I smiled. The name so perfectly suited her tall, blonde beauty. I felt
a renewal of that strange, deep rush of tender feeling.
"Thanks again, Erika."
"Goodnight, Mr. Cameron," she said quickly.
This time I didn't try to stop her. Watching her retreat into the
security of her trailer, I wondered why she was so anxious to help
me. The knowledge of her anxiety gave me an unfamiliar pulsation of
pleasure. In that moment I felt that I had regained more than my faith
in my own reason. I had recaptured something lost long ago. Closeness.
Warmth. The touch of humanity.
21
Sleep had come to me suddenly--deep, exhausted sleep. The annoying
sound nagged at the edges of my subconscious for a long time. I became
remotely aware of it, a buzzing far off, droning on interminably.
Vainly I tried to escape it, to bury myself in the soft, black, velvet
cushion of sleep, but the sound penetrated--a thin, distant, persistent
plea.
And I woke. It was still night. The same night? Or could I have slept
the clock around? I peered at the luminous time and date dials in the
wall. It was almost three in the morning. I had slept for less than
five hours. Five hours before, I had escaped death. Time enough for a
new plan to be laid.
The phone rang again. With a groan of exasperation, I dragged myself
out of the bed and groped my way into the living room. Through bleary,
heavy-lidded eyes I tried to make out the reception button, hit it on
the third jab.
"Hello? Paul? Is that you?"
The image on the telephone screen was still dim. It brightened as I
stared in disbelief.
"Laurie! What in God's name are you doing calling me at this hour?"
"Oh, Paul! Thank God!"
She sagged visibly. Even on the black-and-white screen her face showed
pale and drawn, with a sharpness I had never seen in it before.
"What is it. What's happened?"
"I've been trying to get you for hours. You've got to help me. You've
got to come out here!"
I felt the first premonition of danger, a warning signal in the back of
my mind echoing the phone's buzz of a moment earlier. Peering narrowly
at the screen I tried to shake off the fuzziness of drugged sleep.
"Tell me what's wrong," I said sharply.
"I--I can't. Please, Paul!" She began to cry silently, bending over,
hugging her stomach as if she were in pain. "Please!"
I strained to see into the room behind her but her image filled most
of the screen. I stared closely at her. She was in her nightgown. It
had fallen off one bare shoulder and was tied loosely around her waist.
Her long red hair spilled free around her shoulders. She looked as if
she had been in bed. Something had aroused her--something frightening.
There was no mistaking the haggard aspect of fear. She seemed to be
holding herself together with an anguished effort of control.
"Is there anyone with you?" I asked quietly.
She shook her head--too quickly, I thought. Something moved in my
abdomen. Fear coiling.
"Paul, help me!" she moaned. "You've got to help me. There's nobody
else who can."
"You're at the beach house?" I asked, stalling, angry at the cowardice
that made me delay.
"Yes, yes! Alone! I'm all alone. You'll come? You'll come right away?"
Her voice grew shrill with eager hope. "I'll do anything, darling,
anything you ever want me to do. I love you! You know that, don't you?
You believe that? I didn't mean the things I said last night. Paul,
I'll do anything!"
You don't have to keep saying it, I thought. You don't have to bribe
me. I wondered with dull anger how long it had taken to affect the
careless arrangement of her nightgown.
And then I repented of the impulse which had momentarily made me
despise her. How could such a beautiful, spoiled child be asked to have
more strength and courage than I myself had shown? I couldn't deny
her the hope that cried out in her words, the terrified plea that was
expressed in every straining curve of her body. I couldn't refuse to
help her. For this was not an alien. This was another helpless human
being whose life had touched mine, and who was now, because of that
briefly intimate contact, in a state of almost mindless panic.
Mindless. I remembered Mike Boyle and how viciously he had been used.
"Yes," I said flatly. "I'll help you. I'll come."
She began to babble in an hysteria of relief, the words tumbling
meaninglessly over each other. Love. Darling. Help me. Anything you
want. Alone. Come. Please. Anything, anything, anything. I didn't
bother to listen. When she had run down I stared at the young, lovely,
tear-stained face and felt an inexpressible pity.
