THE END OF ALL.
What was he to do? He was stopped short, bewildered, excited, quivering
with a hundred sensations, by this impassable guardian of virtue and
proprieties. A young gentleman is in every personal particular stronger,
more effective and potent than a middle-aged woman in a shop; yet a
bolder man than Walter would have been subdued by a representative of
law and order so uncompromising. He looked at her appealingly, with his
young eyes full of anxiety and trouble.
“I wanted only--a moment--to say a word--” he faltered, as if his fate
hung upon her grace. But nothing could move her. She stood before him
with her black silk skirts filling up the passage, in all the
correctness of costume and demeanor which her position required.
“Young gentleman,” she said, “remember that you may be doing a great
deal of harm by insisting. You can’t speak to any one here. If you’ll
take my advice you’ll join the ladies that seem to be looking for you.
That’s your party, I believe, sir,” she said, with a majestic wave of
her hand. And then poor Walter heard Ally’s voice behind him.
“Oh, Wat, what are you doing? We thought we had lost you, and mother is
waiting. Oh, Wat, what were you doing _there_? Who were you talking to?
What could you want among all the mantles?” Another voice came to the
rescue while he turned round bewildered. “I know what he was doing,
Ally; he was looking for that wrap you were talking of. You should have
asked me to come and help you to choose it, Mr. Penton.” They swept him
away bewildered, their voices and soft rustle of movement coming round
him like the soft compulsion of a running stream. The girls flowed forth
in pleasant words as they got him between them, as irresistible as the
duenna, though in a different way, Ally thanking him for the intention
that Mab had attributed to him. “Oh, Wat, how good of you to think of
that!”
“But, Mr. Penton, you should have asked _me_ to come with you to choose
it; I would have protected you,” said the laughing Mab. He was swept
away by them, confused, with something singing in his ears, with--not
the earth, but at least the solid flooring, covered with noiseless
carpets, laden with costly wares, giving way, as he felt, under his
stumbling feet.
He accompanied them home as in a dream: fortunately their minds were
engrossed with subjects of their own, so that they did not remark his
silence, his preoccupation. He sat sunk in his corner of the railway
carriage, his face half covered with his hand, thinking it all over,
contemplating that scene, seeing those figures float before him, and her
look in the mirror over her shoulder. Ah! that look in the mirror was a
stab to him, keener than any blow. For it was not to him that Emmy threw
that glance--it was to any man, to the first pair of admiring eyes that
might find out her prettiness, her grace--oh, not to him! When she saw
who it was she had covered her face and fled. She had been ashamed to be
discovered. Why should she be ashamed to be discovered? There was
nothing shameful in what she was doing. In the quiet of the great shop,
among women, no disturbing influences near--among the pretty things that
suited her, the atmosphere warm and soft, the carpets noiseless under
her feet. Perhaps he said all this to himself to console him for some
internal shock it gave him to see her there at everybody’s will, turning
herself into a lay figure that all the vulgar women, the dumpy matrons,
the heavy girls, might be deceived and think that by assuming the same
garment they might become as beautiful as she. Walter was not aware of
this if it were so, but all his thoughts, which he had been trying to
sever from her, went back with a bound. He thought and thought, as the
lines of the country, all touched with reviving green, flew past the
carriage windows, and the jar and croak of the railway made conversation
difficult, and justified his retirement into himself--seeing her now in
a new light, seeing her in perspective, the light all round her, her
daily work, her home, the diversions she had loved. He said to himself
that it was a life of duty, though not one that the vulgar mind
recognized as drawn on elevated lines. How patient she had been, smiling
upon those whom she had served, putting on one thing after another,
exhibiting everything at its best to please them! It was all curiously
mixed up with pain and sharpness, this rapture of admiration, and
confusion, and longing, and regret, which the sight of her had worked in
his mind. The smile on her lips was a little like the smile with which
her mother had been represented as charming the public. Emmy had her
public to charm, too. Oh, if he could but snatch her away from it
all!--carry her off, hide her from all contact with the common world! It
occurred to him quite irrelevantly in the midst of his thoughts, how it
might be if Emmy at Penton, or in any other such place, should suddenly
encounter some one whom she had served at Snell and Margrove’s? This
thought came into his mind like an arrow fired by an enemy across the
tender and eager course of his anticipations and resolution. How could
she bear it? and how should _he_ bear it, to see the stare, the whisper,
the wonder, the scorn in the looks of some pair of odious, envious,
spiteful women (women always call forth these adjectives under such
circumstances). This arrow went to his very heart, and wounded him in
the midst of his longing and purpose, and hot, impatient aspiration. And
then he seemed to see her with that pretty trick of movement settling
the cloak upon her shoulders, to show it off to the intending purchaser!
