CHAPTER XII--ON THE ROAD HOME

When Leonard Everard parted from Stephen he did so with a feeling of

dissatisfaction: firstly, with Stephen; secondly, with things in general;

thirdly, with himself. The first was definite, concrete, and immediate;

he could give himself chapter and verse for all the girl's misdoing.

Everything she had said or done had touched some nerve painfully, or had

offended his feelings; and to a man of his temperament his feelings are

very sacred things, to himself.

'Why had she put him in such a ridiculous position? That was the worst

of women. They were always wanting him to do something he didn't want to

do, or crying . . . there was that girl at Oxford.'

Here he turned his head slowly, and looked round in a furtive way, which

was getting almost a habit with him. 'A fellow should go away so that he

wouldn't have to swear lies. Women were always wanting money; or worse:

to be married! Confound women; they all seemed to want him to marry

them! There was the Oxford girl, and then the Spaniard, and now

Stephen!' This put his thoughts in a new channel. He wanted money

himself. Why, Stephen had spoken of it herself; had offered to pay his

debts. Gad! it was a good idea that every one round the countryside

seemed to know his affairs. What a flat he had been not to accept her

offer then and there before matters had gone further. Stephen had lots

of money, more than any girl could want. But she didn't give him time to

get the thing fixed . . . If he had only known beforehand what she wanted

he could have come prepared . . . that was the way with women! Always

thinking of themselves! And now? Of course she wouldn't stump up after

his refusing her. What would his father say if he came to hear of it?

And he must speak to him soon, for these chaps were threatening to County

Court him if he didn't pay. Those harpies in Vere Street were quite

nasty . . . ' He wondered if he could work Stephen for a loan.

He walked on through the woodland path, his pace slower than before. 'How

pretty she had looked!' Here he touched his little moustache. 'Gad!

Stephen was a fine girl anyhow! If it wasn't for all that red hair . . .

I like 'em dark better! . . . And her being such an infernal boss!'. . .

Then he said unconsciously aloud:

'If I was her husband I'd keep her to rights!'

Poor Stephen!

'So that's what the governor meant by telling me that fortune was to be

had, and had easily, if a man wasn't a blind fool. The governor is a

starchy old party. He wouldn't speak out straight and say, "Here's

Stephen Norman, the richest girl you are ever likely to meet; why don't

you make up to her and marry her?" But that would be encouraging his son

to be a fortune-hunter! Rot! . . . And now, just because she didn't tell

me what she wanted to speak about, or the governor didn't give me a hint

so that I might be prepared, I have gone and thrown away the chance.

After all it mightn't be so bad. Stephen is a fine girl! . . . But she

mustn't ever look at me as she did when I spoke about her not obeying. I

mean to be master in my own house anyhow!

'A man mustn't be tied down too tight, even if he is married. And if

there's plenty of loose cash about it isn't hard to cover up your tracks

. . . I think I'd better think this thing over calmly and be ready when

Stephen comes at me again. That's the way with women. When a woman like

Stephen fixes her cold grey on a man she does not mean to go asleep over

it. I daresay my best plan will be to sit tight, and let her work

herself up a bit. There's nothing like a little wholesome neglect for

bringing a girl to her bearings!' . . .

For a while he walked on in satisfied self-complacency.

'Confound her! why couldn't she have let me know that she was fond of me

in some decent way, without all that formal theatrical proposing? It's a

deuced annoying thing in the long run the way the women get fond of me.

Though it's nice enough in some ways while it lasts!' he added, as if in

unwilling recognition of fact. As the path debouched on the highroad he

said to himself half aloud:

'Well, she's a mighty fine girl, anyhow! And if she is red I've had

about enough of the black! . . . That Spanish girl is beginning to kick

too! I wish I had never come across . . . '

'Shut up, you fool!' he said to himself as he walked on.

When he got home he found a letter from his father. He took it to his

room before breaking the seal. It was at least concise and to the point:

'The enclosed has been sent to me. You will have to deal with it

yourself. You know my opinion and also my intention. The items

which I have marked have been incurred since I spoke to you last about

your debts. I shall not pay another farthing for you. So take your

own course!

