XVIII

There are times and seasons which seem to be full of happenings,

followed by long stretches that have only the character of transition

from the former stage to something that is to come. Weeks and months

fly by us; we do not realize that they are here before they are gone,

there is so little to mark any day from its fellow. Yet we lay too

much stress on the power of separate and peculiar events to shape the

current of our lives, and do not take into account that drama which

never ceases to be acted, which knows no pause nor interim, and which

takes place within ourselves.

It was April once more before Dosia Linden came North again, after

extending months, in no day of which had her stay seemed anything but

temporary--a condition to be ended next week or the week after at

farthest. Her father's illness turned out to be a lingering one,

taking every last ounce of strength from his wife and his daughter;

and after his death the little stepmother had collapsed for a while,

with only Dosia to take the helm. Dosia had worked early and late,

nursing, looking after the children, cooking, sewing, and later on,

when sickness and death had taken nearly all the means of livelihood,

trying to earn money for the immediate needs by teaching the scales to

some of the temporary tribe at the hotel--an existence in which self

was submerged in loving care for those who clung to her; and to cling

to Dosia was always to receive from her. Sleep was the goal of the

day, and too much of a luxury to have any of its precious moments

wasted in wakeful dreaming; besides, there was nothing to dream about

any more. As she crept into her low bed, she turned away from the

moonlight, because there are times, when one is young, when moonlight

is very hard to bear.

The little family, bewildered and exhausted, had come to the end of

its resources, when Mrs. Linden's brother in San Francisco offered her

and her children a home with him--an offer which, naturally, did not

include Dosia. She was very glad for them, but, after all, though she

had worked so hard for them, they were not to belong to her for her

very own. The aunt whose generosity had given her the money for her

musical education had also died, leaving a small sum in trust for the

girl. It was that which furnished her with means when she went once

more to stay at the Alexanders'. Justin himself had written to see if

she could come.

There was another baby now, a couple of months old, and Lois needed

her. No fairy-story maiden this, going out to seek her fortune, who

took an uneventful train journey this time--only a very tired girl,

worn with work and worn with the sorrow of parting, yet thankful to

lean her head against the back of the car-seat and feel the burden of

anxiety and care slip from her for a little while.

Hard work alone is not ennobling, but drudgery for those whom we love

may have its uplifting trend. Dosia was pale and thin; the blue veins

on her temples showed more plainly. Her face was no longer the typical

white page, unwritten upon; that first freshness of youth and

inexperience had gone. Dosia had lived. Young as she was, she had

tasted of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil; she had known

suffering; she had faced shame and disappointment and--truth; yes,

through everything she had faced that--taken herself to account,

probed, condemned, renounced. What she had lost in youthfulness she

had gained in character. She had an innocent nobility of expression

that came from a light within, as of one ready to answer unwaveringly

wherever she might be called. Yet something in her soft eyes at times

trembled into being, indescribably gentle, intolerably sweet--the soul

of that Dosia who was made to be loved.

[Illustration: "MRS. LEVERICH BOWED INCIDENTALLY"]

If she had changed since that first journeying a year and a half ago,

so had the conditions changed in the household to which she went.

Justin had had the not unusual experience of the business man who has

achieved what he has set out to achieve without the expected result;

in the silting-pan which holds success some of the gold mysteriously

drops through. The Typometer Company was doing a very large business,

quadrupled since the day of its inception. The building was hardly big

enough now to hold the offices and manufacturing plant; the force had

been greatly increased, and an additional floor for storage had been

hired next door. The typometer had absorbed the output of two small

rival companies, one out West and one in a neighboring town--both

glad, in view of a losing game, to make terms with the successful

arbiter. Where one person used a typometer three years ago, it was in

request by fifty people now, for many things--for many more, indeed,

than had been thought of at first; every week plans in special

adjustments were made to fit the machine for different purposes. It

was undoubtedly not only a success in itself, but was destined to fit

into more and more of the needs of the working world as a standard

product.

