For the next two days Carrie indulged in the most high-flown
speculations.
Her fancy plunged recklessly into privileges and amusements which would
have been much more becoming had she been cradled a child of fortune.
With ready will and quick mental selection she scattered her meagre
four-fifty per week with a swift and graceful hand. Indeed, as she sat
in her rocking-chair these several evenings before going to bed and
looked out upon the pleasantly lighted street, this money cleared for
its prospective possessor the way to every joy and every bauble which
the heart of woman may desire. “I will have a fine time,” she thought.
Her sister Minnie knew nothing of these rather wild cerebrations,
though they exhausted the markets of delight. She was too busy
scrubbing the kitchen woodwork and calculating the purchasing power of
eighty cents for Sunday’s dinner. When Carrie had returned home,
flushed with her first success and ready, for all her weariness, to
discuss the now interesting events which led up to her achievement, the
former had merely smiled approvingly and inquired whether she would
have to spend any of it for car fare. This consideration had not
entered in before, and it did not now for long affect the glow of
Carrie’s enthusiasm. Disposed as she then was to calculate upon that
vague basis which allows the subtraction of one sum from another
without any perceptible diminution, she was happy.
When Hanson came home at seven o’clock, he was inclined to be a little
crusty—his usual demeanour before supper. This never showed so much in
anything he said as in a certain solemnity of countenance and the
silent manner in which he slopped about. He had a pair of yellow carpet
slippers which he enjoyed wearing, and these he would immediately
substitute for his solid pair of shoes. This, and washing his face with
the aid of common washing soap until it glowed a shiny red, constituted
his only preparation for his evening meal. He would then get his
evening paper and read in silence.
For a young man, this was rather a morbid turn of character, and so
affected Carrie. Indeed, it affected the entire atmosphere of the flat,
as such things are inclined to do, and gave to his wife’s mind its
subdued and tactful turn, anxious to avoid taciturn replies. Under the
influence of Carrie’s announcement he brightened up somewhat.
“You didn’t lose any time, did you?” he remarked, smiling a little.
“No,” returned Carrie with a touch of pride.
He asked her one or two more questions and then turned to play with the
baby, leaving the subject until it was brought up again by Minnie at
the table.
Carrie, however, was not to be reduced to the common level of
observation which prevailed in the flat.
“It seems to be such a large company,” she said, at one place.
“Great big plate-glass windows and lots of clerks. The man I saw said
they hired ever so many people.”
“It’s not very hard to get work now,” put in Hanson, “if you look
right.”
Minnie, under the warming influence of Carrie’s good spirits and her
husband’s somewhat conversational mood, began to tell Carrie of some of
the well-known things to see—things the enjoyment of which cost
nothing.
“You’d like to see Michigan Avenue. There are such fine houses. It is
such a fine street.”
“Where is H. R. Jacob’s?” interrupted Carrie, mentioning one of the
theatres devoted to melodrama which went by that name at the time.
“Oh, it’s not very far from here,” answered Minnie. “It’s in Halstead
Street, right up here.”
“How I’d like to go there. I crossed Halstead Street to-day, didn’t I?”
At this there was a slight halt in the natural reply. Thoughts are a
strangely permeating factor. At her suggestion of going to the theatre,
the unspoken shade of disapproval to the doing of those things which
involved the expenditure of money—shades of feeling which arose in the
mind of Hanson and then in Minnie—slightly affected the atmosphere of
the table. Minnie answered “yes,” but Carrie could feel that going to
the theatre was poorly advocated here. The subject was put off for a
little while until Hanson, through with his meal, took his paper and
went into the front room.
When they were alone, the two sisters began a somewhat freer
conversation, Carrie interrupting it to hum a little, as they worked at
the dishes.
“I should like to walk up and see Halstead Street, if it isn’t too
far,” said Carrie, after a time. “Why don’t we go to the theatre
to-night?”
“Oh, I don’t think Sven would want to go to-night,” returned Minnie.
“He has to get up so early.”
“He wouldn’t mind—he’d enjoy it,” said Carrie.
“No, he doesn’t go very often,” returned Minnie.
“Well, I’d like to go,” rejoined Carrie. “Let’s you and me go.”
