CHAPTER XXXIII

WE UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER

"You think my conclusions must be correct?" I could not refrain from

asking.

"Yes; even without seeing the letter, but," and she glanced up quickly,

"the ring--Philip's ring--we found?"

"I forgot to mention that. Its presence here alone is convincing. It

was sent to Charles Henley by his agent, who claimed to have removed it

from the finger of the dead man."

"Then every doubt is removed; the one killed was my hus--husband."

There was a long, painful silence, during which I stared out into the

dark, mechanically guiding the boat, although every thought centered on

her motionless figure. What should I say? how was I to approach her

now? Before there had always been a frank spirit of comradeship

between us; no reserve, no hesitancy in the exchange of confidences.

But with this assurance of Philip Henley's death, everything was

changed. I longed to go to her and pour out my sympathy, but some

instinct held me back, held me wordless. I knew not what to say, or

how any effort on my part would be received. Instantly there had been

a barrier erected between us which she alone could lower. Those were

long minutes I sat there, speechless, gazing straight ahead, my brain

inert, my hand hard on the tiller. Suddenly, with a swift thrill which

sent my blood leaping, I felt the soft touch of her fingers.

"Are you afraid to speak to me?" she asked, pleadingly. "Surely I have

said nothing to anger you."

"No, it is not that," I returned in confusion, not knowing how to

express the cause of my hesitancy. "I am sorry, and--and I sympathize

with you, but I hardly know how to explain."

She was looking at me through the darkness; I was able to distinguish

the white outline of her uplifted face.

"I am sorry--yes," very slowly, "but perhaps not as you suppose. It is

hard to think of him as dead--killed so suddenly, without opportunity

to think, or make any preparation. He--he was my husband under the

law. That was all; he was no more. I do not believe I ever loved

him--my marriage was but the adventure of a romantic girl; but if I

once did, his subsequent abuse of me, his life of dissipation,

obliterated long since every recollection of that love. He is to me

scarcely more than a name, an unhappy memory. I told you that frankly

when I believed him still alive. We were friends then, you and I, and

I cannot conceive why his death should sever our friendship."

"Nor has it," I interposed instantly. "It was not indifference which

silenced me. Rather it was the very strength of my feeling toward you.

I was fearful of saying too much, of being too precipitate."

"You imagine I would fail to value your friendship at such a time?"

"Don't," I burst forth impetuously; "you talk of friendship when all my

hope centers about another term. Surely you understand. I am a man

sorely tempted, and dare not yield to temptation."

She drew her hand away from my clasp, yet the very movement seemed to

express regret.

"You speak strangely."

"No, I do not; the words have been wrung from me. I am in no way

ashamed, although I realize this is neither the time nor the place.

Remember you have been under my protection ever since that night we met

first on the streets; you are alone here with me now, but still under

my protection. I cannot take advantage of your helpless condition,

your utter loneliness. If I did I should never again be worthy of the

name gentleman."

"I regret you should say this."

"No more than I do; the words have been wrung from me."

"And we are to be friends no longer? Is that your meaning?"

"You must answer that question," I replied gravely, "for it is beyond

my power to decide."

Her head was again uplifted, and I knew she was endeavoring to see my

face through the gloom. There was silence, the only sounds the slash

of the boat through the water, and the slight flapping of the canvas.

"I am a woman," she said at last, "and we like to pretend to

misunderstand, but I am not going to yield to that inclination. I do

understand, and will answer frankly. We can never be friends as we

were before."

My heart sank, and I felt a choke in my voice difficult to overcome.

"I was afraid it would be so."

"Yes," and both her hands were upon mine, "in our position we cannot

afford to play at cross purposes. You have been loyal to me, even when

every inducement was offered elsewhere. There was a moment when I

almost doubted, but it was only for a moment. Then I seemed to sense

your plan, your purpose, and from that time on I have trusted you more

completely than ever before. This is confessing a great deal, for it

is my nature to be reticent--I have always been hard to become

acquainted with."