Oh, Emmy! his Emmy! that she should be exposed to that! And yet he said
to himself it was nothing derogatory--oh, nothing derogatory!--a safe,
sheltered, noiseless place, among women, among beautiful stuffs and
things, with no jar of the outside world about! If he could but snatch
her away from it, carry her away!
Penton contained his body but not his mind for some time after. What
could he do? She had rejected him--for motives of prudence, poor Emmy!
and returned to her shop. Why? why? Was he so distasteful to her as
that?--that she should prefer her shop to him and his ten thousand
pounds? And yet he had not felt himself to be distasteful. Even on this
unexpected, undreamed-of meeting, she had hidden her face and fled, that
he might not identify her, might not speak to her. Was she, then, so set
against him? And yet she had not always been set against him. Walter did
not know how long the time was which passed like a dream, while he
pondered these things, asking himself every morning what he should do?
whether he should return and try his fortune again; whether when she
knew all she would yield to his entreaties and allow him to deliver her
from that servitude? It was on a Saturday at last that the impulse
became suddenly uncontrollable. He had been thinking over her little
holiday, the Saturdays, which she had to herself, the little time when
she was free, when she had gone out with him enjoying the air, even
though it was winter, and the freedom, though he had not known in what
bondage her days were spent. He could not contain himself when he
remembered this. He went hurriedly away, not, as he had done on a
previous occasion, in hot enthusiasm and rapture, but sadly, perceiving
now all he was doing, and the break he must make, if he were successful,
between himself and his home--perceiving too the difficulties that might
come after, the habits that were not as his, the modes of life which are
so hard to efface. Even his anticipation of happiness was all mixed with
pain. It had become to him rather a vision of the happiness of
delivering her, of placing her in circumstances more fit, surrounding
her with everything delightful, than of the bliss to himself which would
come from her companionship. Was he a little uncertain of that after all
that had come and gone? But Walter would never have owned this to
himself--only it was of her happiness, not of his, that he thought; and
something wrung his heart as he left Penton behind, and took his way
toward the house of Mrs. Sam Crockford with a shuddering recollection
which he could not subdue.
He had planned to get there about noon, when Emmy would be coming home.
She might be tired, she might be sad, she might be cheered by the sudden
appearance of a faithful lover, bringing the means of amusement and
variety in his hand. They might go to Richmond, and he would take her on
the river, as she had said she liked it, though in winter that had not
been practicable. And he had made up his mind to insist, to be
masterful, as it was said women liked a man to be. He would not accept a
denial, he thought. He would tell her that he could not endure it, that
this work of hers must come to an end. He made up his mind that neither
her sauciness nor her sweetness should distract him from his resolution,
that this thing must come to an end. He walked most of the long way from
the railway station to the little street in which was the mean little
house where she lived with her mother. How often he had trodden that way
with his heart beating--how often distracted with pain! There was more
pain than pleasure in his bosom now. He did not know how she would
receive him, but he had made up his mind not to be discouraged by any
reception she might give him. This time he would have his way. His
motive was no longer selfish, he said to himself. It was no longer for
him, but for her.
There was a little commotion in the street, of which he took no
particular notice as he came up. A carriage with a pair of gray horses
was coming along with the familiar jog of a hack carriage which is paid
for at so much an hour. Walter did not suppose this could have anything
to say to him, and took no notice, as how should he? But when he
approached the house it became more and more evident that something had
happened or was happening. A group of idlers were standing about a door,
from which came the sound of voices and laughter, altogether festive
sounds. Somebody was rejoicing, it was apparent, with that not too
refined kind of joy--a happiness unrestrained by any particular regard
for the proprieties that belong to such regions. Even this did not rouse
Walter. What did it matter to him if some one had been married, or
christened, or was going through any of the joyful incidents of
life--next door? His mind was full of what she would say, of what she
would do, of the steps to be taken in order to complete her deliverance.