Orders came in from all parts of the globe. Justin, as he hurried over

to his office or held important consultations with the men who wanted

to see him, was awarded the respect given to the head of a large and

successful concern. He was marked as a rising man. Yet, in spite of

all this real accomplishment of the Typometer Company, the net profits

had always fallen short of the mark set for them; the company was in

constant and growing need of money.

Prices of everything to do with manufacturing had increased--prices of

copper and steel, of machinery, of wages, in addition to the larger

number of hands employed, and the rent of the additional floor. It was

always necessary for one's peace of mind to go back to the value of

the material stock and the assets to be counted on in the future. The

steady branching out of the business in every direction was proof of

the fact that if it did not it must retrench; and to retrench meant

fewer orders, fewer opportunities--financial suicide.

It was the powerful shibboleth of the world of trade that one must be

seen to be doing business; only so could the doors of credit be

opened. If Cater came in with him now, as seemed at last to be

expected, the doors must open farther. No matter how one tries to see

all around the consequences of any change, any undertaking, there

always arise minor consequences which from their very nature must be

unforeseen, and yet which may turn out to be the really powerful

factors in the main issue; unimportant genii that, let out of their

bottle, swell immeasurably. The consequences of the fire, small as it

was, seemed never-ending. The defective bars had proved a disastrous

supply for the machine, in more ways than one.

Left by the Leverich-Martin combination to work his own retrieval, he

had borrowed the ten thousand from Lewiston, and had used part of the

money to pay the interest to the others; and later, in the flush of

reinstatement, he had borrowed another ten thousand from Leverich, a

loan to be called by him at any time. Lewiston's loan had seemed easy

of repayment at six months. Justin knew when the money was coming in,

but he had been obliged, after all, to anticipate, and get his bills

discounted before they came due for other purposes, often paying huge

tribute for the service. Lewiston had renewed the note for sixty days,

and then for sixty more, but with the proviso that this was the last

extension.

In short, the whole process of competently keeping afloat had been

gone through, with a definite aim of accomplishment. Cater's

cooperation, about which he had been so slow, would infuse new blood

into the business. It was maddening at times to have so many good uses

for money, and to be unable to command it at the crucial moment. He

had approached Eugene Larue on that past Sunday afternoon, only to

find him cautiously negative where once he had seemed friendlily

suggesting.

Such a process, to be successful, depends on the power of the man

behind it, which must not only comprehend and direct the larger

issues, but must be able to carry along smoothly all the easily

entangling threads of detail; he must not only have a capable brain,

but he must have the untiring nervous energy that can "hold out"

through any crisis. Such men may go to pieces after incredible effort,

but they are on the way to success first. Danger only quickens the

sure leap to safety.

[Illustration: "WITH EYES FOR NOBODY ELSE"]

Justin, preëminently clear-headed, had been conscious lately of two

phases--one an almost preternatural illumination of intellect, and the

other a sort of brain-inertia, more soul-and body-fatiguing than any

pain. There were seasons when he was obliged to think when he could

instead of when he would. He looked grave, alert, competent, but

underneath this demeanor there went an unceasing effort of computation

and reckoning to which the computation and reckoning on the first

night of his agreement with Leverich was as a child's play with toy

bricks is to the building of an edifice of stone.

[Illustration: "FLOWERS AND CHILDREN--CHILDREN AND FLOWERS!"]

The large business responsibilities now incurred clashed grotesquely

with the daily need of money at home for petty uses, a condition of

affairs which often happens at the birth of a child, when the

household is at loose ends, and the expenses are necessarily greater

in every direction, at the time when it seems most imperative to limit

them. He seemed never to have enough "change" in his pockets, no

matter how much he brought home.