'JASPER EVERARD.'

The enclosed was a jeweller's bill, the length and the total of which

lengthened his face and drew from him a low whistle. He held it in his

hand for a long time, standing quite still and silent. Then drawing a

deep breath he said aloud:

'That settles it! The halter is on me! It's no use squealing. If it's

to be a red head on my pillow! . . . All right! I must only make the

best of it. Anyhow I'll have a good time to-day, even if it must be the

last!'

That day Harold was in Norcester on business. It was late when he went

to the club to dine. Whilst waiting for dinner he met Leonard Everard,

flushed and somewhat at uncertain in his speech. It was something of a

shock to Harold to see him in such a state.

Leonard was, however, an old friend, and man is as a rule faithful to

friends in this form of distress. So in his kindly feeling Harold

offered to drive him home, for he knew that he could thus keep him out of

further harm. Leonard thanked him in uncertain speech, and said he would

be ready. In the meantime he would go and play billiards with the marker

whilst Harold was having his dinner.

At ten o'clock Harold's dogcart was ready and he went to look for

Leonard, who had not since come near him. He found him half asleep in

the smoking-room, much drunker than he had been earlier in the evening.

The drive was fairly long, so Harold made up his mind for a prolonged

term of uneasiness and anxiety. The cool night-air, whose effect was

increased by the rapid motion, soon increased Leonard's somnolence and

for a while he slept soundly, his companion watching carefully lest he

should sway over and fall out of the trap. He even held him up as they

swung round sharp corners.

After a time he woke up, and woke in a nasty temper. He began to find

fault in an incoherent way with everything. Harold said little, just

enough to prevent any cause for further grievance. Then Leonard changed

and became affectionate. This mood was a greater bore than the other,

but Harold managed to bear it with stolid indifference. Leonard was this

by time making promises to do things for him, that as he was what he

called a 'goo' fell',' he might count on his help and support in the

future. As Harold knew him to be a wastrel, over head and ears in debt

and with only the succession to a small estate, he did not take much heed

to his maunderings. At last the drunken man said something which

startled him so much that he instinctively drew himself together with

such suddenness as to frighten the horse and almost make him rear up

straight.

'Woa! Woa! Steady, boy. Gently!' he said, quieting him. Then turning

to his companion said in a voice hollow with emotion and vibrant with

suppressed passion:

'What was it you said?'

Leonard, half awake, and not half of that half master of himself,

answered:

'I said I will make you agent of Normanstand when I marry Stephen.'

Harold grew cold. To hear of any one marrying Stephen was to him like

plunging him in a glacier stream; but to hear her name so lightly spoken,

and by such a man, was a bewildering shock which within a second set his

blood on fire.

'What do you mean?' he thundered. 'You marry Ste . . . Miss Norman!

You're not worthy to untie her shoe! You indeed! She wouldn't look on

the same side of the street with a drunken brute like you! How dare you

speak of her in such a way!'

'Brute!' said Leonard angrily, his vanity reaching inward to heart and

brain through all the numbing obstacle of his drunken flesh. 'Who's

brute? Brute yourself! Tell you goin' to marry Stephen, 'cos Stephen

wants it. Stephen loves me. Loves me with all her red head! Wha're you

doin'! Wha!!'

His words merged in a lessening gurgle, for Harold had now got him by the

throat.

'Take care what you say about that lady! damn you!' he said, putting his

face close the other's with eyes that blazed. 'Don't you dare to mention

her name in such a way, or you will regret it longer than you can think.

Loves you, you swine!'

The struggle and the fierce grip on his throat sobered Leonard somewhat.

Momentarily sobbed him to that point when he could be coherent and

vindictive, though not to the point where he could think ahead. Caution,

wisdom, discretion, taste, were not for him at such a moment. Guarding

his throat with both hands in an instinctive and spasmodic manner he

answered the challenge:

'Who are you calling swine? I tell you she loves me. She ought to know.