"You don't have to worry," I said. "I'll be there."
I did not want to go. When I thought about what I would find on that
isolated beach, I cringed inside. It was no good pretending the fear
did not exist, but I pushed it into a corner and tried not to look at
it.
And yet I had to consider some facts. How vulnerable were the aliens?
What weapons would touch them? If the bodies in which they lived
were destroyed, would the aliens perish? Or did they so infuse and
inform their hosts that their apparently human forms became immune
to the violence which would destroy an ordinary human body? From the
conversation overheard in the Dugout I had acquired the vague idea
that somehow the furious energy of the aliens sapped the very flesh of
the hosts they inhabited. One of them had urged the other to maintain
a tight, constant control over the body to keep it from--what had he
said?--to keep it from disintegrating. To hold it together. What did
that mean? Could a mind hold matter in a fixed state, retaining an
exterior form, when there was no longer any intrinsic unity of the
body? Mind over matter, mind ruling matter. The possibility was not so
fantastic. It was even a subject of scientific inquiry on earth.
But what weapons might affect a body so controlled? Would a bullet
smashing into that occupied brain destroy the alien's hold? I had no
way of knowing. In any event I didn't have a gun. It would have to be
some other weapon.
I made a hasty but thorough search of my trailer. I took a small knife
with a retractable blade from a drawer in the kitchen. As I pulled open
other drawers and rummaged through them, I kept wishing that I had had
the sense to arm myself with some kind of pistol. My choice of weapons
was pitifully limited. In the bottom drawer of a small cabinet built
into the corridor, among a jumbled collection of tools and gadgets, I
found a small pocket flame-thrower, one of those all-purpose gas-fired
lighters that is adjustable for the small flame needed to light a
cigarette or the steady blaze that will ignite charcoal for a fire or
even a miniature jet of heat suitable to cut thin pieces of metal. I
started to discard the gadget but some obscure tug of memory stopped
me. Heat. Heat brought more than searing pain. It consumed. All living
organisms were vulnerable to it. On those planets where the temperature
was too high, scientists agreed, life could not exist.
I stuck the little flame-thrower in my pocket. At least some of the
time I had spent in the library had not been wasted, I thought, though
the gadget seemed ridiculously small and ineffectual as a potential
weapon against super-human beings.
The rest of my search was fruitless. I didn't let myself dwell on the
futility of the weapons I had. If I did that I wouldn't go out. I would
cower in a corner of the trailer with my panic and wait for them to
come after me. It was better to face them in the open and with what
protection the darkness of night might afford.
I slipped on a coverall, shoes and a light windproof jacket. I turned
out all the lights and stood by the door in the living room. It
crossed my mind that I might never be returning to these small rooms.
The thought left me strangely unmoved. I opened the door quietly and
stepped out into the cold and the darkness.
Walking along the road toward the elevated station, I glanced back
once. A light shone yellow and misty, its rays radiating like a stain
in the dark mist. I stopped, thinking that I had failed to turn off all
the lights. Checking back in my mind I remembered the total darkness
the moment before I stepped out of the trailer. This light, then, had
just gone on. It wasn't from one of my rooms.
The girl next door was awake, once again aware of everything I was
doing. It was uncanny. I was convinced that I hadn't made enough noise
to awaken her. Unless she had been lying wide-eyed and sleepless,
listening. But why? With a shrug of impatience, I turned away from the
puzzle and hurried along the deserted road toward the station.
I stepped up to the landing platform cautiously. One slim tube of light
ran overhead, dimmed now by the curling mist. There was no one else
on the platform. I checked the night schedule listed on the board and
saw that a local beach train was due in seven minutes. I was in luck.
There wouldn't be another beach local for forty minutes after this
one. I pressed the night pickup light and saw its red warning glow a
quarter-mile away down the monorail.
A feeling of tension increased as the minutes ticked by. Little could
happen to me here on this platform except for that one split-second
when the train would slide in front of me, and it was unlikely that
there was any danger. They wouldn't go to all the trouble of pretending
to lure me to the beach if they wanted to kill me in my own back yard.