Minnie pondered a while, not upon whether she could or would go—for
that point was already negatively settled with her—but upon some means
of diverting the thoughts of her sister to some other topic.
“We’ll go some other time,” she said at last, finding no ready means of
escape.
Carrie sensed the root of the opposition at once.
“I have some money,” she said. “You go with me.” Minnie shook her head.
“He could go along,” said Carrie.
“No,” returned Minnie softly, and rattling the dishes to drown the
conversation. “He wouldn’t.”
It had been several years since Minnie had seen Carrie, and in that
time the latter’s character had developed a few shades. Naturally timid
in all things that related to her own advancement, and especially so
when without power or resource, her craving for pleasure was so strong
that it was the one stay of her nature. She would speak for that when
silent on all else.
“Ask him,” she pleaded softly.
Minnie was thinking of the resource which Carrie’s board would add. It
would pay the rent and would make the subject of expenditure a little
less difficult to talk about with her husband. But if Carrie was going
to think of running around in the beginning there would be a hitch
somewhere. Unless Carrie submitted to a solemn round of industry and
saw the need of hard work without longing for play, how was her coming
to the city to profit them? These thoughts were not those of a cold,
hard nature at all. They were the serious reflections of a mind which
invariably adjusted itself, without much complaining, to such
surroundings as its industry could make for it.
At last she yielded enough to ask Hanson. It was a half-hearted
procedure without a shade of desire on her part.
“Carrie wants us to go to the theatre,” she said, looking in upon her
husband. Hanson looked up from his paper, and they exchanged a mild
look, which said as plainly as anything: “This isn’t what we expected.”
“I don’t care to go,” he returned. “What does she want to see?”
“H. R. Jacob’s,” said Minnie.
He looked down at his paper and shook his head negatively.
When Carrie saw how they looked upon her proposition, she gained a
still clearer feeling of their way of life. It weighed on her, but took
no definite form of opposition.
“I think I’ll go down and stand at the foot of the stairs,” she said,
after a time.
Minnie made no objection to this, and Carrie put on her hat and went
below.
“Where has Carrie gone?” asked Hanson, coming back into the dining-room
when he heard the door close.
“She said she was going down to the foot of the stairs,” answered
Minnie. “I guess she just wants to look out a while.”
“She oughtn’t to be thinking about spending her money on theatres
already, do you think?” he said.
“She just feels a little curious, I guess,” ventured Minnie.
“Everything is so new.”
“I don’t know,” said Hanson, and went over to the baby, his forehead
slightly wrinkled.
He was thinking of a full career of vanity and wastefulness which a
young girl might indulge in, and wondering how Carrie could contemplate
such a course when she had so little, as yet, with which to do.
On Saturday Carrie went out by herself—first toward the river, which
interested her, and then back along Jackson Street, which was then
lined by the pretty houses and fine lawns which subsequently caused it
to be made into a boulevard. She was struck with the evidences of
wealth, although there was, perhaps, not a person on the street worth
more than a hundred thousand dollars. She was glad to be out of the
flat, because already she felt that it was a narrow, humdrum place, and
that interest and joy lay elsewhere. Her thoughts now were of a more
liberal character, and she punctuated them with speculations as to the
whereabouts of Drouet. She was not sure but that he might call anyhow
Monday night, and, while she felt a little disturbed at the
possibility, there was, nevertheless, just the shade of a wish that he
would.
On Monday she arose early and prepared to go to work. She dressed
herself in a worn shirt-waist of dotted blue percale, a skirt of
light-brown serge rather faded, and a small straw hat which she had
worn all summer at Columbia City. Her shoes were old, and her necktie
was in that crumpled, flattened state which time and much wearing
impart. She made a very average looking shop-girl with the exception of
her features. These were slightly more even than common, and gave her a
sweet, reserved, and pleasing appearance.