[Illustration: "'THE LITTLE SPIDER WON'T HURT YOU'"]

In some men the business faculties become more and more self-sufficing

when there is no other passion to divide them--the nature grows all

one way; and there are others who seem independent, yet who are always

as dependent as children on the unnoticed, sustaining help of

affectionate love that makes the home a refuge from the provoking of

all men; that unreasonably, and at all times, hotly champions the

cause of the beloved against the world. No help-giving virtue had gone

out from this household in the last year; it had all been a dead lift.

Justin had never spoken of his affairs to Lois since that Sunday when

she had said that she hated them. When she had asked for money, she

had always added the proviso, "if he could afford it," and accepted

the fact either way without comment. He was, as time went on, more and

more affectionately solicitous for her welfare, even if he was, as she

keenly felt, less personally loving.

If she went to bed early in the evening, he took that opportunity to

go out; and if she stayed up, he remained at home and went to sleep on

the lounge, and the little touch that binds divergence with the inner

thread of sympathy was lacking.

Yet, strange as it might seem, while she consciously suffered far the

most, his loss was mysteriously the greater; the fire of love of which

she was by right high priestess still burned secretly for her tending

as she covered over the embers on the hearthstone, though he was cold

and chill for lack of that vital warmth.

There were moments when she felt that she could die gladly for him,

but always for that glory of self-triumphing in the end. Then that

which seemed as if it could never change began to change.

Before the child was born, and now since that, there was a difference.

Men and women who suffer most from imaginary wrongs may become sane

and heroic in times of real danger. Lois, noble, sweet, and brave,

thoughtful for Zaidee and Redge and Justin even while she trembled,

excited reverence and a deep and anxious tenderness in her husband.

Then, afterward, he was proud of his second son. When Justin came in

at the end of each day and sat down by her bedside, holding her

blue-veined hand while she smiled peacefully at him, there was a

sweet, sufficing pleasure about those few minutes, singularly

soothing, though the interim had no relation to actual living, except

in the fact that one anxiety had been lifted. While the expectant

birth of the child had been to her, as it is to almost every woman, a

separate and distinct calamitous illness to which she looked forward

as one might look forward to being taken with typhoid or diphtheria,

he considered it as a manifestation of nature, not in itself

dangerous, and her fear that of a child, to be soothed by reason.

Still, he had had his moments of a reluctant, twinging fear. One cause

for disquieting thought was removed. Now the helplessness of this

little family, for whom he was the provider, tugged at a swelling

heart.

As he walked toward his office to-day somewhat later than was his

wont, he diverged from his usual custom: instead of entering his own

doorway, he went across the street to Cater's after a moment's

hesitation. Now that Cater's coöperation was at the consummating

point, it was wiser not to run the risk of its sagging back. Leverich

and Martin were keenly for its success. Justin's credit would rise

immeasurably with it. The Typometer Company had absorbed the minor

machines with so little trouble that the unabsorbability of the

timoscript had seemed an unnecessary stumbling-block. Time and time

again Justin had sought Cater with tabulated figures and unanswerable

arguments. The combination, he firmly believed, would be highly

beneficial for both. The field was, in its way, too narrow to be

divided with the highest profit; together they could command the

trade.

[Illustration: "'NEVER LET HIM COME HERE AGAIN--NEVER, NEVER!'"]

Cater was opposed to all combinations as trusts,--a word against which

he was principled,--with obstinate refusal to differentiate as to

kind, quality, or intent. Like many men who are given to a far-seeing

philosophy in words, he was narrow-mindedly cautious when it came to

action, apt to be suspicious in the wrong place, and requiring to be

continually reassured about conditions which seemed the very a-b-c of

commerce. The rivalry between the two firms had been apparently

good-natured, yet a little of the sharp edge of competition had shown

signs of cutting through the bond.

The typometer had put its prices down, and the timoscript had cut

under; then the typometer had gone as low as was wise, and the

timoscript had begun to weaken in its defenses.

Cater was already at work at a big desk as Justin entered, but rose to

shake hands. There was a look of melancholy in his eyes, in spite of

his smile of greeting.

