There were sometimes as many as sixty or seventy brought to the
knowledge of the Truth, and sometimes we had to go out of the class-room
into the prayer-room, for the Lord was among us in the Spirit's power.
When in 1886 I went out for good, that I might be of some use to my own
people I started in the strength of the Lord, and He did give me the
greatest victory as a school teacher, for all of the people sought me to
take their children in my school and give them a start. I had my hands
full of work, but I let them come in for the Board always sent them to
me find out if I could find room and time, and I always made the time
for when scholars find that a teacher loves them they will do any amount
of hard studying.
And so the time rolled on, with everything to make me feel like hard
work, in the strength of the blessed Lord.
I was three years old when I was leaving my own dear mother's home to go
to my new mother's home, or I should say to my white mother's home, to
live with her, and I left my mother's as happy as any child could leave
her own home, for this lovely lady was always at my mother's to see me
ever since I could remember anything, and she was the joy of my little
life and I seemed to be all the joy of her sweet life. She had learned
to love me from the time that I came into the world.
She had watched me in my cradle and longed for the day to come when I
should be able to walk, for she knew that I would follow her everywhere
she should go. She said to all of the friends around that if I should
live to remember her that would be all that she would ask.
And so she read her blessed Bible and prayed until she saw her prayers
answered, and then she went to her home in glory, where she has watched
and waited and longed to see the good old ships of those who have washed
their robes and made them white in the Blood of the Lamb.
I can never tell any one how many happy hours that I had, for the only
trial that I had was that of sickness, which caused me to be of a great
care to her all of her life. It was her delight to wait on me and to
have her cousin, the doctor, to be always ready to come at any moment
she should send for him. He was a good doctor by the name of Sims, and I
always liked him, too, until I had the typhoid fever and I had to take
some oil. I did not like to take it and he held my hands so that they
could pour that in me, and he and I fell out.
My white mother used to give it to me, but she did not let me know what
she was giving me, for she put some molasses in the oil and cooked them,
so I should not know. I would not have known if I had not seen her one
night have the old bottle in her hand putting the oil in the kettle,
which she was making ready for me, and I looked up and saw what it was
and, as young ones will do, did not want to take molasses and butter
which I had been taking so long, for I had to take it on every night or
I could not speak.
Later on she moved from the place where she was and bought another farm
where it was not near the water, as the doctor thought that was not a
good place for me to be, and I was not sick so much as I had been at the
former.
The first hard spell of sickness on this farm was the fever that I was
sick of at the time that she took sick of the yellow jaundice, and she
turned as yellow as anything could be. She went home with that awful
malady, thinking of me and of what my future should be in God's hands,
to love and bless the world in which I should live if it should be the
will of Him who knows the future of all the people that live on this
earth.
So God has been a father and a loving mother and all else to me, and
sometimes there has been enough of trials in this life to make me almost
forget that I had this strong arm to save me from these trials and
temptations; but when I fly to Him I find all and in all in Him.
He is my rock and my hiding place in the time of trials, for a child
that had all of the love and comfort of a queen was now left to her own
dear mother, who had so many more and had to work so hard to take care
of us all that I have seen sit up all night long working for her little
ones. I used to feel sorry to see her sitting up alone at her work. I
would get up out of the bed and sit with her till daylight; for I was
always near mother after the dear one had been plucked from this earth
to await my arrival.
I have found that learning is to refine and elevate the mind, so we
should cultivate our hearts and minds and live to bless those we meet.
We should neither flatter nor despise those that are rich or great.
It was not long after this dear one had been called away before we were
all in different places, and to share the fate that comes to those that
are left behind those that have been good and kind. Then the time is
coming that mother is to be taken from the whole family of little ones
and they are to be left in the hands of others. That is one of the
saddest times of life for children when they do not know if they shall
ever see her face on this green earth any more; and if to-day we should
hear the cries of those little lambs it surely would break the heart of
a stone, for remember that we have the same feelings for our mothers as
any race of people and our hearts will melt as easily as the richest
ones on this earth.
But God in His great love to us meant that we should see the return of
our dear mother to her own and that he would send her and the children
out of the Land of Egypt as He did of old when He had tried to teach the
rulers how wrong it was to sell and buy human flesh, and this was one of
those awful sins that had to be repented of by those that could and
would not see the truth. When the wrath of God came upon them and took
all of the slaves away from them they could see nothing but tears and
curses to the God of Heaven, and some of them cursed the earth, the
stars, the moon. The negroes that had prayed so hard to God said that
was the cause of the war, for they could see something in their prayers
that seemed to reach up to heaven, and the answer had come for their
deliverance.
Is not this a great God who can hear the prayers of the faithful ones
when they pray? Do not we owe our lives and our all to this great and
good God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Ghost? And if we
should fail to recognize Him we should have a worse sin fall on us than
ever any one race had.
