CHAPTER XIX

"AS A MAN SOWETH"

AT THE earliest possible moment in the spring, the building of the mill

began. It was scarcely well under way when the work was stopped by a

week of heavy rains. The water filled the ravine to dangerous height

and the roaring of the dam could be heard all over town. George talked

of it incessantly. He said it was the sweetest music his ears had ever

heard. Kate had to confess that she like the sound herself, but she

was fearful over saying much on the subject because she was so very

anxious about the stability of the dam. There was a day or two of fine

weather; then the rains began again. Kate said she had all the music

she desired; she proposed to be safe; so she went and opened the

sluiceway to reduce the pressure on the dam. The result was almost

immediate. The water gushed through, lowering the current and lessening

the fall. George grumbled all day, threatening half a dozen times to

shut the sluice; but Kate and the carpenter were against him, so he

waited until he came slipping home after midnight, his brain in a

muddle from drink, smoke, and cards. As he neared the dam, he decided

that the reason he felt so badly was because he had missed hearing it

all day, but he would have it to go to sleep by. So he crossed the

bridge and shut the sluice gate. Even as he was doing it the thunder

pealed; lightning flashed, and high Heaven gave him warning that he was

doing a dangerous thing; but all his life he had done what he pleased;

there was no probability that he would change then. He needed the roar

of the dam to quiet his nerves.

The same roar that put him to sleep, awakened Kate. She lay wondering

at it and fearing. She raised her window to listen. The rain was

falling in torrents, while the roar was awful, so much worse than it

had been when she fell asleep, that she had a suspicion of what might

have caused it. She went to George's room and shook him awake.

"Listen to the dam!" she cried. "It will go, as sure as fate. George,

did you, Oh, did you, close the sluice-gate when you came home?"

He was half asleep, and too defiant from drink to take his usual course.

"Sure!" he said. "Sweesish mushich ever hearsh. Push me shleep."

He fell back on the pillow and went on sleeping. Kate tried again to

waken him, but he struck at her savagely. She ran to her room, hurried

into a few clothes, and getting the lantern, started toward the bridge.

At the gate she stepped into water. As far as she could see above the

dam the street was covered. She waded to the bridge, which was under

at each end but still bare in the middle, where it was slightly higher.

Kate crossed it and started down the yard toward the dam. The earth

was softer there, and she mired in places almost to her knees. At the

dam, the water was tearing around each end in a mad race, carrying

earth and everything before it. The mill side was lower than the

street. The current was so broad and deep she could not see where the

sluice was. She hesitated a second to try to locate it from the mill

behind her; and in that instant there was a crack and a roar, a mighty

rush that swept her from her feet and washed away the lantern. Nothing

saved her but the trees on the bank. She struck one, clung to it,

pulled herself higher, and in the blackness gripped the tree, while she

heard the dam going gradually after the first break.

There was no use to scream, no one could have heard her. The storm

raved on; Kate clung to her tree, with each flash of lightning trying

to see the dam. At last she saw that it was not all gone. She was not

much concerned about herself. She knew the tree would hold. Eagerly

she strained her eyes toward the dam. She could feel the water dropping

lower, while the roar subsided to a wild rush, and with flashes of

lightning she could see what she thought was at least half of the dam

holding firm. By that time Kate began to chill. She wrapped her arms

around the tree, and pressing her cheek against the rough bark, she

cried as hard as she could and did not care. God would not hear; the

neighbours could not. She shook and cried until she was worn out. By

that time the water was only a muddy flow around her ankles; if she had

a light she could wade back to the bridge and reach home. But if she

missed the bridge and went into the ravine, the current would be too

strong for her. She held with one arm and tried to wipe her face with

the other hand. "What a fool to cry!" she said. "As if there were any

more water needed here!"

Then she saw a light in the house, and the figures of the children,

carrying it from room to room, so she knew that one of them had

awakened for a drink, or with the storm, and they had missed her. Then

she could see them at the front door, Adam's sturdy feet planted widely

apart, bracing him, as he held up the lamp which flickered in the wind.

Then she could hear his voice shouting: "Mother!" Instantly Kate

answered. Then she was sorry she had, for both of them began to scream

wildly. There was a second of that, then even the children realized

its futility.

