,

indeed, take part in any of the social amenities which furnished the

diversion of her existence. He had been seen at the theatre with people

whom he called Moy’s friends; now he was seen driving, and, most

likely, would have an excuse for that. Perhaps there were others of

whom she did not hear, or why should he be so busy, so indifferent, of

late? In the last six weeks he had become strangely irritable—strangely

satisfied to pick up and go out, whether things were right or wrong in

the house. Why?

She recalled, with more subtle emotions, that he did not look at her

now with any of the old light of satisfaction or approval in his eye.

Evidently, along with other things, he was taking her to be getting old

and uninteresting. He saw her wrinkles, perhaps. She was fading, while

he was still preening himself in his elegance and youth. He was still

an interested factor in the merry-makings of the world, while she—but

she did not pursue the thought. She only found the whole situation

bitter, and hated him for it thoroughly.

Nothing came of this incident at the time, for the truth is it did not

seem conclusive enough to warrant any discussion. Only the atmosphere

of distrust and ill-feeling was strengthened, precipitating every now

and then little sprinklings of irritable conversation, enlivened by

flashes of wrath. The matter of the Waukesha outing was merely a

continuation of other things of the same nature.

The day after Carrie’s appearance on the Avery stage, Mrs. Hurstwood

visited the races with Jessica and a youth of her acquaintance, Mr.

Bart Taylor, the son of the owner of a local house-furnishing

establishment. They had driven out early, and, as it chanced,

encountered several friends of Hurstwood, all Elks, and two of whom had

attended the performance the evening before. A thousand chances the

subject of the performance had never been brought up had Jessica not

been so engaged by the attentions of her young companion, who usurped

as much time as possible. This left Mrs. Hurstwood in the mood to

extend the perfunctory greetings of some who knew her into short

conversations, and the short conversations of friends into long ones.

It was from one who meant but to greet her perfunctorily that this

interesting intelligence came.

“I see,” said this individual, who wore sporting clothes of the most

attractive pattern, and had a field-glass strung over his shoulder,

“that you did not get over to our little entertainment last evening.”

“No?” said Mrs. Hurstwood, inquiringly, and wondering why he should be

using the tone he did in noting the fact that she had not been to

something she knew nothing about. It was on her lips to say, “What was

it?” when he added, “I saw your husband.”

Her wonder was at once replaced by the more subtle quality of

suspicion.

“Yes,” she said, cautiously, “was it pleasant? He did not tell me much

about it.”

“Very. Really one of the best private theatricals I ever attended.

There was one actress who surprised us all.”

“Indeed,” said Mrs. Hurstwood.

“It’s too bad you couldn’t have been there, really. I was sorry to hear

you weren’t feeling well.”

Feeling well! Mrs. Hurstwood could have echoed the words after him

open-mouthed. As it was, she extricated herself from her mingled

impulse to deny and question, and said, almost raspingly:

“Yes, it is too bad.”

“Looks like there will be quite a crowd here to-day, doesn’t it?” the

acquaintance observed, drifting off upon another topic.

The manager’s wife would have questioned farther, but she saw no

opportunity. She was for the moment wholly at sea, anxious to think for

herself, and wondering what new deception was this which caused him to

give out that she was ill when she was not. Another case of her company

not wanted, and excuses being made. She resolved to find out more.

“Were you at the performance last evening?” she asked of the next of

Hurstwood’s friends who greeted her as she sat in her box.

“Yes. You didn’t get around.”

“No,” she answered, “I was not feeling very well.”

“So your husband told me,” he answered. “Well, it was really very

enjoyable. Turned out much better than I expected.”

“Were there many there?”

“The house was full. It was quite an Elk night. I saw quite a number of

your friends—Mrs. Harrison, Mrs. Barnes, Mrs. Collins.”

“Quite a social gathering.”

“Indeed it was. My wife enjoyed it very much.”

Mrs. Hurstwood bit her lip.

“So,” she thought, “that’s the way he does. Tells my friends I am sick

and cannot come.”

She wondered what could induce him to go alone. There was something

back of this. She rummaged her brain for a reason.

By evening, when Hurstwood reached home, she had brooded herself into a

state of sullen desire for explanation and revenge. She wanted to know

what this peculiar action of his imported. She was certain there was

more behind it all than what she had heard, and evil curiosity mingled

well with distrust and the remnants of her wrath of the morning. She,

impending disaster itself, walked about with gathered shadow at the

eyes and the rudimentary muscles of savagery fixing the hard lines of

her mouth.