It would not be his deliverance. It would be his severance from much
that had acquired a new value in his eyes. But it would be freedom to
her; it would be, whatever she might say, comparative wealth. Why had
she so resisted? why, in her position, had she scorned his little
fortune? It could only be, he thought, that he might be hindered from
sacrificing so much on his side.
He was deep, deep in thought as he approached. Surely it was next door,
this marriage, or whatever it was. It must be next door. The carriage
came leisurely up and stopped, the coachman displaying a great wedding
favor. It _was_ a marriage, then: strange that he should come with his
mind full of that proposal of his, to which he would take no denial, and
find a marriage going on next door! He smiled to himself at the odd
circumstance, but there was not very much pleasure in his smile. There
would soon be another there--but quiet--that at least he would
secure--not attended by this noisy revelry, the voices and cheers
ringing out into the street. Ah, no! but quiet, the marriage of two
people who would have a great deal to think of, to whom happiness would
come seriously, not without sacrifices, not without--
But, oh, that sudden shock and pause! what did this mean? It was not at
the next house, but at Mrs. Sam Crockford’s door that the carriage with
the two gray horses drew up. It was there the idlers were standing
grouped round to see somebody pass out: the voices came from within
that well-known narrow entrance. Walter stopped, struck dumb, his very
breath going, and stood with the rest, to see--what he might see. He
heard the stir of chairs pushed from the table, the chorus of good-byes,
and then--
The open doorway was suddenly filled by the bridal pair, the bridegroom
coming out first, she a step behind. Walter knew the man well enough; he
had seen him but once, but that seeing had been sufficient. He came out
flushed, in his wedding clothes, his hat upon one side of his head, his
white gloves in his hand. “Thank you all; we’ll be jolly enough, you
needn’t fear,” he was calling to the well-wishers behind. After him Emmy
came forward, perhaps more gayly apparelled than a bride of higher
position would have been for her wedding journey, her hat covered with
flowers and feathers, her dress elaborately trimmed. She too was a
little flushed, and full of smiles and satisfaction. Walter did not
stir, he stood and looked on grimly, like a man who had nothing to do
with it. It did not seem to affect him at all; his heart, which had been
beating loudly, had calmed in a moment. He stood and looked at them as
if they were people whom he had never seen before--standing silent in
the midst of the loungers of the little street, a few children and
women, a passing errand boy, and a man out of work, who stood too with
his hands in his pockets and gazed in a sullen way, with a sort of envy
of the people who were well-off and well-to-do. The bridegroom had not
the same outward deference to his bride which might be seen in other
circles. He held her arm loosely in his and dragged her behind him,
turning back and shouting farewells to his friends. “Oh, we’ll be joyful
enough!” he cried, taking no heed to her timid steps. And perhaps Emmy’s
steps could not be described as timid. She gave his arm a shake to rouse
him from the fervor of these good-byes.
“Here, mind what you are doing, Ned, and let’s get on, or we shall miss
the train,” she said.
Walter stood and gazed stupidly, and took all the little drama in.
And then there ensued the farce at the end, the shower of rice, the old
shoes thrown after the departing pair. The jovial bridegroom threw back
several that fell into the carriage, and Emmy laughed and cheered him
on. They went off in a burst of laughter and gayety. Her quick eye had
glanced at the spectators on either side of the door. Could she have
seen him there? She had turned round to her mother, who followed them to
the door, and whispered something as they went away: but that was all.
Walter stood and watched them drive off; it was all like a scene in a
theater to him. He did not seem able to make up his mind to go away.
And then suddenly he felt a touch upon his arm. “Oh, Mr. Penton, is it
you? Step in--step in, sir, please, and let me speak to you; I must say
a word to you.”
“I can see no need for any words,” he said, dully; but partly to get
free of her, for her touch was intolerable to him, partly because of the
want of any impulse in his own mind, he followed her into the house,
into the parlor, all full of wedding favors and finery. The bridal party
had retired riotously, as was very apparent, to the table in the back
room.
“Oh, Mr. Penton, you have been shamefully treated!” Mrs. Sam Crockford
cried. She was herself splendid in a new dress, with articles of jewelry
hung all over her. She touched her eyes lightly with her handkerchief as
she spoke. “Young gentleman,” she said, “though I have had to give in to
it, don’t think I approved of it. My chyild, of course, was my first
object, but I had some heart for you too. And you behaved so beautiful!
How she could ever do it, and prefer him to you, is more than I can
tell!”