"She is out there in the water, WE GOT TO GET HER," said Adam. "We got

to do it!"

He started with the light held high. The wind blew it out. They had

to go back to relight it. Kate knew they would burn their fingers, and

she prayed they would not set the house on fire. When the light showed

again, at the top of her lungs she screamed: "Adam, set the broom on

fire and carry it to the end of the bridge; the water isn't deep enough

to hurt you." She tried twice, then she saw him give Polly the lamp,

and run down the hall. He came back in an instant with the broom.

Polly held the lamp high, Adam went down the walk to the gate and

started up the sidewalk. "He's using his head," said Kate to the tree.

"He's going to wait until he reaches the bridge to start his light, so

it will last longer. THAT is BATES, anyway. Thank God!"

Adam scratched several matches before he got the broom well ignited,

then he held it high, and by its light found the end of the bridge.

Kate called to him to stop and plunging and splashing through mud and

water, she reached the bridge before the broom burned out. There she

clung to the railing she had insisted upon, and felt her way across to

the boy. His thin cotton night shirt was plastered to his sturdy

little body. As she touched him Kate lifted him in her arms, and

almost hugged the life from him.

"You big man!" she said. "You could help Mother! Good for you!"

"Is the dam gone?" he asked.

"Part of it," said Kate, sliding her feet before her, as she waded

toward Polly in the doorway.

"Did Father shut the sluice-gate, to hear the roar?"

Kate hesitated. The shivering body in her arms felt so small to her.

"I 'spect he did," said Adam. "All day he was fussing after you

stopped the roar." Then he added casually: "The old fool ought-a

known better. I 'spect he was drunk again!"

"Oh, Adam!" cried Kate, setting him on the porch. "Oh, Adam! What

makes you say that?"

"Oh, all of them at school say that," scoffed Adam. "Everybody knows

it but you, don't they, Polly?"

"Sure!" said Polly. "Most every night; but don't you mind, Mother,

Adam and I will take care of you."

Kate fell on her knees and gathered both of them in a crushing hug for

an instant; then she helped them into to dry nightgowns and to bed. As

she covered them she stooped and kissed each of them before she went to

warm and put on dry clothes, and dry her hair. It was almost dawn when

she walked to George Holt's door and looked in at him lying stretched

in deep sleep.

"You may thank your God for your children," she said. "If it hadn't

been for them, I know what I would have done to you."

Then she went to her room and lay down to rest until dawn. She was up

at the usual time and had breakfast ready for the children. As they

were starting to school George came into the room.

"Mother," said Polly, "there is a lot of folks over around the dam.

What shall we tell them?"

Kate's heart stopped. She had heard that question before.

"Tell them the truth," said Adam scornfully, before Kate could answer.

"Tell them that Mother opened the sluiceway to save the dam and Father

shut it to hear it roar, and it busted!"

"Shall I, Mother?" asked Polly.

A slow whiteness spread over George's face; he stared down the hall to

look.

"Tell them exactly what you please," said Kate, "only you watch

yourself like a hawk. If you tell one word not the way it was, or in

any way different from what happened, I'll punish you severely."

"May I tell them I held the lamp while Adam got you out of the water?"

asked Polly. "That would be true, you know."

George turned to listen, his face still whiter.

"Yes, that would be true," said Kate, "but if you tell them that, the

first thing they will ask will be 'where was your father?' What will

you say then?"

"Why, we'll say that he was so drunk we couldn't wake him up," said

Polly conclusively. "We pulled him, an' we shook him, an' we yelled at

him. Didn't we, Adam?"

"I was not drunk!" shouted George.

"Oh, yes, you were," said Adam. "You smelled all sour, like it does at

the saloon door!"

George made a rush at Adam. The boy spread his feet and put up his

hands, but never flinched or moved. Kate looking on felt something in

her heart that never had been there before. She caught George's arm,

as he reached the child.

"You go on to school, little folks," she said. "And for Mother's sake

try not to talk at all. If people question you, tell them to ask

Mother. I'd be so proud of you, if you would do that."

"I WILL, if you'll hold me and kiss me again like you did last night

when you got out of the water," said Polly.

"It is a bargain," said Kate. "How about you, Adam?"