On the other hand, as we may well believe, the manager came home in the

sunniest mood. His conversation and agreement with Carrie had raised

his spirits until he was in the frame of mind of one who sings

joyously. He was proud of himself, proud of his success, proud of

Carrie. He could have been genial to all the world, and he bore no

grudge against his wife. He meant to be pleasant, to forget her

presence, to live in the atmosphere of youth and pleasure which had

been restored to him.

So now, the house, to his mind, had a most pleasing and comfortable

appearance. In the hall he found an evening paper, laid there by the

maid and forgotten by Mrs. Hurstwood. In the dining-room the table was

clean laid with linen and napery and shiny with glasses and decorated

china. Through an open door he saw into the kitchen, where the fire was

crackling in the stove and the evening meal already well under way. Out

in the small back yard was George, Jr., frolicking with a young dog he

had recently purchased, and in the parlour Jessica was playing at the

piano, the sounds of a merry waltz filling every nook and corner of the

comfortable home. Every one, like himself, seemed to have regained his

good spirits, to be in sympathy with youth and beauty, to be inclined

to joy and merry-making. He felt as if he could say a good word all

around himself, and took a most genial glance at the spread table and

polished sideboard before going upstairs to read his paper in the

comfortable armchair of the sitting-room which looked through the open

windows into the street. When he entered there, however, he found his

wife brushing her hair and musing to herself the while.

He came lightly in, thinking to smooth over any feeling that might

still exist by a kindly word and a ready promise, but Mrs. Hurstwood

said nothing. He seated himself in the large chair, stirred lightly in

making himself comfortable, opened his paper, and began to read. In a

few moments he was smiling merrily over a very comical account of a

baseball game which had taken place between the Chicago and Detroit

teams.

The while he was doing this Mrs. Hurstwood was observing him casually

through the medium of the mirror which was before her. She noticed his

pleasant and contented manner, his airy grace and smiling humour, and

it merely aggravated her the more. She wondered how he could think to

carry himself so in her presence after the cynicism, indifference, and

neglect he had heretofore manifested and would continue to manifest so

long as she would endure it. She thought how she should like to tell

him—what stress and emphasis she would lend her assertions, how she

should drive over this whole affair until satisfaction should be

rendered her. Indeed, the shining sword of her wrath was but weakly

suspended by a thread of thought.

In the meanwhile Hurstwood encountered a humorous item concerning a

stranger who had arrived in the city and became entangled with a

bunco-steerer. It amused him immensely, and at last he stirred and

chuckled to himself. He wished that he might enlist his wife’s

attention and read it to her.

“Ha, ha,” he exclaimed softly, as if to himself, “that’s funny.”

Mrs. Hurstwood kept on arranging her hair, not so much as deigning a

glance.

He stirred again and went on to another subject. At last he felt as if

his good-humour must find some outlet. Julia was probably still out of

humour over that affair of this morning, but that could easily be

straightened. As a matter of fact, she was in the wrong, but he didn’t

care. She could go to Waukesha right away if she wanted to. The sooner

the better. He would tell her that as soon as he got a chance, and the

whole thing would blow over.

“Did you notice,” he said, at last, breaking forth concerning another

item which he had found, “that they have entered suit to compel the

Illinois Central to get off the lake front, Julia?” he asked.

She could scarcely force herself to answer, but managed to say “No,”

sharply.

Hurstwood pricked up his ears. There was a note in her voice which

vibrated keenly.

“It would be a good thing if they did,” he went on, half to himself,

half to her, though he felt that something was amiss in that quarter.

He withdrew his attention to his paper very circumspectly, listening

mentally for the little sounds which should show him what was on foot.

As a matter of fact, no man as clever as Hurstwood—as observant and

sensitive to atmospheres of many sorts, particularly upon his own plane

of thought—would have made the mistake which he did in regard to his

wife, wrought up as she was, had he not been occupied mentally with a

very different train of thought. Had not the influence of Carrie’s

regard for him, the elation which her promise aroused in him, lasted

over, he would not have seen the house in so pleasant a mood. It was

not extraordinarily bright and merry this evening. He was merely very

much mistaken, and would have been much more fitted to cope with it had

he come home in his normal state.