Nevertheless I kept far back from the edge of the platform, and when I
first heard the rush of the approaching train, the muscles tightened
involuntarily in my chest and arms.
Then the serpentine column of the train slid swiftly into the station,
braking fast, and I saw the warm glow of the lighted interior, the
familiar sight of passengers dozing or staring out the windows. I
stepped into the train and, seconds later, while I walked toward a seat
at the rear of the car, the train was once more speeding away over the
ridge of the hills, the momentum of its plunge hardly detectible inside
the car.
There were very few travelers at this time of night. It was too early
for the night shifts to be getting out, too late for revelers to be
coming home. There were a half-dozen people in my car but none of them
paid any attention to me after the first curious glance. I felt the
tension easing in my body.
Most of the time, the thick early morning mist hid the sleeping city
that lay at the foot of the hills. Occasionally I caught glimpses of
light patterns far below through open patches in the fog. But generally
there were no landmarks visible, not even the familiar yawning canyons
or the sculptured back of the hills, and I kept getting a peculiar
feeling of isolation, of rushing through a void. I thought of the
men who had cruised through the infinite emptiness of space between
Earth and Mars, little dreaming on their return that they brought
two stowaways. How had the aliens concealed themselves? Dr. Temple's
logical arguments meant little now. Somewhere there was a flaw, a
crack in the wall of checks and precautions through which the aliens
had slipped. I knew that I had been driven by a compulsion to face
the inevitable decisive clash with the enemy. I had had to come in
answer to Laurie's plea, knowing that I was probably walking into a
trap. Choice really hadn't played a part in my decision. This was the
inescapable moment toward which I had been compelled by everything that
had happened to me--not just in the recent crowded days but in the
months I had listened to the whispered voices in my mind and wondered,
in the nights when I had awakened shivering from the dream.
Yes. The dream. This too I had to face. The smashing waves, the
dominating voice. For an instant, remembering, I felt again the weight
of hopelessness. Just as quickly I rejected it. The dream need not have
been clairvoyant. It could have been a subconscious projection of my
fear of the voices I had heard--and my tormenting doubt that the voices
existed. No. I couldn't think about the dream. And this time the aliens
would not be confronting a dumbly acquiescent, frightened animal. They
were not invincible. This time the clash might be a little more equal.
Unless--
A quick contraction of muscles shattered my illusion that I had
conquered the fear. Unless both of the aliens would be there for the
kill. I forced myself to examine the possibility rationally. The
older one, the leader, did not want them to be together unless it was
absolutely necessary. And why should they believe that handling me
would require two superior minds? One would be enough. No, the young
one would be alone, the junior partner, who wouldn't admit being unable
to eliminate me without difficulty.
The reflection stirred me to a fresh sensation, a stubborn, smoldering
anger.
22
There was a local stop less than a half-mile south of the Beachcomber
Trailer Lodge. I made no move. The train slid smoothly along its
single overhead rail once more. Seconds later, when I guessed that we
had traveled less than a mile, I rose, walked quickly to the end of
the car and jabbed the emergency stop signal. While the few sleepy
passengers in the car were staring at me, startled, the train came
to one of its gently quivering sudden stops. I stepped on the floor
panel just inside the narrow emergency exit. A door slid open. Damp,
salt-smelling ocean mist swirled in through the door. Dropping quickly
to the floor, I eased myself over the edge. For several seconds I hung
by my arms in mid-air outside the car, my hands gripping the door sill.
In the thick mist I couldn't see the ground below. From inside the car
someone shouted. The emergency door started to close and I dropped.
Falling through space I endured a slowly turning moment of panic. I had
misjudged the distance! Then I hit the ground with a jarring force that
seemed to unhinge my jaws. I tumbled and rolled, slamming finally to a
stop against a solid wall of earth. Breathless and dazed, I lay peering
up at the train. The emergency door opened again and a uniformed man
stood framed in the oblong panel of yellow light some fifteen feet
overhead. He muttered angrily. Although he appeared to be looking
directly at me, I was sure that he couldn't see me. After a moment he
drew back inside. The door closed. After a brief interval the train
eased into motion, humming softly as it gathered speed. The last car
vanished abruptly and I was alone in the thick black silence. I could
feel a throbbing in my left arm. Something wet trickled into the crook
of my elbow and I realized that the still-fresh cut had re-opened.