"I will for THAT, too," said Adam, "but I'd like awful well to tell how

fast the water went, and how it poured and roared, while I held the

light, and you got across. Gee, if was awful, Mother! So black, and so

crashy, and so deep. I'd LIKE to tell!"

"But you WON'T if I ask you not to?" queried Kate.

"I will not," said Adam.

Kate went down on her knees again, she held out her arms and both

youngsters rushed to her. After they were gone, she and George Holt

looked at each other an instant, then Kate turned to her work. He

followed: "Kate--" he began.

"No use!" said Kate. "If you go out and look at the highest water

mark, you can easily imagine what I had to face last night when I had

to cross the bridge to open the sluice-gate, or the bridge would have

gone, too. If the children had not wakened with the storm, and hunted

me, I'd have had to stay over there until morning, if I could have

clung to the tree that long. First they rescued me; and then they

rescued YOU, if you only but knew it. By using part of the money I had

saved for the house, I can rebuild the dam; but I am done with you.

We're partners no longer. Not with business, money, or in any other

way, will I ever trust you again. Sit down there and eat your

breakfast, and then leave my sight."

Instead George put on his old clothing, crossed the bridge, and worked

all day with all his might trying to gather building material out of

the water, save debris from the dam, to clear the village street. At

noon he came over and got a drink, and a piece of bread. At night he

worked until he could see no longer, and then ate some food from the

cupboard and went to bed. He was up and at work before daybreak in the

morning, and for two weeks he kept this up, until he had done much to

repair the work of the storm. The dam he almost rebuilt himself, as

soon as the water lowered to normal again. Kate knew what he was

trying to do, and knew also that in a month he had the village pitying

him, and blaming her because he was working himself to death, and she

was allowing it.

She doggedly went on with her work; the contracts were made; she was

forced to. As the work neared completion, her faith in the enterprise

grew. She studied by the hour everything she could find pertaining to

the business. When the machinery began to arrive, George frequently

spoke about having timber ready to begin work on, but he never really

believed the thing which did happen, would happen, until the first load

of logs slowly crossed the bridge and began unloading in the yards. A

few questions elicited from the driver the reply that he had sold the

timber to young Adam Bates of Bates Corners, who was out buying right

and left and paying cash on condition the seller did his own

delivering. George saw the scheme, and that it was good. Also the logs

were good, while the price was less than he hoped to pay for such

timber. His soul was filled with bitterness. The mill was his scheme.

He had planned it all. Those thieving Bates had stolen his plan, and

his location, and his home, and practically separated him from his wife

and children. It was his mill, and all he was getting from it was to

work with all his might, and not a decent word from morning until

night. That day instead of working as before, he sat in the shade most

of the time, and that night instead of going to bed he went down town.

When the mill was almost finished Kate employed two men who lived in

Walden, but had been working in the Hartley mills for years. They were

honest men of much experience. Kate made the better of them foreman,

and consulted with him in every step of completing the mill, and

setting up the machinery. She watched everything with sharp eyes,

often making suggestions that were useful about the placing of

different parts as a woman would arrange them. Some of these the men

laughed at, some they were more than glad to accept. When the engine

was set up, the big saw in place, George went to Kate.

"See here!" he said roughly. "I know I was wrong about the

sluice-gate. I was a fool to shut it with the water that high, but

I've learned my lesson; I'll never touch it again; I've worked like a

dog for weeks to pay for it; now where do I come in? What's my job, how

much is my share of the money, and when do I get it?"

"The trouble with you, George, is that you have to learn a new lesson

about every thing you attempt. You can't carry a lesson about one

thing in your mind, and apply it to the next thing that comes up. I

know you have worked, and I know why. It is fair that you should have

something, but I can't say what, just now. Having to rebuild the dam,

and with a number of incidentals that have come up, in spite of the

best figuring I could do, I have been forced to use my money saved for

rebuilding the house; and even with that, I am coming out a hundred or

two short. I'm strapped; and until money begins to come in I have none

myself. The first must go toward paying the men's wages, the next for

timber. If Jim Milton can find work for you, go to work at the mill,

and when we get started I'll pay you what is fair and just, you may

depend on that. If he hasn't work for you, you'll have to find a job

at something else."

"Do you mean that?" he asked wonderingly.

"I mean it," said Kate.