It is no easy thing to get up early in the morning when one is used to
sleeping until seven and eight, as Carrie had been at home. She gained
some inkling of the character of Hanson’s life when, half asleep, she
looked out into the dining-room at six o’clock and saw him silently
finishing his breakfast. By the time she was dressed he was gone, and
she, Minnie, and the baby ate together, the latter being just old
enough to sit in a high chair and disturb the dishes with a spoon. Her
spirits were greatly subdued now when the fact of entering upon strange
and untried duties confronted her. Only the ashes of all her fine
fancies were remaining—ashes still concealing, nevertheless, a few red
embers of hope. So subdued was she by her weakening nerves, that she
ate quite in silence going over imaginary conceptions of the character
of the shoe company, the nature of the work, her employer’s attitude.
She was vaguely feeling that she would come in contact with the great
owners, that her work would be where grave, stylishly dressed men
occasionally look on.
“Well, good luck,” said Minnie, when she was ready to go. They had
agreed it was best to walk, that morning at least, to see if she could
do it every day—sixty cents a week for car fare being quite an item
under the circumstances.
“I’ll tell you how it goes to-night,” said Carrie.
Once in the sunlit street, with labourers tramping by in either
direction, the horse-cars passing crowded to the rails with the small
clerks and floor help in the great wholesale houses, and men and women
generally coming out of doors and passing about the neighbourhood,
Carrie felt slightly reassured. In the sunshine of the morning, beneath
the wide, blue heavens, with a fresh wind astir, what fears, except the
most desperate, can find a harbourage? In the night, or the gloomy
chambers of the day, fears and misgivings wax strong, but out in the
sunlight there is, for a time, cessation even of the terror of death.
Carrie went straight forward until she crossed the river, and then
turned into Fifth Avenue. The thoroughfare, in this part, was like a
walled canon of brown stone and dark red brick. The big windows looked
shiny and clean. Trucks were rumbling in increasing numbers; men and
women, girls and boys were moving onward in all directions. She met
girls of her own age, who looked at her as if with contempt for her
diffidence. She wondered at the magnitude of this life and at the
importance of knowing much in order to do anything in it at all. Dread
at her own inefficiency crept upon her. She would not know how, she
would not be quick enough. Had not all the other places refused her
because she did not know something or other? She would be scolded,
abused, ignominiously discharged.
It was with weak knees and a slight catch in her breathing that she
came up to the great shoe company at Adams and Fifth Avenue and entered
the elevator. When she stepped out on the fourth floor there was no one
at hand, only great aisles of boxes piled to the ceiling. She stood,
very much frightened, awaiting some one.
Presently Mr. Brown came up. He did not seem to recognise her.
“What is it you want?” he inquired.
Carrie’s heart sank.
“You said I should come this morning to see about work—”
“Oh,” he interrupted. “Um—yes. What is your name?”
“Carrie Meeber.”
“Yes,” said he. “You come with me.”
He led the way through dark, box-lined aisles which had the smell of
new shoes, until they came to an iron door which opened into the
factory proper. There was a large, low-ceiled room, with clacking,
rattling machines at which men in white shirt sleeves and blue gingham
aprons were working. She followed him diffidently through the
clattering automatons, keeping her eyes straight before her, and
flushing slightly. They crossed to a far corner and took an elevator to
the sixth floor. Out of the array of machines and benches, Mr. Brown
signalled a foreman.
“This is the girl,” he said, and turning to Carrie, “You go with him.”
He then returned, and Carrie followed her new superior to a little desk
in a corner, which he used as a kind of official centre.
“You’ve never worked at anything like this before, have you?” he
questioned, rather sternly.
“No, sir,” she answered.
He seemed rather annoyed at having to bother with such help, but put
down her name and then led her across to where a line of girls occupied
stools in front of clacking machines. On the shoulder of one of the
girls who was punching eye-holes in one piece of the upper, by the aid
of the machine, he put his hand.
“You,” he said, “show this girl how to do what you’re doing. When you
get through, come to me.”
The girl so addressed rose promptly and gave Carrie her place.
“It isn’t hard to do,” she said, bending over. “You just take this so,
fasten it with this clamp, and start the machine.”
She suited action to word, fastened the piece of leather, which was
eventually to form the right half of the upper of a man’s shoe, by
little adjustable clamps, and pushed a small steel rod at the side of
the machine. The latter jumped to the task of punching, with sharp,
snapping clicks, cutting circular bits of leather out of the side of
the upper, leaving the holes which were to hold the laces. After
observing a few times, the girl let her work at it alone. Seeing that
it was fairly well done, she went away.