Didn't she tell me so this very day!' Harold drew back his arm to strike

him in the face, his anger too great for words. But the other, seeing

the motion and in the sobering recognition of danger, spoke hastily:

'Keep your hair on! You know so jolly much more than I do. I tell you

that she told me this and a lot more this morning when she asked me to

marry her.'

Harold's heart grew cold as ice. There is something in the sound of a

voice speaking truthfully which a true man can recognise. Through all

Leonard's half-drunken utterings came such a ring of truth; and Harold

recognised it. He felt that his voice was weak and hollow as he spoke,

thinking it necessary to give at first a sort of official denial to such

a monstrous statement:

'Liar!'

'I'm no liar!' answered Leonard. He would like to have struck him in

answer to such a word had he felt equal to it. 'She asked me to marry

her to-day on the hill above the house, where I went to meet her by

appointment. Here! I'll prove it to you. Read this!' Whilst he was

speaking he had opened the greatcoat and was fumbling in the

breast-pocket of his coat. He produced a letter which he handed to

Harold, who took it with trembling hand. By this time the reins had

fallen slack and the horse was walking quietly. There was moonlight, but

not enough to read by. Harold bent over and lifted the driving-lamp next

to him and turned it so that he could read the envelope. He could hardly

keep either lamp or paper still, his hand trembled so when he saw that

the direction was in Stephen's handwriting. He was handing it back when

Leonard said again:

'Open it! Read it! You must do so; I tell you, you must! You called me

a liar, and now must read the proof that I am not. If you don't I shall

have to ask Stephen to make you!' Before Harold's mind flashed a rapid

thought of what the girl might suffer in being asked to take part in such

a quarrel. He could not himself even act to the best advantage unless he

knew the truth . . . he took the letter from the envelope and held it

before the lamp, the paper fluttering as though in a breeze from the

trembling of his hand. Leonard looked on, the dull glare of his eyes

brightening with malignant pleasure as he beheld the other's concern. He

owed him a grudge, and by God he would pay it. Had he not been

struck--throttled--called a liar! . . .

As he read the words Harold's face cleared. 'Why, you infernal young

scoundrel!' he said angrily, 'that letter is nothing but a simple note

from a young girl to an old friend--playmate asking him to come to see

her about some trivial thing. And you construe it into a proposal of

marriage. You hound!' He held the letter whilst he spoke, heedless of

the outstretched hand of the other waiting to take it back. There was a

dangerous glitter in Leonard's eyes. He knew his man and he knew the

truth of what he had himself said, and he felt, with all the strength of

his base soul, how best he could torture him. In the very strength of

Harold's anger, in the poignancy of his concern, in the relief to his

soul expressed in his eyes and his voice, his antagonist realised the

jealousy of one who honours--and loves. Second by second Leonard grew

more sober, and more and better able to carry his own idea into act.

'Give me my letter!' he began.

'Wait!' said Harold as he put the lamp back into its socket. 'That will

do presently. Take back what you said just now!'

'What? Take back what?'

'That base lie; that Miss Norman asked you to marry her.'

Leonard felt that in a physical struggle for the possession of the letter

he would be outmatched; but his passion grew colder and more malignant,

and in a voice that cut like the hiss of a snake he spoke slowly and

deliberately. He was all sober now; the drunkenness of brain and blood

was lost, for the time, in the strength of his cold passion.

'It is true. By God it is true; every word of it! That letter, which

you want to steal, is only a proof that I went to meet her on Caester

Hill by her own appointment. When I got there, she was waiting for me.

She began to talk about a chalet there, and at first I didn't know what

she meant--'

There was such conviction, such a triumphant truth in his voice, that

Harold was convinced.

'Stop!' he thundered; 'stop, don't tell me anything. I don't want to

hear. I don't want to know.' He covered his face with his hands and

groaned. It was not as though the speaker were a stranger, in which case

he would have been by now well on in his death by strangulation; he had

known Leonard all his life, and he was a friend of Stephen's. And he was

speaking truth.