"After stealing my plan, and getting my land for nothing, you'd throw

me out entirely?" he demanded.

"You entreated me to put all I had into your plan, you told me

repeatedly the ravine was worth nothing, you were not even keeping up

the taxes on it until I came and urged you to, the dam is used merely

for water, the engine furnishes the real power, and if you are thrown

out, you have thrown yourself out. You have had every chance."

"You are going to keep your nephew on the buying job?" he asked

"I am," said Kate. "You can have no job that will give you a chance to

involve me financially."

"Then give me Milton's place. It's so easy a baby could do it, and the

wages you have promised him are scandalous," said George.

Kate laughed. "Oh, George," she said, "you can't mean that! Of all

your hare-brained ideas, that you could operate that saw, is the

wildest. Oh course you could start the engine, and set the saw

running--I could myself; but to regulate its speed, to control it with

judgment, you could no more do it than Polly. As for wages, Milton is

working for less than he got in Hartley, because he can be at home, and

save his hack fare, as you know."

George went over to Jim Milton, and after doing all he could see to do

and ordering Milton to do several things he thought might be done, he

said casually: "Of course I am BOSS around this shack, but this is new

to me. You fellows will have to tell me what to do until I get my

bearings. As soon as we get to running, I'll be yard-master, and

manage the selling and shipping. I'm good at figures, and that would

be the best place for me."

"You'll have to settle with Mrs. Holt about that," said Jim Milton.

"Of course," said George. "Isn't she a wonder? With my help, we'll

soon wipe the Hartley mills off the map, and be selling till Grand

Rapids will get her eye peeled. With you to run the machinery, me to

manage the sales, and her to keep the books, we got a combination to

beat the world."

"In the meantime," said Jim Milton dryly, "you might take that scoop

shovel and clean the shavings and blocks off this floor. Leave me some

before the engine to start the first fire, and shovel the rest into

that bin there where it's handy. It isn't safe to start with so much

loose, dry stuff lying around."

George went to work with the scoop shovel, but he watched every

movement Jim Milton made about the engine and machinery. Often he

dropped the shovel and stood studying things out for himself, and

asking questions. Not being sure of his position, Jim Milton answered

him patiently, and showed him all he wanted to know; but he constantly

cautioned him not to touch anything, or try to start the machinery

himself, as he might lose control of the gauge and break the saw, or

let the power run away with him. George scoffed at the idea of danger

and laughed at the simplicity of the engine and machinery. There was

little for him to do. He hated to be seen cleaning up the debris; men

who stopped in passing kept telling what a fine fellow young Bates was,

what good timber he was sending in. Several of them told George

frankly they thought that was to be his job. He was so ashamed of

that, he began instant improvisation.

"That was the way we first planned things," he said boastfully, "but

when it came to working out our plans, we found I would be needed here

till I learned the business, and then I'm going on the road. I am

going to be the salesman. To travel, dress well, eat well, flirt with

the pretty girls, and take big lumber orders will just about suit

little old Georgie."

"Wonder you remembered to put the orders in at all," said Jim Milton

dryly.

George glared at him. "Well, just remember whom you take orders from,"

he said, pompously.

"I take them from Mrs. Holt, and nobody else," said Milton, with equal

assurance. "And I've yet to hear her say the first word about this

wonderful travelling proposition. She thinks she will do well to fill

home orders and ship to a couple of factories she already has contracts

with. Sure you didn't dream that travelling proposition, George?"

At that instant George wished he could slay Jim Milton. All day he

brooded and grew sullen and ugly. By noon he quit working and went

down town. By suppertime he went home to prove to his wife that he was

all right. She happened to be coming across from the mill, where she

had helped Milton lay the first fire under the boiler ready to touch

off, and had seen the first log on the set carriage. It had been

agreed that she was to come over at opening time in the morning and

start the machinery. She was a proud and eager woman when she crossed

the bridge and started down the street toward the gate. From the

opposite direction came George, so unsteady that he was running into

tree boxes, then lifting his hat and apologizing to them for his

awkwardness. Kate saw at a glance that he might fall any instant. Her

only thought was to help him from the street, to where children would

not see him.