Well, to my story:
My brother James was my mother's oldest child. He was sent away to the
war to keep his master at home, and we did not hear from him for a long
time, but we made up our minds that if he did not get killed he would go
over to the Northern side as soon as he should get the chance, though we
did not see him to tell him to do so, for all of my mother's children
were like herself in the love of freedom. My mother was one that the
master could not do anything to make her feel like a slave and she would
battle with them to the last that she would not recognize them as her
lord and master and she was right.
My brother did try to get away, but he was caught and locked up in
Richmond, Va., and for a awhile we heard them say that he would be
killed, but God was there to help him, so he came out all right and went
to work on the breastworks, and when he did try again he got over on the
Northern side. They almost caught him again, but as the Lord was his
leader at night, he made his escape, and to hear him tell of that river
that he crossed and how he walked on the water and he was so scared that
he did not know he got wet; but I know that he did get wet, though. He
said the Lord carried him over the river without letting him get wet. I
am sure that I could not help laughing at my brother to hear of such a
thing, for there never was a time that I have read of since the time of
Peter that any one was called to walk on the water. The Lord was there
Himself to show Peter how small his strength was when he trusted in his
own strength, and Peter would have failed entirely if his Lord and
Master had not been there.
And so it would have been with my dear brother. He would have been taken
by the Southerners, and that would have been his last trial on this side
of the grave.
My sister Frances was hired out and we did not see her from one
Christmas to the other, for she was a good way off where she could not
get home. She was treated very badly by some of those where she lived
and her limbs had been sprained so that she could hardly move on them.
When later on the Lord had it so arranged that she was taken home to
live, where she could be cared for, she soon got better and was able to
go about helping mother, with the rest of the children, for my brother
who had to help her to care for the children was gone, and she was all
the help that my mother had, for I was not large enough to do much and
had not been put to mind the children.
The gentleman that my dear brother belonged to was a Methodist and a
minister. He did not want to go to the war and so he sent my poor
brother to defend what belonged to him, and he did not get the good of
it after all, for my brother was determined that he would gain his
freedom if he could and he tried and did not get tired of trying.
Then my sister Annie was given to the gentleman's married son and she
was not with us, and sister Tempy Green was with the minister, and she
was one of the dead ones that mother had a time to get. Maggie, Susie,
Martha and Mary were at the same place where mother was sold from, and
she went and got them at once. It was like a dream to them to see how
far she had been sold and to see her back there again.
Sister Lavinia was at the same place where I was and she was treated
very badly by the man's own daughter, for she would whip her without
cause. Sister Rosa was at the same place and she was three and a half
years on mother's return. As I told you, she was six weeks old when
mother was sold and that made it three years and three months that
mother was gone from her own native home to a part of the country where
she did not know any one, not even the great God who had been so good to
her all of those years when she was gone; and all of her whole life God
was watching over her and giving to the world one child who was to help
to educate the down-trodden race which was, through Abraham Lincoln, to
be God's leader for the children that were in Egypt in the South, and
God with this leader and the race, they came through fire and smoke, and
now they can see the light of another day. Some of the race say that
they are sometimes, in their thoughts, ashamed that they belong to a
race that has been in bondage, but I have never felt that way, for I am
glad that things have been as they were, for God has moved in a way that
is unknown to men and His wonders He has performed, and has planted His
footsteps in the South, the West, the East and in the North, and is
watching the people and asking them what doors are they opening for the
Ethiopian.
Father Abraham is calling to the Ethiopians to know what has been the
result of the great emancipation, and can we not send the echo back with
a jubilee, that we are marching on in education in double file, and
longing to see the day that not one of your sons and daughters of this
broad earth but what shall learn to read and write; though it may bless
the earth with a tenfold blessing that they will not forget to bless God
with a hundred fold.
Three cheers for this great Emancipator.
And while he may sleep yonder, forgotten may be by some, his name has a
green spot in my heart and shall ever keep green while on this side I
stay.
And there is another one who sleeps yonder whom I shall not forget and
that is Father John Brown, whose ashes are as dear to me as the apple of
mine eye; and how can I forget him after four years of study at the dear
old place where he was taken from and hanged, because he saw the wrath
of God upon the nation and came forth to save his people.
Another one who will ever be shining bright in the hearts and minds of
the whole negro race, and what shall I say of him who led us to the
greatest victory the world has ever known--Ulysses S. Grant, the loved
of all nations and the pride of all lands; he whom the world admires, to
call the blessed, who mourned for this land to see the end, and God did
help him in ways that man knew not, save himself and his God.
And there is another dear one that God will help me to remember with all
of the love and gratitude, and it makes me feel sad as I have to speak
of her once more and it may be that I shall have to speak of her many
times, as she was the one that brought me on to this lovely city, and
that is my mother, who has gone to that land of song where there is no
more of sickness or sorrow and where God will dry every tear.
There is another I remember and that is Father Charles Sumner, who for
years wrote and also fought and spoke, as never man spoke, for the race
and the Civil Rights Bill, that it might not die, but it should be a
rock for the defence of the race.