The baleful glitter of Leonard's eyes grew brighter still. He was as a

serpent when he goes to strike. In this wise he struck.

'I shall not stop. I shall go on and tell you all I choose. You have

called me liar--twice. You have also called me other names. Now you

shall hear the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. And if

you won't listen to me some one else will.' Harold groaned again;

Leonard's eyes brightened still more, and the evil smile on his face grew

broader as he began more and more to feel his power. He went on to speak

with a cold deliberate malignancy, but instinctively so sticking to

absolute truth that he could trust himself to hurt most. The other

listened, cold at heart and physically; his veins and arteries seemed

stagnant.

'I won't tell you anything of her pretty embarrassments; how her voice

fell as she pleaded; how she blushed and stammered. Why, even I, who am

used to women and their pretty ways and their passions and their

flushings and their stormy upbraidings, didn't quite know for a while

what she was driving at. So at last she spoke out pretty plainly, and

told me what a fond wife she'd make me if I would only take her!' Harold

said nothing; he only rocked a little as one in pain, and his hands fell.

The other went on:

'That is what happened this morning on Caester Hill under the trees where

I met Stephen Norman by her own appointment; honestly what happened. If

you don't believe me now you can ask Stephen. My Stephen!' he added in a

final burst of venom as in a gleam of moonlight through a rift in the

shadowy wood he saw the ghastly pallor of Harold's face. Then he added

abruptly as he held out his hand:

'Now give me my letter!'

In the last few seconds Harold had been thinking. And as he had been

thinking for the good, the safety, of Stephen, his thoughts flew swift

and true. This man's very tone, the openness of his malignity, the

underlying scorn when he spoke of her whom others worshipped, showed him

the danger--the terrible immediate danger in which she stood from such a

man. With the instinct of a mind working as truly for the woman he loved

as the needle does to the Pole he spoke quietly, throwing a sneer into

the tone so as to exasperate his companion--it was brain against brain

now, and for Stephen's sake:

'And of course you accepted. You naturally would!' The other fell into

the trap. He could not help giving an extra dig to his opponent by

proving him once more in the wrong.

'Oh no, I didn't! Stephen is a fine girl; but she wants taking down a

bit. She's too high and mighty just at present, and wants to boss a chap

too much. I mean to be master in my own house; and she's got to begin as

she will have to go on. I'll let her wait a bit: and then I'll yield by

degrees to her lovemaking. She's a fine girl, for all her red head; and

she won't be so bad after all!'

Harold listened, chilled into still and silent amazement. To hear

Stephen spoken of in such a way appalled him. She of all women! . . .

Leonard never knew how near sudden death he was, as he lay back in his

seat, his eyes getting dull again and his chin sinking. The drunkenness

which had been arrested by his passion was reasserting itself. Harold

saw his state in time and arrested his own movement to take him by the

throat and dash him to the ground. Even as he looked at him in scornful

hate, the cart gave a lurch and Leonard fell forward. Instinctively

Harold swept an arm round him and held him up. As he did so the

unconsciousness of arrested sleep came; Leonard's chin sank on his breast

and he breathed stertorously.

As he drove on, Harold's thoughts circled in a tumult. Vague ideas of

extreme measures which he ought to take flashed up and paled away.

Intention revolved upon itself till its weak side was exposed, and, it

was abandoned. He could not doubt the essential truth of Leonard's

statement regarding the proposal of marriage. He did not understand this

nor did he try to. His own love for the girl and the bitter awaking to

its futility made him so hopeless that in his own desolation all the

mystery of her doing and the cause of it was merged and lost.

His only aim and purpose now was her safety. One thing at least he could

do: by fair means or foul stop Leonard's mouth, so that others need not

know her shame! He groaned aloud as the thought came to him. Beyond

this first step he could do nothing, think of nothing as yet. And he

could not take this first step till Leonard had so far sobered that he

could understand.

And so waiting for that time to come, he drove on through the silent

night.

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