After he had studied his paper a few moments longer, he felt that he

ought to modify matters in some way or other. Evidently his wife was

not going to patch up peace at a word. So he said:

“Where did George get the dog he has there in the yard?”

“I don’t know,” she snapped.

He put his paper down on his knees and gazed idly out of the window. He

did not propose to lose his temper, but merely to be persistent and

agreeable, and by a few questions bring around a mild understanding of

some sort.

“Why do you feel so bad about that affair of this morning?” he said, at

last. “We needn’t quarrel about that. You know you can go to Waukesha

if you want to.”

“So you can stay here and trifle around with some one else?” she

exclaimed, turning to him a determined countenance upon which was drawn

a sharp and wrathful sneer.

He stopped as if slapped in the face. In an instant his persuasive,

conciliatory manner fled. He was on the defensive at a wink and puzzled

for a word to reply.

“What do you mean?” he said at last, straightening himself and gazing

at the cold, determined figure before him, who paid no attention, but

went on arranging herself before the mirror.

“You know what I mean,” she said, finally, as if there were a world of

information which she held in reserve—which she did not need to tell.

“Well, I don’t,” he said, stubbornly, yet nervous and alert for what

should come next. The finality of the woman’s manner took away his

feeling of superiority in battle.

She made no answer.

“Hmph!” he murmured, with a movement of his head to one side. It was

the weakest thing he had ever done. It was totally unassured.

Mrs. Hurstwood noticed the lack of colour in it. She turned upon him,

animal-like, able to strike an effectual second blow.

“I want the Waukesha money to-morrow morning,” she said.

He looked at her in amazement. Never before had he seen such a cold,

steely determination in her eye—such a cruel look of indifference. She

seemed a thorough master of her mood—thoroughly confident and

determined to wrest all control from him. He felt that all his

resources could not defend him. He must attack.

“What do you mean?” he said, jumping up. “You want! I’d like to know

what’s got into you to-night.”

“Nothing’s _got_ into me,” she said, flaming. “I want that money. You

can do your swaggering afterwards.”

“Swaggering, eh! What! You’ll get nothing from me. What do you mean by

your insinuations, anyhow?”

“Where were you last night?” she answered. The words were hot as they

came. “Who were you driving with on Washington Boulevard? Who were you

with at the theatre when George saw you? Do you think I’m a fool to be

duped by you? Do you think I’ll sit at home here and take your ‘too

busys’ and ‘can’t come,’ while you parade around and make out that I’m

unable to come? I want you to know that lordly airs have come to an end

so far as I am concerned. You can’t dictate to me nor my children. I’m

through with you entirely.”

“It’s a lie,” he said, driven to a corner and knowing no other excuse.

“Lie, eh!” she said, fiercely, but with returning reserve; “you may

call it a lie if you want to, but I know.”

“It’s a lie, I tell you,” he said, in a low, sharp voice. “You’ve been

searching around for some cheap accusation for months and now you think

you have it. You think you’ll spring something and get the upper hand.

Well, I tell you, you can’t. As long as I’m in this house I’m master of

it, and you or any one else won’t dictate to me—do you hear?”

He crept toward her with a light in his eye that was ominous. Something

in the woman’s cool, cynical, upper-handish manner, as if she were

already master, caused him to feel for the moment as if he could

strangle her.

She gazed at him—a pythoness in humour.

“I’m not dictating to you,” she returned; “I’m telling you what I

want.”

The answer was so cool, so rich in bravado, that somehow it took the

wind out of his sails. He could not attack her, he could not ask her

for proofs. Somehow he felt evidence, law, the remembrance of all his

property which she held in her name, to be shining in her glance. He

was like a vessel, powerful and dangerous, but rolling and floundering

without sail.

“And I’m telling you,” he said in the end, slightly recovering himself,

“what you’ll not get.”

“We’ll see about it,” she said. “I’ll find out what my rights are.

Perhaps you’ll talk to a lawyer, if you won’t to me.”

It was a magnificent play, and had its effect. Hurstwood fell back

beaten. He knew now that he had more than mere bluff to contend with.

He felt that he was face to face with a dull proposition. What to say

he hardly knew. All the merriment had gone out of the day. He was

disturbed, wretched, resentful. What should he do? “Do as you please,”

he said, at last. “I’ll have nothing more to do with you,” and out he

strode.

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