“Then it was going on all the time?” said Walter, dully. He did not seem
to have any feeling on the subject, or to care: yet he listened with a
sort of interest as to the argument of the play.
“Sir,” said the woman, “everything is said to be fair in love. If it
will be any consolation to you, you have helped my chyild to an alliance
which--is not greater than her deserts--no, it is not greater than her
deserts, Mr. Penton, as you and I know: but so far as money goes was
little to be looked for. Edward is not perhaps a young man of manners as
refined as we could wish, but he can give her every advantage. He is in
business, Mr. Penton. Business has its requirements, which are different
to those of art. His mother has just died, who was not Emmy’s friend.
And he is rich. The business,” said Mrs. Sam Crockford, sinking her
voice, “brings in--I can’t tell you how many thousands a year.”
Then Walter remembered what Emmy had said about some one who had as much
a year as his whole little fortune consisted of, and added that dully to
the story of the drama which he was hearing, paying a sort of courteous
attention without any interest to speak of. “Why did not she--do this at
once? that is what surprises me,” he said.
“Mr. Penton, I said all things are fair in love. I am afraid she played
you against him to draw him on. She is my only child, it is hard for me
to blame her. I don’t know that strictly speaking she is to be blamed. A
girl has so few opportunities. He proposed a secret marriage, but my
Emmy has too much pride for that. You were always with her, Mr. Penton,
after she returned, and he was distracted. He thought she was going to
marry you. I thought so myself at first: but she played her cards very
well. She played you against him to draw him on.”
“Oh, she played me against him to draw him on,” said Walter. These words
kept going through his head while Emmy’s mother went on talking at great
length, explaining, defending, blaming her chyild. She might as well
have said nothing more, for he could not take it in. The words seemed to
circle round and round him in the air. They did not wound him, but gave
a sort of wonder--a dull surprise.
“She played me against him to draw him on.” He went back through the
endless streets to the railway-station, walking the whole way, feeling
as if that long, long course might go on forever, for nights and days,
for dreary centuries; and then the railway, with its whirl of noise and
motion, completed and confirmed the sense of an endless going on. He
could not have told how long he had been away when he walked up the
avenue again in the soft darkness of the spring night. His dulled mind
mixed this absence up somehow with the previous one, and, with this
confusion, brought a curious sense of guilt, and impulse to ask pardon.
He would arise and go to his father, and say, “Father, I have sinned.”
He would kneel down by his mother’s side. He could not understand that
he had done no harm--that he had only left Penton that day. “She played
me against him to draw him on.” It all seemed so simple--nobody’s
fault--not even perhaps Emmy’s--for girls have so few opportunities, as
her mother said. Perhaps it was natural, as it was the explanation of
all the play--the _mot de l’enigme_. It seemed a sort of satisfaction to
have such an ample explanation of it, at the last.
Just inside the gate he saw something white fluttering among the trees,
and Mab cried, breathless, “Mr. Walter, is it you?” It was all he could
do not to answer her with that explanation which somehow seemed so
universally applicable. “She played me off”--but he restrained himself,
and only said, “Yes, it is I.” She put out her hand to him in an
impulsive, eager way. He had not in fact seen her that day before, and
Walter took the hand thrust into his in the dark with a curious
sensation of help and succor; it was a cool little soft fresh hand, not
like that large and clammy member which, thank Heaven, he had nothing to
do with any more. And there was an end of it all--there it all ended, in
Mab’s little frank hand meeting his in the twilight as if she were
admitting him to a new world.
* * * * *
Ally was married shortly after, and the marriage was very good for the
material interests of the house of Penton. It was a very fine marriage
for young Mr. Rochford of Reading, but it was also a fine thing for the
family in whose history he had in future more interest than merely that
of their man of business. Mab still promises every day that Anne will
soon follow her sister’s example, and that she herself will be the only
one left to fulfill the duties of the grown-up daughter. Her visit has
been prolonged again and again, till it has run out into the longest
visit that ever was known. Will it ever come to an end? Will she ever go
away again, and set up with a chaperon in the house in Mayfair with
which she is sometimes threatened by her guardians? Who can tell? There
will be many people to be consulted before it can be decided one way or
other. But if nobody else’s mind is made up, Mab’s is very distinct upon
this point, as well as upon most others within her range. And she is one
of those people who usually have their way.
THE END.