Painfully I pushed myself erect. Now I could hear the noisy clamor of
the surf nearby. The mist curled and eddied around me, dense patches
giving way to open gaps through which I caught the wet reflection of
pavement. I tried to orient myself. The monorail was on the inland side
of the beach highway. I would probably have to follow the road back to
Laurie's trailer community. I had intended to come up to it along the
beach, but in this fog there was little chance that I would find or
recognize her trailer group.
I set off along the road. There was no traffic at all. When I had been
walking for ten minutes I began to realize that I had underestimated
the train's speed. I had overshot the Beachcomber Lodge by more than
I had thought. Still I didn't regret the decision not to get out at
the station. There, I would have been too vulnerable, making a public
announcement of my arrival. At least now I had the faint possibility of
surprise.
From the edge of the road I could barely make out the lighted signs
which spelled out the names of the different trailer parks, their
letters hardly distinguishable blurs in the mist. This wasn't like
the dream, I thought, unable to disguise a quick surge of relief.
Everything had been clear in the dream. I walked on slowly, cautiously,
feeling the damp cold steal through the fabric of my coverall and
jacket. And at last, winking at me from a flat hollow of the beach, I
saw the sign: BEACHCOMBER TRAILER LODGE.
I stopped. Trying to open my mind to every impulse, I stood motionless,
thinking of nothing, waiting and listening. There was only the steady,
rhythmic roll and crash of the ocean beating against the edge of the
land. There was no foreign whisper of sound, no strange vibration of
thought. Nothing out of the ordinary. Yet I felt danger around me
like a physical presence. Some unfathomed ear of the mind heard and
telegraphed its message to the taut nerves of my body. I began to
tremble. It's the cold, I thought angrily, gritting my teeth to stop
their chattering. It's this damned cold wet fog.
Moving now in a crouch, I turned and retraced my steps to a point a
hundred yards north of the Beachcomber's sign. There I scrambled down
the incline from the road to the lower level where trailers huddled
close like motionless animals hiding in the protective mist. I made
my way carefully among them until I reached the empty strip of beach
fringing the ocean. Here the roar of the waves was almost deafening,
magnified in the darkness and the silence of the night. Dimly, I could
make out the white foam boiling up the wet slope toward me. I had to
fight down the cringing panic, holding my mind closed like a steel trap
against the invasion of memory, against the terror of the dream whose
vivid details crowded forward, demanding to be seen and heard and felt.
My body rigid with the tension of enforced discipline, I crept along
the beach, counting my steps, measuring the distance until I knew I had
covered the hundred yards and must be opposite the sign which faced
the highway, invisible now in the dark gray soup of mist lying over
the beach. I stopped, trying to place exactly in my mind the location
of Laurie's trailer. It was in the front row of trailers facing the
beach, half-concealed behind the swelling curve of a dune. I remembered
being able to see the surface of the water from the raised interior of
the trailer but being cut off from it by the dune when I was standing
outside. And it seemed to me that, entering the trailer park from the
highway, I had followed a curving walk toward the left.
I saw the patch of light through a gap in the mist not more than thirty
yards away. It was blotted out almost instantly. I edged forward and
away from the shoreline, moving onto slightly higher ground. The mist
tore again and I saw the window clearly, its glow touching the swirling
fog outside with a pale phosphorescence. The bright window seemed a
warm invitation, not dangerous at all.
For perhaps a full minute I crouched motionless on the cold sand while
the mist curled around me. Every sense strained to detect the unseen
menace lurking behind the veil of darkness. Nothing. Not a sound, not a
quiver of sensation, not a single vibrating wave of thought.
I began to inch forward. The light grew closer, visible now as a
blurred rectangle even through the dense portions of the fog. With each
step that brought me nearer to the beckoning rectangle of light, I
could feel my heart beat faster, louder.