She went to him and taking his arm started down the walk with him. He

took off his hat to her also, and walked with wavering dignity, setting

his steps as if his legs were not long enough to reach the walk, so

that each step ended with a decided thump. Kate could see the

neighbours watching at their windows, and her own children playing on

the roof of the woodshed. When the children saw their parents, they

both stopped playing to stare at them. Then suddenly, shrill and high,

arose Adam's childish voice:

"Father came home the other night,

Tried to blow out the 'lectric light,

Blew and blew with all his might,

And the blow almost killed Mother."

Polly joined him, and they sang and shrilled, and shrieked it; they

jumped up and down and laughed and repeated it again and again. Kate

guided George to his room and gave him a shove that landed him on his

bed. Then to hush the children she called them to supper. They

stopped suddenly, as soon as they entered the kitchen door, and sat,

sorry and ashamed while she went around, her face white, her lips

closed, preparing their food. George was asleep. The children ate

alone, as she could take no food. Later she cleaned the kitchen, put

the children to bed, and sat on the front porch looking at the mill,

wondering, hoping, planning, praying unconsciously. When she went to

bed at ten o'clock George was still asleep.

He awakened shortly after, burning with heat and thirst. He arose and

slipped to the back porch for a drink. Water was such an aggravation,

he crossed the yard, went out the back gate, and down the alley. When

he came back up the street, he was pompously, maliciously, dangerously

drunk. Either less or more would have been better. When he came in

sight of the mill, standing new and shining in the moonlight, he was a

lord of creation, ready to work creation to his will. He would go over

and see if things were all right. But he did not cross the bridge, he

went down the side street, and entered the yard at the back. The doors

were closed and locked, but there was as yet no latch on the sliding

windows above the work bench. He could push them open from the ground.

He leaned a board against the side of the mill, set his foot on it, and

pulled himself up, so that he could climb on the bench.

That much achieved, he looked around him. After a time his eyes grew

accustomed to the darkness, so that he could see his way plainly.

Muddled half-thoughts began to filter through his brain. He remembered

he was abused. He was out of it. He remembered that he was not the

buyer for the mill. He remembered how the men had laughed when he had

said that he was to be the salesman. He remembered that Milton had

said that he was not to touch the machinery. He at once slid from the

bench and went to the boiler. He opened the door of the fire-box and

saw the kindling laid ready to light, to get up steam. He looked at

the big log on the set carriage. They had planned to start with a

splurge in the morning. Kate was to open the throttle that started the

machinery. He decided to show them that they were not so smart. He

would give them a good surprise by sawing the log. That would be a

joke on them to brag about the remainder of his life. He took matches

from his pocket and started the fire. It seemed to his fevered

imagination that it burned far too slowly. He shoved in more kindling,

shavings, ends left from siding. This smothered his fire, so he made

trip after trip to the tinder box, piling in armloads of dry,

inflammable stuff.

Then suddenly the flames leaped up. He slammed shut the door and

started toward the saw. He could not make it work. He jammed and

pulled everything he could reach. Soon he realized the heat was

becoming intense, and turned to the boiler to see that the fire-box was

red hot almost all over, white hot in places.

"My God!" he muttered. "Too hot! Got to cool that down."

Then he saw the tank and the dangling hose, and remembered that he had

not filled the boiler. Taking down the hose, he opened the watercock,

stuck in the nozzle, and turned on the water full force. Windows were

broken across the street. Parts of the fire-box, boiler, and fire flew

everywhere. The walls blew out, the roof lifted and came down, the

fire raged among the new, dry timbers of the mill.

When her windows blew in, Kate was thrown from her bed to the floor.

She lay stunned a second, then dragged herself up to look across the

street. There was nothing where the low white expanse of roof had

spread an hour before, while a red glare was creeping everywhere over

the ground. She ran to George's room and found it empty. She ran to

the kitchen, calling him, and found the back door standing open. She

rushed back to her room and began trying to put on her dress over her

nightrobe. She could not control her shaking fingers, while at each

step she cut her feet on broken glass. She reached the front door as

the children came screaming with fright. In turning to warn them about

the glass, she stumbled on the top step, pitched forward headlong, then

lay still. The neighbours carried her back to her bed, called the

doctor, and then saved all the logs in the yard they could. The

following day, when the fire had burned itself out, the undertaker

hunted assiduously, but nothing could be found to justify a funeral.

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