And there is another that I shall not leave out of this book, for if I
did the book would be incomplete, and that is Frederick Douglass, the
greatest of men among the negro race of this country or of any land on
the globe. He wrote and spoke and went all over to try to do all he
could for his race, and who could forget such men as these? I would say
in true lines, may the earth fail to move sooner than I forget those
noble lives. Honored be their memories and honored be their ashes, for
their lives shall live in the memories of all coming generations and
their ashes will make rich the soil whereon they lie.
May God give us some more of such men as these for they are few, and we
need so many now to go forth and speak the truth.
And there is dear Doctor David Moore, that my pen, I fear, would fail to
move, if I did not do him honor. He was beloved and honored to the last
day of his stay in the Washington Avenue Baptist Church, and it was on
account of sickness that he had to leave this city and go up in the
northern part of this State that he might be able to preach the Word,
and God did make him well after he had left Brooklyn; and his work has
been crowned with great success.
God did use him in this city to His own glory in saving men, women and
children from the very door of sin and the dread of the life which is to
come. And may the God of Heaven and the Ruler of this earth be with him
as he comes near the Jordan to make its waters calm, and enter in the
gate and hear the blessed "Well done, good and faithful servant, enter
thou in the joys of thy Lord."
J. D. Fulton is one that will have one of the highest places at God's
right hand, for he started out to look after the Ethiopian's rights when
he was only seventeen years of age. What can be said of a long life like
his, that has written and traveled and spoke to such large crowds of
hearers in the interest of the race which I represent. How I have seen
those silvery locks fly as his warm heart melted to tears as he pleaded
for the down-trodden of the Ethiopians; and if God has ever heard a
prayer I know that He hears the prayer of this dear good man, for I have
seen the answer come in mighty power, in many ways, to the saving of
precious souls, and the way that he wrote about the negro in this
country and its problem.
He was called to the Hanson Place Church to preach and he worked hard,
with God's help, and improved the church and many were brought to the
Saviour through the Word, such as the Lord will own and bless at the
last day.
Doctor Fulton is one of the best men on this broad earth to love and
labor for humanity and I do not think that my race, the noble
Ethiopians, should ever forget him as long as God shall spare his life.
When the time shall come when the dear blessed one shall be called to
the world above, and that active form is stilled in death and when that
silvery voice is no longer heard in the defence of the down-trodden
Ethiopians and the oppressed of any land, that he will hear the "Well
done, good and faithful servant, enter thou into the joy of thy Lord."
And to think of one who has written so long never more to wield the pen
in the cause of the church and God's children is a sad thought to the
writer, for she has loved him as a father and he shall ever have a green
spot in my heart for I shall never forget his kind words to me in my
lonely hours.
Dr. J. D. Fulton's first wife was one of the loveliest women that ever
lived, for I have been to their house to dine with the family and I
found that Mrs. Sarah Fulton and family were the same that they were in
the church. There was the sweetest home that I ever saw in all my life,
for the father and the mother were all love, and then take Miss Jennie,
the eldest child, and she was a lovely girl, and there was Miss Nellie,
another lovely girl, and Sadie, the youngest girl, and she was her
father all the way, and the boy Justin, who came to the family while I
was away. I think he has a large heart like his dear father, and I do
know that if he only is a good man like his father God will own and
bless him.
Dr. Fulton's second wife, Aunt Laura, was a lovely woman, for we all
learned to love her when her first husband was living.
Miss L. A. Pousland was one of the best ladies I have seen in this city,
for it was from her house that I went to the Wayland Seminary in 1875,
and to her love I owe a love of gratitude, and to all that may come to
me as worldly goods I shall always think of Miss L. A. Pousland and of
her love to me when I was getting ready for school and the letters full
of love to me all the time while I was prosecuting my studies. Oh, how
she longed to see me out in the world doing my Master's will and helping
to teach, for she is a Boston lady, and they are a learned people and
like to see all others learn, and that is the way, like the old Pilgrim
Fathers were, that there should be a grand common level for all after
them.
To my story of child in House's family:
This Mr. John House had the largest sum offered to him for a girl as I
was that was ever offered for any one and he would not accept the whole
world of money, on account of the one that had loved me and cared for
me, for he well knew that after all of those prayers that he would be
sinning; and he would not have had my mother sold away from her
children if his brother would have let him know it in time. He went away
to attend court and to his surprise found that my mother was sold. He
came home at once to let us know of it, and he was the one that called
in my sister Frances and sister Annie and sister Rosa, for the two
oldest that I speak of fell to a dead brother who had drank himself to
death, and these were sold to pay for his drink. He had been dead for
some time and those that he owed now came in to get their pay, which was
their only chance; and the money that they got did not do them much
good, thanks to God, for it was in the time of the war and the money was
of the Confederate money, and it was during the great struggle when this
money was called in never more to be the money of these United States,
for this Union needs the kind of money that will be good in all lands,
and I am glad that the people can see it now as they never saw it
before.