It stopped in that instant when I rose to bring my eyes over the edge
of the window. It tripped and caught again like a sluggish motor. I
could feel its labored thudding in my temples.
Laurie sat huddled in a corner of the room. Her green eyes were wide
open, staring fixedly at the door. In her hand was a small pistol,
squat and ugly, its muzzle pointing across the room. No one else
was in sight. I frowned suspiciously. Then I realized that the fear
radiating from the whole attitude of her body was directed and focused
on something outside the room, beyond the door. And I knew that the gun
was for me.
Cautiously I circled the trailer. I saw no shadow stirring. I paused
outside the door, listening. I stood clear of it and reached out to
turn the knob. It wasn't locked. The door swung open easily under the
pressure of my hand. I jumped back as the pistol spoke, its bark low
and sharp. The bullet struck metal somewhere behind me and ricocheted,
whining off into the darkness. I was already moving forward up the
steps and into the trailer.
"Drop it, Laurie!"
I looked into the muzzle of the pistol. It wavered unsteadily. Laurie
didn't move. The cords of her throat were working visibly and I sensed
the horror of a scream frozen inside of her by muscles that refused to
function.
"Drop it!"
The gun fell from nerveless fingers and clattered to the floor. I
crossed the room quickly and reached for Laurie's shoulders.
"Laurie! Laurie--"
The scream found a slim opening, sliced through not as a full-throated
cry but as a thin high wail of terror. She shrank away from me. Her
dressing gown fell open at the throat as she drew back. Half-naked, her
eyes fixed and blank with fright, she cowered in the corner. I could
see the shudders pass along her body. I caught her by the arms and
pulled her erect, holding her tightly.
"I'm here, Laurie," I said hoarsely. "Paul. I came. There's nothing to
be afraid of any more. I'm here."
I spoke with a confidence I did not feel, but something in the urgency
of my voice reached her. Suddenly she collapsed against me. A sob tore
from her throat and then she was crying, openly and without control,
tears bathing her cheeks while the deep sobs wrenched her body. I held
her, stroking her shoulders and her back gently, murmuring soothing
meaningless phrases. And slowly the terror seemed to draw back inside
her, subsiding to an occasional quiver, until at last the flow of tears
dried up and her eyes were empty.
I drew her over to the couch and sat beside her, holding her hands. Her
fingers gripped mine with involuntary tension like the grasping fingers
of a baby.
"Can you tell me what happened? Laurie, can you hear me? Do you know
what I'm saying?"
A spasm shook her. I spoke quickly, gently.
"You don't have to be afraid any more. You won't be harmed. Do you
understand that?"
Her eyes were wide and staring. Her lips were slack, red slashes
trembling in the bloodless white of her face. I squeezed her hands.
"Laurie!" I said sharply. "How long ago was it? When did it happen?"
Her lips moved soundlessly. She began to shake again, to vibrate like
an animal too terrified to run.
"Who did it, Laurie? Who made you call me? Who wanted you to kill me?"
I knew it was hopeless to question her even as my hands gripped her
shoulders and shook her. She couldn't answer. In a deep state of shock,
exuding fear, she could hardly be aware of what I asked. But I didn't
need her reply. I already knew.
And I felt the anger growing in me, active and violent, a deep
revulsion and a raging hatred for the alien things to whom human beings
were simply inferior organisms to be possessed and used, discarded or
destroyed. Looking down at Laurie, at this young and slim and beautiful
woman, at the vivid red hair spilling over white quivering shoulders,
I knew that what I felt for her was not love but something equally
important, sympathy and compassion and a strong affection that could
easily, under other circumstances, erupt into desire and need. I felt
linked with her in a common humanity and a common anger.
And I hated what I had to do to her.
I picked up the small pistol which had fallen from her fingers. For a
moment I was tempted to discard the plan which had formed itself in my
mind. Perhaps it wouldn't be necessary. Perhaps I could squeeze the
trigger myself before my finger froze in the paralysis of obedience.
No. There was only one slim chance. It might fail but I had to risk it.
I had to try to turn the alien's own weapon against it.
"Laurie," I said gently. "Listen to me."