The pieces of leather came from the girl at the machine to her right,
and were passed on to the girl at her left. Carrie saw at once that an
average speed was necessary or the work would pile up on her and all
those below would be delayed. She had no time to look about, and bent
anxiously to her task. The girls at her left and right realised her
predicament and feelings, and, in a way, tried to aid her, as much as
they dared, by working slower.
At this task she laboured incessantly for some time, finding relief
from her own nervous fears and imaginings in the humdrum, mechanical
movement of the machine. She felt, as the minutes passed, that the room
was not very light. It had a thick odour of fresh leather, but that did
not worry her. She felt the eyes of the other help upon her, and
troubled lest she was not working fast enough.
Once, when she was fumbling at the little clamp, having made a slight
error in setting in the leather, a great hand appeared before her eyes
and fastened the clamp for her. It was the foreman. Her heart thumped
so that she could scarcely see to go on.
“Start your machine,” he said, “start your machine. Don’t keep the line
waiting.”
This recovered her sufficiently and she went excitedly on, hardly
breathing until the shadow moved away from behind her. Then she heaved
a great breath.
As the morning wore on the room became hotter. She felt the need of a
breath of fresh air and a drink of water, but did not venture to stir.
The stool she sat on was without a back or foot-rest, and she began to
feel uncomfortable. She found, after a time, that her back was
beginning to ache. She twisted and turned from one position to another
slightly different, but it did not ease her for long. She was beginning
to weary.
“Stand up, why don’t you?” said the girl at her right, without any form
of introduction. “They won’t care.”
Carrie looked at her gratefully. “I guess I will,” she said.
She stood up from her stool and worked that way for a while, but it was
a more difficult position. Her neck and shoulders ached in bending
over.
The spirit of the place impressed itself on her in a rough way. She did
not venture to look around, but above the clack of the machine she
could hear an occasional remark. She could also note a thing or two out
of the side of her eye.
“Did you see Harry last night?” said the girl at her left, addressing
her neighbour.
“No.”
“You ought to have seen the tie he had on. Gee, but he was a mark.”
“S-s-t,” said the other girl, bending over her work. The first,
silenced, instantly assumed a solemn face. The foreman passed slowly
along, eyeing each worker distinctly. The moment he was gone, the
conversation was resumed again.
“Say,” began the girl at her left, “what jeh think he said?”
“I don’t know.”
“He said he saw us with Eddie Harris at Martin’s last night.”
“No!” They both giggled.
A youth with tan-coloured hair, that needed clipping very badly, came
shuffling along between the machines, bearing a basket of leather
findings under his left arm, and pressed against his stomach. When near
Carrie, he stretched out his right hand and gripped one girl under the
arm.
“Aw, let me go,” she exclaimed angrily. “Duffer.”
He only grinned broadly in return.
“Rubber!” he called back as she looked after him. There was nothing of
the gallant in him.
Carrie at last could scarcely sit still. Her legs began to tire and she
wanted to get up and stretch. Would noon never come? It seemed as if
she had worked an entire day. She was not hungry at all, but weak, and
her eyes were tired, straining at the one point where the eye-punch
came down. The girl at the right noticed her squirmings and felt sorry
for her. She was concentrating herself too thoroughly—what she did
really required less mental and physical strain. There was nothing to
be done, however. The halves of the uppers came piling steadily down.
Her hands began to ache at the wrists and then in the fingers, and
towards the last she seemed one mass of dull, complaining muscles,
fixed in an eternal position and performing a single mechanical
movement which became more and more distasteful, until as last it was
absolutely nauseating. When she was wondering whether the strain would
ever cease, a dull-sounding bell clanged somewhere down an elevator
shaft, and the end came. In an instant there was a buzz of action and
conversation. All the girls instantly left their stools and hurried
away in an adjoining room, men passed through, coming from some
department which opened on the right. The whirling wheels began to sing
in a steadily modifying key, until at last they died away in a low
buzz. There was an audible stillness, in which the common voice sounded
strange.