"Anything wrong with you?" asked Justin, instinctively noticing the

look rather than the smile.

"No," said Cater. He hooked his legs under his chair, and leaned back,

the light from the high unshaded window striking full on his lean

yellow countenance. "No, there's nothing wrong. Got some things off my

mind, things that have been bothering me for a long time, and I reckon

I don't feel quite easy without 'em."

"I think you're very lucky," said Justin. The light from the high

window fell on his face, too--on his brown hair, turning a little gray

at the temples, on the set lines of his face, in which his eyes, keen

and blue, looked intently at his friend. He was well dressed; the foot

that was crossed over his knee was excellently shod.

Cater shifted a little in his seat. "Well, I don't know. My experience

is some different from the usual run, I reckon. I never had any big

streak of luck that it didn't get back at me afterwards. There was my

marriage--I know it ain't the thing to talk about your marriage, but

you do sometimes. My wife's a fine woman,--yes, sir, I was mighty

lucky to get her,--but I didn't know how to live up to her family.

It's been that-a-way all my life. Sure's I get to ringin' the bells,

the floorin' caves in under me."

"We'll see that the flooring holds, now that you're coming in with

us," said Justin good-naturedly. "I've got some propositions to put up

to you to-day."

Cater shook his head. "There's no use of your putting up any

propositions. I've been drawin' on my well of thought so hard lately

that I reckon you could hear the pumps workin' plumb across the

street. I've been cipherin' down to the fact that I can't go it alone,

any more'n you,--there we agree; hold on, now!--but I can't combine."

"You can't!" cried Justin, with unusual violence. "Why not?"

"Well, you know my feelin's about trusts, and--I like you, Mr.

Alexander, you know that, mighty well, but I balk at your backin'. I

don't believe in it. It'll fail when you count on it most. It'll cramp

on you merciless if you come short of its expectations. Leverich isn't

so bad, but Martin cramps a hold of him, and I can't stand Martin

havin' a finger in any concern _I_ have a hold of."

"He's clever enough to make what he touches pay," said Justin.

Cater's eyebrows contracted. "You say he's clever; because he's

tricky--because he's sharp. He isn't clever enough to make money

honestly; he isn't big enough. You and me, we're honest, or try to be;

but we haven't the brain to give every man his just due, and get

ahead, too. It's the greatest game there is, but you got to be a

genius to play it. You and me, we can't do it; we ain't got the brain

and we ain't got the nerve. _I_ haven't. You've just everlastingly got

to do the best for yourself if you've got a family; the best _as_ you

see it."

"What's all this leading up to? What change have you been making,

Cater?" asked Justin, with stern abruptness.

"I've given the agency of the machine to Hardanger."

"Hardanger!" Justin's face flushed momentarily, then became set and

expressionless. To stand out on abstract questions of honor, and then

tacitly break all faith by going in with Hardanger!

"I shut down on part of my plant when I began figuring on this

change," continued Cater. "I've been getting the steel fittin's on

contract from Beuschoten again, as I did at first; it'll come cheaper

in the end. Gives us a pretty big stock to start off with. I was

sorry--I was sorry to have to turn off a dozen men, but what you going

to do? I've got to cut down on the manufacturing as close as I can

now."

"I suppose so."

"I wanted to tell you the first one," said Cater.

"Well, I congratulate you," said Justin formally, rising.

"This isn't going to make any difference in the friendship between me

and you, Mr. Alexander? I've thought a powerful lot of your

friendship. If I'd 'a' seen any way to have come in with you, I'd 'a'

done it. But business ain't going to interfere between two such good

friends as we are!"

"Why, no," said Justin, with the conventional answer to an appeal

which still pitifully claims for truth that which it has made false.

The handshake that followed was one in which all their friendship

seemed to dissolve and change its character, hardening into ice.