"I have not found you so; I feel as though I had known you always."

"That comes from the peculiarity of our first meeting, the

unconventional manner in which we were brought together. I was not my

natural self that night, nor have I ever been able since to feel toward

you as I have in my relations with other men. Indeed I have been so

frank spoken, so careless of social forms, as to make you question in

your own mind my real womanhood."

"No; never that!" I protested.

"Oh, but you have," and she laughed softly, a faint trace of bitterness

in the sound. "You need not deny, for I have read the truth in your

face, yet without resentment. Why should you not, indeed? No man

would wish his sister to take the chances I have with an absolute

stranger. My only excuse is the seeming necessity, and the confidence

I felt in my own strength of character. I permitted myself to come

South with you, knowing your purpose to be an illegal one; I placed

myself in a false position. In doing this I was actuated by two

purposes; one was to save this property which had been willed to my

husband by his father. Do you guess the other?"

"No," I said, impressed by the earnestness with which she was speaking.

"You will tell me?"

"I mean to; the time has come when I should. It was that I might save

you from a crime. You had been kind to me, sympathetic; I--I liked you

very much, and I knew you did not understand; that you were being

misled. I could not determine then where the fraud was, but I knew

there was fraud, and that you would eventually become its victim."

"You cared that much for me?"

"Yes," she confessed frankly, "I did. I would never have told you so

under ordinary conditions. But I can now, here, where we are--alone

together in this boat." She paused, as though endeavoring to choose

the proper words. "We both realize the changed relations between us."

I drew a quick, startled breath.

"That--that I love you!" the exclamation left my lips before I was

aware.

"Yes," she said calmly. "I could not help that. At first I never

deemed such a result of our friendship possible. I was Philip Henley's

wife, and I gave this possible danger scarcely a thought. Indeed it

did not seem a danger. While it is true he was husband in name only,

yet I was wife forever. That is my religion. Now the conditions are

all changed, instantly changed by his death."

"You believe then he is dead?"

"I am as sure of it as though I had seen his body. I feel it to be

true." There was an instant of hesitation, while I waited

breathlessly. "Do you understand now why because of the fact we can no

longer remain friends?"

"Yes," I burst forth, "because you know how I have grown to feel toward

you; you--you resent--"

"Have I said so?"

"No, not in words; that was not necessary, but I understand."

"Do you, indeed?"

I stared toward her, puzzled, bewildered, yet conscious that the hot

blood was surging through my veins.

"You cannot mean the other?" I questioned, the swift words tripping

over themselves in sudden eagerness. "That--that you love me?"

"And why not? Am I so different from other women?"

I held the tiller still with one hand, but the other arm was free, and

I reached out, and drew her toward me. There was no resistance, no

effort to break away. I could see her face uplifted, the wide-open

eyes.

"Different! Yes; so vastly different, that I misunderstood everything.

But now I know, and--and sweetheart, I love you, I love you."

It could not have been long, not to exceed a moment or two, when a

sudden leaping of the boat brought us back to a realization of our

position. As soon as I had regained control of the craft, I reached

out again and touched her hand.

"This is all so strange, so unexpected, I can scarcely comprehend what

has occurred."

"Strange, yes, in the way it has happened," she coincided. "But we

cannot afford to dwell upon that now. We are in peril. Do you really

know where we are? for what you are steering?"

"It is largely a guess; there is nothing to give me guidance, except as

I unscrew the face of this compass and feel the needle."

"Then we may still be within view from the deck of the _Sea Gull_ at

daybreak?"

"Yes; that will depend entirely upon luck."

She turned away, and sat quiet, staring forward intently into the black

void.

"What time is it now?"

"Nearly three."

"In two hours it will be dawn."

"Yes."

I thought I could see her clasp her hands together; then suddenly lean

forward.

"Why, look there!" she exclaimed quickly. "See! to the right.

Merciful Heavens! it is a ship!"

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