Carrie got up and sought her lunch box. She was stiff, a little dizzy,
and very thirsty. On the way to the small space portioned off by wood,
where all the wraps and lunches were kept, she encountered the foreman,
who stared at her hard.
“Well,” he said, “did you get along all right?”
“I think so,” she replied, very respectfully.
“Um,” he replied, for want of something better, and walked on.
Under better material conditions, this kind of work would not have been
so bad, but the new socialism which involves pleasant working
conditions for employees had not then taken hold upon manufacturing
companies.
The place smelled of the oil of the machines and the new leather—a
combination which, added to the stale odours of the building, was not
pleasant even in cold weather. The floor, though regularly swept every
evening, presented a littered surface. Not the slightest provision had
been made for the comfort of the employees, the idea being that
something was gained by giving them as little and making the work as
hard and unremunerative as possible. What we know of foot-rests,
swivel-back chairs, dining-rooms for the girls, clean aprons and
curling irons supplied free, and a decent cloak room, were unthought
of. The washrooms were disagreeable, crude, if not foul places, and the
whole atmosphere was sordid.
Carrie looked about her, after she had drunk a tinful of water from a
bucket in one corner, for a place to sit and eat. The other girls had
ranged themselves about the windows or the work-benches of those of the
men who had gone out. She saw no place which did not hold a couple or a
group of girls, and being too timid to think of intruding herself, she
sought out her machine and, seated upon her stool, opened her lunch on
her lap. There she sat listening to the chatter and comment about her.
It was, for the most part, silly and graced by the current slang.
Several of the men in the room exchanged compliments with the girls at
long range.
“Say, Kitty,” called one to a girl who was doing a waltz step in a few
feet of space near one of the windows, “are you going to the ball with
me?”
“Look out, Kitty,” called another, “you’ll jar your back hair.”
“Go on, Rubber,” was her only comment.
As Carrie listened to this and much more of similar familiar badinage
among the men and girls, she instinctively withdrew into herself. She
was not used to this type, and felt that there was something hard and
low about it all. She feared that the young boys about would address
such remarks to her—boys who, beside Drouet, seemed uncouth and
ridiculous. She made the average feminine distinction between clothes,
putting worth, goodness, and distinction in a dress suit, and leaving
all the unlovely qualities and those beneath notice in overalls and
jumper.
She was glad when the short half hour was over and the wheels began to
whirr again. Though wearied, she would be inconspicuous. This illusion
ended when another young man passed along the aisle and poked her
indifferently in the ribs with his thumb. She turned about, indignation
leaping to her eyes, but he had gone on and only once turned to grin.
She found it difficult to conquer an inclination to cry.
The girl next her noticed her state of mind. “Don’t you mind,” she
said. “He’s too fresh.”
Carrie said nothing, but bent over her work. She felt as though she
could hardly endure such a life. Her idea of work had been so entirely
different. All during the long afternoon she thought of the city
outside and its imposing show, crowds, and fine buildings. Columbia
City and the better side of her home life came back. By three o’clock
she was sure it must be six, and by four it seemed as if they had
forgotten to note the hour and were letting all work overtime. The
foreman became a true ogre, prowling constantly about, keeping her tied
down to her miserable task. What she heard of the conversation about
her only made her feel sure that she did not want to make friends with
any of these. When six o’clock came she hurried eagerly away, her arms
aching and her limbs stiff from sitting in one position.
As she passed out along the hall after getting her hat, a young machine
hand, attracted by her looks, made bold to jest with her.
“Say, Maggie,” he called, “if you wait, I’ll walk with you.”
It was thrown so straight in her direction that she knew who was meant,
but never turned to look.
In the crowded elevator, another dusty, toil-stained youth tried to
make an impression on her by leering in her face.
One young man, waiting on the walk outside for the appearance of
another, grinned at her as she passed.
“Ain’t going my way, are you?” he called jocosely.
Carrie turned her face to the west with a subdued heart. As she turned
the corner, she saw through the great shiny window the small desk at
which she had applied. There were the crowds, hurrying with the same
buzz and energy-yielding enthusiasm. She felt a slight relief, but it
was only at her escape. She felt ashamed in the face of better dressed
girls who went by. She felt as though she should be better served, and
her heart revolted.