_Hardanger!_

Hardanger & Company represented one of the greatest factors in the

trade of two hemispheres. To say that a thing was taken up by

Hardanger meant its success. They took nothing that was not likely to

succeed; they _made_ it succeed--for them. Their agents in all parts

of the known world had easy access to firms and to opportunities hard

to be reached by those of lesser credit. Their reputation was

unassailed; they kept scrupulously to the terms agreed upon. The only

bar to putting an article into their hands was the fact that their

terms--except in the case of certain standard articles which they were

obliged to have--embraced nearly all the profits, only the very

narrowest margins coming to the original owners. Everything had to be

figured down, and still further and further down, by those owners, to

make that margin possible. It was cutthroat all the way through--a

policy that made for the rottenness of trade.

Justin and Leverich had once made tentative investigations as to

Hardanger, with the conclusion that there was far more money outside,

even if one must go a little more slowly. It was better to go a little

more slowly, for the sake of getting so much more out of it in the

end. Hardanger was to be kept as a last resort, if everything else

failed. Cater had expressed himself as feeling the same way; that was

the understanding between them. But now? Backed by this powerful

agency, the timoscript assumed disquieting proportions. In the

distance, a time not so very far distant either, Justin could see

himself squeezed to the wall, the output of his factory bought up by

Hardanger for the price of old iron--forced into it, whether he would

or no. Why had he been so short-sighted? Why hadn't he made terms

himself sooner? But Cater had been a fool to give in to those terms

when, by combining, they could have swung trade between them to their

own measure. Then Hardanger might have been obliged to seek _them_, to

take their price!--Hardanger, who could afford to laugh at his

pretensions now!

He thought of Cater without malice--with, instead, a shrewd, kind

philosophy, a sad, clear-visioned impulse of pity mixed with his

wonder. So that was the way a man was caught stumbling between the

meshes, blinded, dulled, unconsciously maimed of honor, while still

feeling himself erect and honest-eyed! There had been no written

agreement between them that either should consult the other before

seeking Hardanger; but some promises should be all the stronger for

not being written.

This thing _couldn't_ happen; in some way, he must get his foot inside

the door, so that it couldn't shut on him. There was that note of

Lewiston's, due in thirty days--no, twenty-five now. What about that?

Later in the day, after he had been seeing drayful after drayful of

boxes leave the factory opposite, Bullen, the foreman, came into the

office with some estimates, pointing out the figures with a small

strip of steel tubing held absently in his fingers.

While the clerks were all deferential, and those of foreign birth

obsequious, Bullen had an air that was more than sturdily

independent--the air and the eye of the skilled mechanic. On his own

ground he was master, and Justin, with a smile, deferred to him. But

Justin broke into Bullen's calculations abruptly, after a while, to

ask:

"What's that you've got there? It looks like one of those bars that

nearly smashed us."

"You've got a good eye, sir," said Bullen approvingly. "A year and a

half ago you'd not have seen any difference between one bit of steel

and another. But there's one thing I didn't see about it myself until

Venly--he's a new man we've taken on--pointed it out to me. He came

across a case of these to-day we'd thrown out in the waste-heap. We

thought our machine had jarred them out of shape, because they were a

fraction off size; well, so they were. But Venly he spotted them in a

minute, when he was out there, and he asked me if they weren't from

the Beuschoten factory--he was turned off from there last week;

they're cutting down the force; they always do, come spring. He said

they looked like part of a bum lot that had flaws in them. He got the

magnifying-glass and showed me, and, sure enough, 'twas right he was!

He says they've got piles of them they've been workin' off on the

trade at a cut price. Venly he said he didn't have any stomach for a

skin game like that."

"That's a pretty ruinous way to do business, isn't it?" asked Justin.

"Oh, they're going to sell out in July, so they don't care. I pity any

one that's counting on any sort of machine that's got these in 'em.

Would you take the glass and look for yourself, sir? Every one of 'em

is flawed!"

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